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Greatness comes with a heavy cost...
Again and again, I am paying the price to have a glimpse.
Sometimes I hate myself, sometimes I wave my pride.
Most of the time, I can't see the "great" thing, at anything.
I sank, let all go. I disintegrate, fail altogether.
I thrive, have burnout, and am seen as a disaster.
It's sad to see that it's all in my mind, and nobody actually cares.
But everyone judges the reason why I should be praised.

It is said that in the end, I didn't change; I can't change.
As I realize how pointless all the change is, just to become someone else,
I just lose the passion, I just can't answer who I am.
But it is not about that someone either, I wanted it for myself.
Hurt myself just to escape from pain. That's the irony.

Whatever I do, whoever I become,
Inside of me always craves for that greatness,
To achieve such goals, he needs to suffer.
Killing that just makes me miserable.
To not reach my dreams, not be the one I want to be.
Because of that, I am tired of harming myself.
I am tired of fixing myself.
I am tired of everything.
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Essentially a remake of my previous piece, The Lost.
The Lost was about, the lost. It overflows with sadness and acceptance.
However, this is not about the temporary moments and individuals. This is about the curse of ambition. Trying to be the number one, searching the greatness, making ultimate sacrifices, hurting people and myself.
I was always a perfectionist. Sometimes, I try to take a pacifist approach, living life for moments, friends, fun and so on. However, I become a shell of myself. If I give up all my ambition, I just turn into a husk of a distant memory...

I am searching for a way to achieve perfection without damaging any more people, or myself.

I am tired

my house are gone for the weekend and i dont wanna do my homeworks

alone in the house on a saturday night.m4a

Music created for Good Days Ahead.
https://moevamondoha.itch.io/good-day-ahead

Good Days Ahead - Theme

how i became a charismatic loser

april fools
haha funni fart sound effect, haha funni cartoon sound effect, haha funni brainrot sound effect, haha fnuni typical breakcore long-ass edgy song title
macron destitution macron décapitation

That screaming lady FX comes from a 2020 video where you can see the aformentioned person going mental during a strike, screaming and calling for (in french) president Macron's impeachment, beheading and explosion
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gpb4_LAd6fQ

thank you for listening <3

Marc

Some FX Credits:

cough old man 150211_00.wav by klankbeeld -- https://freesound.org/s/264114/ -- License: Attribution 4.0

Bees_1.wav by digifishmusic -- https://freesound.org/s/59451/ -- License: Attribution 4.0

they told me not to eject at mach 1 but nobody told me that the doctor's office ringtone would hurt more than my shattered bones

DELTARUNE Chapters 3+4 (Original Game Soundtrack)

Neverending Night

The Third Sanctuary

https://cosmiccats.neocities.org/FarSites/Liminals/twinningCaustics

Between the waves of the harsh winters, labyrinths of the puzzling meta-structures, poems of the glory and madness, epics of harsh survival… Every story sinks and comes to rest in the depths of the trenches, ravines, and common void. But even in a comatose state, light can bend and evolve through the surface tension, often fracturing into relatable but unintelligible hypnotic patterns. When happiness becomes liminal itself by being fractured through said wavelets, and twins itself by leaning into the past and future, life might feel like an ocean floor, which explains why I am greatly interested in liminal aesthetics. Perhaps life is not a journey at all, but a momentary shadow play at the ocean’s floor.

they told me not to eject at mach 1 but nobody told me that the doctor's office ringtone would hurt more than my shattered bones

xsolimini

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