First song i ever produced!!
I'm sure its not the best, but I took a lot of time on this (╥﹏╥)

Mixed by﹒⪩⪨﹒ stezzyxl﹒⪩⪨﹒

lyrics:
Got this weight on my mind, crashing like a stormy sea
Every time I drop my guard darkness takes a hold on me
In the mirror, there's a stranger, and they won't let me be
Try to save you from yourself but it always ends in grief

I'm your monster, tearing, I don't wanna harm
The pain I'm hiding, tears apart the calm
Your breathing plays a pretty lullaby
Anger rising, why do I even try?

Every touch, every word, brings another stormy night
Want to hold you, shield you, but it never comes out right
Horrors come from within, break through fragile skin
I fight my demons, but they always seem to win

I'm your monster, tearing, I don't wanna stop
The fear I'm hiding, adrenaline just won't drop
Your screaming plays a pretty lullaby
Fear is rising, why do I even try?

I tried to be gentle, I tried to be kind
It builds like a hurricane and peace is hard to find
Tear through your defences like they don't even exist
Each word becomes a weapon that I cannot resist

I'm your monster, tearing, I don't wanna think
The love I'm holding, keeps me from the brink
Your silence plays a pretty lullaby
Love is dying, why do I even try?

Hide you from the world that hurts you
Keep you safe inside

Broken Lullaby

Mixed by﹒⪩⪨﹒ stezzyxl﹒⪩⪨﹒
Produced By Stezzyxl and ME :3

Lyrics:
Can you imagine how it felt walking in on Christmas Eve
Seeing you and someone else kissing right beside the tree
No mistletoes around, can't blame it on the season
But it's over for us now, no matter what the reason

You'll look back to the past and be filled with regret
In the present you'll be cold all alone in your bed
You'll never see me again, that's the future you've set
Three ghosts (three ghosts) that's the company you get

Three ghosts (three ghosts, three ghosts)
Three ghosts (three ghosts, three ghosts)

Can you imagine how it feels knowing I can spend my time
With my family or friends, or anyone I'd like
And it's no longer you, my holidays are free
Though it don't bring me joy, it does bring me peace

You'll look back to the past and be filled with regret
In the present you'll be cold all alone in your bed
You'll never see me again, that's the future you've set
Three ghosts (three ghosts) that's the company you get

Three ghosts (three ghosts, three ghosts)
Three ghosts (three ghosts, three ghosts)

Haunted by the past, the present, future more
You'll have nothing left of me to even keep you warm
And as hurt as I am now, you'll hurt much more than me
A guilty conscience sticks around even in your dreams

You'll look back to the past and be filled with regret 
In the present you'll be cold all alone in your bed 
You'll never see me again, that's the future you've set 
Three ghosts (three ghosts) that's the company you get 

Christmas Eve

Mixed by﹒⪩⪨﹒ stezzyxl﹒⪩⪨﹒
Produced by stezzyxl :333

lyrics:
lights
stab my eyes
sounds
crack my skull

you call it normal 
i call it hell 
mask on tight tight tight tight
locked in my cell

eyes avoid yours 
you call me "distant"
i'm drowning here
in your s-s-s-system


what I wish you knew
makes me who I am 
what I wish you knew 
is that I'm not broken

damn

rules unwritten 
terms unclear clear unclear
you bend them daily
i dis-dis-dis-disappear

"too high functioning"
for your s-s-s-support
"too different" still
for your sort-sort-sort-sort

he constant decoder-coder-decoder
of your strange, strange, strange ways
i'm the anthropologist-gist-gist
of everyday, day, day

what I wish you knew
makes me who I am 
what I wish you knew 
is that I'm not broken

damn

system rigged against, against, against
different minds
calling me broken, broken
while you stay blind

tasks pile up, up, up, up
simple to you, you, you, you
mountains to climb, climb, climb, climb
see no way through, through, through, through

reveal my truth
watch faces change
same person still
now labeled "strange"

double empathy
problem is real
you demand my heart
While yours stays sealed


what I wish you knew
makes me who I am 
what I wish you knew 
is that I'm not broken

damn

what i wish you knew

Mixed by﹒⪩⪨﹒ stezzyxl﹒⪩⪨﹒
Produced by stezzyxl :333

lyrics:
(Scrub that plate, scrape that fork, life’s a joke, I hate this chore)
(Same old shit, day by day, rinse me down, flush me away)
(Scrub that plate, scrape that fork, kill me now, this ain’t my sport)
(Same old shit, day by day—I don’t wanna do this, K?)

Foam on my hands like a chemical burn
Dishes stack up like my lessons unlearned
Every day’s a rerun, same damn grind
If life's a playlist, where’s rewind?

I scrub, I scrape, I scowl, I seethe
I rinse, repeat, resent, repeat
I scrub, I scrape, I scowl, I seethe
I rinse, repeat, resent
fuck me

I hate this, I hate this, I hate this, I swear
Soap in my eyes and my soul’s in despair
I hate this, I hate this, I hate this, I swear
This ain’t a chore, it’s a goddamn nightmare
Rinse, resent, repeat, resent
This ain’t cleaning, it’s punishment
Rinse, resent, repeat, resent
Fuck this loop, it’s permanent

Washing the same damn cup since ‘23
Swear this fork got more history than me
Water runs cold, time stands still
Might as well drown in the sink fr

I scrub, I scrape, I scowl, I seethe
I rinse, repeat, resent, repeat
I scrub, I scrape, I scowl, I seethe
I rinse, repeat, resent 
fuck me

I hate this, I hate this, I hate this, I swear
Soap in my eyes and my soul’s in despair
I hate this, I hate this, I hate this, I swear
This ain’t a chore, it’s a goddamn nightmare
Rinse, resent, repeat, resent
This ain’t cleaning, it’s punishment
Rinse, resent, repeat, resent
Fuck this loop, it’s permanent


I hate this, I hate this, I hate this, I swear
Dishes pile up and I’m losing my hair
I hate this, I hate this, I hate this, I swear
Throw me away like I’m tupperware

Rinse
Repeat
Resent
Rinse
Repeat
Resent
(Rinse, repeat, resent… rinse, repeat… resent)

Rinse, Repeat, Resent

Mixed by﹒⪩⪨﹒ stezzyxl﹒⪩⪨﹒
Produced by stezzyxl :333

lyrics:
hold me tight to the bitter end
wrap a rope around my ankles till i’m in ur bed
hmm “hold me close” we’re the words she said
loving u is brutal, when the love is dead

gotta carry on
i don’t wanna love you; gotta move along
gotta walk it off
maybe in another life
in another time
maybe then you’ll change your mind
then you’ll change your mind, but then again you won’t
but then again you
wont
but then again you
won’t
but then again you
won’t
but then again you
won’t

please don’t leave me again
darling please stay
everyday i pray

monsters fill my room
they smell like her perfume
there stuck with me like glue
the image i have of you

xav0id

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