dont know why im angry in the morning
spending all my afternoons recording
wiping all the dirt up off my jordans
all my friends are looking kinda foreign

dont really care about what they say
everything been looking so grey
switch my persciption again
i dont really care anyway

whats the point of waking up every day
im tired all the bullshit they say anyway
all my friends are fake 
go the fuck away
i just need a break
waste it all away

i hate today

chorus: 
nothing feeling real
whatever ill take another sedative
bitch tryna play my heart but it's already broken
used to see the clouds in the sky but now im just drowning in the ocean
playing slowdive in my bedroom
now i wish i had never fucking met you
every single day things are all the same
but i don't think i care anyway

v1 (fern):
say work smart not harder
im workin nights like a doctor
i dont claim to be a martyr
i eat ur heart out like dahmer
broken heart im a goner
never feeling much calmer
i feel like a monster
i been feelin like a monster
i keep that shit on my hands
i keep that cash in my hands
i do not fuck w these people
cuz they only tryin to stop all my plans
i do not fuck w the xans
i do not fuck w ur mans
i can slide all the way comin thru irish goodbye notta givin a glance

v2 casperrr:
push me down
in the ground
until we underground 
none around
all around
and im lookin all around
omg
wtf have i been doin
cause i~
i feel like a monster 
i been feelin like a monster 
i can't fuck whit any of this people cause they envy and greedy they awful
if all of them disappeared for once i think that shit would be so fucking awesome 
i do not fuck with the xans
i dont fuck with u mans

all the same w/ casperrr (afterlife x jolst)

why dont you just leave me alone
wrap you hands around my neck while i fucking choke

tired of everyone ive ever know
why dont you just leave me alone for once
all the shit that you say yeah it's always the same & I dont care at all
would you please just go away

i dont wanna hear anymore
dont wanna feel anymore
i dont wanna see anything at all

i dont wanna breathe (heal) anymore 
dont wanna fear anymore
i dont want you around when i fall

choke (xkori x thislandis)

https://open.spotify.com/track/5sCZW3KrHFhPzNkrJzN9Tk?si=ccae6c6b7f3848c4

ive been losing time in my life (yeah)
i dont really give a fuck what youre saying
& i dont really know x2
& i dont really know much of anything
yeah bitch out of my face 
yeah bitch out of my place
& i dont really know x2
& i dont know why im like this

yeah ive been feeling kinda crazy lately x2
cuz it's been a while since things were feeling fine
& I honestly just wanna live my life
& i dont give a fuck what you say to me
cuz i dont wanna accidentally embrace anything

idrk (lileffort)

chorus
yeah imma brush it off
every little thing you say
dont need to hear from you
it's a waste of my time every day 
im not feeling cold
this shit's just getting old 
imma brush it off
2021
im leaving u behind like a
bullet from a gun
yeah this year im having fun

v1
gassed up in a foreign
ion leave my room 
dont talk to me about touring
sorry that im boring
i just wanna kick back 
my phone im ignoring

u a broke bitch 
im cleaning up
dont come round these parts
dont call my bluff
yeah i remember you were acting tough
& now u fade away & no one gives a fuck

lessthannothing v2
(ohs)
Cause I lost my mind and I know that’s a problem 
Mental chains hanging off of my body 
I wish that I didn’t feel so dead

brush it off w/ lessthannothing (lileffort)

thoughts of pharmaceuticals incentivise my falling off
fighting thru the pain, just to fight the urge of nodding off
caught up in the suburbs way of life 
i think im rotting quick
drinking til i pass out everyday just for the hell of it

ive been losing weight, i swear that it's my brain
dont have time for none of you, im fighting thru the pain
trying just to stay alive (yeah) i clench my gatorade
i never act dramatic & i dont exaggerate

if you got a problem well than you can take your time
makin all this money swear man you'd think im doin fine
i cant see the future but i can read the signs
all these fake friends bitch i hope your card declines

traxee:
swipe, swiping, swipe your shit like a scammer
swipe right, bad bitch yeah i gotta have her
if i put that shit in the air
and i see the sign imma take it
fern we're stars we gon make it
i gotta get to my bag and my paper
im ballin so hard i feel like a Laker
bad bitch wanna talk so i told her to shake it
she wants kids so i told her to take it(this dick)
and im on my own path, i could never copy noone else
you wanted me to be someone different
mf oh well

gatorade w/ traxee (dthxrgt)

(fern)
dead wrong & I knew it all along
alleviate the tendency to act like I belong
stressed out & I'm fighting my way out
never mattered anyway I'll lose you in the crowd
i can't make it right, stay out of touch & out of site
rolling with the punches & I won't put up a fight
missed out & it's fading all to grey
don't bother to come around I'm staying far away

(dthxrgt)
stressed out and you knew it all along
why the fuck you think i'm even writing all these songs?
falling apart, was anxious from the start
never thought i'd even fucking make it this far but
if it's cool with you tonight
i want to stay inside
the pressure of this life
i'll never be alright

dead wrong w/ dthxrgt (wisssery x jolst)

https://open.spotify.com/track/05RIYQ9zNoA1pMcahdNlYl?si=af4f4a5596b14fa4

same side but it's never the same thing
thought that we were both on the same side
same sigh cuz you never understood me
honestly man I wish i had a plan b

same side but you cut right thru me
fool me once burn me twice but shame on me 
same side when i sigh on the terrace
honestly man i wish that I could care less

same sigh when im getting out of my bed
same side of you i miss in my head
hurt my pride once again when u leave me on read
why do u make me wish that i was dead

same side (guda)

https://open.spotify.com/track/3qJISj2vAlhdhIBXyhRGdS?si=rPVSfN-9RgqnPZTNbBLQ2w

lyrics:
sensations swirling around in my mind
nodding off as i look at the time
i was countin minutes, truth be told
how on earth did i get so old?

oversensitive to all my surroundings
i need it way too much & my heart is pounding
i dont wanna know how it all unfolds
i just wanna stay here & be in control  

searching for a feeling
im barely standing
& i said it all again
something in my head

sensations (guda)

fern:
face down
on the ground
dont know if i can take it now
i been trying every day get back together
i been swaying lately & i change like the weather
i had something to keep me here, but i cannot remember
face down 
on the ground
i barely make a sound
they walk all over me but they dont know that im around
figured as much
i dont figure much at all
the gaps inside my mind are the only things i know

casperrr:
face down 
on the mud
hit the dirt 
they look at me like im a jerk
all of those people make me 
go blind 
everytime 
that i they talk bout something thats mine 
in a rage
it's not a phase 
so for now ill stick to getting blazed 
while im decaying 
won't ever make it 
am sorry but u cant save me

face down w/ casperrr (jolst x fern)

i'm trying again
to take it on the chin
the sun is burning down
but i can't feel it on my skin
will you pull me from the ground
cause I can't
will you pull me from the ground

my body is breaking
hurt me for no reason
the season is calling 
your pictures are falling
I'm feeling so sore again (again)

sore (asperr)

https://open.spotify.com/track/1uJP2pHAFzOpuuAPkigZGL?si=uUX6dMJ7S1qiLCGbJ6lbHw

(fern)
bitch i've been plotting & scheming but they don't ever show me love
i just wonder how long it'll be til they all give a fuck
i dont care bout nobody or the things that I've done
you were never around but you act like you were a day 1
cross me up again & you gone end up with a split lip
talking all that shit, but you lookin like a toothpick
yeah i said it before & i'll say it again
sometimes I think that i'd be better off dead

(lotus)
lately i been having feelings that i’m better off dead
with my eyes forever bleeding yeah i know they’re turning red
tryna fight it but i can’t
every night i’m in my head

i know that i’m fucked up
and nobody wants that
i’m pushin my comfort
for only to run back
idk if i’ll be alright
idk if i’ll be alright

antisocial w/ dylan lotus (johnnyfriend)

cover art: welcome to the nhk

i dont wanna go out would you please just leave me alone
i wanna hear your voice so bad, but i cant pick up the phone
foggy head only clears w a shot of patron
used to shine so bright but im losing my glow

i been MIA cuz i dont feel alright
staring at my notes i dont know what to write
i been MIA & i dont wanna fight
wake up all i really wanna do is cry
every single day
i'd say that i miss you but you could never relate
so we'll go our separate ways

fernn

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