i cant do this anymore

produced by: dercept



when i wake up, she goin to sleep
fuck all of this distance, yeah it’s poison on the leaves, i pray
every night that tomorrow you won’t leave
tomorrow u won’t leave yea yea 

lil baby just stay here with me 
you never fuckin listen, there’s no point in saying please 
i say
fool me once, you can’t put the blame on me 
fool me once you can’t put the shame on me 

cus i’m a placeholder,
it’s gettin harder to just stay sober,
paranoia breathes on my neck,
can feel the hate growing 

they told her,
she should leave me,
think she listening,
ignoring all my texts
i can feel that girl she’s distancing 
x2

but i’ll blow up, and call it quits!
one day you’ll be callin, i’ll tell you to get a grip
oh shit,
shoulda held my hand,
not cared about the wrist,
all this fuckin jewellery 
but u still don’t give a shit 
i quit
i’m sleeping on a couch,
it’s feelin like the ritz,
 i was fuckin homeless and they didn’t give a shit, she did
i’m alone with all this shit, i’m gonna switch
see me on the news, one more bad day then i’ll flip, like this 

(don’t tell me i’ll be fine
i’m so sick of hoping youre right 
i guess i’ll be fine)

listening to candour every night 
every night (shout out neck deep) 

i’ll 
move out of this apartment
sleepin outside, watch me fall into the darkness,
harness
around my chest it’s crushing on my heart, shit 
& i’m used to this pain, he getting photos of her topless
i wanna stay home, guess im introverted
all these sleepless nights yea they got my brain hurting
i wish i was the one you were concerned with 
rib cage empty, took my heart guess i deserved it 

deserved it.

—-

shoutout to wubz for inspiring this song. 💕

placeholder (dercept)

prod. me

lyrics:
i got a weak heart and wasted time 
I cant run from it so ill hide behind 
I rly wish I could tell u
I know u well but its jus somethin cant do 

rly whats the meanin of this 
im awake but inside im kinda bleedin and shit 
I wanna hide my face, dont wanna talk to u
I wanna run away dont wanna bother u 

who are u waitin on 
who are u waitin for 
I cant be there all the way 
and that hurts so much more
I wanna talk it out 
I wanna be the one who cares
u know what im talkin bout
I wanna be the one whos there

baby dont scared 
Ima be there anyway dont give a fuck who cares
I dont give fuck im over it
I know im awkward and 
im sorry I cant be who u think I am
are u over me 
it gets hard when u get distant I cant rly see
what the fuck is goin on right in front of me  
im like hows ur day? can u tell me bout it
I feel like im in the way can u get me out of it

will I ever jus feel normal
or am I stuck wit this tmmr 
I dont think I can hold up

who are u waitin on 
who are u waitin for 
I cant be there all the way 
and that hurts so much more
I wanna talk it out 
I wanna be the one who cares
u know what im talkin bout
I wanna be the one whos there

weak heart

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guitar, production, mixing, mastering - fats'e

alter past
i want to go back
let me burn
current time, i don’t fuck with that
let me burn

you can keep what you've stolen 
stash no hard feelings

by the time i had caught on
it was way to late
for all the time i trusted
i understand, now i see straight
thru all the lies i'm told
too scared to tell the truth
wish everyone a good life
but this is for the best

sever ties

𝘪'𝘥 𝘳𝘢𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘳 𝘯𝘰𝘵 𝘮𝘰𝘯𝘦𝘵𝘪𝘻𝘦 𝘮𝘺 𝘵𝘳𝘢𝘤𝘬𝘴

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Why’d I let this demon inside of my bed 
I need sage 
I need faith 
I need something bad
One more taste 
wanna hit her like a vape 
Hard to quit 
how much time til I cave in

Think it’s bout time I run away from your love now 
Hit the glass hards how I try to come down 
Hit the lights let it all burn out 

She wanna fuck around ye
I tell her how i feel but she doesn’t wanna listen 
It’s not are time right now so I guess I just keep it distant 
Don’t it feel like shit when you feel like you’re not good enough 

Missing all your tattoos 
You/re my sunshine 
Your eyes when they look at mine 
You can’t be trusted 

Why’d I let this demon inside of my bed 
I need sage 
I need faith 
I need something bad
One more taste 
wanna hit her like a vape 
Hard to quit 
how much time til I cave in

Let’s just get this over with 
Can’t stop letting you in 
Is it obvious, I can’t stop this
I feel it constantly weighing down on me 
Feel like the subject of this classic poetry
Where I’m the man 
You’re the girl to kill me slow and painfully 

Deep down 
I hope you’re better now 
But part of me still hopes you drown 

Think it’s bout time I run away from your love now 
Hit the glass hards how I try to come down 
Hit the lights let it all burn out 

Deep down 
hope you’re better now 
But part of me still hopes you drown

Sage

(prod. kais x sorrowbringer)
u all mean the world to me fr
enjoy :’)

lyrics:
don’t wanna let you down again
I know i’m nothing but a burden.
and when the tide goes down i’ll stand
up for myself again

I was never a part of it
nah I was never part of it, a part of anything or anyone

got me painting pictures of the future stressin bout my life
kais don’t stress bout stupid thought illusions cloudin’ up yo mind
just fkn stop this shit
get me out of it
just get me home, where I can grow, and heal my scars a bit

this is really up to me
I can’t rely on not any my friends, nah
I would love to be chillin at home makin beats every week
so I wont let this go to waste
wont let them see this smile fade away

“im lonely and hurting”
all these thoughts averted.
I kno y’all got my back
I can hear it from your wording
im sorry i called you
these things seem to fall through
pictures comin down I can tell the rain gon’ fall soon.

it's okay

ft @ripkais :)
prod hiraeth + sinxi
ENGALAND

you mean nothing to me
they had u down on ur knees
“i couldn’t live without you”
but you fucked him with ease
I swear i never even had u
and neither will he
left alone inside the bathroom
leave me to sink
I only did it cause i had to
ur not who I think
and all my friends were tryna warn me
But I’m stupid as shit
i don’t know how id ever trust you
look what u did
i heard ur better off without me
I’ve got nothing to give

tell me what it cost me
im sinking in my body
memories floodin in of how I fkn lost me
I was never really here you can feel it
feel more claustrophobic the lower the ceiling

if you really don’t wanna talk to me don’t talk to me
know the only problem is the fkn honesty
I caught the leakin water drippin from your balcony
words cant fix this
and I just rly wanna stop fearin
the noises in my ceilin
im breathin real heavy
im anxious and im breakin
mistaken for a bad dream
I just want you happy,
but you wanna leave me in the car
body laid out in the backseat

ive had enough of it
let me out
ur turning love into a punishment
u let me drown
i swear were only arguing
she'll come around
i swear its so embarrassing
u let me down

you mean nothing to me
they had u down on ur knees
“i couldn’t live without you”
but you fucked him with ease
I swear i never even had u
and neither will he
left alone inside the bathroom
leave me to sink

sink ft. kais

[chorus]

i’m sick of being all alone, sick of being on my own
tired of waiting on a text, when ain’t nobody hit my phone
yeah, they tell me that they love me, then they show me that they don’t
feel like i got no fucking friends, might make a friend out of a rope

x3

[verse]

yeah, you know youu got a problem when the blade don’t even hurt
i tried to force a smile but that shit, it never works
i tried to make a friend, but everyone was such a jerk
haven’t felt this way in months, but right now it’s the fucking worst
cause everything is moving all too fast
feel like i’m stuck in the past and i’m always coming last
baby, i swear i just feel like trash
cause i’m only getting older; i can’t get up off my ass
i tried to ghost my friends but i don’t think they fucking cared
i tried a call for help all i ever got was stares
the bruises might fade, my scars, they remain
they remind of a truth: all i’ll ever feel is pain

[chorus]

i’m sick of being all alone, sick of being on my own
tired of waiting on a text, when ain’t nobody hit my phone
yeah, they tell me that they love me, then they show me that they don’t
feel like i got no fucking friends, might make a friend out of a rope

x2

written by Lightning Logan
prod. Discent

samples from Dracula x Haunting of Hill House

Vampire Ghost Club 2022

BEWARE THE MAN-THING

Friends With a Rope

friends with a rope [prod. discent]

w/ the legend @LILZUBIN

guitar/prod/mix @youngburial

lyrics soon

a million pieces w/ zubin

lyrics:

i learned my lesson night i passed out in the bushes 
in front of ‘on the rocks’ was off my rocker, no shit 
i don’t wanna be in VIP, it’s awkward 
ima stay at home, hit demon rips, its absurd 

they think i’ll go out bad but i won’t fold like that 
they relaxin watching tv while i make this shit 
while i lose my mind i seem like i’m okay 
stressin while im pushing all this pain down 


wait im not really like that 
too scared, backpedal, always getting sidetracked 
(it’s a long way home)
always so lost in my thoughts
if you wanna get me talking gotta get me on the rocks
think we fucked but i forgot
know i took too many shots 
didn’t know that i was capable of being want you want ‘till your sick of it 
it was good to feel on top for a little bit

long way home w/ xlhc

prod @jakkyboi
guitar @rjpasin  
mix/master @youngburial

URDEAD2ME w/ jakkyboi

top speed in my nissan sentra w/ nico north (prod. sapjer)

lyrics:
i spent 20 days away and i cant promise that i've changed
i'm still staring into space like all day
i'm still working without gain 
i'll take another to the face
and i'll find anyone to blame except me
finding cracks in what i've built
and i can't shake all of the guilt
tell myself that i deserve it always
and like a flower watch me wilt
and like some ice you'll watch me melt
sit in the corner while i'm sulking in shame

i spent 20 days reflecting 
i'm relying on these vices
i've been paranoid and stressing lately
i made my money by my venting
and i burned through it real messy 
lost the plot and now i'm aging quickly
finding cracks in what i built
and i've been trying not to tilt
i'll find solace in a bender this week
maybe if i disappear all of my errors will seem clear
and i can finally rest my head peacefully

cracks in the pavement

produced by @prod-dash 🖤
mv: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EEgzoEH60Cg

harmonies construct of her in vain,
when i had felt the same, i wonder what you let slip loose
idolized in holistic refrain from scaring you away,
but it was you who had left so soon
redundancy falls on the floors of insult,
diffusion of awe is now subtle appall
when the fracturing stops, he returns to his lot
and continues to watch the forgotten responses

how long has it really been?
on everything i could've been your confidence;
wounded deep, but regardless you were gorgeous
external forces couldn't conquer this fortress,
girl i was all in,
now i'm more of like a martian,
a foreign entity ignored and made of sport in pure extortion
the score depends on those who force it,
but on my life i'll never pry into this systematic fortune

easy aches at your name
november stays, but it's may

he's licking tears and steeling bones
from baring sights of burning homes
and of the counterparts still present, most have nearly decomposed
the oxygen persists, but the fluids marching in
wreak havoc on the aspens, now his blood is wearing thin
the centuries forgot receive his aching and distraught,
converting portions of distortion into frequencies bewrought
the ice goes in by division of his temperance
sickly to this weather, but she ain't even my medicine

it's two-forty-two as the film rolls into view
i beg your pardon, i'm enshrouded by the memories construed
just anyone won't do,
the comfort causes calluses he's unable to move
they stare at him in twos

the burial becomes attraction, and of the visitors, it's nothing but distraction
come one and all, before root is sawed, the chainsaw, it stops,
he of wooden rot, with that pandora's box, reverse the plot
the acid sat within his stomach summits to his top
begone of influence it's over 'fore it had begun
i'll never feel that same alikeness, they just read me wrong,
just to do me wrong

bare trees conceive cold leaves,
you showed me what we couldn't be
washing over me, frostridden stings
that sole breeze had spoke "don't leave"

easy aches at your name
november stays, but it's may

the paneling glows a familiar sequence,
but it's passage won't open to those who would seek it
through timing and tamper he had managed to enter
unaware of it's contents, he treads a bit deeper
in awe of the contrast from seeker to aether
he's welcomed to stay, but he's covered in shivers
for those it abducts are reduced down to neither
so backwards he goes, where his soul doesn't meet her's

come the night i'm allotted what's divine
i got bugs up in my head,
they always scratching, leaving bites
ain't no energy to waste on those unkind
only time you talkin shit is when you're doing it online

november (dash)

order: 

hate w/lil peep
bones - dracula
lil peep - teen romance
lil bo weep - not ok but its ok / prod .ELHIXIR
it's just a few (ft. bones)
lil tracy x mackned - sleeping w the devil (prod. bryxt)
waste of time ft. lil peep (p. despair)
Pictures 2 Feat. Lil Peep & Lil Tracy (Prod.By BigheadOnTheBeat & Fish Narc)
bones - 3M (prod. by Drip-133)
Eric North & Lil Bo Weep - Inertia (prod. Quinn)
no love with lil peep

a million pieces w/ zubin

fats'e

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