Based On a True Story (2020)

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Zak Malik (2016)

Conflicts of Interests (2010)

Mr. Malik (2012)

Organized Confusion (2018)

[Hook]
Gonna get to the front, that's my destiny
Gonna reach the top, there ain't no stopping me
Oh girl I know that I'mma shine 
I'm gonna take what's mine

[Verse 1]
I work my fucking ass off, nigga better not call me "lazy"
The universe fucking owes me, I swear somebody better pay me
I don't waste no money on a ho bitch, I save all this for my baby
My daughter is my life but my ex-wife? Don't even ask me….

Business partner that never work
Brand new computer that's fucking broke
Let's throw depression in there to see how long until I choke

Broke my back, no surgery
Decade of chronic pain for me
No access to therapy 
Mentally nor physically 

All this stress and anxiety, feeling guilty, someone lie to me

Tell me it ain't my fault my wife betrayed me, it's society's
I blame myself for where I am in my life because probably
If I made different decisions I'd probably be with Natalie

Ooo oo ooo

Why the fuck am I so fat now?
I don't even eat, I just drink, but I don't move around
But fuck all of that bullshit, I'm just hear to state it clearly
Fuck you fucking lies, fuck your life and fuck you pay me

[Hook]
Gonna get to the front, that's my destiny
Gonna reach the top, there ain't no stopping me
Oh girl I know that I'mma shine 
I'm gonna take what's mine

[Verse 2]
Let's give him depression and put him in a country with no medicine and give him no access to therapy then throw him in a loop
Depression will make his ass fat
Now watch how he handles all that

Because he's depressed he no longer works out
'Cause he don't work out so his ass getting fat
Because he is fat he will get more depressed
Because he's depressed he no longer works out

Perfect

Plus

Fuck him up on the business side
Pretend to throw him a bone, so give him a partner but wait for the surprise 
Let his partner make a lotta plans and commitments but never finish on time

I'm gonna take what's mine

Can you imagine the only thing keeping your sanity for you is work?
Can you imagine the feeling of losing your family because of work?
Can you imagine the world just keep fucking you over and leaving you broke?

I'm gonna take what's mine

Fuck you


Take What's Mine

[Intro Hook]
I don’t want the responsibility alone
I don’t wanna carry all this weight on my own
You told me you were committed to building a home
I don’t know what is wrong with you

[Verse 1]
She said I didn't appreciate her and I didn't pay attention to her
Every time she wanted to talk I would just tell her "later"
I was working

Excuse me for being so fucking focused
I know our bank account status is saying that it is broken
I'd been choking

Taking the pressure without relief
No, no body is more worried about money more than me
What were you thinking?

Because I'm gone 18 hours a day
You're thinking I'm out here for what and for who trying to get paid?

Switch

Looking at the situation coming from her side
I can completely and utterly understand everything that she was feeling and why

Feeling alone

Looking for someone to talk to but it was a guy
Vulnerability mixed with stupidity is the reason our relationship died

[Hook]
I don’t want the responsibility alone
I don’t wanna carry all this weight on my own
You told me you were committed to building a home
I don’t know what is wrong with you

I would've rather you tell me you're running away
Breaking up is much better than being betrayed
I'm looking in your face and I have nothing to say
I don't know what is wrong with you

[Verse 2]
Walking around like we're zombies
What happened to our heart beats?
They both used to be in sync
Don't say it, no, don't speak

I had enough, all of this bullshit
You told me admit it
OK, yes, I fucked other girls and you're still a bitch...

Mmm mmmm, mmm mmmm, mmm mmm mmm mmm mmm

You want me to tell you the difference between being cheated and being betrayed?

You brought up a lot of emotions 
That I don't know how to cope with
The line of our life you have crossed it
And my confidence is exhausted 

You set me up and you tricked me
And when I fell you kicked me
You played the whole innocent role you clever little gypsy 

But I'm thanking you...

This Fable of a life is coming to an ending soon

[Bridge Hook]
I don’t want the responsibility alone
I don’t wanna carry all this weight on my own
You told me you were committed to building a home
I don’t know what is wrong with you

I would've rather you tell me you're running away
Breaking up is much better than being betrayed
I'm looking in your face and I have nothing to say
I don't know what is wrong with you

[Hook]
I don’t want the responsibility alone
I don’t wanna carry all this weight on my own
You told me you were committed to building a home
I don’t know what is wrong with you

I would've rather you tell me you're running away
Breaking up is much better than being betrayed
I'm looking in your face and I have nothing to say
I don't know what is wrong with you


What Is Wrong With You

Licky Licky, Sucky Sucky (feat. Xiao Lian)

<< hook >>
I ain't even really gotta tell 'em 'cause they know that I'mma get it and they know that I'mma do it on my own
Self-taught, talented and better than 80 percent of others in my industry and I ain't even old 

I ain't even really gotta tell 'em 'cause they know that I'mma get it and they know that I'mma do it on my own
Test me, I don't know what is failure, only knowin' great or better, yea I bet you you gon' love it in my zone
<< hook >>

I'm very skilled and talented and taught myself the shit I know
I practice and work everyday and everyday I learn some more
Just like my flow, I switch it up and now I look professional 
I'm suited and booted and smooth when I'm talkin' but they ain't know how much I know
I can make a song from head to toe
That's writing, recording, producing and mixing now listen to The Low

Hear the way it *boom boom* go
And that's what I *boom boom* know

Doin' it live
Keepin' my head up and livin' but ready to die
All in my mind
Never believing I cannot do whatever I'm willing to try
Planning it perfect and tellin' my niggas how I'm
Buildin' my road, making my own path, ain't no fate, I cheat on death with life

Workin' for family doin' it happily nigga I live in the 3rd round
So man up, keep it tight and never ever fucking back down
'Cause hardship is just another part of my livelihood 
So I drink more than I should, I would

<< hook >>
I ain't even really gotta tell 'em 'cause they know that I'mma get it and they know that I'mma do it on my own
Self-taught, talented and better than 80 percent of others in my industry and I ain't even old 

I ain't even really gotta tell 'em 'cause they know that I'mma get it and they know that I'mma do it on my own
Test me, I don't know what is failure, only knowin' great or better, yea I bet you you gon' love it in my zone
<< hook >>

A very good designer 
Honestly
Actually
I see designers sign up
And wanting to come work for me
My company, 3rd Corner Studios and probably 
I worked on your website
If it is good then that was me
Possibly

I'm feeling like it's time for y'all to know
What I'm really plotting and planning and everything that I be on
I love when I am drunk having a show
When I'm on stage rocking out and the way the lights glow

Then see me in my office
Sleepin' 4 hours then wake and making more profit
I do this for family really be botherin' me when they need somethin' and why not I cannot go cop it
niggas are tellin' me I'm workin' too hard, I should stop it
But niggas are single and none of 'em know how it feels to be called a papi

Said that I should tell you so I've told
That I'm doin' all this for family but what you didn't know
Is that I'm narcissistic and I'm so
Narcissistic addicted to power and attention, now you know

<< hook >>
I ain't even really gotta tell 'em 'cause they know that I'mma get it and they know that I'mma do it on my own
Self-taught, talented and better than 80 percent of others in my industry and I ain't even old 

I ain't even really gotta tell 'em 'cause they know that I'mma get it and they know that I'mma do it on my own
Test me, I don't know what is failure, only knowin' great or better, yea I bet you you gon' love it in my zone
<< hook >>

On My Own

Welcome to Shenyang. Please fasten your seat belt

I'll fly 3000 miles to pursue my dream, spread my name, let the world know me
I been livin' overseas since I turned 18, now I'm grown up with my own family 

so I had to come back
play time is over
7 years drunk
but the 8th year sober
by the 9th year niggas see me taken over
2011 they better look over their shoulder 

bottom of the barrel I can only come up
just like a bullet I'mma leave the game slumpin'
murder and cut it up like guillotine dumpin'
heads gon' roll when they see me eruptin'

"Xen blownin up? Nigga ain't that somethin'"
"thought he was all talk, but his shit bumpin'"
"damn, I should'a hooked that nigga up"
"damn, that nigga got a lotta luck"

it ain't no luck nigga you don't understand
I been puttin' in work and it's all for my fam
daughter gettin' old so my mission has began
doin' everything that I possibly can

to make this money
shit ain't funny
this ain't no joke, don't fuck wit' me homie
fuckin' wit' my money then you fuckin' wit' my family
trust me, you really can't handle me

<< hook >>
back online, to put in work
yes I'mma grind 'til they put me in the dirt
I only see red, that mean I'm on alert
I will not fail, 'cause falling hurts

and it's my time
to hear me speak
and it's my time
to fuckin' eat
<< hook >>

hurt
somebody call me a nurse
Burt Rynold "rappin'", I'm cursin' in person 
all in they face when I spurt, my words
one little word but so many verbs

and I'm on mission, 
even though I'm twisted
you can even say that I'm tryin'a get lifted
to the top of the game
but wit' out Mary Jane

Chi-town stand up and see
I'm fuckin' starvin', ya'll lemme eat
you don't really want me to return to the street
got 8 years of that mafia in me

the Chinese type that'a cut ya ass up
leave you alive but ya crippled plus
cut out ya tongue, ya eyes and fuck
both hands up, ya life is done

what? You thought I was jokin' or somethin'?
how I used to train on the mountain in the mornin'
nah nigga I trained this shit for real
'til I broke my leg I learned how to kill

like the training in the military
and I mean that literally
yep, don't fuck wit' me boy
my shin will break yo' knee boy

<< hook >>
back online, to put in work
yes I'mma grind 'til they put me in the dirt
I only see red, that mean I'm on alert
I will not fail, 'cause falling hurts

and it's my time
to hear me speak
and it's my time
to fuckin' eat
<< hook >>

listen, I got conflicts of interests
but it will not prevent me from finishin' my mission
and this is a music exhibition 
follow 'til the end and you will see that my addiction

music, women and drinkin'
but hold firmly, to my conviction
wishin' away all the worst sins
try to hold back all the stupid bullshit

makin' music is like soothing to me
plus I enjoy music diversity
that's why I make rap and rock on the beat
plus I'm DJ, dance for me

every genre hear me speak
talk about music, I feel so free
talk about life then I tell you, "damn"
"I hate what I am but I am who I am"

<< hook >>
back online, to put in work
yes I'mma grind 'til they put me in the dirt
I only see red, that mean I'm on alert
I will not fail, 'cause falling hurts

and it's my time
to hear me speak
and it's my time
to fuckin' eat
<< hook >>

Back Online

<< hook >>
look at how I used to be
you think this' what I choose to be?
I don't like the newer me 
I don't know what to do with me
(but tell me who is) who is me? 
who will lie in the tomb with me?
am I just another seat on the ride of my life?
x2
<< hook >>

alcohol is the compass encompassed by my tendencies
leading me frequently down a path bringing me infamy
encouraging my temper to flare up like they are allergies
I'm sneezing and wheezing and squeezing a bottle of Jimmy Bean

see that pack of cigarettes lookin' so appealin' to me
pop a pill, in a minute, I'm back to where I love to be
building up temptations for women makin' me wanna cheat
taking it to the limit the life of the party I be

but all of this drinkin' got me lookin' like I'm bacon
grippin' on my gut in the shower my soul is shaken
I have taken a turn for the worse and I'm not prayin', I'm just sayin' 
it's complicated tryin' to change the changes

but I still got my family
maybe there's still a chance for me
if I play my cards right my life can change substantially
financially I'm focused for my generations after me
and actually, my salary's increasin' in reality

<< hook >>
look at how I used to be
you think this' what I choose to be?
I don't like the newer me 
I don't know what to do with me
(but tell me who is) who is me? 
who will lie in the tomb with me?
am I just another seat on the ride of my life?
x2
<< hook >>

failin' is my allergy
my happiness is salary 
success is like my calories
consume it like a mammary

the milk must be my money then
weed must be my Retalin 
my dreams give me adrenaline 
and prizes are pretty women

I chose my acronym "methamphetamine" for my dopamine and serotonin 
man I'm tellin' you that I am hyped up
beat done got me psyched up
wifey got me wife'd up
daughter got me daddy'd up
I need to get my money up

'cause every day I wake up and see the end is closer
layin' in my bed my head is poundin', I'm hung over
hopin' that there's one day I can wake up feelin' sober
wishin' that my health is like it was when i was younger 

I wonder will I stand alone in the end like my father?
when will I reach the top of the charts or should I bother 
wonderin' when it's comin' soon enough, so get stronger
patience is a virtue but I can't wait any longer

<< hook >>
look at how I used to be
you think this' what I choose to be?
I don't like the newer me 
I don't know what to do with me
(but tell me who is) who is me? 
who will lie in the tomb with me?
am I just another seat on the ride of my life?
x4
<< hook >>

Ride Of My Life

<< hook >>
I wanna go away
go away to a place

I wanna go away I don't wanna be here anymore
go away to a place where you won't see me anymore
x2
<< hook >>

I treat the bottle like the mother fuckin' ring
I guess it mean I'm Smeagle but I hope it is a dream 'cause I'm screamin'
this fuckin' alcoholism is evil
the devil is my friend so the devil is my people, but still though

actually my precious isn't killin' me, maybe it is healing me
maybe it is really me who's killin' me
maybe it is really helpin' me help me but why won't I give up on me
I never knew that I could be my enemy 

<< hook >>
I wanna go away I don't wanna be here anymore
go away to a place where you won't see me anymore
x2
<< hook >>

I'm so fuckin' tired of this place 
I'm tired of the chase
I'm sick of tryin'a find the perfect pace

I hate that everyday is like a race
and I'm always runnin' late
why can't I ever get a fuckin' break? 

everyday I feel me fuckin' naggin' me
pullin' me and draggin' me
runnin' down my own fuckin' battery

desperately tryin'a escape reality
I wish that I could melt away this pain like a simple fuckin' calorie

<< hook >>
I wanna go away I don't wanna be here anymore
go away to a place where you won't see me anymore
x2
<< hook >>

I'm starin' at the path that I've chosen
but I feel I'm choking
no body to help me and I'm alone and
my body will not move because it's frozen
you gotta be joking
finally made it but I have broken

ties with my friends and my family
bridges are burnin' on me
callin' God but he is not answering me
but I would have it no other way
I made my own mistakes
for this experience I must pay

<< hook >>
I wanna go away I don't wanna be here anymore
go away to a place where you won't see me anymore
x2

I wanna go away I don't wanna be here anymore
go away to a place where you won't see me anymore
<< hook >>

Buy on iTunes

To Another Place (feat. Digitalboy)

I'm addicted to drink and drugs
I'm addicted to pain and lust
I'm addicted to beautiful women
I'm addicted to fuckin' up

I'm addicted to disappointment
chronic pessimism
love this depressive state
don't need a euphemism

I'm addicted to hurting people
only the ones that I love
I'm addicted to pleasin' people
only the ones in the club

but I ain't yo' fuckin' homie
and I ain't yo' fuckin' friend
don't fuckin' talk shit to me
wipe off that fuckin' grin

I fucking hate you people
in my heart is evil
I want you all to die
you fuckin' fake and see-through

but who I am to talk
I hate myself as well
if there really was
I'd be on my way to hell

<< hook >>
Go!
x5
<< hook >>

contemplatin' death, maybe my final breaths
but before I go, I guess I should address
I've built up so much stress, from tryin'a chase success
never get opportunities though I never rest

it's like how can I work so hard but never get blessed
it's like I feel like I am starving, I confess
another artist went insane, hold the press
I know that life is like a game so I call it chess

I may be dead and gone but I will still be here
don't need yo' eyes to see me, just gotta use your ears
just listen to the song and tell me what you hear
a troubled man wit' a burden that he couldn't bare

<< hook >>
Go!
x5
<< hook >>

I'm 'bout ready to go
I'm sittin' on the flo'
I'm tryin'a cock my gun
while tryin'a drink some mo'

I'm down like 30 shots
I'm like about to drop
just need to lift this gun
cock it and let it pop

but hold on who the hell
is this callin' my phone
I thought I turned it off
how did they turn it on

maybe a sign or somethin'
I mean how could they know?
and so I answer it
my daughter says "hello"

<< hook >>
Go!
x5
<< hook >>

Odious

I know I messed up and did a lotta stupid stuff
but it's what we all experience when growin' up
now that I'm grown I wish I could say I had enough
but if I said it it would simply be another bluff

<< hook >>
if I should die tonight?
no regrets in my life, just alotta wrong I would've made right

if I should die tonight?
besides my daughter and my wife, would anybody miss seein' my sight?

if I should die tonight?
lookin' back on what I've done, I could'a had a little less fun

if I should die tonight?
at least I seen my daughter run, but I wish I could'a seen her have a son

if I should die tonight
<< hook >>

quoter century passed and it feel like time is robbin' me
feel like I'mma wake up and suddenly be like 53
it's scaring me, daughter gettin' older and it's clear to me
soon I am gon' have to pay for her college tuition fees, you follow me?

but it's all good, that don't worry me
it ain't about the money it's about if I can live to see
when she grow up and graduatin' from university
when she fall in love and have her wedding ceremony 'cause I gotta be

there to walk her down the aisle and kiss her cheek
and still with her momma, still married happily
when the wifey and I are grandparents proudly
look at what I've made and my empire growin' steady see that

I'm Mr Malik, the head of the family
every generation after me should be like royalty
similar to Windsor but with a lot more diversity racially
so we siege power internationally 

<< hook >>
if I should die tonight?
no regrets in my life, just alotta wrong I would've made right

if I should die tonight?
besides my daughter and my wife, would anybody miss seein' my sight?

if I should die tonight?
lookin' back on what I've done, I could'a had a little less fun

if I should die tonight?
at least I seen my daughter run, but I wish I could'a seen her have a son

if I should die tonight
<< hook >>

never been afraid of death
I could take my last breath
but I do not wanna die
not until I gain success
I am willing to confess
that I may be obsessed
with the noun "progress"
this I will never suppress
liberally progressive but conservative for excess 
except excess success
I'm tryin'a express my feelings and address what a lotta people consider is stress 
I'm stressed out

but I'm tryin' real hard not to flip out
or back down from my mission to control the town
run the town, Jay, holla when I come around
never mind, I rather do this by my self now

and feel proud 'cause I got up after being down
"he was nobody but soon I be he be renown"
how that sound? Somebody get my crown
now look at how I'd genuinely smile if I died that night

<< hook >>
if I should die tonight?
no regrets in my life, just alotta wrong I would've made right

if I should die tonight?
besides my daughter and my wife, would anybody miss seein' my sight?

if I should die tonight?
lookin' back on what I've done, I could'a had a little less fun

if I should die tonight?
at least I seen my daughter run, but I wish I could'a seen her have a son

if I should die tonight
<< hook >>


If I Should Die Tonight

I feel guilty for all the bad in my life I've done
I feel guilty for ignoring my duties for fun
I feel guilty for even thinkin' that I should run
away from you, not realizing you're the one

you're the prize that I won, and I didn't even know
but now I opened up my eyes, and I'm here fa'sho
I'm stayin' right here, daddy ain't gon' ever go
away from you, and mommy. And this song

is a testament for my daughter and future kids
that daddy workin' his butt off for you and promise this:
I'll always be there for you even if I am not rich
daddy tried, and daddy nearly broke his head

daddy nearly lost his mind and he got depressed
he wasn't used to responsibility, what a test
that was a whole lotta weight pressin' on my chest
and I kept failin' even though I tried my best

<< hook >>
I wasted time playin' in my life
always thinkin' I was doin' alright
but now I need to get that dough
'cause now I'm grown

I got little people dependin' on me
and now, now I can see
that I need to get that dough
'cause now I'm grown
<< hook >>

I wanted so damn hard to be rich
it's kinda funny when you grow up, the difference
between a boy and a man, listen to this
when I was young I wanted money to get chicks

now that I'm grown I wanna make money for my kids
retire my momma and have enough for tuition
for all my nieces and my nephews and that's it
that is the only reason that I wanna be rich

forget jewelry and cars and stupid things
all the things young boys have in all their dreams
I only want one thing, stability
and only for one reason, family

but now I'm growin' up and I see the reality
realistically I need to win the lottery
because this music ain't takin' me where I need to be
but at least it do help me deal wit' my insanity

<< hook >>
I wasted time playin' in my life
always thinkin' I was doin' alright
but now I need to get that dough
'cause now I'm grown

I got little people dependin' on me
and now, now I can see
that I need to get that dough
'cause now I'm grown
<< hook >>

realistic visionary, pessimistic optimist
incredibly confident but lackin' in my confidence
I know my music good and I know I'm not a novice 
but I keep losin' the race, like I'm racin' against Sonic

and I know the reason why I haven't got rich and famous
'cause no body know who the hell I am and I blame this
on the fact I live in China but I could just change it
could return to America but what if I ain't make it

so I haven't went back, for 8 years, in fact
man I know that I could make it people heard my tracks
but it is what it is, and yes my name is Zak
callin' me Mr Malik, wit' a bomb that's strapped 

to my mic, I be blowin' up beats all night
Xen Nightz never open up for people that you like
'cause the people that you like don't know who he is
but you should know I surely ain't a kid, I'm grown up

<< hook >>
I wasted time playin' in my life
always thinkin' I was doin' alright
but now I need to get that dough
'cause now I'm grown

I got little people dependin' on me
and now, now I can see
that I need to get that dough
'cause now I'm grown
<< hook >>

Now That I'm Grown

<< hook >>
keep on pushin', keep it up
keep on pushin' to the top
x4
<< hook >>

why on fuckin' earth would you let your depression hold you back
you ain't fuckin' lost you know exactly just where you at
and just 'cause they ain't hearin' you ain't reason to stop making tracks
just 'cause you sufferin' from depression don't mean nothin' Zak

you still a cocky mother fucker doin' drugs and drinkin' 'gac 
you still keep a few women 'round you, 6 at least, a pussy pack
and that is funny 'cause that is the reason you keep sayin' that
you tryina change your self and make a newer better stronger Zak

chillin' in yo' studio wit' a Pro Tools and a broken Mac
equipment fuckin' gutter you be jealous of them rappers that
got some decent monitors to hear the shit they write and rap
and internet that upload faster then that 20 kilobytes

you have the absolute minimal but you make it sound alright
on top of the fact that you live in China, that sound crazy right?
you push it to the limit 'cause you're mother fuckin' Xen Nightz
you do this for your family, remember, your daughter and wife

<< hook >>
keep on pushin', keep it up
keep on pushin' to the top
x4
<< hook >>

infidelity but I wanna practice monogamy 
alcoholic but I wanna be sober and clear to see
drug abuser but I don't wanna put no more pills in me
pessimistic but I wanna live more optimistically 

wanna be happy but this depression is controlling me
wanna be rich a nigga but I live in poverty
wanna keep on pushin' but I feel like givin' up on me
wanna kill my self but I gotta live for my family

of course I wanna lose weight and bring health back to me
wanna get my 8 pack back fat fuck wit' me
I ain't even talk about my music yet, follow me
let me give it to you straight without using analogies 

different types of music, different genres all appeal to me
don't tell me what it's supposed to be, I make what's feelin' good to me
that's what the title of this album really mean to me
Conflicts of Interests, and this was just a summery 

<< hook >>
keep on pushin', keep it up
keep on pushin' to the top
x4
<< hook >>

pussy, alcohol and weed
cars, money, jewelry
Gucci shoes and Louis V
it seems that's all a rapper need

and every rapper seems to get it all from only selling crack
and even after making millions they stay on the same track?

and if you just look at 'em wrong they'll shot in the fuckin' head
why they need a bodyguard if that's they way they handle biz?

I thought that all those autographs would change a man a little bit
maybe make they ass a little smarter, speak intelligent

but no they got a persona that everybody gotta see
but I don't get why it's better to be a dealer or a G
when it's so fuckin' obvious and it's so fuckin' plain to see
that all these mother fuckers lying plus it's much better to be

a black version of Bill Gates, hell, the presidency 
stupidity is not inherited, you ain't a gangsta B
people in the streets wanna move to better communities 
but those in good communities wanna pretend they love the streets

Pushin' The Limit

<< hook >>
I'm in love it's a beautiful day
I'm in love, it's a beautiful way
I don't care what the weather man say
it's a beautiful day
x2
<< hook >>

I woke up wit' a super boner
glad I got a wife so I turn around and I put it on her
I'm such a stoner, like a rock, Chevy truck, zoomed on her
super soak her, now I'm feelin' good and I'm about to see what's up
if I wanna go to town
shop around
maybe cop a Range Rover
maybe not
Friday mornin'
it's the weekend and I got
lots of friends callin' me askin' me what is the hottest spot? 
tonight it's goin'
down
to the what?
to the ground

and I'm really lovin' these summer clothes
these ladies got they tities hangin' out and I'm like, "whoa"
I'm feelin' good, I finished my album, I think it's gold
and plus tonight I'm spinnin' in the club and so it's on

and toast to the douchebags, assholes and pricks
my peoples, we so bad
and that's why the ladies love us, we have the fun the most
and that's why you lame good guys should come and take some notes

<< hook >>
I'm in love it's a beautiful day
I'm in love, it's a beautiful way
I don't care what the weather man say
it's a beautiful day
x2
<< hook >>

this girl tellin' me I cheated on her
but I never really been with any body 'cept the one I wife'd at home
and this gonna
be a little drama and I need it 'cause I love it 'cause of my persona
Drama homie, should be on Entourage, cameo wrote for me
I ain't stricken wit' poverty no more but no body know me

except the club drug dealers and the pretty freaks
little freaks, tug on me, suck on me, ride me and cum on me
let me think, I forgot everything I been tellin' me
you see what happen when I get some drink in me? I can't think

I should be rollin' back to my crib, but I'm too fucked up
instead I'm in the VIP rollin' on E and feelin' love
I just forgot what I was thinkin' of
never mind that shit, I'm havin' fun

right now I ain't got a worry in the world
I'm all fucked up, wit' a drunken hot girl
one hand on her titty and the other on her pearl
she say

<< hook >>
I'm in love it's a beautiful day
I'm in love, it's a beautiful way
I don't care what the weather man say
it's a beautiful day
x4
<< hook >>

A Beautiful Day

<< hook >>
Never felt the way I feel with you
And that's when I get close to you
x2
<< hook >>

My favorite fuckin' letter in the alphabet is "x"
My favorite pass time is when I'm on it havin' sex
Yes I'm rollin'

I call it DJ Khaled, it's the best
24 hours I roll, I need a rest
I'm not sleepy

MDMA in me got me geeky every weekend
Pop it, drop it, roll it, like a woman and she freaky
That's what I need and like Demi, gimme more please
Endorphine, serotonin, methamphetamine open

Needn't be a better person, only time I've spoken to people that was nice was all the times I was rollin'

If I'm fuckin' sober you are lucky if I'm spoken and not trippin' or ignorin' you like you are not a person

X is my faovrite drug but I do drink a lot
That's what I do everyday I wish that I could stop
Wouldn't be a problem if I didn't 'til I drop but I do and I love it, man don't make me think a lot

<< hook >>
Never felt the way I feel with you
And that's when I get close to you
x4
<< hook >>

It's not that I'm addicted, I just love the way it feels to me
When I get that perfect buzz, but when I'm still functioning
It's perfectly the perfect moment but there is a certainty
That I will not stop. I'll keep drinkin' 'til stupidity
Ceases me. Causes me to release all my tendencies
Revert me to the moment in history when we couldn't think
Before we had evolved. When impulses were instinctively
The only rules to be followed: fuck almost anything

So naturally tits and ass and pussy is attracting me
Specifically you're tits and ass and pussy, yea your body be the only thing in focus when the world just seems so blurry to me, it's your body so this is meant to be

Retarded… Even if I get you I can't fuck you see
Whisky dick is a mother fucking curse and bane to me
And when I sober up I will regret every damn thing
But this is our fuckin' moment so take a shot babe

<< hook >>
Never felt the way I feel with you
And that's when I get close to you
x4
<< hook >>

The Way I Feel With You

She call me everyday telling' me that she wanna see me
She tell me our daughter is learning numbers and ABCs
She put her on the phone and fuck, I just wanna cry
'Cause I don't know what I can do but work until I die

I know ya'll need me but I'm beggin' ya'll just never leave me
Sometimes there's women around me but you gotta believe me
I am not cheatin', I'm not creepin' but it is the weekend 
So I gotta be in the club DJin' and drinkin'

I don't have to drink but you know just how I fuckin' do
I am shy until I get a buzz and then I'm cool
And then I rock the whole club but it's all for you
Then you show up when I got two women up in the booth

<< hook >>
Take a bag with your clothes
And leave your keys by the door
'Cause she never wants to see you no more
Never should've listened to the serpent
You've shot yourself in the foot again
x2
<< hook >>

Our situation is so fuckin' complicated
A decade overseas and I still ain't make it
Now we're back in America and it seems I'm fakin' 
Had a baby, had depression then I turned into bacon 

You don't have to understand because it ain't your role
You been playin' your role perfectly, of course I know
I just wish you understand that this is complicated
If I'm at home then I'm not workin' then we'll never make it

Gentlemen can understand this is a double edged sword 
If I do right I'm doing wrong and to my accord 
It's hard to admit that I can't even afford a Ford
All this pressure is about to drive her overboard

<< hook >>
Take a bag with your clothes
And leave your keys by the door
'Cause she never wants to see you no more
Never should've listened to the serpent
You've shot yourself in the foot again
x2
<< hook >>

So many husbands and fathers that don't put in work
Don't have a job and don't care about payin' child support

Shot Yourself Again (feat. Example)

She got me. I got her.
I let go. They held on.

A couple people like my music and some know my name
But I'm not rich and I'm not famous so what am I saying?
I'm like an average mother fucker you see everyday
Except I tell my life with lyrics to help with the pain

I don't do this for anybody but my fuckin' self
But if it happens that one day it somehow brings me wealth
Then I will certainly be overwhelmed with fuckin' joy
But I am pessimistic and I cannot be annoyed

By any haters or these mother fuckin' assholes
Whinin' like a bitch when they see me floatin' in cash flow
The jealousy is fuel though but doubt is what I need mo'
I love it when they tell me I won't make it 'cause I make mo

Tell me I can't get it because it's helpin' me get mo'
Tell me I can't do because it's makin' me work mo'
Plus I'm fuckin' focused and I owe that to my bad bitch
The family. The wife and kid.

<< hook >>
Super fuckin' focused and I owe that to my bad bitch
She got me. I got her.

Family with money is what I need to be real rich
I let go. They held on.

Super fuckin' focused and I owe that to my bad bitch
She got me. I got her.

Family with money is what I need to be real rich
I let go. They held on.
<< hook >>

I lay my life on these lyrics but do these fools get it?
I ain't complainin', this is the way that I deal wit' it
Everybody cope with their problems their own way
For me it's music so I do this every fuckin' day

I never expected anybody to understand
But as it turns out, I'm similar to them
And that's when I realized my problems are not special
My life is very average, but my songs are hits though

I guess because some people really can relate
If you feel what I feel then you don't feel great
But every fuckin' day you keep on hopin', tryin'a chase the success
But I learned that you need to concentrate and that's for real though

Focus on the goal, don't stop, go
The closer you get to it the more people start to hate though
Like some people say Xen Nightz is a pussy
Because I rap about real life? You can blow me

<< hook >>
Super fuckin' focused and I owe that to my bad bitch
She got me. I got her.

Family with money is what I need to be real rich
I let go. They held on.

Super fuckin' focused and I owe that to my bad bitch
She got me. I got her.

Family with money is what I need to be real rich
I let go. They held on.
<< hook >>

Round of applause
Now let me speak
Do you think I care
What the fuck they think?

I am livin' proof
When you reach the brink
You can come back and be better than what you believed

I learn from all the people that I have surrounding me
I gotta keep good company
I'm human, they influence me

Xen Pilla taught me lots of things
My nigga truly lost his mind
In a psych ward
But now he doin' fine

Of course I'm cocky so I wanna be the best
So I put myself in situations just so I can test me
If anybody best me
I go back home and then sleep
Then dream about my flaws
Then kill 'em
Then fix me

So it's rare that you ever see me sleep
Yes I'm cocky, how else could I just think of that and speak
What I spoke
Every week
Lookin' back
Honestly
If I feel I didn't work enough or learn anything then I go crazy

<< hook >>
Super fuckin' focused and I owe that to my bad bitch
She got me. I got her.

Family with money is what I need to be real rich
I let go. They held on.

Super fuckin' focused and I owe that to my bad bitch
She got me. I got her.

Family with money is what I need to be real rich
I let go. They held on.
<< hook >>

Focused

<< hook >>
I'm just stayin' on my toes seeing what it's gon' be, any problem that arise I can work it out

I can guarantee indefinitely that they gon' eat, even if the phones off or the lights out

As the man of the house, everything is on me, I can stand a whole week and never lie down

Only reason for me living is my little ladies, yea my wifey and my daughter's what's it's all about
<< hook >>

My daughter need a shot
Don't want no chicken pocs and she got a school trip
...and it cost a lot

So I'm saving up...
Nah, no I'm not
Gettin' into hustle mode and meetin' in the parking lot

You thinkin' maybe but my pick up ain't illegal though
Believing anybody be bragging then they can bring it though

Now I can pass it off or maybe I can pass and go, but either way be deep in digging and knockin' a Domino

I'm just stayin' on my toes seeing what it's gon' be, any problem that arise I can work it out

I can guarantee indefinitely that they gon' eat, even if the phones off or the lights out

<< hook >>
I'm just stayin' on my toes seeing what it's gon' be, any problem that arise I can work it out

I can guarantee indefinitely that they gon' eat, even if the phones off or the lights out

As the man of the house, everything is on me, I can stand a whole week and never lie down

Only reason for me living is my little ladies, yea my wifey and my daughter's what's it's all about
<< hook >>

I'm damn near 30 years old havin' a flashback and everything I'm seeing and I still don't see a young Zak

Since I was young I've been old and you can see that I did everything that I had told, I'm stayin' on track 

My track record is solid just like my bank stacks, clean even thought I have swerved but I come right back

I don't rap about murder I never sold crack, very legitimate I'm a grown man, believe that

As the man of the house, everything is on me, I can stand a whole week and never lie down

Only reason for me living is my little ladies, yea my wifey and my daughter's what's it's all about

<< hook >>
I'm just stayin' on my toes seeing what it's gon' be, any problem that arise I can work it out

I can guarantee indefinitely that they gon' eat, even if the phones off or the lights out

As the man of the house, everything is on me, I can stand a whole week and never lie down

Only reason for me living is my little ladies, yea my wifey and my daughter's what's it's all about
<< hook >>

The difference between me and them is I don't bullshit
What you hear is what I did and sometimes I regret that

But I ain't lookin' back
I'm lookin' at the facts
Focused on my family 'cause home is where my heart's at

My daughter's my princess
My wife is my queen
And it may sound cliched but I guess I'm a king

I'm sittin' on my throne, in the studio I own
Paid for in cash from the money from selling these songs

I'm just stayin' on my toes seeing what it's gon' be, any problem that arise I can work it out

I can guarantee indefinitely that they gon' eat, even if the phones off or the lights out

<< hook >>
I'm just stayin' on my toes seeing what it's gon' be, any problem that arise I can work it out

I can guarantee indefinitely that they gon' eat, even if the phones off or the lights out

As the man of the house, everything is on me, I can stand a whole week and never lie down

Only reason for me living is my little ladies, yea my wifey and my daughter's what's it's all about
<< hook >>

Man Of The House

<< hook >>
Man I'm feelin' kinda bored
Let's a have a little party
You know my bar is stocked
From Nuvo to Bacardi 

Got everything you want
The girls start to get naughty
Silver plate full of drugs
I call them pills Smarties

The holes said "Whoa"
I guess I'm Charlie
Bitches turn into angels
Flyin' all around me

Girls so high
Half way retarded

The girls so high, yea they half way retarded
<< hook >>

Well well
Adidas 
Black white striped shoes

Parallel
Watch me park
Right between two coohies

I crash when I park
See them sparks then it blew
So the puss on fire so I put it out wit juice

From the dick on her clit
Then she eat the little dudes
I mean my sperm, look at this
Man that bitch a cannibal

Oh wee
Look at me
Usually I'd go to sleep
But I'm so full of drugs and I really love the beat

Who that at the door?
Gotta hide the dro
Never really knowin' what kinda woman wanna show

Never need to lie
Got an alibi 
Nigga I was chillin' wit' a California ho'

Look at that hole
Lookin' at me
Girl I'm dog
And I got keys
And I got a little bit of money kinda funny when a woman bawlin' out and hollin' out please

Well well
Look at me
Look at her
DVD

Yea we both
Couple freaks
Makin' pornography

Oh my
What's the time
I think we should go to sleep
'Cause we got a lot to tomorrow...
Ecstasy 

<< hook >>
Man I'm feelin' kinda bored
Let's a have a little party
You know my bar is stocked
From Nuvo to Bacardi 

Got everything you want
The girls start to get naughty
Silver plate full of drugs
I call them pills Smarties

The holes said "Whoa"
I guess I'm Charlie
Bitches turn into angels
Flyin' all around me

Girls so high
Half way retarded

The girls so high, yea they half way retarded
<< hook >>

Sometime I get drunk
Sometimes I'm fucked up
Sometimes I'm on my own
Sometimes I get love

Sometimes I burn a tree
Or pop a pill or three
Or fuck a woman solo
Or have an orgy

The Tims all black
I'm a black blondee
Yea that's black and yellow when I'm with my wifey, you can see 
Who said white guys only get Asian women can look at me
Man I'm married and I'm happy but gotta party and drink

Like an asshole 
after eating Tabasco 
I'm very fucking hot but you wanted to suck me and so

We all up in the spot 
I'm removing yo panties so slow
We all up in the club when I look and I see my S.O.

Party's Over, get the fuck up off my dick
You don't really wanna see this woman flip and start to trip
I was gone off that X.O. and plenty bong hits
When I dropped off that pill in my gut now I quit

<< hook >>
Man I'm feelin' kinda bored
Let's a have a little party
You know my bar is stocked
From Nuvo to Bacardi 

Got everything you want
The girls start to get naughty
Silver plate full of drugs
I call them pills Smarties

The holes said "Whoa"
I guess I'm Charlie
Bitches turn into angels
Flyin' all around me

Girls so high
Half way retarded

The girls so high, yea they half way retarded
<< hook >>

Party

<< hook >>
Super bad bitch
She killin' me
With a face like that I think I never seen

Such a bad bitch
She killing me
Man I never cheated sober but with her I think...

Super bad bitch
She killin' me
With a face like that I think I never seen

Such a bad bitch
She killing me
Man I never cheated sober but with her I think...
<< hook >>

I had a lotta women
But only one with feeling
But I'm telling you dawg, she's one in 7 billion
A super bad bitch, I mean she fucking kill it
Just for seeing her walking away I'd pay a million

Don't call her fucking hot
That don't describe her dawg
She would be an angel if there really was a god
Now let me fucking see 
What kind a chick is she?
Maybe she's a fucking psycho and she might be

I know she give it up but I just wonder to what kind
Is it the type a nigga that always be telling lies 
I know it ain't the type of nigga that tell her she fine
'Cause she gotta hear that everyday like a million times 

Real talk
I seen her and I got lost
I was driving 25 and almost crash the car

Nantucket
Give me a cup and I will chug it
I mean her nectar juice I'd lick it up and then I'd fuck it

<< hook >>
Yea that's my bad bitch
She killin' me
With a face like that I think I never seen

Such a bad bitch
She killing me
Man I never cheated sober but with her I think...

Super bad bitch
She killin' me
With a face like that I think I never seen

Such a bad bitch
She killing me
Man I never cheated sober but with her I think...
<< hook >>

Yea that's a bad bitch
She ain't even think
She 5 foot and skinny but I swear I'm loving it

I seen her out alone
And I wanna know
Where her man at, I know she never solo

So where your man at?
Is he at home?
Man, that nigga must be dumber than a stone gnome
If you were my chick 
And I ain't talkin' shit
I would marry you tomorrow and give you a kid

Well guess what? That's exactly what I fuckin' did
Got married in '07, in '08 we had a kid
Yea, that's my bad bitch
I mean my fuckin' wife
And I'll love her 'til the point that I fuckin' die

She got me
I got her
She love me
I love her

She ain't ever cheat
After all the shit
She's been faithful and waiting 'til I called it quits

<< hook >>
Yea that's my bad bitch
She savin' me
Stuck with me even after telling' everything

Yea that's my bad bitch
Wifey
Yes I'm a dog, but she never bit me

Yea that's my bad bitch
She savin' me
Stuck with me even after telling' everything

Yea that's my bad bitch
Wifey
Yes I'm a dog, but she never bit me

Super bad bitch
She killing me
With a face like that I think I never seen

Such bad bitch
She killin' me
Man I never cheated sober but with her I think...

Super bad bitch
She killing me
With a face like that I think I never seen

Such bad bitch
She killin' me
Man I never cheated sober but with her I think...
<< hook >>

Super Bad

Whenever I'm alone
I feel I truly might
Jump out the window even though I love my kid and wife

But if I drop a pill it feels like everything's alright 
And that's why it's so hard to let it go
But I still try

I love it when I'm high
Can barely open eyes
That is my only hope
Of relaxing at night

But if I got no drugs, no marijuana and no pills
I turn to alcohol to fill this hole I feel

<< hook >>
I've Been So Long Gone
I've Been So Long Gone 
I've Been So Long Gone 
I've Been So Long Gone 
<< hook >>

It's been a minute since anyone's seen the real Zak
...actually if I think about it, a matter' fact
Ain't no body ever really seen the real me
Except my wife, and my daughter and my nigga P

But this is different now
No more keeping it down
I feel like tellin' ya'll
What I am all about

If you understand my music then you're hearing me
But if you ain't hearin' me you ain't understanding me

I've been so long gone

For 10 years my mind's been lost
But finally realizing the costs
Man I'm off that shit

I've been so long gone

Mentally weak and strong
Some people can relate
Life is right or wrong
Depending on the day

I've been so long gone

Tell me it feels like its real
Even though I know it's just the pills
But still

I've been so long gone

I don't really wanna let it go
I'm happy when I'm on it
So come on
Let's roll

<< hook >>
I've Been So Long Gone
I've Been So Long Gone 
I've Been So Long Gone 
I've Been So Long Gone 
<< hook >>

So Long Gone

Verse 1]
I'm a grown ass man and I know what I like
When I see what I want I cannot waste time
if the girl is a cutie and booty is nice
Alright, I'll have it by tonight

[Hook]
I want your
Boo di di, boo di di di di, boo di di, boo di di di di
Boo di di, boo di di di di, boo di di, boo di di di di
Boo di di, boo di di di di, boo di di, boo di di di di
Boo di di, boo di di di di, boo di di, boo di di di di

You want my booty huh?
I want your booty, yea!
You like my booty huh?
I love that booty, yea!

You want my booty huh?
I want your booty, yea!
You like my booty huh?
I love your booty, yea!

[Verse 2]
I Dj in the club so I got a good eye
I can make out a freak in the dark or the light
When I'm all on my own at the end of a night
Alright, I see one that is nice

[Hook]
I want your
Boo di di, boo di di di di, boo di di, boo di di di di
Boo di di, boo di di di di, boo di di, boo di di di di
Boo di di, boo di di di di, boo di di, boo di di di di
Boo di di, boo di di di di, boo di di, boo di di di di

You want my booty huh?
I want your booty, yea!
You like my booty huh?
I love that booty, yea

You want my booty huh?
I want your booty, yea!
You like my booty huh?
I love your booty, yea!

[Verse 3]
I'd just like to ride your butt
In the middle of the week we can do it at lunch, baby
I'd just like to ride your butt
In the middle of the week we can do it at lunch, ay

[Bridge]
Could you possibly rewind and come again?
More fire!
Ay!

[Hook, repeated]
Boo di di, boo di di di di, boo di di, boo di di di di

Boodidi

The Cunt Symphony, with Johann Sebastian Bach & Wolfgang Amadeus Mozart

Kamikaze

I Know You Dont Know What I Know (feat. YaThatIsAll)

Nobody

Zak Malik

NEW OLD'S COOL

Unknown

Insomnia Remix (feat. Craig David)

Organized Confusion

Falling In Your Love

Now I'm Sitting Talking to Myself

Chasing The Buzz

Godz III

Hard

[Hook: Drake]
I say fuck ya unless I’m with ya
If I take you outta the picture
I know real niggas won’t miss ya
No lie, no lie, no lie
No lie, no lie, no lie

[Verse 1: Xen Nightz]
All this liquor make me wanna lick her
Molly make me wanna kiss her
Drinking got me still drinking
I'll pickle my liver
It's XO for S.O. and vodka for bitches
Moscato or Moet for all three of my mistresses

Yea I know my shit fucking stink

Bitch what the fuck do you think?
Ain't nothing wrong with my brain
I know the shit that I say

For example, "I'm an asshole"

Told you that I would be late
You didn't ask why but I told you anyway

Was fucking another girl

But you thought that it was all fake
You thought that I was just joking
But what the joker did say?
No lie, no lie, no lie
You tried, you tried
But I am not that guy, yep

[Hook: Drake]
I say fuck ya unless I’m with ya
If I take you outta the picture
I know real niggas won’t miss ya
No lie, no lie, no lie
No lie, no lie, no lie

[Verse 2: Xen Nightz]
I pledge allegiance don't love no ho
You cheating with me and that lets me know
Better believing your body got a hole in your soul
You would probably cheat on me if I had married you, ho

Come on
Bitch you know
Why you acting mad 'cause I fucked with your girl
You been cheating on your fucking husband with me
So why you getting jealous? Girl you need to release

I mean god damn, bitch it's just sad
You fucked the whole god damn town
When I said I want that ass
I meant only fuck around
No lie, no lie, no lie
You tried, you tried
But I am not that guy, nope

[Hook: Drake]
I say fuck ya unless I’m with ya
If I take you outta the picture
I know real niggas won’t miss ya
No lie, no lie, no lie
No lie, no lie, no lie

No Lie Remix (feat. Drake)

The Father (feat. Nicholas Britell) [Main Title Theme From the HBO Original Series "Succession"]

In The Morning [incomplete]

My Own Worst Enemy [incomplete]

We Are A Family (feat. Samira, Inaya & Amir)

That's OK

Wow [incomplete]

Now I Know About You [incomplete]

Bottles On The Shelf

Drank Drank Drank Smoke [incomplete]

Rich Nigga Problems

2 Cop Cars (feat. Young Sire)

<< hook >>
They don't know
They don't know
What I'm plottin' when I get into my zone
Even though I never keep it low, I tell a girl straight to her face she's just a "hole"

They don't know
They don't know
What I plan to do when I get in their my zone
Even though I never keep it low, I bust it off straight into the puss' and then I'm gone
<< hook >>

I'm super fucking freaky so these bitches wanna fuck with me
How many fuckin' times I made these bitches have puppies?
I'm building up a arsenal of children, that's my army
In 20 years I take over the world, humans love me
I'm fuckin' and bustin' in Russians and Asians and Mexicans 
And Americans. I got 4 kids that's Italian
French bitches, 2 of them, and 3 from England
Nigga i go crazy hard, alcohol's my Retalin

Very not religious but will take over the government
A very vocal Pastafarian, oh shit, look at this
I'm not poor but a nigga still ain't rich
Let take me take another hit
Let me fuck another bitch

Why not?
Real shit
Man I'm drinking while I'm writing this
That's why the lyrics haven't yet made sense
But it will, on the next verse the details I'll fill
And that's when all them niggas'll be like
"Damn niggas real!"
Real talk

<< hook >>
They don't know
They don't know
What I'm plottin' when I get into my zone
Even though I never keep it low, I tell a girl straight to her face she's just a "hole"

They don't know
They don't know
What I plan to do when I get in their my zone
Even though I never keep it low, I bust it off straight into the puss' and then I'm gone
<< hook >>

First of all, Pilla go tell em I'm back on the track and I'm more wild
Nigga been chillin' and sippin' on Belvedere, body resemble a dope house
They told me to turn it up more loud
And speed it up 'til they say "oh wow"
Pilla been tellin' me people are ready so now we gon' drop it on Chi Town

I live in a party, my water's Bacardi, my girl do Pilates, my bank gettin' money, my life full of honey, it's stupid and funny, I'm rollin' and pokin' in Playboy Bunnies

Crazy and I fucking know
I'm serious, it ain't a joke
I'm standing in my sandals wit' a candle on a mother fucking boat

Whoa, hold on
Let me get into my zone
Nigga pass me the drink
Nigga pass me the dro
Nigga call up that hole and tell her bring us some coke
Women quick to get ready when my number call their phone

2007 I told 'em it's on
Countin' up how many women I boned
How many women I busted' inside
How many women I sold and I own
Nigga I'm a crazy heartbreaking asshole
my flow is fucking hot but my heart is super cold 

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They don't know
They don't know
What I'm plottin' when I get into my zone
Even though I never keep it low, I tell a girl straight to her face she's just a "hole"

They don't know
They don't know
What I plan to do when I get in their my zone
Even though I never keep it low, I bust it off straight into the puss' and then I'm gone
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I'm feelin' like killin' like penicillin
These niggas are sick and the women be ill'er 
They're needin' a dealer to double their dose 
And they didn't, I did it and then they're addicted
Now didn't I give 'em enough of my Retalin
Alcohol live in their liver delivering
Deadliest doses of inhibition I take off her clothes and I'm putting' my dick in
Breaking' her back and pulling' her ligaments 
Wake in the morning it wasn't a figment
Yes girl I did it I came and I'm meaning' it
You gonna bare my children bitch
You gonna bare my children bitch
You gonna bare my children bitch
I'm building up a mother fucking army in this bitch
real talk

Based On A True Story (They Don't Know)

<< hook >>
Sometimes it seems impossible to know
Am I really alive or maybe I have died?
'Cause it feels like a dream
Let me live in my dream
Let me live in my dream
Let me live in my dream

I'm sleepin', I'm awake or I dunno
Did I really survive or am I comatose?
'Cause it feels like a dream
Let me live in my dream
Let me live in my dream
Let me live in my dream
<< hook >>

I'm walkin' down the street and I see people but I feel alone
Feels like I'm unconscious, is it nonsense? Where do I belong?
Tell me, am I in my zone? Or is it the drugs I'm on? 
Maybe none of this is real. Why can't I fuckin' find my home? 

And nope. I ain't even coked up off of coke. I cannot choke.
When I'm "Focused" I can do it but I need to be woke
And right now it feels like I'm dreamin'. 
Subconscious is plottin' and scheming. Dreamin'...

<< hook >>
Sometimes it seems impossible to know
Am I really alive or maybe I have died?
'Cause it feels like a dream
Let me live in my dream
Let me live in my dream
Let me live in my dream

I'm sleepin', I'm awake or I dunno
Did I really survive or am I comatose?
'Cause it feels like a dream
Let me live in my dream
Let me live in my dream
Let me live in my dream
<< hook >>

I'm sleeping then waking up living a dream
How can I cannot go think what I think?
How can I wake up but cannot recall
When I was sleepy and fallin' asleep?

Somebody shock me and take my ass home
Maybe I live here or maybe I don't
Maybe everything is all in my mind
Maybe it's set up. And maybe I'm lyin'...

Maybe I'm feelin' needs right at this moment that I never had before, I want to show it and tell every lady that I've been ignoring 
That I'm feelin' sorry for bonin' and rollin'. Now tell me, am I in my zone? 
Or is it the drugs I'm on? 
Maybe none of this is real. 
Why can't I fuckin' find my home and whoa

Now I'm feelin' lonely, I don't know if I should know
Everything I know 'cause it's depressing and it shows
That we're only human and I hate that
Probably because I'm weak. Fuck havin' heart attacks

I tried to kill myself 'cause I thought it's the best escape
But now I'm feelin' guilty, worried it was a mistake 
'Cause I don't know if I'm alive, but just for my family's sake
I'm hopin' that I didn't die. Sorry for my mental state....

<< hook >>
Sometimes it seems impossible to know
Am I really alive or maybe I have died?
'Cause it feels like a dream
Let me live in my dream
Let me live in my dream
Let me live in my dream

I'm sleepin', I'm awake or I dunno
Did I really survive or am I comatose?
'Cause it feels like a dream
Let me live in my dream
Let me live in my dream
Let me live in my dream
<< hook >>

Dream Life

You ever had this situation where you're laughing at yourself
Drunk me knockin' bottles off the shelf
Sittin' on the ground bleedin', thinkin' it's someone else
You don't really wanna go
You don't really wanna help

All alone in my studio
Listenin' to me
Drownin' in my own thoughts

I'm sittin' staring down the barrel of an alcoholic gun
6 shots to my head, I ain't dead and I done
I need 4 more fuckin' rounds
Load your bullets, I don't run
Fuck it I'll take alone, murderin' my liver's fun

If you wanna line up Coke
Fuck it I'll take in the throat
Used to love it my nose 'til I seen that shit hurt
Not me but mi familia, the money wasn't worth
Spendin' on a cheap thrill, or expensive at the most

<< hook >>
6 bottles are empty on the shelf
It's only been a week and it ain't no body else
Fuck it, I did it, liquor is what I consider my wealth 
Keep me cool, calm down, this is healthy for my health

12 bottles are empty on the shelf
It's only been 2 weeks and it ain't no body else
Fuck it, I did it, liquor is what I consider my wealth 
Keep me cool, calm down, this is healthy for my health
<< hook >>

I'm fuckin' drunk
At fuckin' lunch
They don't know
But got a hunch 

Probably the smell
But they can't tell
I walk normal
And I speak well

A functional fuckin' alcoholic is what I be
Or maybe that's an excuse that I give myself to cope wit' me
I know I got a problem I'm not fuckin' retarded
The only problem is the people that call me alcoholic

Zak Danny spokesman
Look at what I posted
Effen vodka advertising on my site for hosting
Jacko Danny Honey, I ain't runnin' man I'm coastin'
And Nuvo yellow 20 bottles in my office open

Lets pop and leave a proper proposal to vote
Should I fucking drink it or take me a toke?
I'm only fucking kidding I'm doin em both, lighting up and pouring while I'm drinking and smoking a bowl

<< hook >>
18 empty bottles on the shelf
Its only been three weeks and it ain't no body else
Fuck it, I did it, liquor is what I consider my wealth 
Keep me cool, calm down, this is healthy for my health

24 bottles up on my shelf
Only been a few weeks and it ain't no body else
Fuck it, I did it, liquor is what I consider my wealth 
Keep me cool, calm down, this is healthy for my health
<< hook >>

<< hook >>
better if you left me 'lone
you ain't ever seen a nigga like me go
I beat the boy like "dum da da dum dum do"
I beat the boy like "dum da da dum dum do"
<< hook >>

I changed up everything when Pilla told me keep it real
that's when I started spittin' about shit I really feel
so I finally admitted that I tried to kill...
myself, but got plenty more beans to spill

I love my family, that's obvious, ya'll know the deal
been tryin'a make money for them and tryin'a hit a mil
but they are not the only family that I have got
I got a couple kids in other countries, shit you not

now you start to see the shit that really bothers me
it's all because of being drunk and fuckin' randomly
and I never would admit that, no
but I feel better now that I have told you

that ain't the only thing that I was doin' secretly, no
I been a real pimp and sold drugs consistently, yea
for a few years and that's why the mafia and me was always tight
and why i never had no beef

<< hook >>
better if they left me 'lone
they ain't ever seen a nigga like me go
I beat the boy like "dum da da dum dum do"
I beat the boy like "dum da da dum dum do"

better if you left me 'lone
you ain't ever seen a nigga like me go
I beat the boy like "dum da da dum dum do"
I beat the boy like "dum da da dum dum do"
<< hook >>

this is the reality
my mind is like a fallacy
slowly losin' my sanity
or maybe my mentality is simply 
somethin' that they never ever known
if need be, alcohol can get me in the zone

but can see that I heed to advice and believe that
if I never did that then I would be locked in a jail cell or straightjack'ed
insane asylum from the time my brain snapped
all because of drugs but I fixed that and came back

now here I am
2012 and all I'm sayin'
is that I never reached the point that I had always planned
and so I keep it real and admit that I failed again
but it's the only way to grow and learn and so I am
spillin' every bean and seed and admit it's because of greed that I never did make it because I refused so many things

like lower pay
for certain key important shows 
but the real reason is because I didn't know if I was good enough

<< hook >>
better if they left me 'lone
they ain't ever seen a nigga like me go
I beat the boy like "dum da da dum dum do"
I beat the boy like "dum da da dum dum do"

better if you left me 'lone
you ain't ever seen a nigga like me go
I beat the boy like "dum da da dum dum do"
I beat the boy like "dum da da dum dum do"
<< hook >>

every time I seem to rap it seem I say the same thing
that I got plenty problems but plenty mo' people have the same
I never said that I was special
this was not a claim to fame
this was me gettin' shit off my chest usin' my stage name

Enigma, Xen Nightz or Genie
The Dick Hang Low, Licky Licky
2006 they Watchin' Me
I started when I was skinny
and now that my belly done grown
it feels like I should be alone

Mr. Asshole
Mr. Fuck-n-Go
Mr. Hurt Her
Mr. Pimp-a-Ho
Mr. Drugged Up
Mister? What the fuck?
Mr. Drunk Rapper?
Mr…aw shucks!

I'm wearin' sandals
I need a damn boat
holdin' a candle 
for when the sun low
where did the flow go?
they told me "hold on"
I changed the shit up
and they say "oh no"

<< hook >>
better if they left me 'lone
they ain't ever seen a nigga like me go
I beat the boy like "dum da da dum dum do"
I beat the boy like "dum da da dum dum do"

better if you left me 'lone
you ain't ever seen a nigga like me go
I beat the boy like "dum da da dum dum do"
I beat the boy like "dum da da dum dum do"

better if they left me 'lone
they ain't ever seen a nigga like me go
I beat the boy like "dum da da dum dum do"
I beat the boy like "dum da da dum dum do"

better if you left me 'lone
you ain't ever seen a nigga like me go
I beat the boy like "dum da da dum dum do"
I beat the boy like "dum da da dum dum do"
<< hook >>

Left 'lone

Zak "Xen Nightz" Malik is a multi-genre recording artist, DJ, writer, producer and engineer from Chicago, USA that has resided in China since 2002.

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