Written by Yoah404
Produced by SkGotTheSauce
Mixed by Mira Sol
Coverart by Yoah404

Nachtschicht Prod. SkGotTheSauce

Remix By: Dj Grobian
Hosted By: Dj Tropfstei-Höhle-Füerig-Im-Wangetal
Emotional Support By: Dj Nonbinary Jesus

Yoah - Nachtschicht [Remix] (Dj Grobian et al., 2021)

thank u so much @yngkms <3

Lyrics:

We fell through white sheets/
Tears on your face they fell on me/
But I feel your warmth pounding through me/
with every heart beat/
you’re surrounding me, you got me drowning here/
In those deep blue eyes, but I see anxiety/

Don’t be scared/
Angel wings grew back you’re free/
All those scars will heal, the knifes turned dull, yeah baby there’s no need/
To go back to red nights and dark days/
It's over, its ok/
Yeah I’m here and I’ll stay/

your hands on my spine/
Got your lips on mine/
I see your eyes they’re filled with light/

You complete my life/
The first time I feel like/
Heaven is right here beside us/

BEAUBOY ROSE - THE DAYS OF PAIN ARE OVER [PROD. KILLEDMYSELF]

music video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3k1EML7esA8

first single off the coming "rosebleed" album. [01/28/17]

produced by: @nimbustwokush

mixed by: Giuliano Sulzberger aka. The.porchmouse 

lyrics:

bleeding out~

I’m losing blood/
I’m losing blood/
I’m losing blood/
I’m at the ruins of the scene of my diseases/
colors leave me/
at this schoolyard with my grave inside/
behind the pillars where I used to cry/
I used to try to see the light /
but the night fell faster on that plaster, white walls turning dark again/
haunted hallways, silent pain, empty seats and empty veins/
I’m like the faucet, dripping slower/
while this place is getting older – closure/
I’m turning colder/
rusty waters contain iron that’s the irony/
I’m bleeding out/

bleeding out [prod. nimbus2k] MUSIC VID IN DESCRIPTION

second single off the coming "rosebleed" album. [01/28/17]

produced by: @colorhue and @teendepression

mixed by: Giuliano Sulzberger aka. The.porchmouse

lyrics:

anxious"

I’m anxious/
I’m scared of death/
and I’m scared of life/
I’m caught up in this state of mind/

I’m anxious/
I’m scared of death/
and I’m scared of life/
scared that everyone I love might die/
scared of all the lies I might believe/
scared that you could leave me one day/
scared of being betrayed/

scared of hatred, scared of love/
scared of feelings, what’s the cause?/
I can’t tell you, I don’t know/

I’m anxious/
I’m Scared of my anxiety/
scared that all these thoughts keep haunting me/
scared of being sensitive/
simply scared of being me/
sometimes I wish I could be someone else/
I’m so scared of being myself/

I’m anxious/
I’m scared of change/
I’m anxious/
I’m scared of pain/
I’m anxious/
I’m anxious/
I’m anxious/
I’m anxious/

anxious [prod​.​colorhue​+​imdepression]

produced by: @lucafearz of @shelter_internet

mixed by: Giuliano Sulzberger aka. The.porchmouse

lyrics:

rosebleed!

time stops for a second/
I see red/
yes the race begins/
my ice cold heart beats faster/
foreign fluids in my frozen veins/
melting my composure/
taking over/
I see crimson flames/
burnt alive but evergreen/
loathing forming thorns on me/
ay/
striking roots, deformed my face/
It’s the poison they created/
filled my head up with pure hatred/
generated by my past/
I got all your names on paper/
my white blood cells turn to ash/
loose protection getting wasted/
losing patience/
Shut me off/
cut me off/
let me rest until I’m leaking out/
draining all my venoms with the rain my blood is clotting now/
fall apart, my bones can’t bear this weight, my petals falling down/
rose bleed on the bottom of the ocean of my open wounds/

rosebleed [prod​.​internet shelter]

produced by: @killedmyself

mixed by: Giuliano Sulzberger aka. The.porchmouse

lyrics:

colddd*

the white corpse that should resemble me/
wanders through the cold, on his own breathing heavily/
stumbling over frozen fields/
possessed but no possession, rotten harvest there's no legacy/
-see him fall/
through binoculars/
now I see him crawl/
I'm so far away, I can't help myself It's too much weight/

I'm losing every sense that once was real/
yeah I can't see, breathe, feel a thing anymore/
there's nothing left of me but my memories/
and they will be for evermore/

nothing left but my thoughts/
on my own in the dark/
search for rest with all these mental scars/
try to sleep/
but daydreams equal nightmares and my past starts haunting me/
again/

colddd [prod​.​killedmyself]

produced by: @haardtek

mixed by: Giuliano Sulzberger aka. The.porchmouse

lyrics:

is it me or is it u?

Is it me or is it you/
the voices in my head when i try to talk to you/
when I stare up to the skies/
searching for your eyes/
god please tell me why/
I can't tell your truth from lies/

I was aiming for the light since my first day/
I know you could say that's it's because I was raised this way/

but in my darkest moments you were there/
when everything was hurting yeah I know u cared/
for me/

or is it vanity/
I don’t know what’s real/
can u tell the definition of insanity?/
don’t know what to feel/
It’s my malady/
but I don’t know the meaning/

darkness overwhelming I need healing/
I know I’m not my thoughts but I can feel them/
tell me why this world controlled by evil/
tell me more ‘bout freedom/
tell me more ‘bout freedom/

I’m caught up in this cage of lies/
disorders coming from inside/
lose myself, now angels cry/
desperation in my eyes/
in the dark no place to hide/
my thoughts will get me every time/
running through inhuman nights/
escape is useless, let me die/

god please take me to the light/
the light I felt/
when I was young and naïve, when I held/
your hand and said/
I’ll never let you go/
I left, got lost on my way home/
now I’m all alone/
and I don’t know/
what’s real/

is it me or is it u [prod​.​haardtek]

produced by: @wwwjasonthompson

mixed by: Giuliano Sulzberger aka. The.porchmouse

lyrics:

rehydrate...

I feel the climate change/
look at all my cells, they start to rearrange/
ice to water, Snow to rain/
rehydrate/
heart beat restarts, fill my veins/
I‘ve known myself enough to realize that I’m the same/

just the frame of my mind changed/
got the same face/
the same heart/
from the same place/
the same scars/
feel the same pain/
as before/
but I’ve regrown petals
lost my thorns/
to you/

I feel the climate change/
look at all my cells, they start to rearrange/
ice to water, Snow to rain/
rehydrate/
rehydrate/
rehydrate/

rehydrate [prod​.​jason thompson]

produced by: @dietrich2003

mixed by: Giuliano Sulzberger aka. The.porchmouse

lyrics:

funeral.

take my hand and follow me/
to my grave so we can see/
what used to bleed/
what used to live/
see my corpse laying there for the last time/
leave the vessel of my demons in the moonlight/
I smile, tears of ease/
I shine, angel wings grew back I’m free/

funeral/
I don’t need to go back anymore/
funeral/
scars left by my past will turn to gold/
funeral/
the pureness of me got restored/
funeral/
funeral/

funeral/
sun is rising vanish all shadows/
funeral/
holy water rehydrates my soul/
funeral/
heart beats slow, found rest now watch me grow/
funeral/
I don’t need to bleed no more/

standing there in all black clothes/
at this schoolyard where it used to snow/
the cold is over, funeral/
my grave is closed it’s time to go/
hold my hand and feel the warmth/
girl I got a molten heart/
reform old, then turn to art/
leave the past, a brand new start/

this shit had me drowning in depression/
I know it’s still pressing down on me/
but I rose again now/
got it underneath/
this shit had me drowning in depression/
I know it’s still pressing down on me/
but I rose again now/
got it underneath me/

I know that I’m still weak/
I know that I’m still sensitive/
yeah I still can’t see what’s real/
still lost in thoughts/
still lost in feels/
but I don’t need to go back anymore/
I’m done, I closed the door/
I don’t need to go back anymore/
cause I found new hope/

funeral [prod​.​dietrich]

love for my brother @basedkingrobyn

lyrics:

I stay in the shadows, in the calming cold/
No one close, I’m just watching myself grow/
I’m a Solanum, feel so numb, yeah I have to wait for/
Myself to know/
That I will die alone/
The day will come/
When I lie without possession and that grave will be the vessel of/
My dreams and hopes/
Let’s just go/
We can’t hide/
From ourselves and our own lies/
Yeah we’ll all die/
But it’s alright/

You know what’s best for yourself kid/
You got a life sunlit, face it/
Look into the mirror of reality/
Take a good look at your face and remember it/

Yeah we’re so young/
Make the best out of every moment you can get/
Yeah we’re so young/
There’s much more than just sadness/

Tears are my reality/
Love a fucking fantasy /
Still I will believe in dreams/u

solanum [prod. feeniks]

produced by @colorhue
lyrics + vocals by @beauboyrose
mixed by @beauboyrose

lyrics:

Escaping daily routines, I’m a runaway/
I run away, cause I’m not here to stay/
Ashtray’s overflowing with my wasted time/
Light another cigarette just to keep me satisfied/
I guess we have to say goodbye/
I can’t stay tonight, I know my ways ain’t right yeah/
But you can tell me how to live girl, I won’t obey/
This life ain’t certified, but still we’re all the same/

So far so good and we carry on/
Falling down that building we were born on/
So far so good and we carry on/
Carry on, falling down/
So far so good and we carry on/
Carry on, falling down/
So far so good and we carry on/
Falling down that building we were born on/

so far so good 2/3

produced by @colorhue
lyrics + vocals by @beauboyrose
mixed by @beauboyrose

lyrics:

Tell me why everything you do is so predictable/
You just turned your head to me because I look so miserable/
I don’t need compassion baby/
I don’t want your empathy/
I know that you fuck with me but I don’t want no wannabes/
Around me/
Shadows keep surrounding me/
No sun exposure still I grow, I live off misery/
And the life you claim makes no sense just keep/
Ignoring the distortion maybe you can vanish happily/

Who polluted us/
Inhaling hatred and mistrust/
Some don’t even know we’re falling/
Thanks to ataraxic drugs/
Exhaling all my hope/
I wish I could show/
My potential/
My intentions/ 
Yeah but I feel like should go/

One past six in the morning got a gun to my head/
One movement of that trigger and I’d be dead/
So gone, something I don’t want right now yah/

I still got some shit to do/
My life may be despicable/
But I’m still living for the truth/
For every one that listens to/
My words/
Yeah it hurts so much/
To see the world fall/
Losing all my confidence/
Afar I hear the reapers call/
Parasitic mindset/
I wish I could find rest/
Ignorance is bliss/ 
But I’m so far away from finding it/

one past six 3/3

follow my brother @nowheretobefouund
lovely produced as always by my man @frozenmane

lyrics:

[verse 1 beauboyrose]

I forget bout living everyday/
I don’t know how it used to be/
I got lost in my dark mind I cannot be saved/

I forget bout living every day/
I cannot be saved/

I see dark thoughts cover up my mind so quick/
yeah, one moment I felt save, now I’m drenched in fear like shit/
like oh no/
Smoke filled lungs; I breathe pollution through my system/
Venom from my mind, I miss my youth yeah it’s so distant/

back when I was innocent/
when I thought I was worth living/
back when hope was everything/
my mind was pure, You heard me yeah/

death and devil dancing/
over my head I see glances/
of what used to be before/
but everything I see distorts/

I forget bout living everyday/
I don’t know how it used to be/
I forget bout living every day/
I got lost in my dark mind I cannot be saved/

[verse 2 ripjosh]

wake up everyday and i feel so alone/
no texts or calls I'm about to break my phone/
she broke me into pieces and left me on my own/
remember those nights when i used to walk you home/
talk about our future, now its all gone/
talk about our future now its all gone/

forget w/ ripjosh [prod. jason thompson aka dj frozen mane the ice man]

lovely produced by @smiletomaself thx brother

lyrics:

Why do I still fall all the time, thruh this downwards spiral/
Of what used to be my place to hide/
I ran away in hope of closure but I guess I’m trapped inside my/
Toxic way of overthinking shit to the point of losing any will to live/

Why/
Did/
I/
Still/
Fall for you/
Why did I still fall for you/

Why did I still fall even tho I said I never wanna fall again/
I’ll save myself I said, but never wanted to be saved so bad/
Just like back then, Yeah I guess nothing changed at all/
And still I fall/


But every time/
I see you smile/
it feels like/
some sort of magic pulls me/
Out of my misery/
Thanks for letting me be me/
Even tho I’m haunted by these demons, I can’t guarantee -/ 
But I Guess it was love what I felt
But I’m not sure if I can trust myself/

fall [prod.smiletomaself]

premiere in swiss german
wanted to do some different shit
hope yall like it <333

lyrics:

1/
2 mönsche/
U 3 gläser wii/
4 ouge 4 ohre 4 händ u glich/
Simmer 1/
2 träum wo so verschiede si/
3 zigarette lang duss im cherze liecht/

I wetts sii/
Dä nebe dir/
Dä wo bliibt/
Egau wie lang/
Haut so lang wies stimmt/

4 ärm, 4 bei, 4 füess u i/
Verlüre mi so im moment, sgit ke ruum u ziit/
Sgit nur di/
Sgit nur di u mi und mir ligge hie/
Knapp 5 stunde schlaf/
Morn wird e guete tag mit dir/

7 7 7 i blib positiv /
Was üs betrifft/
I denke, ja i denke nur ah di/

Denke nur ah di/
I letschter ziit/
Denke nur ah di/

1 Dutzend Rosen - 1, 2, 3 [prod. loopy luke]

produced by me.

Lyrics:

[part1]

I know I’m supposed/
To rise above and grow/
Instead I chose the wrong path, start to decompose/
Shadows on my face whenever I’m around/
I hope you’ll never notice me I’m scared that I could hurt someone/
It’s Poison rose/
Girl I hope u know/
Where to go/
Cause I don’t and I don’t want you/
To follow me and think that I’m that friendly guy who takes his time to listen to your shit/
I’m so done with/ 
Everyone including my sad self, cause we will never change/
I need some balance for the pain/
Yeah I’m still caught up in these chains/

Just another fucking reject/
Don’t make me your idol/ 
Cause One day you will regret/
Falling through that downwards spiral/

[part2]
Chum hör mer uuf/
Chum lah mi los, Lah mi la gah/
Chum hör mer uuf/
Mit „aues chunnt guet“/
Wüu i wotts jetzt ha/
I wett gär elleini sii u glückläch mit mit äbäbiuld/
Läbe, schnuufe, gspürsch mi füuhsch mi shit/
Yah yah/
I gseh die Abwärtsspiralä/
U i gheie abä/
I gseh die Abwärtsspiralä/
I gseh die Abwärtsspiralä/
U i gheie abä/

downwards [prod.beauboyrose]

frozenrose

produced by: @frozenmane

written by: @beauboyrose

mixed by: @beauboyrose

mastered by: @frozenmane


Taschendieb

[lyrics:]

[part 1/1 - beauboyrose]

Once upon a time/
In a lovely little village I/
Settled down but nobody ever noticed that I/
Wasn’t who they thought I am/
Cause deep down I kept a secret from them/
Neighbors became friends and there was this gorgeous girl I adored/
We started talking and soon after our connection meant more/
Than I ever wanted it to be/
Cause I already knew that the ending won’t be sweet/
For her/
For them/
For everybody else including me/
Cause evil grew so rapidly/
Inside of me/
There’s a parasite/
Living off my energy/
And the love she gave to me/
But one day the inner demon/
Will awake and take control/
And the plague will spread across the land/
Please end it all before/

I hurt/
Someone else/
̶t̶̶h̶̶a̶̶n̶̶ ̶̶m̶̶y̶̶s̶̶e̶̶l̶̶f̶/
̶d̶̶a̶̶m̶̶n̶̶ ̶̶m̶̶y̶̶s̶̶e̶̶l̶̶f̶/

taschendieb

die pest

frozenrose

produced by: @frozenmane

written by: @beauboyrose

mixed by: @beauboyrose + @frozenmane

mastered by: @frozenmane

puppentheater¹

[puppet theatre¹]

synthetic lights/
all spots on me/
perfection in the moment/
I’m the puppeteer/
main drapes open up/
but nobody’s here to see/
all I got and all I give/
makes me feel like/
I’m Craig Schwartz, wannabe John Malkovich/
I just stand and stare into my minds abyss/
revived my sickness when I searched for bliss/
while I tried so hard to be more positive/
at least I tried/
to lead a so called life/
but I still try to figure out why/
I’m me/
I’m me/
nineteen, whiny bitch, deadbeat that’s me/
I’m me/
yeah I’m me/
feel like I’m clean outside but my insides frayed/
I’m me/
and that’s where, I fail/

puppentheater¹

die pest

frozenrose

produced by: @frozenmane

written by: @beauboyrose

mixed by: @beauboyrose + @frozenmane

mastered by: @frozenmane

kettenkarussell 

[chairoplane]

I don’t really fuck with anyone/
step aside when I’m around/
yeah and please don’t get attached/
maybe you will be the next…/
person left in sickness/
I’m the plague please mind the distance/
I am nothing you’ll be missing/

cause of my ways of life/
never ever have been right/
I don’t feel like you would like/
to spend any of your time/
On me/
Leave/
before I hurt you unintentionally/

I’m the plague/
don’t you play no games with me/
I’m the plague/
I’m the plague/
I’m the plague/
I’m the plague yah/

I’m sick, sick, sickening/
I feel like the only thing/
that everybody wouldn’t bother losing I feel like I bring/
fear within so deep that everybody meeting me is scared to breathe/
it’s a miracle I still live/

got lost in the shadows/
I’m the rose that needs no sun/
cause the parasite of evil stroke his roots in my brain/
that’s my stigma, that’s my sickness, that’s the reason for the self-hate/

I’m the puppet of myself; I cut my strings ‘til I feel somewhat free/
but I don’t wanna live as a persona made for pain relief/
I’m not happy with both sides of me/
the kid that wants to run away or embodied sanity/
I’m the plague/
I make myself sicker every day/
I feel like the pain has reached it’s peak but I don’t think that there’s a way/ 
to save/
me/

kettenkarussell

!find vero on instagram @oaterina!

die pest

frozenrose

produced by: @frozenmane

written by: vero

mixed by: @beauboyrose + @frozenmane

mastered by: @frozenmane

geisterhaus¹ by vero

[haunted house¹]

my nails scratch open the skin/
of all the personalities I tend to hide in/
they itch and shift around me/
never do they sit comfortably/

the lights are off/
but i can feel how they slowly peel down my flesh/
leaving behind/
a bloody mess/

of bones and veins/
so well arranged/
but not presentable/

I walk to my closet and open it up/
inside there are people without flesh or blood/
they are my clothes/
different faces, different voices all with no hope/

I decide it's a casual day/
throw on a tired face/
and close the closet again/

now I head into the kitchen/

“what are we having today?/
a cup of coffee or of rotting decay?”/

I try to sing/
and then I hum/
no words escaping/
my tired lungs/

my thoughts drift off/
to who id like to be/
to what id like to do/
to who am I/
to who are you/

to “why?/

Just why am I alive?”/

I hear a beeping sound/
“my coffee's ready!/
It's a brand new day/
let’s try to remain steady.”/

geisterhaus¹ by vero

die pest

frozenrose

produced by: @frozenmane

written by: @beauboyrose

mixed by: @beauboyrose + @frozenmane

mastered by: @frozenmane

geisterhaus²

[haunted house²]

I bi d'pest/
du wettsch nid mit mir verchere/
chere sätz bis si mer gfauä, rede nid vo ehr u/
I wett nid dass du vertrousch/
ha di gwarnt/
I bi chrank im chopf/
parasite zehre vo mr bis I drinne ligg im sarg/
19 jahr und ke ahnig wie lang no aber denke bald/
isch ziit für mi zum gah/
we sich de shit nid bald/

zum guete wendet/

i bruch verändrig/
doch i weiss nid wie/
danke für die tipps sie bringe nüt i ha scho aus probiert/
isch würkläch lieb/
aber wett mi säuber rette drum isch aues wo du seisch so gliich/

dRose blüetet immer wiiter/
dürri dorne steche immer no/
bliib nid hange a mr lueg wod loufsch/
bi nid das wod wottsch/

I bi d'pest/

I bi d'pest/
hasse mi so fescht/
I bi chrank, I wett/
endläch glücklich sii/

I bi d'pest/
hasse mi so fescht/
I bi chrank I ,tt/
endläch glücklich sii/

geisterhaus²

die pest

frozenrose

produced by: @frozenmane

written by: @beauboyrose

mixed by: @beauboyrose + @frozenmane

mastered by: @frozenmane

puppentheater²

[puppet theatre²]

hush children leave the town/
we locked the plague up in that barn/
bring the torches burn it down/
suddenly no sounds/
no more/

puppentheater²

produced by: https://soundcloud.com/blackmayo

bi wieni bi [prod. blackmayo]

trauma [prod. harvest]

plag [prod. loopy luke]

full album prod. by the lovely @loopylukebeats
featuring @kxns and vero

friday w/ kons

full album prod. by the lovely @loopylukebeats
featuring @kxns and vero

Thursday (beauboyrose)
Endless raindrops flowing down the window

I’m sitting on a bus thinking about life

I wanna see you, I wanna go away from here

I’m fed up with time getting in my way and taking everything I love

Why do I already think about what’s going to happen tomorrow and what in a year

I am waiting for weeks for the day I’m off work

But what’s so special about it to have just 24 hours to do something I wanted to do for so long

I don’t know who I am anymore

Time keeps controlling me

Every step, every breath I take

thursday

full album prod. by the lovely @loopylukebeats
featuring @kxns and vero

Wednesday (vero)

It’s wednesday today,
but I’m pretty sure yesterday was Sunday,
and I’m sitting here confused,
and you are too... but let me explain... when I used to feel wrong,
I would think to myself fast forward.
my brain just shut off
while the world rushed by... I was absent for a long time,
until i would feel alright again.
weather that would mean going inside when it rained... or being in bed again.

and i turned that on in february

and now it’s july

i skipped through all these months
without...
without knowing why.

my biggest wish right now would be to just shut it off

i want the world to slow down,
so from this ride i can get off.

and i used to feel alright,
but now i really dont.

how come this sheet’s already filled with words,

when ive only just begun -vero

wednesday by vero

full album prod. by the lovely @loopylukebeats
featuring @kxns and vero

Tuesday (beauboyrose)

Tuesday it’s still the same shit

Wake up, work, go home and drink

Bitch I know it’s not good for me but I don’t have anything better to do today

Sitting in front of the computer, rolling a cigarette

Getting another beer out of the fridge and I open it

One sip and I’m feeling at home

And feeling alone

Yeah I know it sounds sad but this works just fine for me right know

Not in the mood for cooking, not in the mood for anything

I just keep sitting there, I never get a drought

Rolling, smoking and repeating it all (kons)

I don't wanna wake up,
I'll take a paycut just to stay up late listen to a song that i
just made

what's the race huh?

I sharpen razor

then i blaze up
oh the days up,
i lift my cage up,
that fear and rage
beats in minutes maid and on stage i get appraisals

sippin lemonade like the way i portray love

gentle with the touch with the flavor for your taste buds
outer space buds
im out of space bruh

my hard drives full

tuesday w/ kons

full album prod. by the lovely @loopylukebeats
featuring @kxns and vero

Monday (beauboyrose)

It’s Monday

Waking up with demons from yesterday

I crawl out of bed wishing this would have been everything I have to do today

But this is the never mentioned start of the circle which only ends when I won’t function anymore

7:30 AM already working, Why can I not do what I want ?

Already in the middle now there’s no return

It’s going forwards by itself, but there will never be a break

What’s going on with this world?

time equals money. (translated from swiss german by beauboyrose)

Yoah

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