i heard you talking shit
bout how im taking my time
“im sorry baby please forgive me”
made that shit on the fly

cause lately,  
i see castles in the sky
teasing every single night
bout a life all alone

arcade noises with the smell of cigarettes 
lingers all night stuck to my flip phone
the dawn breaks out as a threat to 
my one and only chance at survival

chorus
you know im mia, please give my space
might need a passport for my 
mental states, and im stranded
wrong place, with the wrong time, missed me
fuck you calling me for this time baby

i try and fit my woes into a suitcase
i’m jumping outta planes just to feel something
But none of its working, but none of its working

vrs
she got blonde hair, and brown eyes
and she told me she got fucked up, like last night
i dont really fuckin care about your life stories
we’re barely met each other, now ur trauma dumping

you’re not taking the hints i gave you
now im in a taxi, and i'm dodging my curfews
i fucking hate you 

i hate my town, 
i hate my city, 
i hate the people in it
pressures getting to me, no room to fuck it up 
im tryna fall in love, they’re always not enough
but i might be the one at fault, i think im out of touch

bloodstains on my tshirt lately
the way the city lights make it look pretty make me
wanna keep it up
wanna keep it up

chorus
you know im mia, please give my space
might need a passport for my 
mental states, and im stranded
wrong place, with the wrong time, missed me
fuck you calling me for this time baby

i try and fit my woes into a suitcase
i’m jumping outta planes just to feel something
But none of its working, but none of its working

duskfall

'dreamsort: dive'
thanks to @e1iza @7runic for production help

VRS
Turn off my phone
stuck to my screen and i been scrolling too long
Digitizing my brain into fragments
Recreating simulations where I don't need you
 
CHORUS
Heartaches, i wont settle for less
And I been dreaming, haven't been feeling the best
I’m getting rapid eye movements again
It may not seem like it's part of my plan

Headaches, i've been rolling in bed
I can't feel it, all the words that you meant
Cus a picture perfect version of you
Has been crafted inside of my head   

VRS 2
I've been staying afloat, im tethered in
Im building a dreamscape for our end
Green castles and meadows, sewn with threads
I'm in control, no issues can happen 

Why settle for less, i made the perfect one
A person started from scratch, who never messes up
God won't save me this time, I understand that
So ill just take it in hand, I promise that I’ll make it work this time around

Every persons gonna bow, obey my crown 
Reality has been through up, down, ins and outs
My souls been in the lost and found

CHORUS
Heartaches, i wont settle for less
And I been dreaming, havent been feeling the best
I’m getting rapid eye movements again
It may not seem like its part of my plan

Headaches, i've been rolling in bed
I can't feel it, all the words that you meant
Cus a picture perfect version of you
Has been crafted inside of my head   

x2

r.e.m. (p. runic & me)

'dreamsort: dive'
thanks to @e1iza @7runic for production help

dreamsort radio

ty <3
@lil-yimb
@gxmh
@orangeonhead
@autumndropsdead
@cholycholycholy
@runijc

lyrics in pastebin cus way 2 long LOL

https://pastebin.com/kBn8CmMs

violence w/ lilyimb + rien + gxmh + autumndropsdead + choly (p. runic + yehon)

i really want to stay at your house (cover)

I'll start to disappear 
Isn't this your final plan for me?
You will never have to see my face again

It turned out like we feared
Every flaw was pointed back to me
Just like the bloom from winter, i will disappear 

I'll spend this winter getting over you
Mixed signals, i wish i knew what to do
I'm too late, i can never get my time back
Go have fun with your friends that you don't like

Feet on the table, and i'm shaking my leg
My luck is running on empty, look what you fucking did
Sad how it turned out this way, why’d you lead me on in the fucking first place

I'll start to disappear 
Isn't this your final plan for me?
You will never have to see my face again

It turned out like we feared
Every flaw was pointed back to me
Just like the bloom from winter, i will disappear 
 i will disappear 

I will disappear
I will disappear

(I will, I will disappear
I will, I will vanish
I will, I will)

I'll start to disappear 
Wasn’t this your final plan for me?
You will never have to see my face again

It turned out like we feared
Every flaw was pointed back to me
Just like the bloom from winter, I will disappear 

I will disappear
I will disappear

brilliance

no surprises

humansongs

cover art by @1pollin
featuring @lostwintersx and @rien98

immunity

sky flower

minuet

marmalade

overgrowth

ultra-bloom w/ rien

thornwaltz

eta newjeans remix

produced by me & @runijc
w/ @mitsooya

art by @1pollin
--
It's been a couple weeks in honeymoon, i thought i loved you 
I'll take my return to solitude
We didn’t fight, we didn’t argue, what the fuck is wrong with you
I think our souls have no aptitude

Maybe I'm not meant for you, i almost thought we’d follow through
But not with my inept attitude
You almost had me wrapped around your finger, it's incredible
how i managed to get the knot loose

I Got dealt some cards that I hate
double down, please baby
swear to God I’ll win this time, this time around i swear to God 
You’ll never be on my mind
  
It could be when all the pigs fly
if we fall from the sky
You could take a chance, no dice
Whatever you did before will never work tonight

True american booger sugar under your nose
Girl you know it's cut, you don't care, you did it to boast
Hands around my neck, you got it baby, fuck out my home

You forgot when you found me, you were broken through
You swore I held you down together, that i saved you from the noose
Ain't it funny how the people that like my songs are the ones i write bout too

I got dealt some cards that I hate
double down, please baby
swear to God I’ll win this time, this time around i swear to God 
You’ll never be on my mind
  
It could be when all the pigs fly
if we fall from the sky
You could take a chance, no dice
Whatever you did before will never work tonight

Ever since I left i've been doing great
Pour another shot, take one to the face
But I cannot lie, I miss how you taste
My memories went to waste
Now we’re all alone

Take me back
Take me back
(1,2,3)
Baby why, why, why Is it so hard to say goodbye
I can’t lie
Stuck in my head, but i know you dont care at all

I got dealt some cards that I hate
double down, please baby
swear to God I’ll win this time, this time around i swear to God 
You’ll never be on my mind
  
It could be when all the pigs fly
if we fall from the sky
You could take a chance, no dice
Whatever you did before will never work tonight

no dice w/ mitsu

+ hurt (newjeans remix)

INTRO
(yehon)
Close my eyes
Try to forget about you tonight
Keep the cup always full so ill never have thoughts i can fight

(mitsu)
Oh its not complicated
My eyes keep dilating
Snakes and earrings



VERSE 1
(yehon)
I pack my cigs, and lighter and my pills for the day
I'm barely hanging on to the rope that i belayed
I've lost enough, so don't expect some time out my day

Keep pushing thru it but shit aint work
All my meds are making me stupid
I’ll slip up once , smoke in my lungs
The way i cope’s inhuman

Relapse became a plan for every minor inconvenience
You’d understand if you took my stead

CHORUS
(yehon)
I'm getting tired of you keep coming back
But not in person, girl you’re festering inside of my head
See you in dreams at night, even when its bright
Thats why im drinking until i'm dead

I know you wish that i would take back all the words that i said
Can't stand the thought of you, my night is ruined, flooded with dread
So don’t say “you’re mine”, when you change your mind so often
might as well just leave me for dead





VERSE 2
(wenszy)
you could call it what you want, but i know you're not the one
tear me down until i'm numb, i'll just wait until you're done
i can see it in your eyes, love so fake under disguise
baby you know that i'm right, i'm right

you don't know me like i know you
i'm sick and tired of this damn ruse
you said you loved me, then why'd you hurt me?
i know it fondly, your words still


CHORUS
(yehon)
I'm getting tired of you keep coming back
But not in person, girl you’re festering inside of my head
See you in dreams at night, even when its bright
Thats why im drinking until i'm dead

I know you wish that i would take back all the words that i said
Can't stand the thought of you, my night is ruined, flooded with dread
So don’t say “you’re mine”, when you change your mind so often
might as well just leave me for dead

fester ft. mitsu & wenszy

“Take a step, crawl, run, as long as you can hit the post.
Got a gun to your head, don't worry just stay on your toes.
As long as you can hit these standards, you can call this as your home.”
It's all my back talk, side tracks, failure in my bones

It’s seeping into everything that I do.
I see myself forged from the fire that’s been running so loose

And now it’s spreading to the things i love, 
Have I done enough?
I need my grand escape.
I need my royal flush.

I'm waiting for the moon to finally shift blue from the ashes.
I can’t rely on all the chances that I’ll somehow get past this.

Is all of this part of your plan?
To put stains on my hands?
To contage what I love and decay what I have?
And to take what was mine? How could I ever defend?
I don’t know how anyone could ever win it with this hand.

To expose the wound, means I’ll be there soon
Until then, believe it’ll be okay; assume. 

I'm waiting for the moon to finally shift blue from the ashes.
I can’t rely on all the chances that I’ll somehow get past this.

Is all of this part of your plan?
To put stains on my hands?
To contage what I love and decay what I have?
And to take what was mine? How could I ever defend?
I don’t know how anyone could ever win it with this hand.

(Is all of this part of your plan?
To put stains on my hands?
To contage what I love and decay what I have?
And to take what was mine? How could I ever defend?
I don’t know how anyone could ever win it with this hand.)

royalflush

Do i even exist?
Am i part of you?
Was I made with flowers like the others too? 

Will I suffer like the rest of the garden?
Birthed to bloom, and wilt from pressures of your touch

Do I even exist?
Can I claim my blossom mine?
The soil beneath me gave me life as the sun shined

What’s there to cherish? 
This husk was built to comfort eyes
if it’d fail, then it'd be cut down from its height

Efforts to shed, regrow, rebirth, repeat
A final end to my own means
A means to an end left unreceived
Face my fate assigned to me

The constant molting of the skin
Has left a trail for bugs to eat
Space to burrow in my roots
For what does my essence precede


Planted by your hands of failure, 
Grown by your selfish, loathing heart,
Enveloped by your scalding light
and drowned by flood, for what you think is love 

Planted by your hands of failure, 
Grown by your selfish, loathing heart,
Enveloped by your scalding light
and drowned by flood, all in disguise as love

Well do I exist?
What did you make me for?
To be created and accused and nothing more

My petals ache with 
Your purging of my thorns
To be grown and stripped of what you take me for

Take my heart, rip it apart
And place it in a house of glass away from harm

All that's left is gone now
I cannot go on

Reduced to what i was before the day you fell apart




yehon

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