Jan Blomqvist remixes Shervin Hajipour's song "Baraye"

Baraye Remix - Jan Blomqvist

Lately, I’ve been hurting.

It’s been hard for me to name the thing that gnaws at my heartstrings.

How do you heal when you can’t exactly identify what’s happening in your head?

That’s the thing with labels… We say that we are anti any kind of label but yet we run in circles trying to figure out what’s hurting us.

We lose ourselves trying to label it + name it instead of just feeling it.

Suffering is inevitable, and when it rises we are meant to go through it and not fly over or around it.

I decided to gather all of the emotions that were consuming me and take ownership of them.

I decided, “I am going to create the form of my emotions rather than my emotions take form of me.”

I laid in my bed and listened to a lecture called “The Art Of Dealing With Pain” by Alan Watts.

“When you study plants and you go into their relationships with each other and with insects… The fact the so-called diseases of plants are the full life of some other kind of organism having a ball. And you see this complexly inter-related world and you realize that it all hangs together.”

I closed my eyes and listened to one hour and thirty-three minutes of Watts.

I realized that If I let my focus wander towards the discomfort of the pain, that I will always be bonded to it.

Relief requires surrender.

Surrender your pain and understand that we may never understand.

I decided that I wanted a product from this pain. I needed to create in order to fly through it and not over it. I created this song + video. This is my product of pain.

Reminder: If you are feeling hurt and you have no one to talk to, my inbox is always open. I am willing to listen.

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