I wasn’t enough

Please don’t hurt me I’m moving on it could be amazing
You made mistakes but I see it in you that you are changing
If you care like you say that you do you wouldn’t fake it
I’m not aware of intentions I’m getting sick of waiting
I been alone for a minute I don’t know where you been
Or with who you accompany hope it wasn’t him
I don’t wanna look stupid if I forgive again
I feel our souls are connected too bad the thread is thin
And if I let you into my heart would you take it just to break it
You did it once but I believe you when you say we’ll make it
I love you will never hurt you that’s the words you had stated
You need to show me what that means because I’m done with chasing
Working every day
I keep my mind busy, I’m dizzy
You can make mistakes but baby why with me, I didn’t
Understand the reason getting closure never happened
Yeah relationships are shit so maybe I’ll just stick to rapping

What a surprise you did it again I saw it coming
You tried to hide it but I saw your eyes knew you were bluffing
You said you changed and that you would offer me all your loving
But instead you took my everything and gave me nothing
I'm okay I’ll make it through I’m stronger than you think I am
I've got some people on my side and really all I need is them
Even though you’re gone it threw me off I’ve still got future plans
Never will I let you come between me and my happiness
Grateful that I know the person that you are and you’ve become
The way that people see me cause of what you said I’ll overcome
You need attention now I wonder what you’ll do when you don’t get it
I’ll be playing on a stage and in your playlist where I’m headed
Now that I know myself I know that you just held me back
I got potential I’ll fulfill and then I’ll make it stack
I know the truth you seemed to fool everyone
But it’s okay cause for now I’ll just stick to writing raps

i guess once wasn't enough (prod. 4lexf)

F*ck Love

Josh A - Used to

prod (Nalig (me)  x Gavin Hadley (guitar) )

lyrics:
ye im weak
look at all these empty seats
like my mind, nobody's here
looking by my side
is there someone behind?

looking at the stars falling down
in the empty fields of my town
shining through my soul oh so bright
i'm getting lost on a late night

listen all around 
hear me out
start to hear voices in my mind
ill take em out , dont wanna to fight
i'm getting lost on a late night

on the drive home, bottles empty
raindrops, falling on my windshield
no calling, i dont wanna talk now
i just wanna be alone until the times right

no falling
into the dark times
no escape
feeling locked up in my mind now
on the bright side
everythings is alright
but still im getting lost on a late night

ye im weak
look at all these empty seats
like my mind, nobody's here
looking by my side
is there someone behind?

looking at the stars falling down
in the empty fields of my town
shining through my soul oh so bright
i'm getting lost on a late night

listen all around 
hear me out
start to hear voices in my mind
ill take em out , dont wanna to fight
i'm getting lost on a late night

i got lost up in last night
tell me what's your name i could barely see the time fly
think i'd rather have a good time
give me all you got
cuz without it i won't be fine

so what's the point of this
living in my own regret
for the past two mistakes i, got,
caught up in the tide
i think i'm losing my sight
before the bottle hits my head i

just wanted to say
that i've been down for you everyday and i
don't wanna decay
but i take my secrets down into my grave yea

yeah im weak
look at all these empty seats
like my mind nobody's here
lookin by my side
is there someone behind
before i forget to save


looking at the stars falling down
in the empty fields of my town
shining through my soul oh so bright
i'm getting lost on a late night

listen all around 
hear me out
start to hear voices in my mind
ill take em out , dont wanna to fight
i'm getting lost on a late night

lost on a late night ft. evergxrden

{part 1}
yeah we threw it all away at a record pace
years of building broken down in just a couple days
i’m zoning out and going numb up in the face
crying
begging me to change
but you know it goes both ways
losing everything is something i can’t take
smoking cookie tryna ease some of the pain
looking for an appetite i ain’t eaten in days
i’m fighting with my brain
you can see it in my face

codependent
self aware but i still hate myself til it’s embedded 
i sit alone i’m really cold
cause i don’t know where i should go
and it’s getting old

still i never hate you
if you need i’m here
the bond with someone else i don’t think it could compare
but i don’t think i can save you
i’m broken
it’s not fair
i could make you feel safe
running fingers through your hair
i know the way it feels to feel like nobody cares
and every time i think about it i feel guilty like it’s only me
i like to facetime when i fall asleep
so i know that you’re alive when you’re not next to me

i sit alone i’m really cold
cause i don’t know where i should go
and it’s getting old
leave a message at the tone
cause i’m all alone
soon as i walk out that door
i'm never coming home

{interlude}
you say that you hate me 
but i know you're lying
said you don't need me
but i see you crying
it happened so fast
throwing it all away
now that i've left
you don't know what to say

{part 2}
second chances aren’t the same when you bend the meaning
every chance another scar that formed with no bleeding
tensions always getting higher we both getting heated
if you love me better tell me cause i fucking need it
we hurt each other saw it coming from the start
i wish that it was easy but it’s really fucking hard
i feel your energy beside me when i’m looking at the stars
just two people living equal with another broken heart

codependent
self aware but i still hate myself til it’s embedded 
i sit alone i’m really cold
cause i don’t know where i should go
and it’s getting old

still i never hate you
if you need i’m here
the bond with someone else i don’t think it could compare
but i don’t think i can save you
i’m broken
it’s not fair
i could make you feel safe
running fingers through your hair
i know the way it feels to feel like nobody cares
and every time i think about it i feel guilty like it’s only me
i like to facetime when i fall asleep
so i know that you’re alive when you’re not next to me

i sit alone i’m really cold
cause i don’t know where i should go
and it’s getting old
leave a message at the tone
cause i’m all alone
soon as i walk out that door
i'm never coming home

nch

produced by 4lexf https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCiYzQlIUDoklHxtRC2Q6_OQ

written, performed, engineered by cavasoul

nch (prod. 4lexf)

dlm
don't leave me
i need you more than ever and it's strange
haven't felt this way in forever
straight pain
knowing that i'm not the best
and i can't handle change
don't know why you're interested
i'm nothing but a name
maybe i just fucking love the pain
it's what i been attracting
every waking day
hire an assassin
to cut out my brain
i'm tired of acting 
like i am okay
for a minute gotta hold it in
then i run to the back
cause the pain in my chest
i don't want you to see when i blow it big
and every single minute man i feel so distressed
i just need a fucking rest and control within
but it feels i never get it 
now this pain has been embedded
and this living i been dreading
dead emotions never settle
who am i?
cause i don't know
and i never did

baby don't leave me i need you to stay
i'm craving attention today
and you look so beautiful wiping all of my tears away
baby don't leave me i need you to stay
i'm craving attention today
and you look so beautiful wiping all of my tears away

hold me close
i need more
got no hoes
on my phone
i'm alone
all the time
even when there's people close
look at me
love your eyes
make me feel like i'm alright
so please don't leave
not on some pressure shit
you just be so precious
shit
i don't need no extra shit
just wish my hands were on your hips
run em up and down your tits
addicted to your fucking lips
the taste of em
i'm wasted on em 
taking breaks
exchanging gazes
you just look amazing on me
x2

baby don't leave me i need you to stay
i'm craving attention today
and you look so beautiful wiping all of my tears away
baby don't leave me i need you to stay
i'm craving attention today
and you look so beautiful wiping all of my tears away
x2

i would tell you not to leave but i don’t want you to feel pressured to love me (prod. 4lexf)

Lyrics

What do I do when you leave me here bleeding
How do I cope when my pasts not receding
How can I start to rebuild up my heart when you said to my face I’m a joke and your leaving

What do I do when you leave me alone
What do I do when you blow up my phone
How i text back when I know all the facts 
And You put up an act cause I know bout the cheating

Now your screaming that I hate you I hate you
No one really wants to date you yeah date you
Now Im hesitant to pick up the pencil 
Cause I’ve lost all the people that I relate to

Now your screaming that I hate you I hate you
No one really wants to date you yeah date you
Now Im hesitant to pick up the pencil 
Cause I’ve lost all the people that I relate to

Forget the times when you gave me a meaning
Fell for your laugh fuck I fell for your breathing
Then you switched up like leaves in the seasons
Running away and I rot into pieces
Fuck with my mental not feeling enough
Feeling the pain and I’m taking a puff
Playing the victim like what have I done
I see through the lies I see through the bluffs

I’m hating my person
Thinking bout life and I guess I deserved it
Could have been better I was just a burden
Wouldn’t care right now even if the world end
World end 
World end
thinking right now and I’m wishing the world end
And if it did I would save you a spot yeah you hurt me a lot but your my favorite person

You were there for me so why did you lie
I fucking loved you and I felt alive
My only friend and you stuck at my side
But I guess that’s convenient cause you stuck a knife
And I fell for you once nah I fell for you twice
But I fell to the bottom it’s dark there’s no light
And I know I sound petty I don’t wanna die
But just thinking of you I don’t wanna live life

What do I do when you leave me here bleeding
How do I cope when my pasts not receding
How can I start to rebuild up my heart when you said to my face I’m a joke and your leaving

What do I do when you leave me alone
What do I do when you blow up my phone
How i text back when I know all the facts 
And You put up an act cause I know bout the cheating

Now your screaming that I hate you I hate you
No one really wants to date you yeah date you
Now Im hesitant to pick up the pencil 
Cause I’ve lost all the people that I relate to

Now your screaming that I hate you I hate you
No one really wants to date you yeah date you
Now Im hesitant to pick up the pencil 
Cause I’ve lost all the people that I relate to

Cognitive Distortion (prod. tennis player)

Im Losing It w/Matego (prod. moon)

Lyrics... 

My fate is sealed I don’t know what to do 
I been contemplating everything while locked in my room
I revolve around hate and I’ve been paying my dues
But I think I’m too late it’ll have me end in a tomb
Anyone can be snake and they never teach
That’s why you never see me trust they all deceased
So I’ve been taking pills I admit defeat
Honestly I’ll take it anything at all if it helps me to sleep

That’s the cards that were dealt 
And I’m sorry but my body I can feel breaking down
My mind ain’t any better I’m deceiving myself
And It’s funny cause the money yeah can’t buy my health
I need help
I need it bad
Mentally and physically I don’t have money to spend
Ain’t that crazy cause Every penny go to family and friends and that’s why I say I’m quitting music I like it but I’ll prolly be dead

I’m fucking tired
I’m so tired
I’m tired and honestly I think my time has expired
I’m fucking tired
I’m so tired 
I’m tired and honestly I think my time has expired

feeling well 
I ain’t been feeling well
And I’m done with trying to talk I only bring people down
Seems I fuck up everything I swear I’m destined to failI
I’m breathing regret every time I fucking inhale

Moving on I can’t
Man I’m trying but my mind is stuck back in the past
I’d be lying if dying didnt seem that bad
I’m writing the facts I’m fucking fighting for this 
I give my life but that shit wouldn’t last

Yeah I’m giving my best but still want me to change
Man I’m trying to change
And I hate when they tell me I’ll see better days
Man that shit never came
Half of the help I’m getting feeling it’s fake

Fake as a bitch
I’ve been pushing but my mind it can’t handle this shit
I’ve been battling depression ever since just a kid
I’m a shell I’ve been broken and I’m sorry I got nun left to give

Honestly, I'm tired (prod. 4lexf)

vocals by the incredible Anne-Marie Choon
hope you enjoy

@rxseboy - dying inside (prod. sarcastic sounds)

produced by, xxxtentacion
garette's revenge

I've dug two graves for us my dear, cant pretend that I was perfect, leaving you in fear, oh man, what a world the things I hear..

If i could act on my revenge, than oh would I..

some kill, some steal, some break your heart, and you had thought that I would let it go and let you walk,

well broken hearts break bones, so break up fast, and I dont wanna let it go, so in my grave i'll rot (repeat)

I love you garette
rest in peace, jocelyn, I will have my revenge upon the world

written and produced by Jahseh Onfroy, "xxxtentacion"

GARRETTS REVENGE

Probably deleting this soon...

Mixed by: @lofeetunes
prod by: @planteee

spotify!

Midnight Thoughts  ft.Ollie MN(prod. planteee.)

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mala presents 'XYZ' 
@mishaal_tamer
collaborative ep featuring @deaarderek @choisies @zolofbeatz

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CHOISIES - GARDEN (FT. MISHAAL) [FREE DOWNLOAD]

@sadboyprolific 
@pauli-niemi

just another sad song...

Lyrics:
V1
I’m sick of loving 
Every time it’s just a misconception
I find a girl 
and she lead me into a new dimension
Thinking bout the future
Counting out all of our blessings
And then I find out it’s all fake
And she leaves me guessing
I guess I learned my lesson
I guess we’re better ended
I wish I never gave my heart out
Dummy should’ve kept it
Just like a piece of paper
She ripped my heart in half
I guess this kind of thing is something I won’t ever have
But it’s fine
Soon I’ll just get used to it
To keep my mind off of love
I’ll just do stupid shit
I fell asleep
Questioning is anyone for me
Laying on my back using 
Music as a remedy
Listening and writing
All these sad songs
Happy for a bit
But doesn’t last long
I’m Trynna find the joy
In all this chaos
Keep on praying
for my future hope it pays off

Hook
Broke my heart I
U tore it in two
So why am I
Still thinking of u

V2
Lately it’s fuck emotions
Grab the dope and then I roll it
I’ve been tripping off the potent
Honestly I’m omnipotent 
Used to think about r memories
I cleared em like my history 
Wrote this in a grave 
To set the scene
Cuz love is dead to me
R love was one sided
I know u ain’t felt the same
I bet u relish the fact
That I fucking felt this pain
U gave me comfort
U were like my shelter from the rain
Gripping the razor blade I swear I’d never love again
I’ll keep that promise
Trust me I won’t break it
I’ll rip my heart out of my chest
And chain it in the basement
Knocking bottles til I’m wasted
Clear to see I’m changing
Rather stick to blazing
Then the dreams that I’ve been chasing

V3
I know hearts don’t physically break 
but my chest hurts
I can still smell her perfume
On my sweatshirt 
They say that time can heal
Soon I’ll feel better
But all that can heal this
Is if I never met her
Story never ends 
If the story never starts
Take these sad feelings
Trynna turn them into art
Paintbrush light stroke 
Out all of my feelings
Spitting shit typing quick
Keep writing lyrics
Take the wheel I can’t see
But keep steering
Moving on kicking out 
My past demons
And I’m not walking I’ll be running 
From this torture
I see the light
Do my best to move forwards

scars on my heart | Feat. SadBoyProlific (Prod. Slipfunc)

sing me anything that will cross your mind

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something simple

something simple (feat. mishaal)

Obsession OUT NOW!

obsession everywhere: bnd.lc/obsessionalbum

vocals by nineteen
instrumental by timmies

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chilly morning (ft. nineteen95)

NUMB (Acoustic)

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numb the pain

wanna grow old (i won't let go) (feat. Jimmy Levy)

Written by C H O I S I E S
Produced by C H O I S I E S
Co-produced & Mastered by C H O I S I E S

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I Love U, I Do

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C H O I S I E S - I Love U, I Do

Mhm, honestly don’t know what to tell the world. Lmao but uh yeah..

I wasn’t enough

xan4erys