never use this in public

inabakumori - lost umbrella feat.kaai yuki

Lost Umbrella

【歌ってみた】Shadow Shadow/Azari

アブノーマリティ･ダンシンガール - ぐちり feat.flower （Abnormality Dancin' Girl - Guchiry feat. flower）

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Graduation

Big Brother     Cover

Music and Lyrics: Pusu 
Piano: Miro
Vocals: Rei
Illustration: Omutatsu
This is not my song! I only own the translation featured below. Image from the official music video.

English translation by me:

幼い頃 殺めた命は数えきれず
小さな命を葬っては平然と笑って帰路についた
今になって考えたら真っ先に死ぬのは私でよかった

I can't count how many lives I killed when I was young
I'd bury an insignificant life, smile calmly, then head home
When I think about it now, I should have been the one to die from the start

うらうらとした周りの空気が濃くて
存在価値を奪うでしょ

The lively atmosphere surrounding me thickens
as if trying to steal my value to society

生命線とか無駄に長いだけで
何の役にも立たないただのしわだよ
心の奥がしょうもない人生観を嘆いているの
耳に刺さる理想 吐き捨てて

Things like lifelines are just needlessly long, (1)
wrinkles in time serving no purpose
At the back of my mind, I lament such a hopeless view of life
Spitting out ideals that stab into my ears

消えてしまいたい生涯なんてもんにどんな値が付いて
自己中心的だって？思いの欠片も知らないで
どうせ向こう数十年経った先では煙たがれて
なら私を刺して殺して奪って去って

What value is there to life when you just want to die?
That's selfish, you say? I don't understand the thought
Of course, after a decade or so, I'll just be a nuisance
so stab me, kill me, and take me away already

あの世行きのバスに乗ってさらば
I'm getting on the bus to the other world, see ya

幼い頃 馬鹿にされたことも忘れきれず
身に覚えのない理不尽さが頭から離れてくれないんだ
今になって考えたら何故飲み込んだのか
歯向かえばよかった

I can't forget when I was made fun of as a kid
I hadn't realized just how outrageous it was, and now the thought won't leave my mind
When I think about it now, why did I just accept it as it was?
I should have fought back

もやもやとした人混みの中を這って
存在価値を示すのよ

Crawling through the depressing crowd,
I make an effort to display my value to society

幸福論とか無駄に深いだけで
何の役にも立たないただの文字だよ
浅い心がパッとしない焦燥感に駆られているの
時だけが経って戻れないな

Things like the theory of happiness are just needlessly deep (2)
words serving no purpose
My shallow heart slowly succumbs to irritation
Time just goes on, unable to go back

消えてしまいたい生涯なんてもんにどんな芽が生えて.
面倒くさい奴だって？お前の声とか要らないわ.
どうせ向こう数十年経った先まで持ち越すだけ.
なら私を刺して殺して奪って去って

What good can come from your life when you just want to die?
I'm bothersome to be around? I didn't ask for your opinion.
Of course, I'll just shelve those words for decades to come
so stab me, kill me, and take me away already

消えてしまいたい生涯なんてもんに意味はあるんですか
Is there meaning to life when you just want to die?

消えてしまいたい生涯なんてもんに夢はあるんですか
Even though you just want to die, do you still have dreams?

無いじゃん
I have none at all

消えてしまいたい生涯なんてもんにどんな値が付いて.
辛いよね分かるよだって？分かったようなこと言わないで.
どうせ向こう数十年経った先でも嘆いていて.
なら私を刺して殺して奪って去って.

What value is there to life when you just want to die?
It's hard and it hurts so much, don't you get that? Don't act like you understand
Of course, after a decade or so, I'll still lament it
so stab me, kill me, and take me away already

それが私に出来る最初で最後の悪あがきだ
For me, that is my first and last struggle in vain

あの世行きのバスに乗ってさらば
I'm getting on the bus to the other world, see ya

でも私は悔いて叫んで雨が降って
But then, I regret and scream under the pouring rain

Translator Notes
1: Your lifeline is a line on your palm that is supposed to tell how long you have left to live
2: The theory of happiness says that accepting the impermanence of life is the path to true happiness; this is usually used on people with depression

【歌ってみた】Shadow Shadow/Azari

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