prod by levisvi
mix and master by me

i dont need the lights
i dont need the frame
as long as i got you im good in the rain
heart beat fast like competing in a race
the world gets loud but I only see your face
your the smile when the world wears a frown
your my rise when im sinking down
every scar that i try to hide
it healed every part like we're in a fight

we've been through the nights that tested the flame
fell apart but came back again
you held my silence when I had no words
loved all the parts I thought no one deserved

people talk loud but they don't see like this
the kind of the love that I don't need to flex
you ride with me through the highs and lows
even when we crash you don't let me go

i dont need the lights
i dont need the frame
as long as i got you im good in the rain
heart beat fast like competing in a race
the world gets loud but I only see your face
your the smile when the world wears a frown
your my rise when im sinking down
every scar that i try to hide
it healed every part like we're in a fight

(song breakdown)

velvet

Hook
you said you wouldn’t leave, but you got no self control
you think you’re so important, I won’t miss you if you go
I know there’s something here, but you’re too afraid to feel it
use me just to heal, but you never would admit it
said you wouldn’t leave, but you never want to stay
don’t stand behind your words, I can’t trust a thing you say
I know there’s something here, but you’re too afraid to feel it
use me just to heal, but you never would admit it

Yung Van Verse
maybe I didn’t try enough
If I tried harder you would notice
I guess it don’t matter now
I’m no longer in your focus
I shouldn’t need you, I just can’t convince myself
I feel the need to be there when you need my help
Now I’m so numb I can’t feel a thing you say
I told you the truth, just to throw it in my face
I shouldn’t have stayed, you don’t care if I’m in pain
To you it’s just a game, I don’t trust a thing you say
You left me with trust issues
I feel ashamed when I miss you
You made me look like a fool
Thinking that I coulda been with you

Hook
you said you wouldn’t leave, but you got no self control
you think you’re so important, I won’t miss you if you go
I know there’s something here, but you’re too afraid to feel it
use me just to heal, but you never would admit it
said you wouldn’t leave, but you never want to stay
don’t stand behind your words, I can’t trust a thing you say
I know there’s something here, but you’re too afraid to feel it
use me just to heal, but you never would admit it

Vails Verse
Say you wanna leave but I know you wanna stay
I see it in your eyes, you don't know what to say
You pack your things slow, no direction, no hope
I'm really tired of the games, we keep hurting in this way

You're holding all your pain like I haven't had the same thing as you
I really miss on the connection but I guess that we're through
It cuts deep in my heart
Knowing our ties got fraid
The breaking was inevitable
You'd hope I'd stay
But it's impossible
I take credit
I won't let this continue
There I said it

Hook
you said you wouldn’t leave, but you got no self control
you think you’re so important, I won’t miss you if you go
I know there’s something here, but you’re too afraid to feel it
use me just to heal, but you never would admit it
said you wouldn’t leave, but you never want to stay
don’t stand behind your words, I can’t trust a thing you say
I know there’s something here, but you’re too afraid to feel it
use me just to heal, but you never would admit it

you said you wouldn't leave. (prod. cxrter & jolst)

We Can Leave the Party [prod. maysmusic]

. im stuck in this fucking acoustic/emo rap/slight hyperpop phase and i can't get out .

.i forgot to take my meds today.

lyrics

I feel like the dirt
I question my worth
I wear and I tear
My favorite shirt
I hope that I can
She thinks I’m the man
I’m letting her down and
I feel like the worst

No it ain’t safe to say yet
Hung up on yesterday its
Still in my head
I’m sorry 
Hate when I’m so mistaken
Trying to savor faces 
Hoping you don’t replace me
I can do better baby
I can do better maybe

Maybe heavens worth the tests
But fuck, this smith and wesson
Has a way for testing what is next
Swallow my breath
I put the world in my hands
I feel like a mess
But she swears I’m the man
I’m doing my best
At least as well as I can
I barely stand
The fucking shell that I am

The Man (prod. wraithontheporch)

when i close my eyes

prod. deadends

lyrics:
whyd it all go wrong
when i fell in love?
said you care you dont
i held on so long

whyd it all go wrong
when i fell in love?
said you care you dont
i held on so long

when you wear that necklace
do you think of me?
or did you throw it out
with the other things?
it only feels a year
but fuck, yeah, its been 3
genie, i only have one wish
i wish that she didnt leave

whyd it all go wrong
when i fell in love?
said you care you dont
i held on so long

whyd it all go wrong
when i fell in love?
said you care you dont
i held on so long

when you wear that necklace
do you think of me?
or did you throw it out
with the other things?
it only feels a year
but fuck, yeah, its been 3
genie, i only have one wish
i wish that she didnt leave

necklace

living like this w merlot (lostcage)

I drink too much when I’m feeling empty 
I do too much is this weight is heavy
And on my psyche, there’s too much envy
There’s too much hate, I think I’m going crazy

So what if it just ends in a blur and I don’t find enough words to fix this curse 
it’s done
My time on this earth? 
I think I had my fun
I had my fix. 
I think it’s time I’m done.
Been falling going too fast
I’m in a car with no brakes. 
It’s hard to relax.
I don’t wanna relapse everything is too fast
Tell me why
I can’t stay behind

Fuck

I drink too much when I’m feeling empty 
I do too much is this weight is heavy
And on my psyche, there’s too much envy
There’s too much hate, I think I’m going crazy

I do too much 
I tell you I don’t miss love
One more sniff my nose gives up
I don’t wanna feel this love
Fuck, I think I’m giving up
I could never get enough
Had my fix now I’m done
I don’t think this is the love you said it was

you said it was (NE'ERDOWELL)

prod. @wraithontheporch

cover art by @enyusroom

@mistralbtw

the alarm sounds
so jump ship quickly
with my arms bound
you’ll barely miss me

Guess I'm just seeking salvation
locked in lately
I invite isolation
don’t be gentle I can take it
all your efforts will be wasted

the way that she shakes my foundation
when she tells me
I'm the red in her painting
clutch your arms around my waist and
trace the cracks upon my plating
all my words become engravings
on the blade that I’ll be slain with
a savior in need of saving
just let me face it
I’ll be complacent

it’s over tho it never felt like it started
to rid me of all was to settle the bargain
go out with nothing, not even as martyrs
save your salutes for the dearly departed

settled down but I am shaking
shaking
shaking
settled down but I am shaking
shaking
shaking

@wraithwilldie

She’s holding tight, said to focus on breaths
Think I am but there’s nothing to do but compress
All my solutions are written in stitches
10 to the arm but who's counting the digits
Placed at the back of my very own value structure
I need to pause dear, I need to buffer
I need to think how to tell her I love her
I’m just a masochistic
Fucking misfit
You need space girl
I need distance
Give my all
And you give pittance
You’re indifferent
Like what’s the difference
I just need some clarity
I sit and wait on wisdom teeth
I break my back and bend to you
And you act like I never do at all

@mistralbtw

Guess I'm just seeking salvation
locked in lately
I invite isolation
don’t be gentle I can take it
all your efforts will be wasted

the way that she shakes my foundation
when she tells me
I'm the red in her painting
clutch your arms around my waist and
trace the cracks upon my plating
all my words become engravings
on the blade that I’ll be slain with
a savior in need of saving
(saving)
(saving)

engravings (wraithontheporch)

I'm sorry.

lyrics
-=-=-
I know that you’re upset
Stuck within our ways collecting damage
Grasping at our hearts just tryna manage
Hating one another for what has been
What happened
I’ve been feeling manic
Tearing at my hair it’s like I brandish
My own fucking hands oh what a complex
I can’t even stand the fucking image
Of my visage
I just wanna visit
Take a thousand steps towards the picture
Dying with regret cause I’m not quite sure
I wanna die here
You don’t have to fight fair
I know it’s unfair

when i close my eyes

wstdtime

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