they wanna know where i been at, i've been quiet for a minute
i got real patient waiting for the changes that i needed
i can see it in the future, like i'm staring right ahead
stand in front of me and spirits will wind up dead
soul shocking with the energy, i came for serenity
i got a million places to be, i unleash hell in recipe
till the death of me, i definitely, got much more to see
my soul been caged in too long, this that free entity
i came back with an attack, strategist, quick to react
been studying for 25 years, i'm known to fight back
i got the heart of a lion, no weak shit ever scares me
my past dramas caused trauma that could scar directly
especially when i get down, it's hard to stand your ground
when you got burdens so heavy that they weight the whole world down
it's crushing, atlas, i seek help and then vanquish
my light can't be defeated by a little bit of anguish
every footprint from my story holds tales of the glory
took a few losses, but every win keeps getting gory
i'm perfecting my skills, you ain't do shit with your time
the years can fly by and i still see all the same signs
read em like directions, i've been avoiding the contact
unless contract, you don't want nothing from me in combat
i come back with the melodies, they scoping after me
i'm too far from reality to even care who's after me
i'm eternal in my presence, learned it all through meditation
while people escalating situation, i show better patience
i learned all about self, i learned how to control dreams
i learned everything i needed in order to stop fiends
from scratching my heart like a bug bite, that'll scar
deeper then the skin protects, used to think i should be far
distant, cold hearted, that ain't what a heart needs
there's a reason we're warm bodies until the heart bleeds

i need to be happy, i deserve this after they attack me
with the passion of blasphemy, calling it pretentious, they half of me
while i stomach catastrophe, i throw up signs, no sign language
you sign average, i sign package and deliver heart like bad habits
meaning i feel for all the wrong reasons, i feel for the coming seasons
i feel overwhealmed that they let me have power to end for any reason
i feel stressed when i'm not impressed, i haven't been motivated
give me a good reason why and i'll move mountains like cultivating
i'm digging up shit, superman on an off day, weak day, everyday
the weak end brings a sun day, recharge me, i'll batter till i'm bloody
battery charge, they ain't rechargeable, i'm charged up and angry
i'm focused like i had been, outta frame with the has beens
your picture for the have beens, i picture it all, candid
drop knowledge when i'm spazing over antics that haven't landed
i hit ground and bounce like i've been jumping with the magic
closed eyes and they vanish, open soul, the pursuit of happiness

The Pursuit

Time of Day (Prod. i$mael jam)

Time Of Day (Prod. i$mael jam)

my penmanship on point like i'm a marksman with point
getting older and wiser makes me realize i'm on point
passive skills i anoint, the battle scars disappoint
yet another reminder that i am legend, right on point
my patience growing tired, wants me to rush the desire
i sit back and take it all in, tryna prove the higher
i play with fire, pyromancer, the answer, through the wire
if i ain't astonish yet, then i'm an astronaut, sire
the timing ain't a liar, it's like a natural flow
how it comes so easy, man, nobody knows
i wrote a decades worth of decent shit, mind moving quick
in 5 minutes, i spit it, flip the page and it's a new chapter
i'm tryna come after the images of laughter, capture
moments, no kodak, i fracture and then move past her
heart beating faster, the things that i've mastered
move in silence, charlie chaplin, the laughing matter

the lightning strikes my body, i'm disciplined like karate
my mind cycling, ferrari, the hunger makes me want it
i take shots, and arm it, i line em up, you's my target
if i ain't mark it, then my flows will never set sail
i'm talking dollars and free will, waters that never prevail
the deepest oceans of my feel, i'm getting in my zone
don't test him, leave him alone, my mic check hitting strong
my craft skills that i hone, got me painting another picture
my poetry getting richer, the fixtures that i deliver
i cause quake but never quiver, i'm walking emotionless
the thoughts that ghosted it caused dilemma like motionless
movements, you stand up but never focused it, blurry images
mad scrimmages, scribbling notes with proper diligence
i master a craft limitless, a bit different, never ignorant
my pen strikes vigorous, my written stuff hits rigorous
can't humble it if i'm killing it, writing with belligerence

The Hunger (Prod. Neron)

i can't ever make up for the lost time that belong
so i pour my heart and soul out and put it in a song
so long like goodbyes, my writing style touch the sky
i got infinite demise, infinity stones like your eyes
but none of which stop time, these sad songs haunt my lines
like ghosts from a past life, i'm tryna exercise the rhymes
meaning they either work out or get torn out, i'm bout to throw out
all my old lines and start brand new, slave labour like it's worn out
chains kept for hold out, like a patient reminder
i'm an absent survivor, cause i ain't ever there to remind her
so the fire spread, wild, just like the original desire
to keep things gripped like a real good set of tires
in the middle of winter, a snow storm that's weathered
experience will never teach you the proper wording together
of how to talk it out better, now it's a hostage situation
cause one person can't figure out a simple negotiation

things changing quicker then the last rotation of the sun
i got it all on film right before the night had just begun
quicker then bullets from a gun, i was racing to get ahead
i was tryna beat it like m.j. before my life pronounced dead
before my head hit the bed, before i had discovered soul
i was nothing less then silent in the shadows whilst alone
in the shadows i held own, in the shadows i was haunted
gifted poetry never to hit page because thoughts were exalted
i never stopped it, now stop this, wait
echoes of past mistakes formulate a great debate
filling heart with hate, wasting moments being bitter
i bit apple and tasted sweeter seeing wisdom got me chiller
colder then winter nights while trying to keep a deep composure
is a great tactic for enclosure, but not for love or the holder
not for being bolder, the biggest rock in the garden, mine
rolling right behind me i was on the run from time

Past Moments (Prod. Neron)

till the moment i close my eyes and see everything i once knew
i want nothing more then to be able to tell my story and speak true
i see more then colour hue, i see vibrant vibrations emanating
spent more on the knowledge learned then your actions, pay attention

patterns of recognition mixed with blind decision
got you wishing for a better life, no better tradition
of the trade, feeling it like the words reach through the page
you know it's real if it don't ever repeat the same way
i've been seeing shit in the matrix, same shit different day
they got a word for it, you can call me psychic anyway
premonitions keep me away, the warning lights are shinning bright
if that ain't right then what's the night got in store for me tonight
eternity longing, the sound of silence got me motivated
to write a better story with this pen ink that's almost faded
over topics of never making it with running on issues like the sentence
my comma placement more important, my worth is more then the essence
of betrayal, heart break, depression and poverty
the pursuit of happiness got me tearful over little victories
you can't amount to me, no numbers will ever reach my soul
i've been trying to grow old, i got some achievements to hold

till the moment i close my eyes and see everything i once knew
i want nothing more then to be able to tell my story and speak true
i see more then colour hue, i see vibrant vibrations emanating
spent more on the knowledge learned then your actions, pay attention

clouds shifting light onto the darkest parts alright
the darkest parts of night still spark a little light in the after sight
clearing thoughts from the after bite it'll leave you scratching like
hard hitting questions, the intentions, lacking from the total strife
warfare with gorgonites, a toy story you ain't gonna like
flashbacks and snap shots got me paranoid in the dead of night
my mind like a data mine, so many gems and i can't find
that one line, i got a million notes, a thousand words, and no sign
language you can't define with poetry and a bit of modesty
no honestly, name one thing that paints a picture better then honesty
soul shifting apologies, i carry weight like metallurgy
meaning everything i talk about is more then a punchline, ironically
i'm trapped inside the thought of me, o.b.e's and a sea of dreams
my chakras tryna stay clean, my actions been obscene
in pursuit like a day dream, happiness till i can't see
premonitions, silent wishings, and an end to me

till the moment i close my eyes and see everything i once knew
i want nothing more then to be able to tell my story and speak true
i see more then colour hue, i see vibrant vibrations emanating
spent more on the knowledge learned then your actions, pay attention

Memories (Prod. Neron)

Lyrics:

tuesdays with morrie turning new pages in life
my appetite ain't been the same since i discovered new light
it's alright to admit it, i ain't been the same in a minute
my consciousness weighting on me telling me i shoulda been in it
i try to live it but i can't, i had that moment and now it passed
the memories are forever with me but that picture was the last
i'm star gazing when i should be here, i'm too distant when i should be here
instead i choose to chase dreams and breath in the night air
conversations with the dead about life as we know it
has my mind in a paradox and a double entendre as i wrote it
breaking into new barriers i'm just trying to seek knowledge
hoping that if i ain't do better i can at least acknowledge
passing off wisdom for intelligence in the next moment
had me second guessing the true nature of my rival opponent
i revoked it, my old soul had told me to let this one go
but i can't fight the feeling my young stubbornness had shown

Night Air

Fight The Feeling (REMIX) (ReProd. obproducer) [BONUS Track]

dreamer till the death of me but i don't like to sleep much now
i've been under covers like a double agent, that's two times around
my head profound with the secrets of how to indulge in fantasies
while not losing ones mind and keeping above the travesties
i'm always glad to see that moon rise above my head in orbit
it's morbid but the dark has since become my friend when i'm touring
following the alluring callings of my soul to a place that's unknown
i ain't trust in much but i know my soul has seen it all before shown
that's how i've grown, through the poetry that works like a triforce
that's heart, spirit, and mind, i let it fly, my pen's like a master sword
how you master words, i'm knowledgeable on the insecurities
i used to be so guarded you'd think i had a body guard next to me
insert the odyssey, ulysses, i came back to find serenity
ain't no use testing me, i've been at sea, poseidon couldn't fucking drown me
my heart bigger then thee, so hold that head high up now
i'm surrounded by clouds and all that's because i didn't wake up now

what if it had all been different, i didn't wake up in the morning distant
instead i just vibed when i visit and not mourn over chances when i miss it
i lived it, they quit it, something like boats cause i'm tryna stay a float
if they don't know what it is you best believe i'm not the bear you wanna poke
ain't talking on a joke, on real life shit my biggest fear was being homeless
what if i didn't make it out, the timing has been fucking real with the moments
in that second i own'd it, the next minute i done lost it being too cautious
i never thought this but it turns out life is on the reel you just ain't watch it
so i dropped it like a bad habit but vices poison persons potentials
you just ain't that same person no more, growing up got us like we all living hopeful
i'm tryna live youthful, you stressing, it turns out that shit's killing you
it's amazing to think that your brain can cause you harm without alerting you
what it do, we run the world hoping to not live with the pain and strife within
i see colours blending in, my consciousness challenging you again
believe me, my name ain't jonas, but i derive from a natural leader
we thought we were all giving gifts but it's more just like the giver

May Weather

Dreams (Prod. Floyd)

i ain't ever break promises without regrets or missed issues
i miss issued the problem like a typo that's been written to you
decode the message, morse code through the rhythm of my heart
i've been beating those drums for a while without a response back
it's been like 2 decades and i feel this energy vibing off of it
normally i'm not on top of it, but somehow i'm caught involved with it
fucking astonishment, i sit alone watching how the waters moving
i'm in a park full of people with evil looming over my head grooving
to the sound of silence, golden tickets couldn't even get you there
polar express with my heart, i'm sending it way north without a care
or on a dare, my cranium pounding, my stress levels climbing, i feel it
my heart is aching worse then the bones of a skeleton with arthritis
as i write this, i've dug 8 feet too deep maybe i can't get outta this
i look around at my grave knowing full well i'ma die with this
maybe that makes me crazy, i ain't give up when i shoulda been lazy
i climbed to the top pushing up daises, and the rest of it's kinda hazy
but then i feel it all again, this feeling washes me right over
i have to wonder what's bolder, my actions or the words that grow older
i'm colder then november 22nd, done froze it all just to feel again
because there's nothing more real then borrowed time and fake friend
i often wondered back then, what if it was like this instead of that
i carry doubt in my heart because i don't know how to handle trust like that
i come off top like a hat, maybe i'm over the top to be exact
hesitant with my next move this chess board is starting to stare right back
i lack consistency with stable emotions over feelings of not being broken
mood swings i cover up like a bad hair piece on someone who ain't joking
i'm hoping to convey the message, maybe it'll be misconstrued in the sentence
judge, jury and executioner all look down on me like i shoulda chose repentance
or vengeance, instead i carried it all by myself for everyone who held doubt
i ain't ever asked for help and wondered why i felt so alone when i had felt
the feelings melt over like extra cheese on a picture perfect pizza
been hungry since i started and i'm in the kitchen every day with baking soda
maybe i shouldn't be, maybe i'm wasting my time with everything i do
i don't know how to tell you, i see you're happy and can't think of hurting you

Hesitancy (Prod. Floyd)

kicking up issues like dust storms, i dust them if they act wrong
i ain't act strong, that strong act got them in they heads like they king kong
that's monkey business, perspectives switch when glasses are tinted, not printed
my pen ain't been staighter since like that 2012 fear had been lifted, i ain't gifted
move in silence with it, they know i'm acting up if i go quiet, i'm quiet with it
too different to say it's the same shit, so instead i'll be saying it's real drifted
chronicles of riddick, you can catch a vibe with it and we be soaring like birds in flight
i love the night, if i didn't need to be up in the mornings i'd be up all fucking night
that's when i find the right temperament, this beat hits my soul like it's meant for it
i was meant for this, i'm trying to convey specific feelings in every testament
i ain't testing this, i just let it go and know that it'll pour down like heavy rain
my poetry going deeper then catacombs to dig up dead issues we ain't gonna name
it'll be all in vain if i don't say it out in the open like public conversations
these are wordy sentences but they ain't shit if you catch miscommunications
dial up like the 90s, i've been straight from it since i was real tiny
and now i'm grimey when i rap, my poetry on the other hand gets praised real highly

i stay working harder then child slaves in sweat shops, that's non stop
my heart drop when innocence loses the battle of time and it all flops
like a house of cards, no magic tricks or gimmicks when i spit it clean
call that spit shine when i abuse the use of english language real pristine
i'm too naive when they talk that bullshit, i ain't been around many like me
so when i make a connection you best believe that shit gotta be like wifi with buoyancy
they know it's me, my third eye sees into you and no poker face i can't see through
hand full of cards and the only one i ever play is the one you always wanted me too
i know it's true, i juggle more things then a circus act, no laughing matter
i ain't after power, i'm after hours with it, putting in the work like a rookie batter
i'm swinging faster, home run hits is the shit i aspire for now
known to be nice with it but even mr nice guy can get caught in it somehow
don't test my shaolin style, i'll take that shit and run a hundred mile
till i'm the best out you know i'm the only one known to keep it mild
dial up like the 90s, i've been straight from it since i was real tiny
and now i'm grimey when i rap, my poetry on the other hand gets praised real highly

Listen To It (Prod. Floyd)

this a showcase i guess the price was really right
i hit that spot all night and get to flashing like strobe lights
in my zone right, i'm swerving, short person determined
i reach the depths of the kiddie pool where they found peewee herman
i'm burning through this shot glass, bars rustier then alcatraz
i ain't know your ass, they pull up like pampers on granny's ass
on full blast with the cringe, i got that crooked grin of the grinch
my heart 3 times too big so they ripped it out in a cinch
i ain't been out in a bit, locked in the basement like your dad's porn
it gets worse with age, arteritis in the same hand that his shoulder's torn
for scorn and petty ways, they trying to nickle and dime how the pennies made
sorry mister lincoln i guess they still slaves to the modern days
snorting condoms and popping tide pods, i wish i had god's job
taking videos on the same ipod they have photos of bob ross
now that's a hard toss, miley cyrus playing wrecking ball
king kong with blue balls, my morals when i rhyme it all

i'm just tryna reach the same level they balance though
walk a straight path with a tilted brim, they gotta know
like idaho this rocky mountain got me wanting to fight drago
bring the big guns with the small triggers, they taking a dive though
they drive slow, that cruise control gone ballistic like missiles
i drop bombs like dominoes, not the pizza, blow the whistle
smaller then a thistle next to king kong beating his chest
i'm trying to get to the top of the credits, not be the best
payment in respect it lasts longer then cash we pay to use
most of which goes to things we purchase just to abuse
i choose both pills as i walk through the matrix backwards
don't ask about the code, i heard the python's got backwoods
bringing back wood, lumberjack, hand axe contests
filthy with the karate chops on cement blocks, making contacts
every line i shoot is hollow tipped like a double entendre
now ask me to bring it back, i'm faithful like the cross they put on yea

Baking Soda

Cutting Board (Prod. TheCloudLounger)

i ain't feeling myself lately, i've been going a little crazy
don't speak the words in tongues you don't understand, head's hazy
off the same vibe they found kurt when he was alive, i understand
i'd need a submarine, no sandwich, my heart starving for your attention
deep waters got me in that sinking feeling, no boat, no hope,
fuck up the flow just to swim upstream, usually spit cleaner then soap
the poison working slower then normal, i need to double up the dosage
infectious thoughts can have you exposed like an x-ray with the focus
i see through your intentions, i distance myself before the apprehension
premonitions flaring in my third eye like the sun before combustion
i stay underground like vault dwellers, the fallout got me seaking shelter
i bare arms before anyone tries to contact me, tank tops in sweater weather
the colder the better, i pour the solution on the problem
it went straight to my head, i guess i'm stressing over all them
gritty thoughts at 4:41, this tin man don't know kansas
all i know is candid, a literal parable over the anxious

i have finally let you love me, self reflection speaking lightly
i'm up nightly just to love me, self reflection guarded tightly

i have finally let you love me, self reflection speaking lightly
i'm up nightly just to love me, self reflection guarded tightly

i have finally let you love me, self reflection speaking lightly
i'm up nightly just to love me, self reflection guarded tightly

i have finally let you love me, self reflection speaking lightly
i'm up nightly just to love me, self reflection guarded tightly

D.E.D

Nap Time (Prod. BrokeBoi)

shadow strike in the moonlight, last gasp so i hold tight
crippling blows to my mental got me up till it ain't night
i ain't right, i carry weight like this depression is my essence
adolescence dodging presence over soul stones while i'm stressing
i'm confessing darkest sin, i cry as i grip pen
hoping to either live free or die free, i'm wondering will it end
i continue then my face burdened like it packed too much
i act too much, i was hoping for a little smile with warm touch
never enough when you in it, that feeling come when i'm gifted
with the attack of negative thoughts, i'm trying but can't lift it
i twist it, put the cap back on, who the fuck you call on
my animal instinct ain't to trust a mother fucker who ain't been on
i'm so gone, expression, press on till it's fucking left on, that's real
till i heal i'm looking over my shoulder constant, forces feel
i felt it, at age 7 all i wanted was to never be alone
i have dreams of being inspirational, i might never make it home

this the realest shit i wrote, i quote, you take note
deeper then sinkholes getting simple i wrote a single to cope
episode four a new hope, she keeps me grounded like insoles
house arrest when i feel cold, shell shock with my steel toes
i steal souls, if i ain't convey a message to beat
you better listen again because that message carries soul like feet
coral reef deep, deeper then this dark burden we carry
can't lay it to rest until we understand what's next and that's scary
i've been buried, self care, where's mac when we need him here
if i die today then i want you to know that there's nothing to fear
we go near but never approach, you talk about it and you ghost
outta everything next to me i might just know it the most
i suffer as host, but i keep trying, getting better ain't lying
it's like a jungle sometimes and i wonder how i keep from dying
that little moment of pause is relief, you know it peaks as i speak
if you hang on for a moment more i'll patch you through to what you seek

Depression (Prod. fravo)

Depression (Prod. Fravo)

depression every day
got me some type of way
i'm just tryna stay awake
before my life it takes

depression every day
got me some type of way
i'm just tryna stay awake
before my life it takes

depression every day
got me some type of way
i'm just tryna stay awake
before my life it takes

depression every day
got me some type of way
i'm just tryna stay awake
before my life it takes

million lines of an author's quote, an author he done wrote
past tense for the author's note, stress weighting till he done broke
far sight but no visuals, in the visual, alone miracle
kids original, reciprocal, the feeling of not healing you
the feeling of what men should do, the feeling of not wanting
rather taunting, ideas daunting, a scary world like haunting
haunted with an idea, haunted with past tense
the past tense but never forgotten, that's love in lesser sense
a sixth sense to danger wouldn't save us from being hurt
kinda like how the answer doesn't really dig up the dirt
deforestation because we too egotistical to let it go
no one ever plants another seed, we'd rather just leave it so
old soul's couldn't save us from the new problems we had caused
without just cause some would die for those moments left on pause
the tape marked off the area, melodies struck like mass hysteria
never inferior, tryna clear yea as the pain bled out from the interior

depression every day
got me some type of way
i'm just tryna stay awake
before my life it takes

depression every day
got me some type of way
i'm just tryna stay awake
before my life it takes

depression every day
got me some type of way
i'm just tryna stay awake
before my life it takes

depression every day
got me some type of way
i'm just tryna stay awake
before my life it takes

auto pilot now a days means your phone on airplane mode
head in the clouds, tryna escape earth from any road
that ideas alien, virtual reality have all that you need
it even has porn, pretty soon you won't even need to feed
enter the matrix, but then here comes the hard hitting question
is it better for a perfect world to be fake or a real one to be stressing
heart hitting depression mixed with vivid dreams of self harm
did we do this to ourselves, or has something more sinister come along?
i can feel the tension, no questions, we ain't vibing the same
i stay outta contact for most of my life just so you don't know my name
i'm a lonely, anti social, depressive, born leader of people
i can be funny, charming, intelligent, and caring just as equal
but i choose to lose it all, i scribe notes down called songs
my poetry looking pretty grim, but i'm conveying the long
answer, i battle faster, a learned master in this disaster
one hundred thousand hours chasing what it is you're after

depression every day
got me some type of way
i'm just tryna stay awake
before my life it takes

depression every day
got me some type of way
i'm just tryna stay awake
before my life it takes

depression every day
got me some type of way
i'm just tryna stay awake
before my life it takes

depression every day
got me some type of way
i'm just tryna stay awake
before my life it takes

Broken Lines (Prod. Young Taylor)

i can see you met with a terrible fate as of late
i've been tryna to better understand how the stars relate
to my position relevant the earth, i've been uncharted since birth
charter a boat, the chatter gets around like blood splatter when i quote
the loss of hope, we moved mountains to see visions of what's ahead
better dead, the landscape barren from scorched earth tactics we bred
i moved lead with pencils, they out shooting guns with stencils
the artistry never knew me like they meant to, bars with tensile
crack with rentals, that same window got me sentimental
the feeling either consequential or less provocative in my mental
i touch soul like i was meant to, my heart burning like candle
someone save them, in they weakest they were losing grip without a handle
i channel my inner emotions, can't love the pieces that are broken
i'm hoping to see them all smile in my last effort to gift token
i'm choking on the thoughts of better days we never had
i can't see you through cloudy eyes and clever lies that got me mad

i'm missing you everyday, i'm stressing over you every day
i just want to be there for you again and let you know that i'm ok
when i don't call i'm not far away, when i don't write i'm not far away
i just want to be there for you again and let you know that i'm ok

i'm missing you everyday, i'm stressing over you every day
i just want to be there for you again and let you know that i'm ok
when i don't call i'm not far away, when i don't write i'm not far away
i just want to be there for you again and let you know that i'm ok

i'm missing you everyday, i'm stressing over you every day
i just want to be there for you again and let you know that i'm ok
when i don't call i'm not far away, when i don't write i'm not far away
i just want to be there for you again and let you know that i'm ok

i'm missing you everyday, i'm stressing over you every day
i just want to be there for you again and let you know that i'm ok
when i don't call i'm not far away, when i don't write i'm not far away
i just want to be there for you again and let you know that i'm ok

moving through it all i've learned it's harder when you call
upon others to help you when you don't understand the fall
so don't catch me if i'm crashing, leave me be if i'm thrashing
if i fall short of the line that's b flat with no passion

where you been, it's been a while, i'm tryna shake this denial
earthquakes got me feeling it, my whole world written wild
i contemplate the lesser, i see your drawer in my dresser
but i don't see your face often, when i do i just stress her
heavy burdens got me sinking, give me depression and i'm thinking
i'm better off offering the off switch then to be switching
my lack of thought got me distant, i'm in outer space with the distance
but this shit ain't alien and that's the problem with my exsistence
i could blame it on the struggle, conjour a plan in the huddle
but what's it worth if i don't have you when i just wanna cuddle
my dark days aren't any brighter, but you make it seem lighter
if it was heavy the burden weights nothing when you're the writer
so promise you'll never forget me, promise you'll remember me
living with depression every day got me feeling the energy
i struggle through it all, i've made some mistakes with the fall
but my fault was giving you the option to think you didn't have it all

Sincere (Prod. Syndrome)

night air vibes as i contemplate expression, i'm stressing
over everything, fuck it, man, let me start over
night air vibes as i contemplate expression, i'm stressing
over everything, getting dressed at 4am to weather things
i'm the weather man, cause it ain't rain harder then that evening
where i was bleeding heavy emotions as i broke down out in the open
i'm choking writing loss and losses, knowing i won't be there next time
hoping your next time sees it through your eyes as i see it through my lines
as i confide i hate losing love, maybe i'm just never doing enough
what's worse is my best friend always seems to go at the same time, tough love
so why do i feel so lonely as i float in the ocean of my dreams
staring up at the stars knowing it ain't always how things seems
knowing you're up at that same time when neither of us can sleep
you not speaking outta love and me not speaking outta pride i keep
that pride will be the death of me if this stress don't eat at me first
i'm wilding out over the fact that i think i was the worst

half a bottle of my sorrows
i'm two shots from tomorrow
just tryna live hollow
as the world expects me to follow

half a bottle of my sorrows
i'm two shots from tomorrow
just tryna live hollow
as the world expects me to follow

night air vibes as i contemplate expression, i'm stressing
over everything, not just our chapter but remembering
i can't witness anymore, these people drive me crazy to the core
i just wanna get away from it all, you know, hurt no more
wonder no more about how long i'll live, enjoy the time
have kids that love me and hopefully pass on these same lines
i spin, the web we in been getting frail, i fill the holy grail
with that liquor you put me on, with sweet taste i set sail
for the final nail in my coffin, dracula, i'm attacking yea
with serious compassion for the lack of humanity they offer yea
but quick to offer yea a compromise, live carefree and die surprised
because that fast life quick to kill yea for an enterprise
star trek, i check vitals for signs of happiness or sorrow
you wouldn't be surprised to know we all out here living hollow
because the world we built gives us depression and i'm thinking
depression every day ain't any way that any of us should be living

half a bottle of my sorrows
i'm two shots from tomorrow
just tryna live hollow
as the world expects me to follow

half a bottle of my sorrows
i'm two shots from tomorrow
just tryna live hollow
as the world expects me to follow

Half A Bottle (Prod. JoDoEm and Flasktheproducer)

Half A Bottle (Prod. JoDoEm And Flasktheproducer)

been writing for longer then we've had words
not a verse missed, i spit, then add verbs
quick to add words to the story, my memory a little shaky
remind me again about how it all came to be this crazy
i'm hazy with the phases like broken stair cases
meaning some steps are missed but i still get places
no faces haunt my dreams but i still have nightmares
i only fear myself, so maybe that's why i'm right here
with light there my mind steer and i just stand clear
i could clear the air and it'd still be wrong there
so i hold breath, i'm waiting, patient like i'm crazy
like an abandoned dog waiting for their master, maybe
or more like the matrix, i'm just tryna send a code
python, bygones, and a little bit of old
memories, i'm lining up till it seem heavenly
till the beat stops and the music carries me

i've been reaching higher then my last stretch
on my tippy toes and i haven't reached yet
i reach back like i'm tryna connect with myself
body and soul split, separation, that's mental health
vaults of mental wealth kept stored in gold bars
the appraisal of it all left behind like going far
outta your way but forgetting the reason to it
i stick notes in my phone so i would never lose it
i choose it for the moment, maybe it's time come
or it's time passed and i outlast the final drum
digging deeper in the archive, i got words for past lives
or past tries but never anything for the current vibes
i got future eyes like i'm gonna live forever
my words stood together as the future got clever
no better preparation, impact soulful, elevation
cause i've been correlating which path is my destination

Reaching For It

Reaching For It (Prod. Novmber)

wordsmith with a heart of lead, i'm quick to react
i smash on the periodic table, meaning i'm boutta relapse
outta my element in fact, i snap when my mind is relaxed
that's a mental breakdown of how i come to create tracks
follow in my footsteps, i lead through the darkness
picasso in the likeness with abstract sharpness
quick to remark this teaching that you only need wisdom
to school scholars and break collars, an animal kingdom
straight outta the jungle where tangents start to alter my ego
my alter ego knows he's next so he's starting to bleed through
staining shirts that aren't see through, coloured glass and a breakthrough
i feel you through the vibrations of wanting to hate too
handful of emotions to play too, what games you into?
me? i like it when i don't have to play you
chances are painful, i come loaded with the range full
taking shots to prevent over confidence in people

back to the episodes, i'm flipping through the season
i got no reason to be cautious over small moves with lesions
bleeding with jealousy over the fact i can't have any
so i fake it, possessiveness never really apart of me
breaking apart from me my spirit got it all twisted, man
i ain't say that possession isn't something that i gifted
i just know that i missed it, wrapped up in a single line
i got writers block for days, i damn near broke through the line
psychology all fine, i took those blocks and built with em
a little bit of architectural work got me built with em
i build with em when they want it, i turn the whole world
shift axis and trade power in the struggle for a pearl
you claim it for a girl, i'm saving up for a woman
the type to brandish diamonds and still out shine as a person
classifications got you looking, we all know the pressure
you racing against time while i'm racing for the treasure

Wordsmith

Wordsmith (Prod. LethalNeedle)

till my feet hit the floor it's fair game, nothing more
i'm in limbo with a symbol of raw talent they adore
i conform on the weekdays, they pile on the weak days
i hit play and everything else just seems to drift away
i never say it aloud, but this cloud follow me around
it's like a bad sound stuck in your head, just calm down
you could drown in the flows, a slippery tongue never knows
when things are coming, that's experience and it proves to show
i got more heart then soul, i sold heart just to hold
a piece of cake from the queen of hearts, she charged me whole
i drop low in the zone, meditate a heart rate
it escalate something fake, being quaint, dinner date
while we ate, conversate, empty plate, call it great
say it fate, getting late, open gate, here i go
till the journey is like something straight from lord of the rings
expect more dragons breath when i speak out, i king
the music keeps me directed in a position where i live
i write all my own experiences to the point in which i give
my lines vivid history like heritage, acknowledge a scribe
i translate misery into music, we calling that a vibe
the pursuit of happiness, i'm after this, thrashing passionate
after crashing it, i package it, and send off like graduate
pass the average, my language, speaking in passive anguish
i'll make you fucking love it or die trying, i call that damage
and until i damn it, i jam it, like loud music in your ears
bust a ear drum, i ain't hear them, perfection in the years

Over Time (Prod. Alchemy Beats)

162 hours and i've been gone outta my power
either sour or the lack of devour
my soul been mistaken
they taking everything, like everything
i ain't get it, i'm tryna fix it
so i'm stressing that i make it
and if i don't, then what happens next?
i hit you with the text, text, text
that's poetry, my soul done ghost me
cause i ain't into H E L P
i rather hit snooze when i sleep
man, i barely fucking eat
the will to live, longevity
an escapade for my entity
energy like fuel, driving me
she asking me; "you suffering?"
i lie about what's happening
my will to smile, laugh
tell jokes and have a blast
the will to live, i give
presence to instill love
either that or another bug
ideas tapped like a rug
over basic mentions of better intentions
the pursuit happening as i'm stressing
so in the essence of depression
you better not fold
i watch as people brake down like cars
they drive ain't get them that far
so how have i made it to the outskirts
looking for answers, and out skrrts
the epitome, ill minded like 70s
i reckon thee, i ain't gonna reach it

Sir Joshua

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