this is the closest thing I’ve found ❤️

The Upload

Spiral (Prod. ERLAX)

Lyrics:

Well, I love when they run
Yeah, I love when it's fun,
And they make it fun for me

What the fuck do you want, bitch
I know I'm blunt, 
Like my words how I like my trees

Say too much, summon me, I pull up
Platinum teeth, medical grade chomper
Rhythmic bitch, consistent chopper
Combat boot, I'm a real big stomper

She call my daddy,
I'm not her papa,
You know what it is,
Backhand to a bitch
Class ring finna pop ya
How else a pimp finna stop ya
When you get out of line,
Wasting my time,
If you saying my name, bitch
Best say it right, and
Stay out my way, 'cuz Imma get mine
Give a fuck if you in my lane,
Get you swerving on sight

They afraid, they say they scared of me,
It's okay, little bitch, I know
Know the girls ain't scared
That's why they call me, call me
Mr. Steal yo ho

And I might do
What I like to
If I like her
And she like me too,
Ooh
Watch out bitch,
Motherfucka
Watch out trick

Well, I love when they run
Yeah, I love when it's fun,
And they make it fun for me

What the fuck do you want, bitch
I know I'm blunt, 
Like my words how I like my trees

Say too much, summon me, I pull up
Platinum teeth, medical grade chomper
Rhythmic bitch, consistent chopper
Combat boot, I'm a real big stomper

She call my daddy,
'Cuz I support her,
Getting these racks,
She like imported shit
They getting real comfortable with
Saying my name, it's the dumbest shit
Who does he call when he can't find his bitch?
Wasting my time with the childish shit
Like you don't who the fuck you fucking with, oh

They afraid, they say they scared of me,
It's okay, little bitch, I know
Know the girls ain't scared
That's why they call me, call me
Mr. Steal yo ho

And I might do
What I like to
If I like her
And she like me too,
Ooh
Watch out bitch,
Motherfucka
Watch out trick

Backhanded (Prod. Mennaze & C0der)

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⚬ RAZEGOD ✝︎ ...Secondly... (Prod. Minimum Wade)
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lyrics:

Tryna fuckin’ stay alive
I’m just tryna stay alive…

Bring me back to the past
I can’t fucking relax
I can’t fucking relax
My dreams wake me up
Bring me back to the past
I can’t relax
I can’t find solace in my own heart
Can’t find solace in my own home
Can’t find solace in my own self
I tried to bring your body to the surface
So we could resuscitate
Sadly
The blood had already stopped pumping
Through your heart…

Firstly…
I never sleep right
I have to force you away from my mind, oh no
Secondly…
I’m dying inside, d-dying inside
Dying inside, I’m dying inside
Firstly…
I never sleep right
I have to force you away from my mind, oh no
Secondly…
I’m dying inside, d-dying inside
Dying inside, I’m dying inside
I’m dying inside, dying, dying inside
I’m dying inside, d-dying, dying inside
I’m dying inside, dying, dying inside
I’m dying inside, d-dying, dying inside

I don’t know you, no not at all
Thought I knew you, I knew
Nothing at all…
My delusions they came to life
In my head shadows made me fight
I can’t dismiss the damage done
I can’t dismiss the damage done
No you will never let it go
I can’t let it go either…
No you will never let it go
I can’t let it go either!
I can’t let it go…
I can’t let it!-

Firstly…
I never sleep right
I have to force you away from my mind, oh no
Secondly…
I’m dying inside, d-dying inside
Dying inside, I’m dying inside
Firstly…
I never sleep right
I have to force you away from my mind, oh no
Secondly…
I’m dying inside, d-dying inside
Dying inside, I’m dying inside
I’m dying inside, dying, dying inside
I’m dying inside, d-dying, dying inside
I’m dying inside, dying, dying inside
I’m dying inside, d-dying, dying inside
(of my heart)
I’m dying inside, dying, dying inside
I’m dying inside, d-dying, dying inside
I’m dying inside, dying, dying inside
I’m dying inside, d-dying, dying inside
Of my heart!

xxx

...Secondly... (Prod. Minimum Wade)

s0cliche x Ethan Ross - "Miles Away" (prod. Drunk Girl)

Prod. YCK

This is the closest thing I’ve found
To a semblance of happiness I doubt
It’ll last much longer it never does so
Now I’ll go to the dark into the unknown

It’s difficult articulating just how I’m feeling
I fall apart and crumble down every layer is peeling
You’re getting closer to the center you can see my insides
I’m only rotten to the core but I can wish that in time
I go to prove myself and show you all that I’m not the one
They make me out to be a travesty and demon in one
I’m nothing perfect I prefer to keep my thoughts to myself
I’m still assuring I ain’t hurting contradicting my health
Ever since December anything I remember
Is nothing good I miss the days when you put up with my temper
I know I’m hot-headed not sending warmest regards
I wouldn’t think you’d wanna see me since we drifted apart
Now the nights are long and the days falling short
You ain’t been calling up my phone but now I’ve been calling yours
I want a last time I need to hear you speaking just once
I still will love you all despite the things you’ve said and you’ve done 

This is the closest thing I’ve found
To a semblance of happiness I doubt
It’ll last much longer it never does so
Now I’ll go to the dark into the unknown

You say I’m so gifted but what is my gift
When I be ruining Christmas by causing a rift
I’m stirring up the melting pot hurt the ones that I love
I do whatever that I want cause no one strikes from above
If they were watching me they’d obviously be sending a sign
I need autonomy no stopping me from living my life
There ain’t no message in a bottle coming up from the pipes
I really think I’m only awful to the ones that I like
I wonder how they put up with the words that I said
I try to keep em to myself and keep em all in my head
I hate confiding cause I find my thoughts are nothing but dark
And often find myself at sea but like I can’t disembark
Won’t appreciate me till when after I’m gone
At least I lived a simple life doing things that I want
You couldn’t trap me or steer me right into a corner
I did what I had felt was right thanks to all my supporters

Four walls caving in
There’s no saving him
Will they ever hear his real name
Or know what it’s like to feel pain

This is the closest thing I’ve found
To a semblance of happiness I doubt
It’ll last much longer it never does so
Now I’ll go to the dark into the unknown

Four walls caving in
There’s no saving him
Will they ever hear his real name
Or know what it’s like to feel pain

The Closest Thing I've Found

Thank You For Everything

How do I relive a life again
I dont know if I'll redeem my sins
We lasted like diamonds in the rough
Dark days, nearly lost my head
Hey you have begun to escape this
Pain thats seeping through
With no eyes at my witness
I could end it too

What if I begin to lose
And I'm slowly giving up
When I know its not enough

It's not enough to replace it
This hole inside my chest
When every thought is invasive
Breaking down in my regret
I've been surrounded by faces
Strangers I don't recognize
But nevermind, you were never mine
I think its for the best
I need to let it die

I'm losing it all for you
I've never felt so consumed
The life that we had secure
Was our chance
To be so much more
Hey baby I don't feel so good
Keep saying gave it all I could
If 10 years is before I die
I'd still give you all my time

It's not enough to replace it
This hole inside my chest
When every thought is invasive
Breaking down in my regret
I've been surrounded by faces
Strangers I don't recognize
But nevermind, you were never mine
I think its for the best
I need to let it die

Days Gone ft. Riverkinn

Shinra Tensei (prod. Fallen)

Lyrics, Vocals, Mixing/Mastering, & Cover Art by Red Dot
Prod. Red Dot

Darkest Hour

Darkest Hour (Prod. Red Dot)

GODFLY (PROD. MAJZKLUANI)

Rivilin:

I know anxiety lives in me 
if I stay here will I lose my mind I think I've already passed that time
plagued by derealization feel like im looking through a fucking glass
feel like this ain't my body im just in a dream will death wake me up

these drugs no they don't mean shit when this body doesn't feel even real
can’t keep up a fucking job it feels like im just blessed with bad luck
try to explain it to someone but they don't understand
like why can't I be normal for a second so I can feel human

my body on this cold concrete no furniture fucking around
convinced these shadows on the walls are out for me till im in the ground
take a step back id like to realize that im ok it's just my perspective
It cus feels like im living in my skull like nothing is real and this is all a dream

till I take my life and I wake up, maybe then ill be happy in this place
my psychologist doesn't get it, no amount of therapy can change what I feel
I tell my mother that im ok, that im just going through a rough patch
this is my reality, ill fake a smile and say that im fine

floating above this city,
if I let go will I suddenly fall then can I wake up
to me, this place isn't pretty
I feel disgusted when I see myself suicide’s not enough

there's a constant battle in me
gravity has given in hear the wind roaring as I collide
with the concrete end it quickly 
my eyes snap open breathe heavy, every time I die I wake up

Coaastgxd:


Every time I die I wake up
Every time I die I…

This time I'm just fine running away
And I'd sell my soul just to better the days
I never get a hold of this, I throw it away
I never know what to say, I make the same old mistakes

I been playing in traffic with my emotions and 
I'm closer to a rope than I been in a fucking minute, oh
Every time I think I'm getting better, I end up fucking sendin'
Now I'm back to the motherfucking beginning tho

Can't sleep and I can't wake up
"Life's tough, get a helmet and, shit, man up"
I been stuck and I'm spinning my tires up in the mud
Going nowhere fast, The ash floating over the sun

Rivilin:

my body on this cold concrete no furniture fucking around
convinced these shadows on the walls are out for me till im in the ground
take a step back id like to realize that im ok it's just my perspective
It cus feels like im living in my skull like nothing is real and this is all a dream

till I take my life and I wake up, maybe then ill be happy in this place
my psychologist doesn't get it, no amount of therapy can change what I feel
I tell my mother that im ok, that im just going through a rough patch
this is my reality, ill fake a smile and say that im fine

floating above this city,
if I let go will I suddenly fall then can I wake up
to me, this place isn't pretty
I feel disgusted when I see myself suicide’s not enough

there's a constant battle in me
gravity has given in hear the wind roaring as I collide
with the concrete end it quickly 
my eyes snap open breathe heavy, every time I die I wake up

Scarlett FT. Coaastgxd

What the fuck
I'm so nervous for
Shaking like I'm withdrawal percocet
Wonder if I just spoke up would it all turn out that I was getting in my head
Been months
Well and a bunch of years attached
I was in fourth grade just to be exact
In fact by the time we graduated
I figured that I wouldn't ever say shit
Fuck no
What a cruel world its been to me
With no friends to keep
And loose ends that keep on slipping
But back then I didn't worry bout shit other than this
As a young kid
I just went to school
And had and innocent crush I guess I just refused
To go up to her and say how I felt
Because in my mind shes too perfect
Hell I doubt she even notice me
When we spoke I just fumbled
Sounded so dumb so I tried to let it go
By the end of high-school I pretend I didn't know you
Felt embarrassing
Couldn't get a grip
I ran into you in the public
So many times
And whenever I would try to talk
My brain shut down and and my eyes were caught on you

If you hate me
Can you let me know
I can't tell at all I guess I gotta crush
Think it may seem
I'ma mess I know
Should I just move on girl am I outta luck
You look at me
I'm folding
It breaks me down I think I've had enough
If you hate me
Can you let me know
If I fell in love or if I gotta crush

What the fuck
I've had many dates
Never shy when I'm met with a pretty face
But every time that you pass me by I wanna run thru the dry wall cuz I can't get it straight
She a gorgeous girl
I don't know her well
Yeah I'm sure that she got her heart broke before
And I hate that
I wish I could fix it
Going down that roads like driving stick shift
Whoa
High-school sucked
By then it was safe to say that I'd never get a chance
On top of that I was a loser making music while she going out making friends
Grew my hair out long got dreads and became a mess people always give me stares
I had a bad break up with a ex got my shit together and I started taking care
4 years had past it all crossed my mind again
I decided it was time to try again
I hit the dms like hello how you been
I had a couple things I wanna talk about
Then to my surprise I got no reply
And said fuck it its fine put it all behind me
Moving on in life
Didn't think about it
Then she joined the gym that I had been working out at
If god is real then has aligning this
Divine timing
Better call a shaman in
Some how I better get the guts to walk up and say what I wanted
For the longest time
So I breathe take second to collect myself
Light headed and I'm shaking
Just like back in the day when we met but now
I looked at her and I'm saying

Crush

ART BY SUICIDALGALLERY
https://www.instagram.com/suicidalgallery/

LYRICS:

I see you crawling up to me on your knees
I see the rage building up in your eyes as I leave
it's like when I open my mouth reality stops and I can't control what I see
my body isn't mine now another person takes control when my mind breaks down

bursts of anger seem to cloud up my vision then my mind snaps back, hands covered in blisters 
now every day repeats in the same cycle, just stuck in a fog and I can let go of
who I was who I am who I could been, I can't live with the way that you just look at me
self-disgust builds a tiny little home right next to the place that I used to call my soul

what was I meant to say, how was I meant to react that way
a best friend confined, I wished he was dead I wish he never survived
the night I broke his face all the anger consumed and replaced 
I never came back alive the person I was, was the one who lost sight
 
yeah, emotions are boiling under my flesh, 
feel the stress rising up through my gut until nothing’s left
cus it's eating out the best of me, I tried to make you never see what's wrong with me
And even when I needed you, yeah you said that you gotta leave

Yeah so isn't that perfect I get it now, 
I search for something in places that won't be found
and then you find someone who builds a little cage inside your chest
where they change you and tear you down, find you gasping for your breath

and it doesn't help that best friends wanna, fuck with you
thought they had my fucking back guess im just easily used
I wanna fuck em with the gat blood splatters soak into shoes
Damn I guess it's what I lack, the courage to speak my truth

so I say it in these songs, yeah I fucking hate you
if I saw you in public I think id have to break a tooth or two
but self disgusts builds a tiny little home
where I find myself embracing the guilt all alone

Burn Notice

SIR!

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CHRIS RAIN - SIR!

LYRICS:

I’m back on a roll
Back on the same thing
What would you do if my name changed
How would you feel if I died here
Baby I promise I’m okay
I’m back on a roll
Back on the same thing
What would you do if my name changed
How would you feel if I died here
Baby I promise I’m okay

I’m lying down with everything I hold inside
Who am I, if I told you I was good you know I lied
I fuckin hate it here, why’s it always like this
These drugs make me feel like a whole different person, I’m worthless
I’m fuckin locked down my heart hurts but I could never die
You were all that I had I pray to god I wonder why
If I could take back one instance I know what I would do
It’d be the last time you saw me you broke my heart in two

I’m back on a roll
Back on the same thing
What would you do if my name changed
How would you feel if I died here
Baby I promise I’m okay
I’m back on a roll
Back on the same thing
What would you do if my name changed
How would you feel if I died here
Baby I promise I’m okay

I’m fuckin locked down my heart hurts but I could never die
You were all that I had I pray to god I wonder why
If I could take back one instance I know what I would do
It’d be the last time you saw me you broke my heart in two

locked down

locked down (prod. sorrow bringer)

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The Closest Thing I've Found

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