lyrics: 

Lillow a Callist born in shadow
Figures down from below speak of those she once broke 
We walk these cobblestone roads speaking only when told 
Human nature taught me so
I'm still better off cold 

Truth is in everything I just want someone to hold 
The air is cold I can't breathe this pressure orakel 
This can't be reality I hope that you can see 
These poems pushing out torn emotions in my artistry

I’ve given everything I've owed and I remain unseen
Turned me to what I swore I wont
The world breaks below my feet
Dehumanized for what happened in the past
Im not who I used to be
Forced to live a lie, cause no body wants to believe me

 Lillow a Callist born in shadow
Figures down from below speak of those she once broke 
We walk these cobblestone roads speaking only when told 
Human nature taught me so
I'm still better off cold

Lies are apart of me
Deception can only be told
Built from negativity
Turned her whole world to monochrome 
Wish it was reality, theres something I can’t see
Poems pushing out torn emotions in my artistry

I’ve given everything I've owed and I remain unseen
Turned me to what I swore I wont
The world breaks below my feet
Dehumanized for what happened in the past
Im not who I used to be
Forced to live a lie, cause no body wants to believe me

freezing to death 27 miles from home feat. Apucco (michael harrison)

ME VS ME (Ft. Steppablayze)

~2300~

prod by @dabootlegboy , tnvr , and myself

bodyparts w/ the bootleg boy

produced by neverforever

"It took me so long to do so many important things. It's just hard to accept that I spent so many years being less happy than I could have been."

(absent)
i don't know if i'm deserving of love
people praise me but i think that they're wrong
at the end of the day i'm alone in my bed
on my knees praying to God

and i don't want sound like a maniac
i just don't want to be ashamed
when i'm talking about my savior
thanks to him i'm no longer afraid

"jim i called off my wedding because of you (absent)
and now we're not even friends
and things are just, like- weird between us
and that sucks- and i miss you
you were my best friend before you went to stamford
and i really miss you
there were a lot of reasons to call off my wedding
but the truth is- 
i didn't care about any of those reasons until i met you."

i am anxious i won't find a soul
who will tell me when i'm doing wrong
and i guess i just want her to hear me
guess that's why i am making this song
(absent)

savior [neverforever]

produced by neverforever

this song is obviously about absent club and specifically 3 very special to me people. claire, avery (and the third person who's name i will not share) - you have no idea how much you've helped me throughout the past few months, ily with my whole heart guys<3

lyrics:

(absent)
i'm sorry claire
i feel useless
every time you talk
i'm clueless
i'll lend you a hand
won't let it end that way
you'll be okay
i'll always be your friend

i'm sorry avery
i feel bad
i don't even talk
and you tried so hard
sometimes i wonder
if i belong
i love you guys i hope you know
(absent)

i met a girl
i hope she won't see this verse
cuz every time we talk
my heart's running in reverse
it makes no sense
cuz we just met
don't want to make
the same mistake
i told claire and ave about you
i think that i'm starting to like you
but i'm scared you don't feel that way
don't want to lose the thing we have

so i'll take my time
i have traumas
i don't talk about
i want to heal my wounds
so i don't bleed on you
don't want to force you, too
i want to be your muse
(absent)

i'm sorry

lyrics
this spirit air too tight i need legroom
its a low ceiling i need headroom 
cant believe ive done this from my bedroom
i think im coming up soon

yuhyuhyuhyuh
im on the phone with a heathen
i rip my body apart at the seams oh yeah
yuhyuhyuhyuh
i couldnt battle my demons 
im sitting tight in the studio heaters up
im trashed as fuck in my room n i swr freezing
im leaking red on the floor im always bleeding
i got a hoodie n hat on incase u can see me
i take his skin n i wear it cuz he wanna be me

the lights tend to dim here
i got mucus in my skin tears
whats it like when im right here
bb ill always be right here
every time i sleep i feel ive died here
i think i’ve overlooked one of my fears
this cabin gets so cold it feels like ice here
i cant come and travel 20 lightyears

yuhyuhyuhyuh
im on the phone with a heathen
i rip my body apart at the seams oh yeah
yuhyuhyuhyuh
i couldnt battle my demons 
im sitting tight in the studio heaters up
im trashed as fuck in my room n i swr freezing
im leaking red on the floor im always bleeding
i got a hoodie n hat on incase u can see me
i take his skin n i wear it cuz he wanna be me

Mimicry :: Deceit (tiedforsilver X Jupiter)

lyrics:
You got somthing that will make me happy?
Then I’m sold 
Will you Hold on to me, even though I’m growin cold 
I just hope that I can make our pain ease 
before we get to old 
I’m just being honest with you lately 
I’m not even usually this bold
It’s starting to hurt to tell the story’s 
I guess I’m starting to feel I’m getting old 
All these posts bout your personality switching shit just bs
I hope I don’t turn 27 to quick 
I just wanna go back to when I was playing ds 
That’s my bad I already know that you know ima mess
I just wish I wasn’t fucking depressed 
I can’t get attached to none the guys 
I got trust issues or maybe I’m just to high 
I don’t even wanna talk to none of these girls 
She said I thought we was just fuckin
I guess that’s just my luck man 
If I could give myself advice 
Id say never fall in love damn
If you gotta find a vice 
you prolly should give up then
That’s just me to me if you care about your life 
Then I really wouldn’t listen 
I really wouldn’t listen
Really wouldn’t listen
I really wouldn’t listen
Really wouldn’t
Really wouldn’t

gettin old (prod. wixxy)

Think I’m good now
Try to pass up on anyone else 
I don’t want that love but I know this one
This one means much n I can’t tell you why I can’t change what
My past is fucked n I can’t fix that 
I’d rather watch as it all just fades to black
I don’t wanna take your time away
But please sit with me while I turn grey and fade away
So is this love or am I hopeless 
When you’re with me I just can’t focus on anything else 
Wanna keep this love all to myself 
I know it’s wasted
I’ve already tasted everything this world can never give me
That’s why I feel so much envy
Maybe that just means I’m guilty 
Guilty of giving to much 
Of lovin to much
Of hearing to much
Of doing this much I can’t 
Keep this up I just want your love

Think I’m good now
Try to pass up on anyone else 
I don’t want that love but I know this one
This one means much try to tell you what I feel but
I just give up
Go on tangents that never mean much 
I don’t know why I never mean much 
I know you hate when I self-deprecate 
I’m tryin to fix the words that I say
It’s easy when you’re with me 
Feeling less empty 
Feeling like my souls just a little heavy 
N those 3 words are a little heavy 
But when you’re with me I feel less hollow 
I feel like I have more time to borrow 
Never let down to see tomorrow 
I don’t wanna stay
I don’t wanna stay this way

time to borrow (flower x ‪‪‪babieyummo )

lyrics:

Are u feeling better than before
Cause no one else made sure
U were so warm so bright
And I could see the same light return
This plate had saved my life im sure

When council is littered with spies
Knighted by cowards well id rather die
I rest my head on this quarry at tide
The salt from this ocean will clean out the pride ive earned
The rest of our lives
If we spend them dreaming
Will come out alright
Im barely breathing but im holding tight
Sore from the screaming oh its been a hell of a night
ive heard
Flags break down walls
Trust me for Ive heard all
Turning blind eye will be paramount
To our kings call

I know its bullshit theyve trained us as sheep
Like You told me once we need proof to believe
So what happened between then and now to ur word
Cause you’ve become guard of the lies they serve
Walking in line
Id plead my case but my tongues getting tied
Faced in this crash on the November ice
I never stopped staring im scared that my eyes’ll hurt
Its just blood
(Its just blood)
((Its just blood))
And I know we still got pints im sure

When council is littered with spies
Knighted by cowards well id rather die
I rest my head on this quarry at tide
The salt from this ocean will clean out the pride ive earned

Are u feeling better than before
Cause no one else made sure

r u feeling better than before (nico north)

lyrics
set foot n travel north
i need a shakeup up in my core
i couldnt take it no more
u couldnt save me im stuck to the floor
i hear ur voice thru the chorus
i strain the last of my chords alright
i couldnt make it till morning 
i had to go so just leave me tn
its just grown colder inside
i need an excuse 
as it leaks from my pores
im looking worse with these bags on my eyes
i know its not important 
soldiers on foot coming after me now 
i could swear that im losing my form
theres so much rust and oxidized blood
all of it comes from the shore

metabolize poison and do it again
im seeing life in a 4:3 res
i got some snow sneaking up in the lens
something like this you cant say to ur friends
i didnt hear him like what had he said
from window to wall my limbs start to stretch 
contracting frostbite out of my breath
im doing better im doing it less

breathe slow and move on
let go, im so gone
1k hz, and white noise 
its all ive heard for 2 months

set foot n travel north
i need a shakeup up in my core
i couldnt take it no more
u couldnt save me im stuck to the floor
i hear ur voice thru the chorus
i strain the last of my chords alright
i couldnt make it till morning 
i had to go so just leave me tn
its just grown colder inside
i need an excuse 
as it leaks from my pores
im looking worse with these bags on my eyes
i know its not important 
soldiers on foot coming after me now 
i could swear that im losing my form
theres so much rust and oxidized blood
all of it comes from the shore

the journey north (hollowprpl)

lyrics:

Since we last spoke
Well Id got tattoos 
Id become someone you never knew
They cover my throat
And hug me like glue
Something i knew you’d never do
When the lights go out
well I only see blue
I only see pictures of me and you
Well that iPhone now
Well I broke it in two
Ive torn out its screen so I never do

And as rain hits my head
I think of the old bed
And all the prints left frozen around the room
I forgot just how to eat
And every time I try 
It tastes just like 
It tastes just like her
With rust on my bones
And oil on my shirt
I build back my home
I cauterize and let it burn
for Every day this fails
There’s one time it’ll work
And that much I know
So tell me just what it takes
And ill make sure it gets done
oh i Swear to god ill leave nothing left in between us by sun
so I shot a round at the moon
And ended up hitting stars
And they fell down in the backyard last night and they left scars
and Despite what u think
Well Ive never changed
Ive always been this way
Unbearable
My hair falls in the sink
And cold lines my scalp
and The pain of this needle 
Is terrible

Since we last spoke
Well Id got tattoos 
Id become someone you never knew
They cover my throat
And hug me like glue
Something i knew you’d never do
When the lights go out
well I only see blue
I only see pictures of me and you
Well that iPhone now
Well I broke it in two
Ive torn out its screen so I never do

since we last spoke i got tattoos (mxtthxw)

my heart is a sapling feeding on tragedy.
you should follow my Instagrams
formally XoXqt

freezing to death 27 miles from home feat. Apucco (michael harrison)

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