prod. yungspoiler
if ur suffering from drug addiction or know someone who is pls get help here ❤: 1-800-662-4357
notes: this is my first song (ﾉ◕ヮ◕)ﾉ*:･ﾟ✧

lyrics:

[intro]
i feel so sick
i feel so bad
every morning i wake up
and i’m so sad
and i’m thinking bout
all the fun times we’ve had
and i’m losing my mind
i’m going mad  

[verse 1]
i feel so sick
i feel so bad
every morning i wake up
and i’m so sad
and i’m thinking bout
all the fun times we’ve had
and i’m losing my mind
i’m going mad 

[verse 2]
my stomach hurts 
my head hurts 
i don’t know why
i feel the worst 
i’m dying out
i don’t rehearse 
i’m crying now
i’m in a hearse

[chorus]
i just popped a pill
and i’m waiting to die
i didn’t OD
and i don’t know why
sitting in bed
all i do is cry
i wanna be dead
and i don’t know why 

[chorus]
i just popped a pill
and i’m waiting to die
i didn’t OD
and i don’t know why
sitting in bed
all i do is cry
i wanna be dead
and i don’t know why 

[verse 3]
can’t get one break 
i feel so terrible 
and the pain i feel
is unbearable 
no free time
to do anything 
i wanna write songs
and i wanna sing 

[verse 4]
my anxiety and stress
comes out at night
pull up on him if he wanna fight 
i’m feeling good i’m quite alright
but there’s something wrong 
and i just might 
 
[verse 5]
i can’t breathe
i feel sick 
and my heart is racing
used to it (yuh)
losing my mind 
i’m an idiot 
you’re wasting my time
you’re a piece of shit (yuh)

[chorus]
i just popped a pill
and i’m waiting to die
i didn’t OD
and i don’t know why
sitting in bed
all i do is cry
i wanna be dead
and i don’t know why 

[chorus]
i just popped a pill
and i’m waiting to die
i didn’t OD
and i don’t know why
sitting in bed
all i do is cry
i wanna be dead
and i don’t know why 

[outro]
pop a pop a pill
i’m waiting to die
o o od
and i don’t know why 
sitting sitting sitting in bed
all i do is cry 
wanna be dead
and i don’t know why

waiting2die

prod. yungspoiler

notes: xo purp cat :0

lyrics:

and my life was pain till i met u 
when we talk i no longer feel blue
all i wanna say is i love you
all i wanna do is cuddle you yeah 
 
you’re the bright in the dark
i love you so much with all my heart
cupid hit me right there right with a dart 
let’s drive away and go real far
 
so fuck my life up pls do it
i can’t deal i’m an idiot
and you do things try to stop it
but it’s stupid i can’t do it yeah
 
so fuck my life up pls do it
i can’t deal i’m an idiot
and you do things try to stop it
but it’s stupid i can’t do it yeah 
 
and at the end of the day
i know you don’t care
and hey by the way 
life is unfair 
and hey by the way 
maybe i care
and look out the way 
oh no don’t you dare
 
so fuck my life up pls do it
i can’t deal i’m an idiot
and you do things try to stop it
but it’s stupid i can’t do it yeah
 
so fuck my life up pls do it
i can’t deal i’m an idiot
and you do things try to stop it
but it’s stupid i can’t do it yeah 
 
and my life was pain till i met u 
when we talk i no longer feel blue
all i wanna say is i love you
all i wanna do is cuddle you yeah 
 
you’re the bright in the dark
i love you so much with all my heart
cupid hit me right there right with a dart 
let’s drive away and go real far

iridescent

pls do it (can't do it)

prod. immortal & sabalagrange

notes: maybe diss track ᕕ(⌐■_■)ᕗ ♪♬

lyrics:

[chorus]
told him if he wanna talk
i’ll stab you with a knife 
yeah a hole in your heart
so you can feel my life
your music is barf 
yeah i said it alright 
and i’m skating like bart
and i’m living my life
 
[chorus]
told him if he wanna talk
i’ll stab you with a knife 
yeah a hole in your heart
so you can feel my life
your music is barf 
yeah i said it alright 
and i’m skating like bart
and i’m living my life
 
[verse 1]
driving round 
yeah driving round mirai city
2024 you know we litty 
engine purring sounding like a kitty
going on tour going to those cities
 
[verse 2]
i can’t love you like that
take what you said back
i’m in so much pain
have a heart attack
i don’t think the same
i can’t handle that
and i love your name
baby i love that 
 
[chorus]
told him if he wanna talk
i’ll stab you with a knife 
yeah a hole in your heart
so you can feel my life
your music is barf 
yeah i said it alright 
and i’m skating like bart
and i’m living my life
 
[chorus]
told him if he wanna talk
i’ll stab you with a knife 
yeah a hole in your heart
so you can feel my life
your music is barf 
yeah i said it alright 
and i’m skating like bart
and i’m living my life
 
[interlude]
i know you don’t care
your life is unfair
i know you don’t care
your life is so unfair 
 
[chorus]
told him if he wanna talk
i’ll stab you with a knife 
yeah a hole in your heart
so you can feel my life
your music is barf 
yeah i said it alright 
and i’m skating like bart
and i’m living my life
 
[chorus]
told him if he wanna talk
i’ll stab you with a knife 
yeah a hole in your heart
so you can feel my life
your music is barf 
yeah i said it alright 
and i’m skating like bart
and i’m living my life

knife

prod. immortal 
 
notes: this is my first feature (｡◕‿‿◕｡) @blackwinterwells
 
lyrics:
 
i watched you go through all your phases
all your emotions 
i remember that one time 
when you broke up with him 
said you were offline 
thought i didn’t notice 
yeah you’re so contrived
it’s cause i know it yeah
 
you’re so insecure 
yeah you’re so insecure 
hope you know i like you
hope that it occurs 
you’re so insecure 
yeah you’re so insecure 
i never go outside 
i was never with her 
 
you’re so insecure 
yeah you’re so insecure 
hope you know i like you
hope that it occurs 
you’re so insecure 
yeah you’re so insecure 
i never go outside 
i was never with her 
 
walk a mile in my shoes 
and you’ll see my life 
all the pain and agony 
and the strife
hole in my heart 
and you’re the knife 
i can barely walk
but i walk fine cause
 
you’re so insecure 
yeah you’re so insecure 
hope you know i like you
hope that it occurs 
you’re so insecure 
yeah you’re so insecure 
i never go outside 
i was never with her 
 
can you can you can
can you repeat that one more time
can you repeat that one more time
i don’t think that i heard you right
you said i was gonna die
you said i was gonna die
but i’d like to see you try
 
i can see beneath your motives 
that you’re scared and shaking still
and behind the show you put up here
you’re sick and fucking frail
got my dagger on my belt  and forgotten fire spells 
in a couple hundred years 
i’m sure we’ll meet up back in hell
 
you’re so insecure 
yeah you’re so insecure 
hope you know i like you
hope that it occurs 
you’re so insecure 
yeah you’re so insecure 
i never go outside 
i was never with her 
 
i watched you go through all your phases
all your emotions 
i remember that one time 
when you broke up with him 
said you were offline 
thought i didn’t notice 
yeah you’re so contrived
it’s cause i know it yeah
 
you’re so insecure 
yeah you’re so insecure 
hope you know i like you
hope that it occurs 
you’re so insecure 
yeah you’re so insecure 
i never go outside 
i was never with her

insecure

insecure (with blackwinterwells)

prod. yungspoiler

notes: i <3 tuvalu

lyrics:

do you care or do you not?
feel like i’m talking to a bot 
you’re so hypnotic you can’t stop
you’re so robot you’re a bot
 
i don’t wanna fight back
i don’t wanna do that
baby i don’t like you
you already knew that
yeah i really spite you
yeah i really do that
anything i might do
you can just screw that
 
i don’t wanna fight back
i don’t wanna do that
baby i don’t like you
you already knew that
yeah i really spite you
yeah i really do that
anything i might do
you can just screw that 
 
running around yeah 
i’m tryna get away from you
looking up flights 
going to tuvalu
spark was never there 
never loved you
know you don’t care 
i feel so blue 
never loved you 
man what to do
i feel so screwed 
 
i don’t wanna fight back
i don’t wanna do that
baby i don’t like you
you already knew that
yeah i really spite you
yeah i really do that
anything i might do
you can just screw that
 
i don’t wanna fight back
i don’t wanna do that
baby i don’t like you
you already knew that
yeah i really spite you
yeah i really do that
anything i might do
you can just screw that

u already knew that

prod. yungspoiler

notes: i literally have no idea whose house this is in the cover LOL

lyrics: 

baby know i wrote this poem about you
on other side of the world and i’m thinking about you
and if i die let the world know what i said
baby don’t throw it out remember it in your head 
 
the story starts off in 2010
he was losing hope he lost all his friends 
he would never know how the story would end
he only knows where he has been 
 
one day he got a call it was her
he asked her out she started to flirt
got interested now how does love work
going out now with his nicest shirt 
 
it went well they went out a few more times 
they got real close but he would find
he would lose hope he’d lose his mind 
she never knew quite how or why 
 
he doesn’t wanna do this
he loves her too much he feels sick
thought to himself he’s an idiot
he doesn’t know how to stop it
 
the story starts off in 2010
he was losing hope he lost all his friends 
he would never know how the story would end
he only knows where he has been 
 
one day he got a call it was her
he asked her out she started to flirt
got interested now how does love work
going out now with his nicest shirt 
 
baby know i wrote this poem about you
on other side of the world and i’m thinking about you
and if i die let the world know what i said
baby don’t throw it out remember it in your head

2010

prod. immortal

notes: where has the time gone? @angelus7k

lyrics:

are you ok?
are you ok?
are you ok?

where has the time gone?
are you ok?
in louis vuitton
why did you stay?
i don't need reasons
falling like may
i just can't keep on
just not today

where has the time gone?
i couldn't tell yuh
feel like i'm boring
feel like a failure
i don't remember
but you is familiar
and i got all these problems in my head
and i can't help them
so it's fuck shit
hiding all my feelings from my friends
just like it's nothing
designer drugs just so my body to feel something
and these n****s down bad
that shit got my trifling
and you're going out sad
i don't give a fuck bitch
i got a few best friends i can rely on
and please don't act like you're my friend
because you're not one
and imma keep on going crazy
bitch i'm not done
cut you for just a second
it was a good run

are you ok?
are you ok?
are you ok?

where has the time gone?
are you ok?
in louis vuitton
why did you stay?
i don't need reasons
falling like may
i just can't keep on
just not today

are you ok?

are you ok? (feat. angelus)

prod. pacific

notes: shout out to dante bruh!!!!!!!

lyrics:

she told me that she want the fame (ohh)
honestly, we're going insane (ohh)
that energy i don't claim (whoa)
energy in the mainframe (whoa)

don't run back
cause i know you're wasted again
i'm so sad, why can't you just be my friend?
i'm so mad, why do you care till the end?
and i've had enough so it's the end

don't run back
cause i know you're wasted again
i'm so sad, why can't you just be my friend?
i'm so mad, why do you care till the end?
and i've had enough so it's the end

don't run back, don't come back
smoking on nada, don't need friends
2024 on packs you can't send
in my dms asking for a benz
nah nah nah
stop hitting me up
you were bad luck
i'm so mad
don't run back
don't need you
smoking on packs

don't run back
cause i know you're wasted again
i'm so sad, why can't you just be my friend?
i'm so mad, why do you care till the end?
and i've had enough so it's the end

don't run back
cause i know you're wasted again
i'm so sad, why can't you just be my friend?
i'm so mad, why do you care till the end?
and i've had enough so it's the end

she told me that she want the fame (ohh)
honestly, we're going insane (ohh)
that energy i don't claim (whoa)
energy in the mainframe (whoa)

don't run back

don't run back (with stardante)

prod. fantom

notes: first synthpop song :3

lyrics:

dead roses dead butterflies
tear drops, said fuck my life
wish you were here tonight
you left me all in spite 

i’m just so sad
i just want you back
i just feel so bad
i just feel so bad

baby please come back, i need you
everyday’s a struggle when i’m without you
i’m so sick and tired of the things we do
love is fake and i have no clue 

please forgive me i fucked it up
all i wanted was your love
sky is falling from up above
when i knew that you were the one

please forgive me i fucked it up
all i wanted was your love
sky is falling from up above
when i knew that you were the one

walking in the snow after waiting on a no-show
ghosted me i guess that’s just how shit goes
got a table for 2 outside my fingers froze
tears turning into ice my heart goes cold

called me later said you were sorry
voice in the background you said “that’s just bobby” 
i said “who the fucks that”, games like atari
looking out the window and the nights so starry

home now and its going fine
kinda sad so i pour up some red wine
bought it for the date i’m not gonna lie 
watching tv and then i cry

please forgive me i fucked it up
all i wanted was your love
sky is falling from up above
when i knew that you were the one

please forgive me i fucked it up
all i wanted was your love
sky is falling from up above
when i knew that you were the one

whoa, ba da da da da woah
whoa, ba da da da da woah
whoa, ba da da da da woah
whoa, ba da da da da woah

please forgive me i fucked it up
all i wanted was your love
sky is falling from up above
when i knew that you were the one

please forgive me i fucked it up
all i wanted was your love
sky is falling from up above
when i knew that you were the one

please forgive me

prod. yungspoiler

notes: look at this ---->(=^･ｪ･^=))ﾉ彡☆ anyway hope u enjoy the song

lyrics: 

why is she so in love?
she’s writing love letters
and she even kept his old sweater 
said when she’s around him 
she feels like a feather
on the back of his motorcycle 
feeling his leather 

coming to his house 
climbing in the back window 
she wishes she could stay
but she has to go 
walked to his house
in the freezing snow
her face felt frozen as the wind blowed

her name was nova
she didn’t know much
all she wanted was physical touch
she’s too quiet yet she can’t shut up
the number one thing she wants in life is love

nows shes lost and she’s in the forest
first time without him this is historic 
she would’ve ubered but she can’t afford it
she heard noises so she starts to floor it

run run run 
running there’s not much time
run run run 
she might just lose her mind
run run run
she finds a hill and she climbs 
run run run
but she was already out of time

her name was nova
she didn’t know much
all she wanted was physical touch
she’s too quiet yet she can’t shut up
the number one thing she wants in life is love

her name was nova
she didn’t know much
all she wanted was physical touch
she’s too quiet yet she can’t shut up
the number one thing she wants in life is love

nova

prod. drmabeats, ayoley, mcx, xo purp (i literally just added some kicks and rearranged some stuff lol)

notes: immmm sooooo innnn loveeee wittthhhh youuuu 

i see another human i don’t like what i see
a deformed monster staring back at me
wide shoulders with gross teeth
i cry cause i cant believe

i wish i was someone else
i dont think you know how i felt
every days a living hell
i wish you knew how i felt 

lay me down
lay me down to sleep oh oh
i been down
down many weeks oh oh

its so fucked up 
im so in love with you, with you
its so fucked up 
im so in love with you, with you
its so fucked up 
im so in love with you, with you
its so fucked up 
im so in love with you, with you

i see another human i don’t like what i see
a deformed monster staring back at me
wide shoulders with gross teeth
i cry cause i cant believe

i wish i was someone else
i dont think you know how i felt
every days a living hell
i wish you knew how i felt

i'm so in love with you

prod. siem spark

notes: shout out dante he big epic

lyrics: 

colors changing, pass the seasons
you just left without a reason
used to hang out every weekend
traveling committing treason

colors changing, pass the seasons
you just left without a reason
used to hang out every weekend
traveling committing treason

one day you went up and left
and i never saw you again
message, i’m left on read
disappeared you were my only friend

disappeared with my best friend
now i just spent to pass the time
but my life is just a constant crime
fuck this fuck my, fuck this fuck my

one day you just up and left
and i never saw you again
but i know you never cared

colors changing, pass the seasons
you just left without a reason
used to hang out every weekend
traveling committing treason

colors changing, pass the seasons
you just left without a reason
used to hang out every weekend
traveling committing treason

one day you went up and left
and i never saw you again
message, i’m left on read
disappeared you were my only friend

treason

treason (with stardante)

prod me

notes: this is my first song fully produced by me :)

lyrics:

going on walks at night
to understand myself
i don’t see the light
i don’t wanna delve
i guess you were right
i’m by myself
no matter the circumstances
it is hell

you don’t care for me
you just watch me bleed
why wouldn’t you leave?
horrors i have seen

i get bursts of confidence 
then bursts of sorrow 
i will not be here tomorrow 
want your love please let me borrow
without love i feel hollow

you alright? no i’m not
you alright? feels like i’m lost
you alright? what is the cost
you alright? fragile and soft 

you don’t care for me
you just watch me bleed
why wouldn’t you leave?
horrors i have seen

you don’t care for me
you just watch me bleed
why wouldn’t you leave?
horrors i have seen

u don't care for me (instrumental)

u don't care for me

prod. me

lyrics:

cuts down my neck into my throat
raspy voice i slowly croak 
gotta confess i have no hope 
swallowing poison drinks to cope

death comes for us all
blood drips slowly droplets fall
makeup on a plastic doll
why won’t you accept my call?

death runs
and it runs so fast
it runs, and then it attacks
i run, and i hurt it back 
then it grabs me and it says that

“you don’t say what you mean
you just say things to please
and you wanna use me
why are you always mean”

death comes for us all
blood drips slowly droplets fall
makeup on a plastic doll
why won’t you accept my call?

death comes for us all
blood drips slowly droplets fall
makeup on a plastic doll
why won’t you accept my call?

death comes for us all

prod. @nashovi1, @HYPERLUNION, Drew Tirella & me :3 

notes: nash.ovi mainly produced this send love his way pls <3 he’s super talented ❤️❤️

lyrics:

and it's wrong, it's wrong, i know it
they sing along but they don't listen
you said that you got something to say
stuck living in a lie that's so fake

i always knew
you loved him, i tried
i want things to get better
all truth, no lies

don't want you to die tonight
all these tears i'd cry
for you
for you

i've known that i hurt you, girl
and i left you all alone (it's all i think about)
i've known that i loved you still
and i kept it to my own

and now it's midnight
driving through the bright lights
can't escape the city
when i'm thinking you could be mine
wonder what she'd think of me
if we could work this out right
wonder if my head is still a prison or a thin line

and it's wrong
it's wrong, i know it
they sing along
but they don't listen

you said that you got something to say
stuck living in a lie that's so fake

[epic drop]

i'm stuck in a disguise that i fabricate
stuck inside a body that i hate
i'm stuck in a disguise that i fabricate
stuck inside a body that i hate

and it's wrong, it's wrong, i know it
they sing along but they don't listen
you said that you got something to say
stuck living in a lie that's so fake
i'm stuck in a disguise that i fabricate
stuck inside a body that i hate

crying in bed
hope the pain will go away
wish that i was dead
cause i don't wanna stay

living in a lie

living in a lie (with nash.ovi)

prod. me & drew tirella

notes: epic guitar solo

lyrics:

what will i do?
when i achieve all the goals on my list
what will i do?
 i wanna die and escape to bliss

it was all my fault
it was all my fault
it was all my fault
my fault

watch your step
it gets so dark at night
watch your step
shining your phone flashlight

it was all my fault (it was)
it was all my fault (it was)
it was all my fault
my fault (yeah)

so much was said when you silent
it never mattered anyway i’m too frightening
so much was left when you were hiding
all i want in life is peace and quiet 

it was all my fault (yeah)
 it was all my fault (it was)
it was all my fault
my fault

it was all my fault

prod. @buginfestedfloorboards
mix + master by me 

VISUALIZER OUT NOW: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZR2aRfzd_rY

lyrics:

#BIOHAZARD 

yeah, baby, he got so fucked up
yeah, i’m popping all these pills in my benz truck
kids, don’t be like me, don’t do that shit
stay sober, you will not regret it

yeah, baby, he got so fucked up
yeah, i’m popping all these pills in my benz truck
kids, don’t be like me, don’t do that shit
stay sober, you will not regret it

hey!
i-i-i-i’ll pop out with a knife
i’ll kill your family
and then i’ll take your life
alright!

and-and-and-and it will be alright
promise i’m being nice
i don’t need your advice
let’s go!

i-i-i-i don’t give a shit at all
no, i don’t give a shit at all
i don’t give a shit at all
let’s go!

you-you-you-you build me up, then i fall
you build me up, then i fall
you build me up, then i fall (alright!)

yeah, baby, he got so fucked up
yeah, i’m popping all these pills in my benz truck
kids, don’t be like me, don’t do that shit
stay sober, you will not regret it

yeah, baby, he got so fucked up
yeah, i’m popping all these pills in my benz truck
kids, don’t be like me, don’t do that shit
stay sober, you will not regret it

i-i-i’m with my girl
and we doing all these drugs
i-i-i-i’m with my boy
so you know we hit the plugs
and we sending out some slugs
’cause they ain’t showing love
perky on my tongue
when we pull up to the club
ah, ah

ye-ye-yeah, i’m moving off a perc
put in work, so you know we go berserk
a-a-all the money in my pants make my pockets hurt
and you know who i’m with, it’s xo purp

yeah, baby, he got so fucked up
yeah, i’m popping all these pills in my benz truck
kids, don’t be like me, don’t do that shit
stay sober, you will not regret it

yeah, baby, he got so fucked up
yeah, i’m popping all these pills in my benz truck
kids, don’t be like me, don’t do that shit
stay sober, you will not regret it

i just got a new mic and a new fit
got these playboy hoodies, yeah it’s all drip
everyone’s been saying my track’s lit
sippin’ on hennessy, i sip on tonic
fuck
i don’t give no shits
pull up on your block
pull up with the rick, rick
i shoot at your dead body
yeah, i pull up with the 2
pull up on ****
what he gon’ do? (hey!)

yeah, baby, he got so fucked u-u-u-up
yeah, i’m popping all these pills in my benz truck
kids, don’t be like me, don’t do that shit
stay sober, you will not regret it

yeah-yeah-yeah, baby, he got so fucked up
yeah, i’m popping all these pills in my benz tru-
kids, don’t be like m-me, don’t do that shit
stay sober, you will not regret it

xo purp

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