Damnit!!!! I am going insane.....I hope you still watch me....and i'm not sitting here typing to nothing like a crazy person.....
But damnit, Josh...
I miss you so fucking much...
It eats at me every single day...
I can't let you go.
My heart won't let you go!....
I still love you...
I still think about you every day....
I hope and pray one day I come on and see something from you....or even a sign that you think of me....or even care....
Starting to think you don't...and even that won't stop my heart from loving you...
I miss you my dearest phoenix....
I love you....
And I hope one day we can meet again....

xGingersnapx