the sequel to digital psychosis, "psych ward valentine" will be coming out this valentines day. last valentine's day I went in for extreme suicidal behavior. this year I feel like I'm in a better spot mentally surrounded myself by friends who love me for the person I am. making music that I enjoy and others tell me they enjoy too. this will have tracks ranging from postpunk ,slowcore , darkwave , psychedelicrock, alternativeindie, ethereal , and shoegazemetal. I test different vocal ranges in this project. I'm still always learning and experimenting with my music and would love to take you with me. I appreciate you all, even the ones who don't listen to my music and wish you nothing but unconditional love.

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Playground Love(2000) - AIR cover / 20240610 - studio

From the album "town" (DWL020)

deaddrunkwithlove.com/dwl020

town

kitchen - sick syl

this time is different
i feel different
lost under tension
fateful companion
your skin is frozen
my wounds closing
you overestimate
the ones you love the steps you take
i want us to be best friends but
maybe baby i cant pretend
when im asleep
is when you call me
don't talk too deep
we'll be sorry
find hope in nothing
we are nothing
i want us to be until the end
maybe baby i cant pretend

the pictures on my phone are all of you

Heat Death - EP

Wishing - Heat Death

see myself in a screen
wasting days, counting weeks
getting more familiar with how you speak
while you're away from me
but i don't want to say goodbye
because it's safer when i'm by your side
i want to be near you
like i'm meant to

but hey
i think it's going to be alright
when we're sleeping and i'm by your side
i want to learn to fly
but it's safer when i stay inside

i want you
but the monster
won't let me
escape here

by your side

sum icky things i think abt myself

this suxx but its k

i'm doing well i guess ｡.｡:+♡*♥

so i heard you wanted me to go, and i'd leave but you'd see my lingering ghost 
cause you never said goodbye 
and you couldn't look me in my eyes
i see you, can you see me? i see you
i see you can you see me i see you

do you still want me to leave

thank u bryce tea for helping with this track

further within

jordan's Album

bus seat colors (w/ rain pls)

i know my worth now so the lyrics don’t apply anymore but here's some late night thoughts 😸

lyrics:
you ruined all my favorite colors
you tainted the nights we spent together 
nothing is the same
my perception has changed
you ruined the way i look at myself

maybe if i had longer hair
or acted like i didn’t care at all
or maybe if i was conventional 
or maybe more predictable

maybe if i was better, we would’ve stayed together

maybe if i took my pills 
or better yet, didn’t need them at all
maybe if i had “bigger boobs” or a “fat ass” to please you

maybe if i was better, we would’ve stayed together 

you said i was enough
then you found someone else
now i’ve thrown away all your stuff
i wish i could’ve been enough 

maybe if i was better, we would’ve stayed together 

//
wow it’s been a year since i’ve posted??? i’ve written hella songs, i just haven’t got around to recording/posting. hopefully by the end of the year my ep will be out!2!1

if i was better

pain
slowcore nu-gaze nu-wave experimental postpunk

run

xójira

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