hellgirl*

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lyrics:

yeah…
xs
drive me home...
drive me home…

black dress, cigarette lips
she pullin' me close, i ain’t feelin’ shit
eyes like the void, heart full of bricks
said she love me, that don’t fix
the way I feel when i’m off this pill
swerve through hell, but i love the thrill
tell me lies, i take ’em still
hurt me once, i hope you will

i don’t know where I’m goin’
but the moonlight’s showin’
scars all glowin’
u don’t love me, and it’s showin’
i'm way too gone
she hate my songs
but sing along
like, “where’d you go?”

drive me home, girl, i hate the light
cold inside, but you feel right
every time I die, i come back high
you say you love me, i say you lie
drive me home, i'm too far gone
tell my mom I’m sorry, i ain’t stay long
stars don’t shine in the city I’m from
but I still glow when the pain come on

eyes low, hoodie up
she don’t love me, that’s enough
poppin’ pills to patch it up
told her chill, but she actin' up
lipstick on my neck and chest
she say “Peet, you like the rest”
but I ain’t tryin’ to pass no test
just need your ghost when i can’t rest

don’t fix me
don’t miss me
just kiss me
then ditch me
i’m nothin’
i'm slippin’
u love me
then kill me

drive me home, girl, i hate the light
cold inside, but you feel right
every time i die, i come back high
you say you love me, i say you lie
drive me home, i’m too far gone
tell my mom I’m sorry, i ain’t stay long
stars don’t shine in the city I’m from
but I still glow when the pain come on

yeah…
drive me home…
if I don’t make it, just play my song…
tell her I tried…

drive me home (prod. yxngxs)

all good girls go to hell (prod. yxngxs)

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lyrics:
i can't feel the world anymore
i close my eyes, fall to the floor
i scream in silence every night
but no one ever asks if i’m alright
i’m so tired of being strong
when everything in me feels so wrong
i gave you all of what i had
but you still left me feeling bad

and i try, i try, but nothing works
every word just makes it worse
i can’t escape the things i see
can’t undo what’s breaking me

i can’t breathe, it’s getting heavy
i fall apart, there’s no one left to save me
i can’t feel, i’m going numb
i’ve been dying slow and everyone runs
i can’t stop what’s inside my mind
i’m lost again, i press rewind
can’t heal what’s already torn
and i don’t know what i’m living for

i see myself in broken glass
a fading echo of the past
i’m hollow now, i’m barely here
i laugh, but only to hide the fear
and i’ve been bleeding, no one sees
the pain i keep inside of me
and i keep hearing what you said
it plays like static in my head

and i try, i try, but nothing works
every word just makes it worse
i can’t escape the things i see
can’t undo what’s breaking me

i can’t breathe, it’s getting heavy
i fall apart, there’s no one left to save me
i can’t feel, i’m going numb
i’ve been dying slow and everyone runs
i can’t stop what’s inside my mind
i’m lost again, i press rewind
can’t heal what’s already torn
and i don’t know what i’m living for

i just want the pain to end
but it always finds me again
so i smile and say “i’m fine”
but i’ve been breaking all this time

i've been dying slow (prod. yxngxs)

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lyrics:

do u remember the things u said?
all those nights u stayed inside my head
do u still read the poems i wrote?
the ones i never meant to post

do u remember how small i looked
when i cried in ur shirt, when my voice just shook?
do u miss the girl u said was “too much”?
or did u just throw away all our love?

i don’t wanna make u feel bad
but it hurts that u never looked back
u kissed me like i was fragile glass
and dropped me like i never had cracks

i still remember the curve of your spine
when u told me “baby, you’re not mine”
i still feel it deep in my chest
how easy it was for you to forget

do u remember the things u said?
all those nights u stayed inside my head
do u still read the poems i wrote?
the ones i never meant to post

do u remember how small i looked
when i cried in ur shirt, when my voice just shook?
do u miss the girl u said was “too much”?
or did u just throw away all our love?

maybe i was just a pause in your story
a soft interlude, a girl u called sorry
but i stayed awake to hear u breathe
and now i can’t sleep without ur grief

they say i should move on and be free
but u haunt my dreams like a melody
u were my prayer, my ache, my plea
u were the one who abandoned me

i won’t take up any more of your time
but if u see this, just know i tried
i gave u pieces i didn’t have to spare
and all i wanted was for u to care

do u remember the things u said?
do u remember the texts i left unread?
do u feel me in your silence too?
do u remember me like i do you?

do u still remember? (prod. yxngxs)

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lyrics:

hold my breath
watch the tide take what’s left
what if peace comes after death?
trace my veins, find out myself

cut my ties, float away
salt water hides my face
wish i knew why i stay
when i dream of the grave

waves crash like my thoughts do
quiet screams, nothing new
all the nights i drowned in you
fool me twice, blame me too

all these lights inside my room
look like stars that watch me bruise
kept your secrets in my wounds
and your voice still bleeds right through

(cut my ties, float away)
(salt water hides my face)
(what if peace comes after death?)
trace my veins, find out myself

all these lights inside my room
look like stars that watch me bruise
kept your secrets in my wounds
and your voice still bleeds right through

where’d you go this time?
what if i lose my mind?
what if i make you cry?
what if i end my fucking life?

what if i end my life? (prod. yxngxs)

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lyrics:
you said you’d love me clean
but you loved me high
tryna kiss my veins
while i’m sayin’ goodbye

bathroom tiles, cold and white
staring up at neon lights
you hold me tight
but you’re not my life

these pills don’t fix me
but they hush the noise
and your love feels empty
but i got no choice

xannies under my tongue
so i can feel numb
so i can feel gone
from all the shit i’ve done

baby, do you love me still?
when my eyes glaze over still
would you kiss me through the spill?
when i’m drowning in these pills

you trace my scars
like love letters you wrote
whisper “you’re my star”
but i’m starting to float

movie scenes of blood and glass
someone’s screaming, it fades fast
we were perfect, then we cracked
now i’m lost and you’re my past

these pills don’t fix me
but they hush the noise
and your love feels empty
but i got no choice

xannies under my tongue
so i can feel numb
so i can feel gone
from all the shit i’ve done

baby, do you love me still?
when my eyes glaze over still
would you kiss me through the spill?
when i’m drowning in these pills

i see us in a movie frame
two ghosts screaming each other’s names
drugs and love feel just the same
fading out like burning flames

xannies under my tongue
so i can feel numb
so i can feel gone
from everything i’ve become

ur love feels empty (prod. yxngxs)

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lyrics:
Xannies in my pocket, keep me from my pain (from my pain)
I don’t wanna feel a thing, I’m stuck inside my brain (inside my brain)
I been tryna love you but I know I’m not okay (not okay)
Tell me that you love me even if it’s just a game (just a game)

Took two more, now my eyes low (low)
Hit my line, I’m in psycho mode (psycho mode)
Said you’d stay but you might go (might go)
Now my heart’s on ice, cold snow (cold snow)

Hotel room with the curtains drawn
Mirror cracked ‘cause I hit my jaw
Text my phone, “Are you coming home?”
But I’m scared to love ‘cause I lost it all

Xannies in my pocket, keep me from my pain (from my pain)
I don’t wanna feel a thing, I’m stuck inside my brain (inside my brain)
I been tryna love you but I know I’m not okay (not okay)
Tell me that you love me even if it’s just a game (just a game)

Roll my sleeves, show my scars, let ‘em bleed (let ‘em bleed)
Mix my drink, red with white, strawberry lean (strawberry lean)
You in my head like a movie scene (movie scene)
And you look so good but you’re bad for me (bad for me)

Fast car, black seats, drive me through the rain
Tat my face with your name so you stay
Pray to God but he don’t hear a thing
So I pop these pills and just fade away

Xannies in my pocket, keep me from my pain (from my pain)
I don’t wanna feel a thing, I’m stuck inside my brain (inside my brain)
I been tryna love you but I know I’m not okay (not okay)
Tell me that you love me even if it’s just a game (just a game)

Xannies in my pocket (yeah)
Xannies in my pocket (yeah)
Baby, you the topic (yeah)
But I’m still so toxic (yeah)

psychomode (prod. yxngxs)

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lyrics:
white walls keep whispering
names i swore i’d forget
mirror shows a ghost of me
stained eyes, silhouette

i leave my letters in the drawer
like secrets sewn into my skin
wonder if you’d even mourn
the girl you couldn’t let in

sometimes i think i’ll leave tonight
fade out soft, no warning sign
i’d sleep like stars behind the rain
and make myself your kurt cobain

silence tastes like blood and pills
numbness cuts so sweet and still
found dead humming songs of you
found dead thinking of—

sometimes i think i’ll leave tonight
fade out soft, no warning sign
i’d sleep like stars behind the rain
and make myself your kurt cobain

don’t look for me in crowded rooms
i’m somewhere lost between my wounds
white noise sings my lullaby
i’ll kiss the world a soft goodbye

kurt cobain (prod. yxngxs)

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lyrics:
They told me to live my life (My life)
But I been dyin’ every night
Two pills on the floor by the light
I took both and kissed the sky

My depression gets violent, shots go through my brain (My brain)
Found some pills again, I don’t even know the name (The name)
Took that shit and I collapsed face-first in pain (Pain)
Woke up in my blood, now I’m high again (Again)
She said she hate me but sings all my songs (My songs)
I know that hatred was never that strong (That strong)
They stabbed me so much, now I’m numb and alone
I just laugh now when they hit my phone

Yeah, fuck it, I’m done with emotions
All this trauma turned me into someone broken
Gold tooth still gleamin’ while my mind corroded
And I ain’t get a cake since I turned like, what, eleven?
That’s why every birthday I been plannin' heaven
Mixin' meds with coke, yeah, that shit unhealthy
But I don’t care no more, I’m so self-destructive
Every night I try to die, but the pills don't love me

My depression gets violent, shots go through my brain (Through my brain)
Found some pills again, I don’t even know the name (Know the name)
Took that shit and I collapsed face-first in pain (In pain)
Woke up in my blood, now I’m high again (Again)
She said she hate me but sings all my songs (My songs)
I know that hatred was never that strong (That strong)
They stabbed me so much, now I’m numb and alone
I just laugh now when they hit my phone

Yeah, I know I lost my way
Can’t remember yesterday
Might not see another day
But I still say I’m okay
Yeah, they think I’m just insane
But they never felt this way
All this sadness turned to rage
And now I’m stuck inside my brain

fuck emotions (prod. yxngxs)

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lyrics:
I’ve been feelin’ low and I don’t know the reason why
It’s like my soul been sinkin’ slow beneath a purple sky
I thought maybe it was you, maybe it was you
When I look back, all I see is shades of blue

Hey girl, you know, I just wanna die
Right next to you, under neon lights
I been tryin’ hard but I still can’t lie
You stuck in my head, can’t get you out my mind

Faded again in a night that never ends
Lookin’ in the mirror, wonder where the pain begins
Thought about jumpin’ from the roof, I don’t pretend
Shorty love designer, but she never could repent

Thought twice, but my mind went blank
Feelin’ dead when I stare into space
Feelin’ dead when I stare into space
Feelin’ dead when I stare into space

I been quiet, movin’ slow, like I’m numb again
Bury me in sorrow, I ain’t ever had a friend
Got me thinkin’ death look pretty with a pink sunset
Still wear your hoodie like it’s part of my skin

Cigarettes and codeine tears
If I vanish, would they care?
If I vanish, would you care?
If I vanish, would you care?

I don’t know why I still hold on
Every love just feels so wrong
I don’t even write no songs
I just bleed on every chord

Faded again in a night that never ends
Lookin’ in the mirror, wonder where the pain begins
Thought about jumpin’ from the roof, I don’t pretend
Shorty love designer, but she never could repent

Thought twice, but my mind went blank
Feelin’ dead when I stare into space
Feelin’ dead when I stare into space
Feelin’ dead when I stare into space

Maybe it was you, maybe it was you
I been tryna heal, but I always lose
Maybe it was you, maybe it was you
Wanna die with you, underneath the moon

wanna die with u (prod. yxngxs)

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lyrics:
Ayy, yeah
Ayy, yeah
It’s 5AM again
Still wide awake, still lost again

Throwin’ up my pain in a bathroom sink
She said she love me, but she never think
I was cryin' in a Uber in an old black mink
Had a blade in my bag and a hole in my drink

I don’t text back, I just ghost quick
Shawty sniffin' lines in my old whip
And I been numb for a whole year
Still hear your voice when the smoke clear

No one ever see me when I’m down bad
They just see the hoodie and the fake laugh
You don’t gotta lie, I can read that
Wrote your name in the ash on the ski mask

I just wanna die in peace, no lights
Poppin' pills on a school night, fuck life
You can keep the fame and the headlights
I just want a grave where the moonlight shines
I just wanna die in peace, no fight
Sayin' that you love me, but it don't feel right
Next year, maybe I’ll be fine
But I swear, every summer, I be losin’ my mind

She left blood on my white tee
Now she cryin' in my backseat
Sayin’ I’m the one, yeah, likely
But I seen her kiss him on the IG

Now I'm bleedin' on my own terms
Dead roses in the blunt when it all burns
Don’t ask what I’m feelin’
Shawty, I been dealin’
With a past full of scars and a heart that ain't healin’

They all fake love, that's a fact now
Told me I should smile, but I cracked out
Yeah, I’m cold like a shadow
Ridin’ 'round town with a cross in the Lambo

I just wanna die in peace, no lights
Poppin' pills on a school night, fuck life
You can keep the fame and the headlights
I just want a grave where the moonlight shines
I just wanna die in peace, no fight
Sayin' that you love me, but it don't feel right
Next year, maybe I’ll be fine
But I swear, every summer, I be losin’ my mind

Ayy, 5AM and I’m still not sleepin’
Dark thoughts got my heart barely beatin’
If I leave, will you cry for a weekend?
Or just scroll past like you ain't see shit

moonlight (prod. yxngxs)

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lyrics:
Moonlight blonde in the night rain (Night rain)
Took a tab, now I'm halfway sane (Halfway)
Still feel numb in my black shades (Black shades)
She said, “Come back,” but it's too late (Too late)
Moonlight blonde in the night rain (Night rain)
You showed love, but I felt the pain (Felt pain)
I’m just tryna find my own way (My way)
I don't think I'm gonna be okay

I still smell your scent on my coat (My coat)
Still got your pic in my notes (My notes)
You said I ghosted, but you went cold
So I fell in love with the smoke
I mix my heart with the red wine (Red wine)
You fake cry every time I try
Now I’m gone on a late flight
But you still text like it’s alright

You like the pain, don't you?
Lie and say that I haunt you
But you left when I broke through
So now I write songs just to taunt you

Moonlight blonde in the night rain (Night rain)
Took a tab, now I'm halfway sane (Halfway)
Still feel numb in my black shades (Black shades)
She said, “Come back,” but it's too late (Too late)
Moonlight blonde in the night rain (Night rain)
You showed love, but I felt the pain (Felt pain)
I’m just tryna find my own way (My way)
I don't think I'm gonna be okay

Black jeans and a cigarette burn
I still crash every time I learn
Love like yours is a slow turn
But I still dream, though I said “no return”

night rain (prod. yxngxs)

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Lyrics:

Yeah, I’m pourin’ up red in my cup (yeah)
I’m high, I don’t care who you trust (nah)
Got a pole in the back of the truck (brrt)
Lil’ bitch wanna ride, that’s a must (skrrt)
I’m gone, I can’t slow up (gone)
Whole gang, they gon’ blow up (boom)
Got racks and I don’t show love (nah)
Tall cup, I’ma pour up (yeah)

Codeine with the ice, that’s dinner (splash)
Bad lil’ bitch, she a sinner (slut)
LV print all on my denim (drip)
I’ma slide right now if it’s tension (slide)
Pop two pills, can’t feel my face (nope)
Four Giottos, I’ma win that race (skrrt)
Big .40, I’ma keep it on waist (brrt)
And the opps better stay in they place (yeah)

Yeah, I’m pourin’ up red in my cup (yeah)
I’m high, I don’t care who you trust (nah)
Got a pole in the back of the truck (brrt)
Lil’ bitch wanna ride, that’s a must (skrrt)
I’m gone, I can’t slow up (gone)
Whole gang, they gon’ blow up (boom)
Got racks and I don’t show love (nah)
Tall cup, I’ma pour up (yeah)

Trap phone jump, no sleep (ring)
I don’t ever trust no freak (nah)
My city too cold, I keep heat (brrt)
Your bitch in my DMs, she creep (slut)
I’ma hop in the Wraith and I ghost (skrrt)
I’ma pour till my body get froze (yeah)
Balmain jeans, white gold on the froze (ice)
And I don’t ever bend, don’t fold (never)

Yeah, I’m pourin’ up red in my cup (yeah)
I’m high, I don’t care who you trust (nah)
Got a pole in the back of the truck (brrt)
Lil’ bitch wanna ride, that’s a must (skrrt)
I’m gone, I can’t slow up (gone)
Whole gang, they gon’ blow up (boom)
Got racks and I don’t show love (nah)
Tall cup, I’ma pour up (yeah)

no love freestyle (prod. yxngxs)

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lyrics:

(Yeah… what?)
(Wait, huh…)
(See what I’m sayin’?)

I been lost in the pills, can’t stand it (Can’t stand it)
Every night feelin’ stuck on a planet (On a planet)
Xans in my drink, and I’m crashin’ (I’m crashin’)
Tryna fill the void with distractions (With distractions)
Broken heart and I still can’t mask it (Still can’t)
Face numb, but the pain keep lastin’ (Keep lastin’)
Call me up when the world feels tragic
Tears on my face but I smile like it’s magic

Cold nights in the back of the whip (Skrrt)
Ash on my jeans and the blood on my lips
Tattoo scars, they remind me of this
Every love that I get just turns into a myth
She said forever but forever was fake
I mix the lean with the dreams that I chase
Wake up slow, can’t escape my fate
I drown in the drugs just to numb my brain

I been lost in the pills, can’t stand it (Can’t stand it)
Every night feelin’ stuck on a planet (On a planet)
Xans in my drink, and I’m crashin’ (I’m crashin’)
Tryna fill the void with distractions (With distractions)
Broken heart and I still can’t mask it (Still can’t)
Face numb, but the pain keep lastin’ (Keep lastin’)
Call me up when the world feels tragic
Tears on my face but I smile like it’s magic

(What is you sayin’… yeah)
(What is you sayin’… yeah)
I’m just stuck in the pain, what is you sayin’?
(Yeah, yeah… what is you sayin’?)

broken heart (prod. yxngxs)

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lyrics:

(Yeah, yeah, talking ‘bout, what… what… huh, huh)
Yo, yo, blick, blick…
(Yuh, yuh, perc, perc, lean, lean)

Yeah, she broken just like me (Like me)
Walk in with scars on me (Scars)
She geeked-geeked just like me (Like me)
Damn girl, you barely can see
Cause you cried all night this week (This week)
Slide through life with no peace (Peace)
Hop out, pain on my sleeve (Sleeve)
This .40 can’t heal me (Nah)
My gang won’t ride for free (Free)
Bad days, everything feel bleak (Bleak)
Sad bitch dressed CC (CC)
Put her heart in some Number (N)ine
2-door coupe, we sliding (Skrrt)
Come here, where you going? (Where you going?)
.556 in my head, keep blowing (Boom)
I can’t run from the voices (Voices)

Rain fall heavy in the morning (Morning)
I wake up numb, keep pouring (Pouring)
Told my momma I’m sorry (Sorry)
I live fast, might not see forty (Forty)
Back to back, pills keep storming (Storming)
Life get dark, no warning (Warning)
Tell all my demons they important (Important)
They the only ones I can’t ignore (Can’t ignore it)
She love me, but I can’t afford her (Nope)
I gave my soul, then I tore it (Tore it)
Dead friends, yeah I still adore them (Damn)
Graveyard rides, roller coaster (Roller coaster)
Lean hit fast, I’m floating (Floating)
Gun in my lap, I’m hopeless (Hopeless)
If I crash out, keep it loaded (Loaded)
Tears in the rain, I’m soaking (Soaking)

Yeah, she broken just like me (Like me)
Walk in with scars on me (Scars)
She geeked-geeked just like me (Like me)
Damn girl, you barely can see
Cause you cried all night this week (This week)
Slide through life with no peace (Peace)
Hop out, pain on my sleeve (Sleeve)
This .40 can’t heal me (Nah)
My gang won’t ride for free (Free)
Bad days, everything feel bleak (Bleak)
Sad bitch dressed CC (CC)
Put her heart in some Number (N)ine
2-door coupe, we sliding (Skrrt)
Come here, where you going? (Where you going?)
.556 in my head, keep blowing (Boom)
I can’t run from the voices (Voices)

hellgirl* (prod. yxngxs)

poured my heart (prod. yxngxs)

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lyrics:

Yeah… mm
I can’t feel nothin’
Too high, I can’t feel nothin’

I’m on drugs, I’m alone (yeah)
Triple cup, pourin’ slow (pourin’ slow)
She don’t love me, I know (I know)
She just love what I own (what I own)
I’m too high, I can’t land (I can’t land)
Numb my heart with these xans (with these xans)
Lost my trust, lost my friends (lost my friends)
Only racks in my hands (in my hands)

Cold nights, I don’t sleep (I don’t sleep)
Red rain when I bleed (when I bleed)
Fake love, I can’t keep (I can’t keep)
So I ride with my heat (ride with my heat)
She said forever, she lied (she lied)
I sip forever to hide (to hide)
I see the truth in her eyes (her eyes)
But I still let her inside (inside)

I’m on drugs, I’m alone (I’m alone)
Triple cup, pourin’ slow (pourin’ slow)
She don’t love me, I know (I know)
She just love what I own (what I own)
I’m too high, I can’t land (I can’t land)
Numb my heart with these xans (with these xans)
Lost my trust, lost my friends (lost my friends)
Only racks in my hands (in my hands)

i'm alone (prod. yxngxs)

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lyrics:

Glock in my bag but my heart feel empty
Codeine dreams, only thing that tempt me
Rain on the glass when I ride at night
Tryna drown pain in the purple and Sprite
I don’t want love, I done lost that feelin’
Every damn day I’m just tryna start healin’
Shorty wanna ride but she don’t know my life
I just want racks and the peace I can’t find

Been in the dark for a minute, no light (Yeah)
Cold in my chest and it cut like a knife (Uh)
I remember days I ain’t eat all night
Now I’m in a Benz but it don’t feel right
I can buy chains but I can’t buy time
Pour another four just to slow my mind
I’ve been on the road, I’ve been lost inside
With a gun by my side, it’s the only guide
Hurt so deep I don’t speak no more
Friends turn fake so I keep my pole
Love turned pain, now I move so cold
Still count bands but my soul feel old

Glock in my bag but my heart feel empty
Codeine dreams, only thing that tempt me
Rain on the glass when I ride at night
Tryna drown pain in the purple and Sprite
I don’t want love, I done lost that feelin’
Every damn day I’m just tryna start healin’
Shorty wanna ride but she don’t know my life
I just want racks and the peace I can’t find

Back of the club with my hoodie low (Yeah)
Thinkin’ ‘bout things I’ll never show (Yeah)
Ice on my wrist but my hands stay cold
Seen too much, now my heart’s on hold
I remember nights in the trap house faded
Prayin’ to a God that I felt had hated
Now I see cash and the envy they gave me
But I still feel pain that the money can’t save me
Pour up slow, let it hit my veins
Watch the world blur as it numbs my brain
Lost too many to the streets and rain
And I know deep down I won’t be the same

Glock in my bag but my heart feel empty
Codeine dreams, only thing that tempt me
Rain on the glass when I ride at night
Tryna drown pain in the purple and Sprite
I don’t want love, I done lost that feelin’
Every damn day I’m just tryna start healin’
Shorty wanna ride but she don’t know my life
I just want racks and the peace I can’t find  

heart feels empty (prod. yxngxs)

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lyrics:
Yeah, yeah
Double cup, I can’t feel my face
Whole lotta love, but it fade away
Got scars on my wrist, can’t erase my pain
Pour it up slow, watch the world decay

I’m sippin’ on red, mix it with Sprite
Tryna forget, every bad night
Stars in my head, demons in sight 
I don’t wanna die, but it feel right

I’m sippin’ on red, mix it with Sprite 
Codeine dreams, take me through the night 
Lost my soul, but I’ll be alright
Till the day I crash out, I’ll be alright

Heart froze up, can’t thaw that shit
Fake love all around, can’t call that shit
Tattoo tears on my skin, I admit
I’ve been prayin’ to the sky, never got no wish

Balenci shades on, still can’t see
All the pain in the world keep breakin’ me
Got a blade in my hand when I fall asleep
If I don’t wake up, don’t wait for me

I’m sippin’ on red, mix it with Sprite 
Tryna forget, every bad night 
Stars in my head, demons in sight 
I don’t wanna die, but it feel right 

I’m sippin’ on red, mix it with Sprite 
Codeine dreams, take me through the night 
Lost my soul, but I’ll be alright
Till the day I crash out, I’ll be alright

Four Giottos, but I’m still not fine
Diamonds on my wrist can’t freeze my mind
Every flight I take just a way to hide
But the past too close, always by my side

Roll my problems up, light another one 
If you cross me, better run, better run
Gun on my waist, but my heart weigh a ton
I can’t fold, not once, not once

I’m sippin’ on red, mix it with Sprite 
Tryna forget, every bad night 
Stars in my head, demons in sight 
I don’t wanna die, but it feel right 

I’m sippin’ on red, mix it with Sprite 
Codeine dreams, take me through the night 
Lost my soul, but I’ll be alright
Till the day I crash out, I’ll be alright

demons in sight (prod. yxngxs)

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lyrics:
Yeah… I don’t wanna feel this way
Why you gotta leave me today?
Got my boots black, and my hoodie gray
I don’t wanna go outside, I’on like that

Everybody think I’m fine, I’on like that
Sippin’ on some lean while I write raps
Spend my money fast, I’ma make it back
I don’t wanna lose you, I don’t wanna hate you

I just wanna feel alive, I don’t wanna cry
Why you gotta ghost me, leave me high and dry?
Got my tattoos, yeah, they match my scars
Tryna hide the pain inside my heart

Shawty said she miss me even when I’m gone
Counting all my nights where I just write songs
I’ll have a couple mil’ by the time I’m grown
But I feel so alone, yeah, I feel so alone
Yeah, I don’t wanna lose you
I don’t wanna hate you
I don’t wanna feel like that
Why you gotta leave me like that?

All my nights I’m faded, staring at the sky
Broken dreams surround me, baby, don’t ask why
All these pills and drugs just to feel alive
Shawty love me still, even when I dive

I ain’t smokin’ on a dub, got my own stash
All these people fall in love, but it never lasts
Riding in my car, windows foggy glass
Tryna chase the pain, tryna dodge the past

Shawty said she miss me even when I’m gone
Counting all my nights where I just write songs
I’ll have a couple mil’ by the time I’m grown
But I feel so alone, yeah, I feel so alone
Yeah, I don’t wanna lose you
I don’t wanna hate you
I don’t wanna feel like that
Why you gotta leave me like that?

i feel so alone (prod. yxngxs)

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lyrics:
Yeah
I’ve been ridin’ through the city with my eyes closed
Hopin’ I don’t wake up tomorrow
I see your face in the smoke when I’m faded
All these diamonds on me, but I still feel vacant

I’m drifting, caught up in the silence
Late nights, tryna fight off the violence
Pills on the nightstand, lean in my cup
But none of these drugs ever heal me up
I ain’t never had love, that’s why I stay flexin’
But I still feel alone, every blessing’s a lesson

Shawty, I remember when you used to call
Now it’s just the echoes bouncin’ off these walls
I been tryna fill the hole, but I can’t at all
I’ve been poppin’ these pills till I start to fall

I’m a mess in the night, don’t pretend I’m fine
When I said I loved you, it was never a lie
But the streets took my soul, now I’m hollow inside
Tryna smile through the pain, but it eats me alive

I’m drifting, caught up in the silence
Late nights, tryna fight off the violence
Pills on the nightstand, lean in my cup
But none of these drugs ever heal me up
I ain’t never had love, that’s why I stay flexin’
But I still feel alone, every blessing’s a lesson

Back-to-back, I’ve been drownin’ in my sins
Flexin’ with the racks, but I’m empty within
Told my mom I’d make it, but I don’t know when
Every night I pray just to see you again

They don’t know what I’ve been through, it’s true
Even with the ice, I’m still missin’ you
I could buy the world, but it don’t shine the same
When the one that I love don’t remember my name

I’m drifting, caught up in the silence
Late nights, tryna fight off the violence
Pills on the nightstand, lean in my cup
But none of these drugs ever heal me up
I ain’t never had love, that’s why I stay flexin’
But I still feel alone, every blessing’s a lesson

heal me up (prod. yxngxs)

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lyrics:
Yeah, I thought you really loved me before
Now you’re slammin’ the door
Guess you don’t want me comin’ back
Yeah, I swear I seen your face in the crowd
Friday night gettin’ loud
With some other boy holdin’ your hand

Okay, now I get it, ho
You just wanna flex a show
I can’t even trip no more, no
She said "Why you so detached?"
Baby, I been losin’ sleep
Demons tryna cut me deep, oh
Blood on my ripped jeans, bitch
Cause I had to swing on shit
Heart steady bleedin’, ho, oh
Shawty lookin’ evil though
Free my brothers, keep ‘em close
I just wanna see ‘em home, oh
I’m a fallen angel, though
I can see the halo glow
I just can’t believe you, no, no
She said I’m in danger, woah
I don’t see no danger, ho
I’m the one that’s broken, ho, oh

Yeah, I thought you really loved me before
Now you’re slammin’ the door
Guess you don’t want me comin’ back
Yeah, I swear I seen your face in the crowd
Friday night gettin’ loud
With some other boy holdin’ your hand

Maybe I’ll see you when the lights fade
Maybe I’ll forget you on the highway
Maybe I’ll regret what I don’t say
Why you always playin’ games with my mind?
Why you always wastin all of my time?
I been pourin liquor, mixin’ with lines
Yeah, I’m doin’ fine

Yeah, I thought you really loved me before
Now you’re slammin’ the door
Guess you don’t want me comin’ back
Yeah, I swear I seen your face in the crowd
Friday night gettin’ loud
With some other boy holdin your hand

coming back w/ safehaven (prod. yxngxs)

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lyrics:

All my friends turned ghosts in my head
I don’t dream, I just sleep with regret
Smoke fills up my lungs, turns red
I don’t feel alive, I just feel the end
Can’t call home, no signal left
I’ve been numb so long I forget my chest
If I die young, then I meant what I said
Love me when I’m gone, hate me when I’m dead

Face in the mirror, can’t recognize
Eyes too dark, got a heart that lies
You said forever, but forever died
Now I write songs just to stay alive
Cold veins, warm hands, no faith
Still pray I don’t fade away
If the pain gon’ come, let it stay
It’s the only thing that feels the same

All my friends turned ghosts in my head
I don’t dream, I just sleep with regret
Smoke fills up my lungs, turns red
I don’t feel alive, I just feel the end
Can’t call home, no signal left
I’ve been numb so long I forget my chest
If I die young, then I meant what I said
Love me when I’m gone, hate me when I’m dead

Rain hits the glass, feels like peace
Hate this world but it won’t hate me
Drugs in the dark, no melody
Heart in my hands, no remedy
You said “don’t go,” but I already did
Half of my soul stuck where you live
Heaven don’t call, hell won’t text
So I talk to the moon when I need to confess

All my friends turned ghosts in my head
I don’t dream, I just sleep with regret
Smoke fills up my lungs, turns red
I don’t feel alive, I just feel the end
Can’t call home, no signal left
I’ve been numb so long I forget my chest
If I die young, then I meant what I said
Love me when I’m gone, hate me when I’m dead

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