haunting from the inside

When I lay in my bed
All the things I hate 
Come into my head 
Again and again

I think about myself
I think I go to hell
Nobody can help
Until the end

I’m pretty sad but I making money
I’m dead inside my room and no one see
Nothing can fix me, u dont wanna be me
stuck in my room, I need someone to save me

Interlude (Prod. Slendy)

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//私の時間は終わった//

lyrics

doormat

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ＴＨＡＴ　Ｉ　ＬＯＳＴ　ＭＹＳＥＬＦ

//私がいなくなったら後悔するよ//

i wanted to release a lil' something for you guys as a thank you for everything you've done for me. a year ago, i was just a kid in my bedroom trying to figure out himself. fucking around with beats all day, smoking weed all night. i was depressed. hell, i'm still depressed & sometimes it feels like i don't know myself anymore, but this music has been the only thing that has made complete sense to me since the start & to know i'm helping you guys all whilst you help me is beyond beautiful. i'm so lucky to be where i'm at today. to be alive with all of you in my life. don't ever tell yourself that you won't amount to anything cause you're worth much more than you'll tell yourself & i promise once you find something you're truly passionate about and you dive deep into it, you'll feel a sense of purpose. there you'll find happiness. don't ever give up on yourself. i won't give up on you.

i love you

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trafalgar (prod. by hateful)

prod. by @partysmartie

lyrics
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lie to me 
i think i finally 
struck a chord violently
ripped it right out the seams
hide and seek
they found another body by the creek 
the killers out on a spree
i'm afraid of everything i see

there's a ghost inside my bedroom 
at least i'm not alone but i can just pretend to
be awake with everything that i attend to
or sleep the day away & probably offend you 
i don't wanna waste another minute 
i can see the voices in your head don't wanna listen
the light reflects the glass you turn to dust & start to glisten 
kissin' you inside your bed is something i've been fuckin' missing
 
at night I turn my fears into my art 
crept inside my chest & ripped my beating heart apart 
i'll be wheezing coughing up their blood my demons will depart
imma add em up & drag em to the basement where i start
fix myself with bandages and roaches from last week
i've been searching for a purpose in some sugar coated sweets 
take a swisher & i crack it in the middle of the street
i could spark another thirty i'm not leavin' till i peak

lie to me 
i think i finally 
struck a chord violently
ripped it right out the seams
hide and seek
they found another body by the creek 
the killers out on a spree
i'm afraid of everything i see

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by the creek (prod. by partysmartie)

miss u haven't met u tho

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//私は十分に話していない//

lyrics
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when she goes i kiss her on the nose
tell her i love her so
turn around and walk alone
when she goes i smoke till i implode
coughing till i'm a ghost
i'm swimming to the coast 
where am i going
full of disgrace and self loathing
i cannot sleep without you in my sheets
so i stay up all night just hoping
that you come back but there's nothing
i guess i'm wishing for something
lost in a love with a girl whose a dove
and a crow of a boy that's been bluffing

i am just nothing
i am just nothing

when she goes i pick another rose
rip petals till i don't
that's just the way it goes 
when she cries i write another note
put it inside her coat
start clearin' out my throat

i never talk enough baby
trip over words like i'm crazy

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when she goes (prod. by taurusmoon)

room to breathe

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ＤＥＳＴＲＯＹ　ＥＡＣＨ　ＯＴＨＥＲ？

//私たちは病気です//

tysm to @jvbeats666 for creating this beauty with me
go show him some luv 

lyrics
--------
whiskey pour another cup
nothing like the feeling of getting so fucked up
off the last lost breath of a lover that you once
had but she ran with a man much better than yourself
i think i need help
i think i can touch the sky & grip orion's belt
taking off my vans full of sand and some shells
heaven ain't the place for me but i can hear the bells

they say that an angel is self defined 
so when i describe
the girl that lost her mind
the sky will probably cry
but the rain won't mind
if you cry too
feel alive when the sky makes the clouds move
raindrops fall but i fall harder 
light reflects off the water in the harbor
i don't care to compare what i'm told
to what i believe cause i'm still all alone


i've been tryna get back home
but i don't know which road
to take before i can awake from this nightmare
i'm cold
all alone
got the wind straight blowin' in my face i can feel it in my bones
if i smoke
will the clouds lift my body from this place cause i don't feel at home

what's a home without a lover
what's a road without another
how did we destroy each other
how did we destroy each other

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all alone (prod. jay vee)

prod. @4evrgone

I don't know who i am
i don't trust who you are
lately all i can do is pray to the stars
that this bleak observation of everything i see
might one day turnaround 
i need to get some fucking help

im fucking sick of myself 
fucking sick of how my brain has a mind for itself
consider this an open letter you wont read for yourself
yeah of course im talking bout whos typing these words all down

looking more and more like deadman in this wonderland town
looking more and more like deadman in this wonderland town

leave me in the past like your bad dreams
dont care if your home in the morning
im betting its best to ignore me
its worthless for us to keep pushing
leave me in the past like your bad dreams
dont care if your home in the morning
im betting its best to ignore me
its worthless for us to keep pushing
im fucking sick of myself 

im fucking sick of myself
fucking sick of how my brain has a mind for itself
consider this an open letter you wont read for yourself
yeah of course im talking bout whos typing these words all down

leave me in the past like your bad dreams
dont care if your home in the morning
im betting its best to ignore me
its worthless for us to keep pushing
leave me in the past like your bad dreams
dont care if your home in the morning
im betting its best to ignore me
its worthless for us to keep pushing

sick of myself (prod. 4evr)

lyrics: 
we could go to sleep
put it all to rest
laying your head down onto my chest
this where it ends
its hard to pretend
that everything will just be fine in the morning
3 more weeks
2 more days
1 more chance to make me stay here
ive been up and down that avenue
youll never see my point of view

left my tears on the nightstand
eyes wide open
sirens in the distance
digital world left me
feeling fuckin distant
i came back feeling like im nonexistent

feel like my mind is changing
fading away from the high i was chasing
looking at the problems im evading
think ill die inside this room instead of forever decaying

we could go to sleep
put it all to rest
laying your head down onto my chest
this where it ends
its hard to pretend
that everything will just be fine in the morning
3 more weeks
2 more days
1 more chance to make me stay here
ive been up and down that avenue
youll never see my point of view

why is it so hard to kick these habits
why am i melodramatic
better off left in the past tense
ill make like a ghoul and vanish x2

we could go to sleep
put it all to rest
laying your head down onto my chest
this where it ends
its hard to pretend
that everything will just be fine in the morning
3 more weeks
2 more days
1 more chance to make me stay here
ive been up and down that avenue
youll never see my point of view

colling ave [prod 4evr + tax purposes]

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ＧＯＯＤ　ＦＯＲ　ＭＥ

//あなたのために欲望//

lyrics
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lust always a problem
you could never solve it
i can never get the fuck away from what i think 
if she tryna come though
i could make her cum so
baby is it him you really want or is it me? 
this ain't ever work nah
this'll never work out
don't you know that you are way too fucking good for me?
if she ever calls back
i hope that she knows that
i could never see all of the good she sees in me (x2)
you're too fuckin' good for me (x3)

let's kiss up on eachother 
biting on your neck while you're thinking about another
love is lost in lust and girl you know we crave eachother
when the time we have is gone the memories will cluster 

lust always a problem
you could never solve it
i can never get the fuck away from what i think 
if she tryna come though
i could make her cum so
baby is it him you really want or is it me? 
this ain't ever work nah
this'll never work out
don't you know that you are way too fucking good for me?
if she ever calls back
i hope that she knows that
i could never see all of the good she sees in me (x2)
you're too fuckin' good for me (x3)

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lust (prod. tothegood)

could have been

missed your text now im stuck in the middle
cant remember the last time tht i didnt feel this
hole inside my heart and soul
i never thought that life would turn me this cold

nicotine help me tolerate another day
thc makes my sanity just slip away
3 more shots til im back into my happy place
drank too much now im crying in the back again

self doubt again
cant get the fuck out my head
this might be the end
i think this might be the end

i cant trust this bitch i know she digging for gold
i dont know if i could ever trust a soul
got my hand on the blade if u want smoke we could go
i been screaming at the sky cus i been searching for some hope tonight

missed your text now im stuck in the middle
cant remember the last time tht i didnt feel this
hole inside my heart and soul
i never thought that life would turn me this cold

nicotine help me tolerate another day
thc makes my sanity just slip away
3 more shots til im back into my happy place
drank too much now im crying in the back again

go fuck yourself i
dont care what you say
hope this storm will pass
drowning in my pain

nicotine [prod. 93feetofsmoke]

lyrics
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is she fine without him
does she cry at the castle
is he gone is he here
he's a cunt he's an asshole
is she fine without him
is her mind in a black hole
does this night ever end
are we locked in a capsule

sorry that we're doomed
i guess this is truce
crying at the crib on a friday afternoon
this is how i live spent the day up in my room
made a couple bucks imma dip & get some food
and maybe get some shoes
the max's lookin' smooth
the loud pack smacks & my snacks all chewed
teeth all dead cause my sugar hit the root
if she don't text back she gon have to get the boot
and imma get my move on i ain't even trip
fucked up on a sunday mondays lookin lit
got twenty eight grams and a bottle of some shit
sip henny with the boys at the hotel on the 6th
i've got plans baby do not intervene
yeah i wanted this forever but you decided to leave
so i'll rewrite the script got sagas to complete
try to hit me with i miss you like what the fuck you mean

from the way that she moves you can tell she's a cyclone
and she's back once again it's a hell of a cycle
with that look in her eyes you must tell yourself i know
this is only a test and you must remain vital

is she fine without him
does she cry at the castle
is he gone is he here
she's a cunt she's an asshole

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i wonder (prod. 93feetofsmoke)

lyrics
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why try if it ain't worth it
why lie if you can't do it
why cry with your back to it
i'm fine just a tad stupid
(x2)

record a bunch of nonsense when i'm feelin' nauseous 
gotta play it cautious if she tryna hang
mirror mirror on this wall inside my heart
does falling out of love make a human go insane
i've tried three times, back it up & rewind
look into your green eyes, tell me if i change
baby you a goddess, you so fuckin' flawless
imma fuck him up if he speaks your name in vain

why try if it ain't worth it
why lie if you can't do it
why cry with your back to it
i'm fine just a tad stupid
(x3)

redemption of a lost mess speedin' up the process
by the time that august comes you'll know my name
g-u-a-r guardin yeah i beg your pardon
right to all involvement writing through the day
got my castle in the yard it's kinda fuckin' hard
to stand like i'm on guard when the clouds are seeing rain
so my bedrooms more appealing, suffer through the feeling
cause i know you're leaving gotta act like i'm okay 
 
why try if it ain't worth it
why lie if you can't do it
why cry with your back to it
i'm fine just a tad stupid
(x2)

stupid

oh those eyes remind me that it all ends bad
hold her hand with the IV sticking out I cant
sit and say goodbye please baby don’t leave
it should have been me
it should have been me

I never felt as powerless as i did in the hospital room
every second and hour spent saying how much i love you
and I’m so sorry that I fucking lied
said I’ll protect you but I couldn’t this time
it doesn’t matter how hard I tried
how the hell do I say goodbye
i wanna be the way we were
but it just keeps getting worse
keep screaming at the nurse I’m sorry
watch them take away your body

oh those eyes remind me that it all ends bad
hold her hand with the IV sticking out I cant
sit and say goodbye please baby don’t leave
it should have been me
it should have been me
scream until you comeback
I need you please don’t go yet
give me one more day
why would they take you away from me
I’m staring at the sky 
and wonder if you’re behind with
a thousand eyes on you
sitting inside the blue it still doesn’t feel real yet
kneeling next to your bed and seeing you so damn cold
just tell me its all a fucking lie

oh those eyes remind me that it all ends bad
hold her hand with the IV sticking out I cant
sit and say goodbye please baby don’t leave
it should have been me
it should have been me

room to breathe

fats'e

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