a beautiful, hurtful life: chapter 2/30
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In 2020, I lost a close family friend due to COVID-19. The last time I saw him was when he visited my family and me in late 2019. At the time I was studying for exams and didn't give him the time he needed and that was the last time I saw him.
In the past, I lost my grandparents in a similar manner.
'at the end of time' is an attempt to convey how I feel now. All the work did pay off, but at what cost? I could have everything I could ever want but would lose everyone in the process.
It taught me about how unfortunately anyone at any time could disappear, and that I should remember to put these people first and give them the love, time, and care they need.
Everything else in this world is temporary.

at the end of time
The family friend and my grandparents were some of the sweetest people that could ever have existed. They would always encourage me with everything I did, from music to my studies and would always make me feel like I was special.
My paternal grandmother was the last grandparent to live, and she passed away before I got a place at medical school, something that all of my grandparents dreamt of and encouraged me to pursue. At the time of writing this, I have finished my fifth year of medical school, done well in my exams, and won a scholarship, but they're not here to see it.
I wish you could see me now, I know I would've made you proud and I'm sorry I didn't give you more time. If you're out there, wherever you are, I hope you can see what I'm doing. This is all for you and I will be the best I can be for you.

lyrics:
[verse 1]
at what cost did i succeed?
by giving into my own greed

i didn't give the time you need 
and now you're no longer here

[bridge]
but now you are gone
and i keep thinking it's my fault 
i couldn't give you all my love
i don't know if i can keep going on

[chorus]
and i'll keep running away
so many things that i've wanted to say
i know that i'm to blame
i can't look back because i am ashamed

and at the end of time
i'll finally feel alive
nobody by my side
it's the end of a beautiful, hurtful life

[verse 2]
i want a way out
i hate how you're not around
i wish you could see me now
i know that i would've made you proud

[bridge]
but now you are gone
and i keep thinking it's my fault 
i couldn't give you all my love
i don't know if i can keep going on

[chorus]
and i'll keep running away
so many things that i've wanted to say
i know that i'm to blame
i can't look back because i am ashamed

and at the end of time
i'll finally feel alive
nobody by my side
it's the end of a beautiful, hurtful life

a beautiful, yet hurtful life

at the end of time

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If Time Stopped (feat. Silent Child & joss lockwood)

i figured i'd upload this today as a lil thank you for being in my life as it's my 22nd birthday today :))

this year's been insane to me, and throughout i've grown a lot as a person, gained lots of lovely friends and lost some others. this year's brought a lot of good things to me and without your support, they wouldn't be the way they are.

i have never been so motivated to push myself to be the best i can be before, nor have i ever been as positive about myself. this year has been the best for me, musically, and academically. 

this is one of my all-time favourite songs and has carried me throughout so many parts of life, from losing things dear to me, to gaining new ones. as cheesy as a lot of people make it, k?d has been a massive role model to me. i always aspire to make different genres and styles and push myself a lot and a lot of it is thanks to them and their insanely diverse skillset.

i've had some rough rough times throughout these last few years, being tested and pushed to my limits, but thanks to my friends and those close to me, i'm here and still breathing.

thank you for being in my life, i love you.

- also the artwork and style is a lil teaser of the next album's direction, i still am releasing the current one to give myself some time to perfect it. (also i have a new song out next friday xx)

art creds: me :))

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✧ Lyrics 
"verse 1"
i hate how we used to be
been feelin oh so worthless now
just tryna work it out
its so funny how we hurt all the time

how we used to be

"verse 2"
tried so hard
is that all we got
i wanna feel your love
its so funny how we hurt all the time

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And did you do right?
You say it to yourself while you sit online
And do you see right
Convincing yourself its not like the last time
Like woah
Saying the same things sometimes
I don't know why I cant unwind
And if you know
Its something
That you think you need

You go away sometimes
I just know you'll be alright
My friends say the same sometimes
Gotta be alone sometimes
You could be afraid and lie
Getting high to waste my time
Your friends do the same sometimes
Your friends do the same sometimes

Before you forget
Just to save your peace of mind
And change your focus
You're just waiting for the sign that you're okay
It's okay, okay
The feelings they just seem to go away
Woah
Saying the same things sometimes
I don't know why I cant unwind
And if you know
It's something
Not a fantasy
You go away sometimes
Sometimes
Sometimes

You go away sometimes
I just know you'll be alright
My friends say the same sometimes
Gotta be alone sometimes
You could be afraid and lie
Getting high to waste my time
Your friends do the same sometimes
Your friends do the same sometimes
You go away sometimes
You go away sometimes
Sometimes
Sometimes

Some day seems alright
I feel afraid sometimes
I feel afraid sometimes

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you go away sometimes

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written by charlie kurata
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