nice one, the beat really remembers me of a track by pink cig

Copy of unconditional (ft. heartbreakP)

Big love to:  https://soundcloud.com/akacarpenter
https://linktr.ee/Rivilin

mentally fucked in my own way devil wanna maintain 
another connection with me so I just cannot sustain
stomaching another fucking lie 
like you pull me into the abyss and smother out my eyes

playing naughts and crosses on my arms to tell if im alive
I don’t really feel the pain so I still question my life
so the devil tells me its just the god that I have to blame
gave me too much self-awareness so I think I am insane

seeing double fucking vision of the knife to my neck yeah
question if I really want to do this but I know that I just won’t
cus im a fucking coward yeah I admit, 
I couldn’t defend my friends, they let go in a fucking minute

tell me have you ever seen a flame extinguish by self-loathing
watch the light go out of their eyes as you know they’re not coping
so we sit in this room, watch the water rise above our necks
yeah I can’t catch my breath yeah I can’t feel a fucking thing

so I detest
about the way you fucking look at me, I feel your eyes burning so deep
and I confess
I couldn’t stand the way you spoke to me so I just cut off and fucking 
left this hell
where you welded shackles yeah all around and now im sinking further down
into myself
im building a wall above around my head so I hope i don’t let you fucking in

- AKA Carpenter

Oh, creep in the skin like an insect
Finding my solace I lay in the nest
and I soar like an albatross, I rest in the air

but im more like a phoenix, come burn me and test if I care
when you're looking your best, they stare,
so you better pose for a photo
I fuck with the voyeurs when they putting bread in my pocket
I'm only complaining the moment it stops

The eyes can weigh heavy like lead vests, be careful please
yeah you stole my heart like a vandal, oh, but you're there for me
I'm lost in myself and I lean on the lamp post, I'm embarrasing
I'm settling now with my fate, I take lemon and ice with the kerosene

Save Us Ft. AKA Carpenter

My album Melancholy is officially stream-able on all music platforms. Thank you to everyone who was involved in the creative process of this album.
Enjoy.

i fell in love

COVER ART BY KAIZEN

LYRICS
a sign that i should follow through
just take me away
i'm giving up
what are we getting into?
i can't even think
i'm burning up

i feel like a fiend, yeah
when i can't see you on weekends
girl, you're living in dreamland
i'm haunted by all of my secrets
yeah, i know
yeah, i got some regrets
i got a mission to cease next
and i got reasons to reset my own

and life's okay on the back end
i felt so strange when it happened
and i choked on air in passing, i'm alone...
never meant to make things bad, yeah
but i've grown so upset
(so upset)

a sign that i should follow through
just take me away
i'm giving up
what are we getting into?
i can't even think
i'm burning up

i said i'm hurting and falling
my calling keeps me awake
all this business we started
it just blows me aways
and i find that i'm finally getting into your brain
i've got nothing but love for you
why can't you say the same?
I know

a sign that i should follow through
just take me away
i'm giving up
what are we getting into?
i can't even think
i'm burning up

i feel like a fiend, yeah
when i can't see you on weekends
girl, you're living in dreamland
i'm haunted by all of my secrets
yeah, i know
yeah, i got some regrets
i got a mission to cease next
and i got reasons to reset my own

and life's okay on the back end
i felt so strange when it happened
and i choked on air in passing, i'm alone...
never meant to make things bad, yeah
but i've grown so upset
(so upset)

Dreamland (prod. Drox)

https://soundcloud.com/nicolassales

Still waiting for the day when it makes sense
Been having visions of the world where it all ends
Tried to make it known, 
tried to tell my friends
Where to go when you die
well that depends

I’m in the deep end
Tryna make amends
Tired of the trends
I’m underwater 
And I’m coming up 
I got the bends
They can’t understand
Wrote a whole paragraph
Never hit send

They always hating I don’t listen to that nonsense
You’re looking at the world through the wrong lens
Surrounded by some people they some fake friends
You’re worth so much more 
Life is priceless

I’m in the deep end
Tryna make amends
Tired of the trends
I’m underwater 
And I’m coming up 
I got the bends
They can’t understand,
Wrote a whole paragraph
Never hit send

Never hit send
When does this end
Love from every angle got me bending like a square

Overflow the pot
Let it spill away
Inspire with the thought
I radiate the way
Treat it like a game
I level with the pain
I let the mana drain
Arcane up in my veins

Cast a spell
Unlocking all the fucking chains
Hundred fold
But I'm pushing through decay
Swimming up a hill
Fighting with the waves
Crashing down
I create away the day

Create away the day
Thriving from the pain
Living in the grey
Evolving everyday
Create away the day
Thriving from the pain
Living in the grey
Evolving everyday

Create away the day
Thriving from the pain
Living in the grey
Evolving everyday
Create away the day
Thriving from the pain
Living in the grey
Evolving everyday

Still waiting for the day when it makes sense
Been having visions of the world where it all ends
Tried to make it known, 
tried to tell my friends
Where to go when you die
well that depends

I’m in the deep end
Tryna make amends
Tired of the trends
I’m underwater 
And I’m coming up 
I got the bends
They can’t understand
Wrote a whole paragraph
Never hit send

The Bends

⸸ MUSIC VIDEO ⸸

$LOTHBOI x Nicolas Sales - The Bends

rain (construct)

rain (construct) (prod. UNREMORSE)

Replay

love is conditional when its from you

featuring @heartbreakp
produced by lil chick

[lyrics]
Love is conditional when it’s from you 
I must have missed it you saying you changed 
You playing the victim because you have to
Only point of view you wanna bring is true pain 
That’s a damn shame 
I thought you would help 
Turns out I was wrong and so I left you to yourself 
When the plans changed 
You put me through hell 
Now I can take the blame cause you can’t put it on yourself

Said Hate is conditional when it’s been Been deserved And love turns to fiction when every bridge gets burned 
Pain is medicinal every scar I’ve earned 
I’ll be the criminal if it’s on my terms 
But you know me better
I know that nothings forever 
These days I’m stuck in my head like I been changing the weather
See emotions cut off and severed
I don’t wanna change for whoever
Bring it back I need to recenter
Sometimes I won’t lie

I’m sick of fighting so I quit 
I took the drugs I gave you back so I can trip
Pain inside I smile I can’t let you know I slipped
I can’t give the satisfaction poison dripping from my lips 
Conversation left me damaged after all the trust I give 
Maybe it’s been a while 
I’m good with my only child 
My son here my love i’m happy watching him he runs around 
Learn to keep the family close, not my family you bugging out 
You became my only home, can’t be here if you not around


Love is conditional when it’s from you 
I must have missed it you saying you changed 
You play the victim because you have to 
Only point of view you wanna bring is true pain 
That’s a damn shame 
I thought you would help 
Turns out I was wrong and so I left you to yourself 
When the plans changed 
You put me through hell 
Now I can take the blame cause you can’t put it on yourself

Said Hate is conditional when it’s been Been deserved And love turns to fiction when every bridge gets burned 
Pain is medicinal every scar I’ve earned 
I’ll be the criminal if it’s on my terms

unconditional

stream

unconditional (ft. heartbreakP)

LYRICS:

I’m back on a roll
Back on the same thing
What would you do if my name changed
How would you feel if I died here
Baby I promise I’m okay
I’m back on a roll
Back on the same thing
What would you do if my name changed
How would you feel if I died here
Baby I promise I’m okay

I’m lying down with everything I hold inside
Who am I, if I told you I was good you know I lied
I fuckin hate it here, why’s it always like this
These drugs make me feel like a whole different person, I’m worthless
I’m fuckin locked down my heart hurts but I could never die
You were all that I had I pray to god I wonder why
If I could take back one instance I know what I would do
It’d be the last time you saw me you broke my heart in two

I’m back on a roll
Back on the same thing
What would you do if my name changed
How would you feel if I died here
Baby I promise I’m okay
I’m back on a roll
Back on the same thing
What would you do if my name changed
How would you feel if I died here
Baby I promise I’m okay

I’m fuckin locked down my heart hurts but I could never die
You were all that I had I pray to god I wonder why
If I could take back one instance I know what I would do
It’d be the last time you saw me you broke my heart in two

locked down

locked down (prod. sorrow bringer)

All Night Run

Verses In The Dirt

A line I can’t cross

Overthinking (Prod. Fantom)

On a bridge now five years abandoned 
Well I’m off track I’m here and stranded 
It’s getting dark and getting late 
I take my breath and I medicate 

Ain’t been down this moonless road
No need to cry these useless woes
Guess I’ll wait till the vampires sleep
Nothing to say this flat tire speaks

For me and you we both can see 
We’re stuck out here and hopefully
They hear the sound and noise we make 
We’re running out of pills to take

On a bridge now five years abandoned 
Well I’m off track I’m here and stranded 
It’s getting dark and getting late 
I take my breath and I medicate 

Ain’t been down this sunless street
No need to scream I’m coming clean
Guess I’ll watch while the demons rest
I’ll think all about what we confessed 

For us it helped to break the ice
We’re both the same in different lives
They hear the sound and noise we made
We’re counting all the bottles drank 

Tried to cross to the other side
Got washed away won’t brave the tide
Barely swimming so disheartened
All your warnings disregarded

On a bridge now five years abandoned 
Well I’m off track I’m here and stranded 
It’s getting dark and getting late 
I take my breath and I medicate

Bleak

The Water You Tread Is Too Deep to Cross

Lyrics:

fighting with anxiety a pointless war inside of me
how come I hate the ones I love, taking pills it’s not enough
I’m so numb its a tragedy, hooked on a tendency 
can’t get rid of these dark thoughts in my head why do you snuff me out

mix the good times with the bad
tell me when did I become so sad
flicking channels on the tv 
just to see the static shining through

choking on depression it stabs so deep
straight through my ribs, it feels like I’m breaking
flashing blue and white in my eyes
I hear my fans begging for more

more of the sad times, 
I’ve never sunk this low
it feels like my hearts on the floor
chuck it out it’s going cold

see friends and the faces that I used to love
they pass by straight in a blink
I know they still want me to keep going 
I will carry on

staying afloat with best friends by my side
yeah  they know what it’s like when
I feel like I’m not coping 
I’m sinking down into your red eyes

yeah your fingers in my soul
yeah I’ve never felt this cold
so numb from the pain
shutting down, block it all away

closing the doors to my house
yeah I’m in too deep
watching the water rise 
above my neck, I can’t catch my breath

when will I get a break,
no, I don’t wanna take
medication to make me sane
yeah I wanna be free

Snuff Me Out

[prod. Fantom]
[mixed and mastered. doski]
Locked down
Every single feeling that I have for you is locked down
Tryna find myself through the mist but I am lost now
I cant be myself, till the chain is broken
Locked down
Maybe with a little help, I'm able to 

I'm locked down
Every single promise that I break is getting wrote down
Slowly losing feeling from the parabolic thoughts now
I wish that you could understand
I wish that you could understand

Cause I'm out for the last time
Fought up but he's one line, ahead of me now
Nobody helped but, its too late, good luck
It's up to me now

Know many millions
Who've fallen before me,
Takes a strong force to break me down
To break me down

Will you remember
Not just me but all of these soldiers
I hope that you've taken these as lessons, so you can help others
And when I'm gone then I hope that these lyrics, will leave me with honour 
Cause I dont wanna be remembered as the one that surrendered

Cause I feel
I've let you down
But I hope
That you'll forgive me now
I left a note
I know
I'm in a better place

Locked down
Every single feeling that I have for you is locked down
Tryna find myself through the mist but I am lost now
I cant be myself, till the chain is broken
Locked down
Maybe with a little help, I'm able to 

I'm locked down
Every single promise that I break is getting wrote down
Slowly losing feeling from the parabolic thoughts now
I wish that you could understand
I wish that you could understand

Locked down
Every single feeling that was locked down
Tryna find myself but I am lost now
I can't be myself cause I am locked down  
I'm locked down

Locked down
Every single promise that I wrote down
Slowly losing feeling from my thoughts now
I wish that you could understand
I wish that you could understand

Spotify

locked down [prod. Fantom]

Toxic memories
Following me
Can't get rid of them
Stuck inside my dreams
I got a thousand thoughts
No answers appear to be
What it seems
What it seems
Push the seam, what could it be?

Toxic memories
Following me
Can't get rid of them
Stuck inside my dreams
I got a thousand thoughts
No answers appear to be
What it seems
What it seems
Push the seam, what could it be?

Question -
Everything I'm seeing, is it all apart of me?
Something calling me, it's tearing all the paths for me
I don't know whether to go for it
Tighten my throat and I'm choking it
Stop me from falling to early
I feel like its lurking
The shadows surrounding me
Saying that nothing is worth it, no

Let me fall
Rip my soul
Cut the noose
Just let me go
To another world
Lonely
I'm in the cold
Dug the hole
Take it deeper
I'm all alone
I'm all alone
Why do I feel like I make these mistakes
Wake up in daylight end up in pain
Take all these meds and you'll just feel okay
Try to hide it, It resides in
Toxic memories

Yeah, Still it follows me
Like a shadow in the street
Can't get up, I'm dragging feet
It's all in my head
Can't get out of bed
Another day I fear
Close my eyes, in despair
What's the motive
To be here
Where's the moment
To be here
What's the hopeless that I feel
I don't wanna take it early
But is recently it appeared
Go through phases, I can take it
Till the day It wins me over
Sorry to the people that I let down
I don't want to hurt them now

Toxic memories
Following me
Can't get rid of them
Stuck inside my dreams
I got a thousand thoughts
No answers appear to be
What it seems
What it seems
Push the seam, what could it be?

Toxic memories [prod. doski]

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[LYRICS]

This took a lot for me to talk about
How I broke my promise without a doubt
When I think back to the good times
I remember it was full of lies
I wanted to save you from the bad guy
But it was you I was tryna fight

I'll be your hero if you'll be my heroin
End of my story cuz I couldn't love again
Last chance show me what you got
Tell me that you love me cuz I swear to fucking God
Plot point right through the heart, I thought I couldn't break
Turns out you're the villain

Turns out you're the villain
Turns out you're the villain

Lost my self in the come up
Drank too much imma throw it up
Moonlight sees what I cannot
My heart bleeds let me count it up
You took your knife and you stood in the shadows
waiting for the right time
You took my life and you threw it in the gallows
slaying in the night time

I can believe I trusted you
You fucked me up, but I did too
And Imma get the last word in

I'll be your hero if you'll be my heroin
End of my story cuz I couldn't love again
Last chance show me what you got
Tell me that you love me cuz I swear to fucking God
Plot point right through the heart, I thought I couldn't break
Turns out you're the villain

Turns out you're the villain
Turns out you're the villain

Lyrics/Producer: Joshua Adam Henson
Mixed/Mastered: Brody McKeegan

Broken Heart: Red Version

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