let me go at my funeral

i sampled juno - la fleur
BIG SHOUTOUT TO @1hallow

lyrics
it's some white hoes doing cocaine in the backseat
.223 on me i make him run like it's a track meet
he wan go to war, let's get it, ammo on me, packing
walk up in his crib, yeah i'ma get him, know he lacking

why i'm wit yo bitch and she gon act like she don't know you
i went to yo block and bitch they said they don't know you
ar-15, .223 on me, bitch i'ma fold you
i was wit yo hoe, not ya hoe, she gon hoe you

you is just a twitter hoe
look at where them bullets go
hollow go right thru ya dome
we gon get you in ya home

back and forth go back and forth
ion know a fucking thing that's what i'm asking for
what i'm asking for, back to back and forth
i'ma fade the fuck away until i smack the floor

fade away, fade away, glocky make him fade away
12 tryna take my ass downtown, like i ain't got none to say today
12 wan get in my bag, like hey boy what the fuck you make today
oxy clean my glock, yeah this oxy take that stain away

it's some white hoes doing cocaine in the backseat
.223 on me i make him run like it's a track meet
he wan go to war, let's get it, ammo on me, packing
walk up in his crib, yeah i'ma get him, know he lacking

backseat

lyrics :D

lemme start off, i feel empty inside
when i look in your eyes, is the only time i'm alive
when i look in your mind, i can tell you despise
everything, i can't reside

in the place that i feel is the safest
i feel like i'm going out tonight
i can taste it, it's real, it's amazing
i feel like i'm taking my own life away

everyday it rains no brighter days
need to exit life, like right away
just hideaway
keep waiting on my lights to fade

what you meant to me
what you kept from me
i don't care about a thing
i want you next to me

i can't think of anybody less than me
i can only think about you texting me

exit life

exit life (siem spark, 5head)

lyrics
i been killing myself every night, i been losing sleep every night
i wish i could keep you alive, but it's over now, it's flowing out

don't wake up, i'm asleep, i can't sleep without you
every time i'm alive, tell myself pull it through
if i do, i can see, be with you, be with me
i can end this shit so easily
oh this life, nothing mean to me

oh this shit can't keep going on, ion know what's going on
stuck inside the house again, "its ok" i know its not
it's ok just let me die, it's ok just lemme grab this sawed off
paint the ceiling lights

i've been losing myself every night
that i dream of you i can't keep moving on
i've been losing myself to the knife
that i cut myself with every night it's selfish
i know, i know, cause i know, i know
cause i know, i know, cause i know, i know

it's not enough it's never been enough
won't ever be enough to change what goes on in my mind
it's not enough it's never been enough
won't ever be enough to change what goes on in my-

i've been losing myself every night
that i dream of you i can't keep moving on
i've been losing myself to the knife
that i cut myself with every night it's selfish
i know, i know, cause i know, i know
cause i know, i know, cause i know, i know
i been killing myself every night, i been losing sleep every night
i wish i could keep you alive, but it's over now, it's flowing out

every night i lose you

fourteen grams of that shit, then it's ok
always fall asleep when i talk, so i don't say
what i really think, or is this really me

bitch i'ma sip cyanide 'til i die in this ride
i'ma crash this fucking whip, yeah we gon' all die tonight
in the dirt, in the mud, with the blood lie tonight
let the tears that i've held in for years cry tonight

i'm slowing fading away to death i'm impatiently waiting
i can't sustain myself, hate me, falling, i'm falling again
i've fallen, i'm falling again
i've fallen, i'm falling again

i just prayed to god to see you die and now you're fucking dead
it's so many evil thoughts that i cannot get out my head
i have conversations in my room, i'm talking to the dead
if what's in me wants some fucking blood, then i'm gon' have em fed

fuck what i told myself, i'm lying
dead on the floor, blood draining, dying
i couldn't tell myself to stop it
find me alone, post-death, i'm rotting

fourteen grams of that shit, then it's ok
always fall asleep when i talk, so i don't say
what i really think, or is this really me

fourteen grams

sit back, ion show remorse for a single thing i do
if i did, then i'd start looking like you, like a bitch
i think i see sum wrong wit that shit
wrong with that stick, yeah i'm the wrong one to piss off 

stab myself and let the blood touch my lips soft
look at me and then look down at my hip
sawed off, i wish i was joking
i can't talk cause i'm still choking up, up

fuck what i say, fuck what i do
ion give a fuck bout myself, fuck bout you too
everything i say is a problem for you
ask me if i'm wanted to die, probably i do

yeah probably i do, i'ma take this glock
and let them hollows go right through
rope tied around my neck until my face is turning blue
everything i wanted i wanted because of you
'til i wake up and see that it ain't true

sit back, ion show remorse for a single thing i do
if i did, then i'd start looking like you, like a bitch
i think i see sum wrong wit that shit
wrong with that stick, yeah i'm the wrong one to piss off 

stab myself and let the blood touch my lips soft
look at me and then look down at my hip
sawed off, i wish i was joking
i can't talk cause i'm still choking up, up, up. up

yeah probably i do, i'ma take this glock
and let them hollows go right through
rope tied around my neck until my face is turning blue
everything i wanted i wanted because of you
'til i wake up and see that it ain't true

(all i want is you)
(baby all i want is you)

no remorse

i have too many fucking options
i'm lost, then i'm found, then i'm lost again
"this isn't like the last time", cut me off then
lie in dread so often, bleed myself so often, lying dead so often
when i lie, is when i feel so alive
i love to lie, it's like i have no remorse for the things that i say, its alright
when i die, let the pain bleed thru my eyes
something so deep, not like mine
something so hidden i'm fine

i been fine tho, regret and my rifle
i breathe and my eyes close
i breathe and i look in the sky
i been fine tho, regret and my rifle
i breathe and my eyes close
i breathe and i look in the sky. where my life goes

i'm draining so slow now, the drain, blood it goes down
i've lost all my hope now, i've fallen alone now, now

no such thing as happy endings
i'm so sick of just pretending
touch the light, my soul ascending
break free of the body lent to me

i've been fine

i had to jump off the porch
i wanna kill myself now
i wanna feel but i can't
now i got blood on the door
don't wanna feel just like this
don't feel real, don't like this
now i feel worse than before
why in fuck it work like that
thought i was safe, no, my bad
i turn myself to a corpse
i got a target on my back
i got a mark on my right hand
i got a slit on the left one
no, i don't think she gon write back
no, i don't think she gon write back
i sit around let the time pass
i take a shot then i lie back
when i fuck up, i'll be right back to you
when i fuck up, i'll be right back to you
when i fuck up, i'll be right back
in the same spot that you left me
oh no please don't test me
i might walk in let the tec sweep
i wasn't this fucked when you met me
i could be yours if you let me
i could be yours if you let me

all of this could be slowed down, slowed down
i could save you but i don't know now
i don't wanna talk i must go now
all of this could be slowed down, slowed down
slow down slow
i don't know, i won't go
i can't slow down now

i feel so selfish, i cant be tied to the things that i've dealt you
i never knew how this felt til i felt you
all of the plans that we had always i fell through
i always fell through

the porch

killed myself again in my dreams last night
everybody woke up to my fucking scream last night i
cut myself and start to bleed, last night
ion even know what it really mean, last night i
fell asleep with the lights on
blood wit the lysol
grind in my sleep
i got pain in my right jaw
everybody wanna help
but ion even think i like yall
i dream about dying all night long

i got bad thoughts, bad thoughts
but ion wanna die
knife in my right hand
but ion wanna try
glock on the nightstand
still ion wanna die
cut off my life span
like, ion wanna try
feel like this every night
still here, like why do i
this night i really might
like it's just another day

three am, nose running
four drums, four hunnit
i look in the mirror, like i know who i am
when i feel like this
i just feel like shit
i just get so pissed
and its on my wrist
yeah this shit so slit
when my brain won't quit
let my head get split
find my body at the bottom
of the fucking ocean
lemme up that fucking pole
lemme sip that fuckin potion

yeah i got bad, bad thoughts
if i die, that's my loss
still awake, i'm exhausted
start to feel it... i just lost it

kms again in my dreams last night

lyrics :D
hey is there a problem, i get them too often
i get way too toxic, i can get us locked in
i can make us watch some evil shit until we're rotten
we can rot our brains until we end and we're forgotten
please don't
you know, i know it's what you want
i walk in and start to shoot sum
i could take this so far
i woke up with no heart
there's a lot of things that
i don't understand i'm so far

gone, i'm helpless. i can't help the
things i do. it's so brand new
i'm gone, i'm helpless. i can't help the
things i do. it's so brand new
i've gone too far, i need your help now
rot my mind, i've seen myself do
things i'd never do again
i start to look like you again
something's fighting me
i can't unsee the things i've seen with you 
something's fighting me
i can't unsee the things i've seen with you
something's fighting me
i can't unsee the things i've seen with you 
something's fighting me
i can't unsee the things i've seen with you 

still feel something going on
and i can't help but find out
i been stuck to you too long
taste the poison in my mouth
something so far away from me
i try to reach, i melt away
i'm so gone, so far, so far
i'm so gone, so far, so far

so far gone

it's always been the same
ion feel a difference, i still feel this pain
i still feel distain
you reflect me, i see everything i hate
nothing on this earth could ever make me feel the same
no matter what i try, i'll die, if i lie next to you tonight
i fall deep into this hate, it's late i wait to feel alive
ion feel alive, oh no i don't feel alive
i-ion feel alive, live

feel like i'm running out of options
i just fill my body up with toxins
i just lie alone and drown in darkness
everything i do is fucking harmless
in the darkness i thrive
i've done all there is to ever do to feel alive
i'm stuck in this loop but i still don't understand why
i can't end my life, no matter how much i have tried
sometimes the real death is just to stay alive
sometimes the real death is just to stay alive

it's always been the same
ion feel a difference, i still feel this pain
i still feel distain
you reflect me, i see everything i hate
nothing on this earth could ever make me feel the same
no matter what i try, i'll die, if i lie next to you tonight
i fall deep into this hate, it's late i wait to feel alive
ion feel alive, oh no i don't feel alive
i-ion feel alive, live

lemme up this to my head
if i pull this trigger ion care bout what come next
i feel it calling my body just want some lead
i wake up get up out of bed, i live in dread

no matter what i try, i'll die, if i lie next to you tonight
i fall deep into this hate, it's late i wait to feel alive
ion feel alive, oh no i don't feel alive
i-ion feel alive, alive

sometimes the real death is just to stay alive
sometimes the real death is just to stay alive

it's always been the same

yes i'm still obsessed with you
you can't hide from me, i see your every move
everything you do, i feel you testing me
i know deep inside, you're still obsessed with me
obsessed with me, obsessed with you
you can't hide from me, i see your every move
everything you do, i feel you testing me
i know deep inside, you're still obsessed with me
obsessed with me

in the end
nothing ever mattered, every day i feel regret
i still can't forgive myself, because i let you in
every waking moment i just hope i can forget
every waking moment i never seem to forget

i never seem to forget it
feel myself attached to you
i'll never learn my lesson
feel my will to live deplete with every passing second
try to speak my mind, but all i speak is my aggression
i guess i'm a dead man
every thought about you that i had is all just dead now
you don't look the same to me, i don't feel like myself now
everywhere i look, i walk, i breathe, it's all just dread now
i wish there was something to just get you out my head now
maybe, this pistol can save me
take me out the gutter, find somewhere better to place me
maybe, maybe, this pistol can save me
take me out the gutter, find somewhere better to place me

yes i'm still obsessed with you
you can't hide from me, i see your every move
everything you do, i feel you testing me
i know deep inside, you're still obsessed with me
obsessed with me, obsessed with you
you can't hide from me, i see your every move
everything you do, i feel you testing me
i know deep inside, you're still obsessed with me
obsessed with me

in the end
nothing ever mattered, every day i feel regret
i still can't forgive myself, because i let you in
every waking moment i just hope i can forget
every waking moment i never seem to forget

so hard to forgive, so hard to forget
i still hope you think of me for as long as you live
every thing is dead now, i hope i forget now
i still hope you're trapped inside yourself, you'll never get out

obsessed with you

you put that knife in my chest and i'm hurt
i do the same, only difference it worked
rerun the cycle, only i know
how the fuck to live on with this curse

only i know, i just wake up and repeat the cycle
i'll admit i'm a little bit psycho
go to sleep, like it's three in the morning
i woke up, i killed these fuckers with my eyes closed
with my eyes closed, bitch i blacked out
had my head gone, but i'm back now
if another mf try to press me
all i can do is attack now
at the end of the day i'm a hellspawn
trade my soul for revenge, now i'm hell's pawn
everything that i've done never felt wrong
everything that i do has a reason
i lay low at your door, yes i'm creepin'
take his soul then i crawl back to the hole
that i hope that i die in, i sleep in

you put that knife in my chest and i'm hurt
i do the same, only difference it worked
rerun the cycle, only i know
how the fuck to live on with this curse
at the end of the day i'm a hellspawn
trade my soul for revenge, now i'm hell's pawn
everything that i've done never felt wrong
everything that i do has a reason
i lay low at your door, yes i'm creepin'
take his soul then i crawl back to the hole
that i hope that i die in, i sleep in

hellspawn

bitch i fucked up (damn)
draco wit the cooling kit
if i got this gun up in my hand
i swear i'm shooting it
i wish i could feel ok at heart
at heart i'm losing it
i walk in start shooting shit
bitch i walk in start-

i ran outta options, nothing going on inside my head
i have no conscience
existential dread, not scared of death
think of it often
everything looks ok on the surface
but i'm rotten
ho my brain is melting
i reach out for help
but i don't think nothing could help it
then i do the things i do
and they all say i'm selfish
if i walk inside this bitch
i swear to god i'll air the whole place out
so much blood on my face now

omg
bitch i feel so bad. wait, i think i don't
hollup hoe, where my feelings go
hollup, ion know. bitch i'm gone
bitch i feel insane. hollup, no i don't
feel like god, feel like i'm satan
i start losing hope

woke up i passed out on the ground
i can't tell if you're talking to me, where do i hear this sound
there's a ring and i hear it, i hear it all the way around
drowned myself in the river where i know i will not be found
i never wanna be found, agh

i ran outta options, nothing going on inside my head
i have no conscience
existential dread, not scared of death
think of it often
everything looks ok on the surface
but i'm rotten
ho my brain is melting
i reach out for help
but i don't think nothing could help it
then i do the things i do
and they all say i'm selfish
if i walk inside this bitch
i swear to god i'll air the whole place out
so much blood on my face now

i've finally run out of options

calling all night

this what i do, nothing like you
hope i'm nothing like you
i'll never win, but no i'll never lose
no i've let you loose, lost my excuse
i lost my consciousness, i broke the truce
i pull up air out, i tear my hair out
i took his head off, i'm so impaired now
i pull up air out, i tear my hair out
i took his head off, i'm so impaired now

way i move like this, yo hoe like it
i just rot my brain, i did
i seen shit i can't forget
bro get his dome divided
bring yo homies, they invited
cut him open, my blade guided
i need one more, too excited
fuck this shit i'm inside it
my knife slide out, that bitch slide in
if they round me, then they dying
we slit his throat, no replying
film this shit in good lighting
i know all his bros hiding
can't believe what i'm describing
feel something in me rising
crash this shit-

i just told the doc, up the dosage
bro this shit ain't working
i still got them both hit
bro was crying for his mom
i'm still posted
posted with the corpse on the lawn
i'm still boasting

this what i do, nothing like you
hope i'm nothing like you
i'll never win, but no i'll never lose
no i've let you loose, lost my excuse
i lost my consciousness, i broke the truce
i pull up air out, i tear my hair out
i took his head off, i'm so impaired now
i pull up air out, i tear my hair out
i took his head off, i'm so impaired now

i'm so impaired now..

hope you enjoy

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and then i fade into the background
i pray nobody tries to stop me
what remains of my soul is black now
i feel ur energy, it got me
and it won't stop til i cut it off
and when i cut i fall to the ground in the blood
on the floor that i left here for you
when you walk in the room, ill be drained to the core
cus i did what i told you

i lay in drown in my sin
i think about what i did 
this lake of fire is hot
but not as hot as i feel
when i'm around you i swear
i swear it all feels surreal
swear ur the worst, the worst i know, would i
talk to you nice and take you back, should i
wait til you pass and cry it out, could i
speed up the time i feel like i could die

i feel way too off today
every day i wake up, it's like every days the same
i lose emotion, always
but there's a rage inside me that i know cannot be tamed
talk to myself, sit in the dark
there's not a thing that i can do
to take this darkness out my heart
this knife could take me to my start
flows of red come out my body
soul and body come apart 

we started fading to black
i felt you tap on my shoulder
you said you wanted me back
you said ur sorry for everything
theres a problem with that

and then i fade into the background
i pray nobody tries to stop me
what remains of my soul is black now
i feel ur energy, it got me
and it won't stop til i cut it off
and when i cut i fall to the ground in the blood
on the floor that i left here for you
when you walk in the room, ill be drained to the core
cus i did what i told you

i lay in drown in my sin
i think about what i did 
this lake of fire is hot
but not as hot as i feel
when i'm around you i swear
i swear it all feels surreal
swear ur the worst, the worst i know, would i
talk to you nice and take you back, should i
wait til you pass and cry it out, could i
speed up the time i feel like i could die

drained to my core

lyrics

don't hold me tonight
please don't hold me tonight
the night you hate me most
don't hold me tonight
please don't hold me tonight
night- night- night-

don't hold me tonight
please don't hold me tonight
the night you hate me most
don't hold me tonight
please don't hold me tonight
night- night- night-

you move on, i know that
you come back, i get it
i move on, i stay back
you're too close, regret it

emotions i keep pushing out
i swear they're just too fake
you tried to change
i just shot back, afraid you're just too late

think i know what you are
i saw you in my sleep
again, we went too far
again, i'm in too deep

i feel the warmth of my own blood
no need to hold me tonight
know what you do when you're not here
so please don't hold me tonight

don't hold me tonight
please don't hold me tonight
the night you hate me most
don't hold me tonight
please don't hold me tonight
night- night- night-

so long i lay so wide awake
you try to change, i try to face
the darkness i brought to the day
it's all my fault, i wash away

don't hold me tonight

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we only made each other worse
the way i see the end, it hurts
there's a feeling that i doubt
i don't know what it's about
for a second thought you left me cursed
but i guess it deflected 
soul unaffected
don't try a second time
cus the soul that i kept is all mine
it's all mine

i have a one way ticket to hell
i'll be back for you
but in the end you're still the same
every time i think i'm back, i hear you say
it's not me, it's still you
you control what i do
i feel a knife interwine my spine this time
i just pray you fall and it takes your life

guess i'll just let you be my one mistake
and it hurts so bad, won't let you stay
with me, i hope you see your life play out
the way you hoped it wouldn't
no way i thought you'd do this
no way, i really shouldn't
can't feel that way about myself
no way, i really couldn't

only a matter of time
i hope you come figure out
your soul will always be mine
i want you running back to me
cause i would always decline
you're in distress, god i'm so stressed
just know i'm always inside
i'm in your head again
just know it never ends
the way you made feel
is the same way i'd leave you dead

i have a one way ticket to hell
i'll be back for you
but in the end you're still the same
every time i think i'm back, i hear you say
it's not me, it's still you
you control what i do
i feel a knife interwine my spine this time
i just pray you fall and it takes your life

guess i'll just let you be my one mistake
and it hurts so bad, won't let you stay
with me, i hope you see your life play out
the way you hoped it wouldn't
no way i thought you'd do this
no way, i really shouldn't
can't feel that way about myself
no way, i really couldn't

one way ticket to hell

lyrics
you want my best, i can't give that
but i can give you more
you're in my head, you're in my ear
so much worse than before
you say the worst things when i'm high
try my best to ignore
it's like i hate you but i love you
my toxic amor

i'll do anything you ask me
love when you attack me
i get so obsessed with you
i love when you harass me
don't look in the backseat
of this fucking taxi
you might see something that you don't want to
just look past me

i love x21
i love the way you can talk me out of anything
you never care if it's bad or if it's good for me
the way this hate sits in my heart, you're my enemy
you never let me take a hold of my identity

i'll do anything you ask me
love when you attack me
i get so obsessed with you
i love when you harass me
don't look in the backseat
of this fucking taxi
you might see something that you don't want to
just look past me
like you always do
you know all i want is you
please don't get to close to me
not what i wanna do
not what i wanna see
you show me things i don't need
i feel so sick when you're all done
but that's just me

ur in my head again

the slower i fall, dissolve to nothing
this knife in my heart, i'm up to something...
if i know it's wrong, i'm right, i'm up then
if i kill them all, am i disgusting

i do it regardless, whatever
and ion feel nun inside of my heart
like, it's a problem, whatever
i been so fucked up like this forever
i don't feel like talking bout my problems
baby never, oh never
never, ion like to talk about that bitch
it make my head hurt
pussy you ain't on shit
like ion see no effort
i'ma blow my brain wit this 12 gauge
been awake like 12 days
middle of this desert

the slower i fall, dissolve to nothing
this knife in my heart, i'm up to something...
if i know it's wrong, i'm right, i'm up then
if i kill them all, am i disgusting

(if i kill them all, am i disgusting)
(if i kill them all, am i disgusting)

and no i don't wanna fall tonight, no way
as a die and lie here, wide awake
all this shit's never worth the time it takes
i let everyone pay for my mistakes

let me go at my funeral

yeslevi