music video: https://youtu.be/LqZtcb_yW8Q

something invisible pulls me towards you
i can't explain it, words might not do
is it a vehicle that i can use?
we're separated, i'll use it to reach you

universe, send these words out to her

reaching out to you, do you hear my words?
reaching out to you, do you hear my song?

how do i get to you? a sign you can feel
would you be listening? would you think that it's real?
how will i know you got the memo?
tell me you'll hear, if you're the one i know you will

universe, send these words, out to her

reaching out to you, do you hear my words?
reaching out to you, do you hear my song?
reaching out to you, do you hear my words?
reaching out to you, do you hear my song?

universe, how it hurts at my worst

i find things at strange times
always what i need in my life
when i don't try and find it
it always somehow happens
i'm often in that space
between the lost and found and
my last thought before is:
could this be everlasting?

reaching out to you, do you hear my words?
reaching out to you, do you hear my song?
reaching out to you, do you hear my words?
reaching out to you, do you hear my song?

REACHING OUT TO YOU

music video: https://youtu.be/zTnB9q2M-iY

i thought i saw your eyes gloss up when i abruptly left your room
couldn't tell you why i thought i had to leave so soon
i'm not really sure if i am good at reading cues
i kinda feel like something unusual is happening between us two

at least one of us is broken
not sure if it's me or you
but if it might be both of us
does that the mean the love is true?

from all the things you've told me
there's a lot that you've been through
and i can only watch you speak
as i don't know what to do

i don't even know if what you need is a lover or a friend or who
i don't even feel differently, i am happy just to listen to you

at least one of us is broken
not sure if it's me or you
but if it might be both of us
does that the mean the love is true?

when i hear you tell your secrets
i feel your pain like it's my own
why am i so scared to tell you
without you i'd feel alone?

ONE OF US OR BOTH

music video: https://youtu.be/zOgwWFQvQeM

she's been moving fast ever since she heard she can have the world
it never occurred that i maybe have thoughts she's never heard
i see so much of myself in her
but i can't keep up anymore, i've turned

into a slow talker, i lost her
i can't keep up with all her
impatience, can't reflect
distraction is her reflex
slow talker, i lost her
she moves so fast, can't spot her
can't focus, on details
that's why this all got derailed

independent woman, or a party girl, living in her world 
after years go by, and she's short on time, will she wonder why
she still feels alone, alone
she still feels alone, alone

i can't be someone i'm not
just to please you and then be forgot
i can't be someone i'm not
but at least i know what i want

i'm a slow talker, i've lost her
i can't keep up with all her
impatience, can't reflect
distraction is her reflex
slow talker, i've lost her
she moves so fast, can't spot her
the meaning has been missed
one day she'll know why i wrote this song

SLOW TALKER

music video: https://youtu.be/mbb_-_7GPC8

we just met and you hate me and i don't know what for
off to such a bad start somewhere i haven't been before

well i feel like i walk a tightrope, but i won't fall
and i know that i am a good one, so i don't go low

i won't tell you how to treat me, you should already know

'cause it's basic manners and good nature, don't judge people you don't know
and i feel like i walk a tightrope, but i won't fall

one misstep can trigger the fall, try again and you might not be wrong
one misstep can trigger the fall, try again and you might not be wrong
in your wildest dreams, 'cause you don't know me at all

you don't know me at all...

TIGHTROPE WALKER

found this while cleaning my google drive and thought it was too interesting not to publish

HEART BEHIND A WINDOW (august 2022 instrumental)

i'm watching for a fire escape
too early to run, too scared to stay
i'm wanting more than smoke in my face
i inhale the dust and take the blame

impossible that i am safe
i don't see a way to leave this place
it fills the air at a steady rate
the burn in my lungs foretells my fate

i feel cornered in this room
and i don't know where to move
soon enough i'll have to choose
and i have a lot to lose

i'm looking for the fire escape
nowhere to run, too scared to stay
inhale the dust and take the blame
burning my lungs, foretells my fate

it's obvious i've made a mistake
but i can't help to stay here and wait
it's obvious i've made a mistake
but i can't help to stay here and wait

i'm looking for the fire escape
i inhale the dust and take the blame

fire escape

melting ice on a cold winter night
drops of rain on a bone-dry hillside
couldn't come at a better time
believe me, i'm seeing the signs

it'd be hard to say i need you this early on
but i know i'd be sad if you were gone
and i think that it's true you feel the same way
but i'm holding back, the pain is too great

since we met, there's a different sound
in all of the rooms where you're not around

all the pretty faces have lost their appeal
and i'm not convinced that my feelings aren't real
everyone around here can't compare to you
oh it's such a damn shame i'm so far from you

since we met

i see your faces, dear friends and strangers, with a tinge of melancholy
i know your pain, your buried secrets, the sins you never shared out loud
when you forget, i'll be the first to go, the most quiet voice in your milieu
when you remember, you will exclaim "my god how could i have strayed from you"

follow me where the water is black, where the circle comes back, and you will see
i carry the weight of the world, you don't need to worry, just believe in me

do you fall apart when no one sees? i'll be the only remedy
have you lost your way in stormy seas? look up, find your faith in me
because god sent me to save all humanity

follow me where the water is black, where the circle comes back, and you will see
i carry the weight of the world, you don't need to worry, just believe in me

and they will hate me without a cause, without a cause
and they will hate me without a cause, without a cause
and they will hate me without a cause, i'll bear the cross

jerusalem syndrome

you almost convinced me to live a little easier
to do what's comforting, indulge in all life's pleasures
don't stick to just one thing, or person, or place
don't stick to just one thing, or person, or place

i followed your advice, felt happier than ever
saw you for a short time, then never again
what did i sacrifice? a loss i don't remember
you say love multiplies...

well in a world without whatever i am working for
count me out, i think i've heard all this before
and now i'm feeling pretty sure that ain't what love means

you had me questioning my own unspoken answers
and now i'm wondering if i'm not open minded
deconstruct society, the one that made you
deconstruct society...

well in a world without whatever i am working for
count me out, i think i've heard all this before
and now i'm feeling pretty sure that ain't what love means

life is simply just for fun, work is just the price we pay
you say, you say, you say, you say
life is simply just for fun, work is just the price we pay
you say, you say, you say, you say
you almost convinced me...
you say, you say, you say, you say
you almost convinced me...
you say, you say, you say, you say

you almost convinced me

someone took out the front of my brain
and now i'm content with the color grey
i can't even feel the deep pain i used to

i guess this is called improvement
if i can make myself laugh in rain
to be healed is not something that i'm used to

call it a comfortable blur where it could be worse
to wake up in the morning and go to bed early
i know what's coming my way every day
it's a comfortable blur where it could be worse

how am i in this headspace?
is this feeling deserved or is it fake?
at least i worked hard to get here and find you

call it a comfortable blur where it could be worse
we wake up in the morning and go to bed early
i know what's coming my way every day
it's a comfortable blur where it could be worse

wake up in the morning and go to bed early
day and night i love you, day and night i love you
wake up in the morning and go to bed early
day and night i love you, day and night i love you
it's a comfortable blur, nothing really hurts
day and night i love you, day and night i love you
it's a comfortable blur, where it could be worse
day and night i love you, day and night i love you

YOVOZOL

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