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Lyricism:

When it's cold in your life anyone barely around
When you feel like dying anyone barely around
These feelings that we got you and i

When it's cold in your life anyone barely around
When you feel like dying anyone barely around
These feelings that we got you and i
You and i are gonna live life like this

It's a gift and a curse to be alive
Do you got the power to move on in this life
Do you got the faith to stay alive
Do you got the time

I know that you feel as drained as me
I know that you feel as tired as me
And i know that you feel like dying like me
Yuh like me

Why the clouds in the sky
Remind me of the time
When it rains
Sad vibes on my phone
And it's raining looking out the window all alone
Looking at your phone who is on
Thinking about your home
Where will you go
I say all my friends are dead
Rather have you around
Question is do you wanna be around

When it's cold in your life anyone barely around
When you feel like dying anyone barely around
These feelings that we got you and i
You and i are gonna live life like this

It's a gift and a curse to be alive
Do you got the power to move on in this life
Do you got the faith to stay alive
Do you got the time

it's cold (prod. sadface x 5head)

It's Cold (prod. sadface x 5head)

Lyricism:

She wanna fuxk wit a rockstar 
She wanna talk with a rockstar 
She wanna fuxk wit a rockstar 

Blood dripping off your wrist 
Tattoos on your chest 
Memories when i reminisce 
Your face in my head 

Blood dripping off your wrist 
Tattoos on your chest 
Memories when i reminisce 
Your face in my head 

You I could never forget 
Cause you’re always in my brain
Cause you’re always in my frame
And driving me insane


Pistol to my head if I could 
Push it to my head if i would 
But i won't
You're asleep when i'm working
Love ain't for me cause i'm hurting
Used to care where i'll go when i die
But lately i don't care if i die
Cause my heart feeling like it's cold
Cause ima be 6 feet and gone 
Just like i was deep in your hoe 
Y'all never gave a fuxk when i was around 
Y'all won't give a fuxk when i'm not around

She wanna fuxk wit a rockstar 
She wanna talk with a rockstar 
She wanna fuxk wit a rockstar 


Blood dripping off your wrist 
Tattoos on your chest 
Memories when i reminisce 
Your face in my head 

Blood dripping off your wrist 
Tattoos on your chest 
Memories when i reminisce 
Your face in my head 

Blood dripping off your wrist 
Tattoos on your chest 
Memories when i reminisce 
Your face in my head

Tattoo Girl (prod.flower x @prod.fonkyfake  )

Lyricism:

Dancing to her song
Feeling like i’m gone
Dancing for my soul
Feeling like she won

Dancing to her song
Feeling like i’m gone
Dancing for my soul
Feeling like she won

I can’t read minds, you expect me to read yours
You expect me to be yours, you expect me to be
Bitches wanna talk, but i don’t talk
I just wanna fuxk, i just wanna fuxk
I just wanna rock, i just wanna rock

You know my type, yuno (gasai) is my type
Shortie got me on strings, now she want a ring
Saying i can’t leave, now she got me

Dancing to her song
Feeling like i’m gone
Dancing for my soul
Feeling like she won

Dancing to her song
Feeling like i’m gone
Dancing for my soul
Feeling like she won

Dancing to her song
Feeling like i’m gone
Dancing for my soul
Feeling like she won

Dancing to her song
Feeling like i’m gone
Dancing for my soul
Feeling like she won

dancing to her song ( prod.kvdn)

dancing to her song (prod.kvdn)

Lyricism:

Dancing in the dark
With my demons in my heart
Tearing me apart
Smile on my face
Tears down my face

Dancing in the dark
With my demons in my heart
Tearing me apart
Smile on my face
Tears down my face

Drink drink drink just so you pass out
Dream dream dream till you can't wake up
And go to a better place, and go to your dreams
All the money in the world won't make you happy
And the drugs long term won't make you happy
Cause everything seems to be temporary
Even the ones that love you
Don't really love you forever
I stay fuxked up on the low
Yuh i don't wanna talk
I don't know, where my thoughts at
So go, go back home and leave me alone
Eternally falling in my brain
Eternally drowning in my pain
Turns out you don't love yourself enough
So how could you love someone else
Pain,pain, pain

Dancing in the dark
With my demons in my heart
Tearing me apart
Smile on my face
Tears down my face

Dancing in the dark
With my demons in my heart
Tearing me apart
Smile on my face
Tears down my face

Dancing in the dark
With my demons in my heart
Tearing me apart
Smile on my face
Tears down my face

dancing in the dark (prod. p4ra x utrab)

Lyricism:

Don’t inhale all the smoke
Fuxk with them if it is what you know
Strangers crawling around in your fuxking room
You don’t know what it is to do

Don’t inhale all the smoke
Fuxk with them if it is what you know
Strangers crawling around in your fuxking room
You don’t know what it is to do

Snowdrop in this cave
It’s winter and you’re late
Coming to visit my grave
I been sitting here lost and alone
Had time to think yuh i’m on
Still sad as always
Depression trynna control me
Numb inside
Lost in time
I’m not alright
Love ain’t for me but that’s okay
Drowning again and that’s okay

Don’t inhale all the smoke
Fuxk with them if it is what you know
Strangers crawling around in your fuxking room
You don’t know what it is to do

Don’t inhale all the smoke
Fuxk with them if it is what you know
Strangers crawling around in your fuxking room
You don’t know what it is to do

I got demons lurking
In my chest and it’s hurtin
Thought i was heartless but it’s hurtin
I did better for you

Roto:

'Member all the lies you told
Bad crash, crashed the whip, it towed
Blow up gas to exhale my soul
I been stuck up in the night, no dawn
I'm not one to be holdin' on
Fuck it I'ma let it go
Huh, go and find a rope

Xenru:

Don’t inhale all the smoke
Fuxk with them if it is what you know
Strangers crawling around in your fuxking room
You don’t know what it is to do

Don’t inhale all the smoke
Fuxk with them if it is what you know
Strangers crawling around in your fuxking room
You don’t know what it is to do

Inhale @xenrusnow x @rotodies (prod. sadface)

Inhale @xenrudas x @rotodies (prod. sadface)

Lyricism:

Wrist drip full of ice
My heart it's feeling so slow
My words i be slurring
Lost in this world i be drowning

Wrist drip full of ice
My heart it's feeling so slow
My words i be slurring
Lost in this world i be drowning

I see the mark everywhere i go
I see the mark everywhere i go
I feel the vibes and they be really low
I feel the vibes when i'm fuxkin alone
Can you hear the birds calling outside
I feel like they're telling me to go home
But i have no place that i can call home
I feel like they're telling me to go home
But i have no place that i can call home

I can't trust no bitch nowadays
I got demons on my shoulders
Everywhere i go it get colder
And everywhere i go i feel alone
Sometimes i feel like my friends want me dead
Cause i feel like i'm my only friend
I don't mind being alone, alone, alone
I just want you to go, go, go
Instead of making fake promises

If i die today
You wouldn't care about me
And if i cry today
You wouldn't care about me

Yuh i just wanna drown in some fuxkin pills
Yuh i don't wanna fuxkin drown in my feels
I just wanna fuxkin drown in what feels real
Yuh i can't think about you anymore
I don't wanna think about you anymore

I'm falling down again
But i'm done falling now

Wrist drip full of ice
My heart it's feeling so slow
My words i be slurring
Lost in this world i be drowning

Wrist drip full of ice
My heart it's feeling so slow
My words i be slurring
Lost in this world i be drowning

pills and fantasy (prod. sadface x 5head)

Lyricism:

Fighting again in the dark
Fighting myself and i’m numb
Dying again on my own
Reload the pain and leave a mark yuh

Fighting again in the dark
Fighting myself and i’m numb
Dying again on my own
Reload the pain and leave a mark yuh

Yuh she wanna feel me up
Bitch really feelin drunk
Rockstar in a cave
Fuxked up i'm okay
I'm not.. okay

Blurry vision when i'm fuxked up
Barely vivid what i've done
Really reading between the lines
Stars next to the moon
I love the way that you move
What you say i don't hear it
It's a metaphor for my pain

I can tell you again and again i'm not okay
But at the end of the day you wouldn't be here anyway
So stop asking how i feel

Fighting again in the dark
Fighting myself and i’m numb
Dying again on my own
Reload the pain and leave a mark yuh

Fighting again in the dark
Fighting myself and i’m numb
Dying again on my own
Reload the pain and leave a mark yuh

Fighting again in the dark
Fighting myself and i’m numb
Dying again on my own
Reload the pain and leave a mark yuh

Reload The Pain(prod. sadface x @prod5head )

Reload the Pain (prod. sadface x @prod5head )

Lyricism:

Yeah it’s a different way to cope with the pain
Trynna let go of the pain
Trynna let go so i’ll be okay

Yeah it’s a different way to cope with the pain
Trynna let go of the pain
Trynna let go so i’ll be okay

I don’t want my heart you can have it
That’s a bad habit, that’s a bad habit
I can’t seem to learn from my past
I can’t seem to learn from my past
It’s like 3 at night and all you wanna do is fuxk
It’s like 3 at night and all you wanna do is love
And if i can’t be here tonight all you wanna do is drugs

Okay but it ain’t love
I don’t wanna make up just to break up
I don’t wanna fuxk with you if i can’t love
And she wanna fuxk with a vampire like us
And i only wanna be in her guts if it’s love

Yeah it’s a different way to cope with the pain
Trynna let go of the pain
Trynna let go so i’ll be okay

Yeah it’s a different way to cope with the pain
Trynna let go of the pain
Trynna let go so i’ll be okay

Roto:

I'm tryna let go, oh baby my heart froze
Bad habits, bad habits, got me lotta those
I'm saddened, so sad, dying as the night goes
Know you like to play, but tell me what real

Say you love me, next you tryna dump me
Then you lonely, oh that kinda funny
You like a boomerang coming back to me
And I'll still take you back, my bad habit

Xenru:

I don’t wanna make up just to break up
I don’t wanna fuxk with you if i can’t love
And she wanna fuxk with a vampire like us
And i only wanna be in her guts if it’s love

Yeah it’s a different way to cope with the pain
Trynna let go of the pain
Trynna let go so i’ll be okay

Yeah it’s a different way to cope with the pain
Trynna let go of the pain
Trynna let go so i’ll be okay

Bad Habits

Bad Habits feat. Roto (prod. sadface x 5head)

Lyricism:

I feel cold when a bih try to replace me
I feel cold when a bih try to play me
I feel snow when a bitch say she hate me
I go on D N D

I feel cold when a bih try to replace me
I feel cold when a bih try to play me
I feel snow when a bitch say she hate me
I go on D N D

Winter The Snow that's a vibe
Yuh and i can't i can't fuxk with you cause you lied
Now she wanna call me a slut cause i'm better
But i'd rather talk to her later 
Yuh see you never

Pain too great for me to care 
Racing death again 
And i'm racing time again 

Only thing that moves so slow is the snow
Only thing that moves so slow is the snow
Except me when i move so slow
You can see the blood on the snow
Always anime fighting this life 

I feel cold when a bih try to replace me
I feel cold when a bih try to play me
I feel snow when a bitch say she hate me
I go on D N D

I feel cold when a bih try to replace me
I feel cold when a bih try to play me
I feel snow when a bitch say she hate me
I go on D N D

I'm probably dead again 
Emotions fade again
I'm trying to stay sane
Keep myself from blowing my brain
In the garden full of hate 
Full of pain 
This shit is so lame

Only thing that moves so slow is the snow
Only thing that moves so slow is the snow
Except me when i move so slow
You can see the blood on the snow

I feel cold when a bih try to replace me
I feel cold when a bih try to play me
I feel snow when a bitch say she hate me
I go on D N D

I feel cold when a bih try to replace me
I feel cold when a bih try to play me
I feel snow when a bitch say she hate me
I go on D N D

Snow (prod. sadface x @5head )

Cold Blood (prod. sadface x @5head )

Lyricism:

Stuck in my lucid dreams
And i'm numb, done
Done fuxking with you
Cause you're gone

Stuck in my lucid dreams
And i'm numb, done
Done fuxking with you
Cause you're gone

Sleep during the daytime
I'm up when it's night time
Memories with me
Enemies i see
Demons that i feel
In my head
Trynna end up dead

I used to love you
But now i don't care
I used to want you
But now i don't care
Cause i found out who you really are
And nowadays i'm at peace in my head

Stuck in my lucid dreams
And i'm numb, done
Done fuxking with you
Cause you're gone

Stuck in my lucid dreams
And i'm numb, done
Done fuxking with you
Cause you're gone

Hate real life so i get lost in my mind
Dreaming about you and i
Slowly this shit turned to a nightmare
I’m lonely but i’d rather see the nightmare
I'd worry but i’m already fuxking dead
Say you love me but i know you don’t fuxking care
You’ll smoke my ashes after i’m dead
I could give two fuxks what you on

Yuh it’s a nice life now that you’re gone
I could give two fuxks what you on
Yuh it’s a nice life now that you’re gone
I could give two fuxks what you on

Stuck in my lucid dreams
And i'm numb, done
Done fuxking with you
Cause you're gone

Stuck in my lucid dreams
And i'm numb, done
Done fuxking with you
Cause you're gone

smoke my ashes (prod. sadface x guala beatz)

This is a random project i wasn't gonna release but whatever here you go 
Lyricism:

I can't get caught up with no fuxking drugs
I can't get caught up with no fuxking love
I can't get caught up messing with my life
I swear i already died a hundred times

I can't get caught up with no fuxking drugs
I can't get caught up with no fuxking love
I can't get caught up messing with my life
I swear i already died a hundred times

Yeah i can't say i love her when i know i don't
But she can say she love me even when she don't 
Playing these games with my dome
You love me i say put it in my grave yuh
She say she want me i say fuxking go away
I'm tired of the lies and i'm tired of the-
Tired of the lies and i'm tired of the games that she play with me
Tired of the games that she play with me
Tired of the pain that she gave me
And i'm tired of feeling the same way 
So i said go away

I can't get caught up with no fuxking drugs
I can't get caught up with no fuxking love
I can't get caught up messing with my life
I swear i already died a hundred times

I can't get caught up with no fuxking drugs
I can't get caught up with no fuxking love
I can't get caught up messing with my life
I swear i already died a hundred times

I'm probably dead again

𝙵𝚄𝚇𝙺!

idk what to do but i left this music behind.
I wish to spread positive vibes but I’m also here to just vent on my music. I be vibin wit my vro Bekki.

Xenru

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