prod @bugbu6
[chorus]
im nauseas im sick i feel awful
i hope i dont have to wake up tomorrow
when i look in a mirror i feel awful
cuz i despise myself i need a bottle. nowww x2

how long has it been dis way
gave my energy away
thought our wavelength was the same
i dont want this shit to fade
bbygirl u kno im tryin, im tryin to b okay
when im wit u i b flyin i think bout u everyday

when i wake up i feel sick
idrk how 2 fix this
fell in love with you on our first kiss
need 2 fix myself need 2 fix this

how long has it been dis way
gave my energy away
thought our wavelength was the same
i dont want this shit to fade
bbygirl u kno im tryin, im tryin to b okay
when im wit u i b flyin i think bout u everyday

[chorus] x2

[breakdown] outro!!
im sad!

feel awfful [bug]

Big bucks imma spend it when its made
Good looks now they wanna know my name
Oh god 
I cant run away
Is it safe for me?
This world wasnt made with me in mind
I need therapy
x2

Uh uh uh uh uh uh uh uh
Nothin really set
Fuck the name i was born with
X's on my heart
Fall in love
But i burn quick
I get sentimental 
When i drink
I just love you
Talkin all the time
Like what you think?
I just feel you
I dont wanna die
I got so many things that hold me
But i dont wanna live
If this life gets too boring

But you dont make it boring

And i dont wanna go outside
When its raining and pouring
Im getting older i know it
But i dont really feel it

And i dont really look it
I can thank the estrogen
For all the people lookin
God i feel alive
Like i just started living
Like i dont wanna die
Who the fuck was i kidding?
x2

Big bucks imma spend it when its made
Good looks now they wanna know my name
Oh god 
I cant run away
Is it safe for me?
This world wasnt made with me in mind
I need therapy
x3

its not all bad

feeling so alone i don’t rlly got no friends no
 always fuck w me how u put me in the friend zone
i gave you my heart & u ripped it out my chest tho
never love again ya i’m falling for the benzos :/
want my life 2 end think i’m sick can’t u tell tho

get out of my head
i’m feeling dead
want this to end
i
need you in my life
it’s feels so right
for u id die

hate it that ur doing so well without me
really i just wish you that u would call me
need u in the night and in the evenings
and i hate the way we left our feelings

mezha
im wondering hopeless like the feeling of dopesick
did u evr mean what u said at all
cuz ill scratch all the pages
& rewrite all my days
& knock myself out of this phase all @ once
where did this distance come frm
u make me feel sick
make my skin numb
whats on ur mind dont play dumb
i miss the old u

hate what uv become

ill destroy myself 2 fit what u need
ill overthink all night u make me weep
but we match each othr like a lock & key
what i had in mind is not what u wanted frm me ):
not what u wanted frm me

without me + mezha [+methboiswag x silver]

mixed by @w1rra @killpariah7 @15o0 
@chanelshortcake

soft skin soft kiss (feat. kill pariah & 15o prod. number48)

Big blade on me 
She wan t me to bleed 
If that’s what u want from me 
My wrists glistening 
Life don’t mean shit to me 

That’s what I would’ve said 
Shawty my medicine 
Until I’m dead again 
Miss my friends won’t pretend 
They gone I must ascend 
Push me right to the ledge
demons trapped in my head 
imma j go to bed

if_thats_what_u_want_from_me_prod_db808

got deleted from xoxoswitch soundcloud so here it is again <3

xoxoswitch - Alwayz In Last Place (prod togepi x northeast lights)

entity 330 (cole3k)

m1ss y0u

mixed by @buffalobang

it’s on spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/0zhtH5YbaewmOw0zfVvK1A?si=gZ6hlS_JTcWTBAZQll7Jyw&context=spotify%3Aalbum%3A03L52hpWBDRLkp1Wy9gLIK

imfine

@buffalobang

it’s on spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/2sV9cvcweAUlSjIjW80Lhg?si=C45l7EScQCuoARXISPIBjw

without me + mezha [+methboiswag x silver]

xample

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