track 3/5 - ep "im scared this is all i will ever be" 8/30
on spotify <3
https://open.spotify.com/track/1FYv9W4p1rFp8IWBjXiX5o?si=0a9be05cb2444726
im just nerfed by a 60$ mic
p. @youngcobain1111
written by 1jayne and @batspongey at 5am

ahh da da
ahh da da-

and im like ahh da da ur stuck in my head 
and im like ahhhhh i still think about you all the time
like ahhh i just want you to be mine
like ahhh i just want you to be fine

like i might fuck it up but 
ill still give it a try and 
and ive been up for four days cause
i think i made you cry
and you don't pick up my calls
 i just wanna facetime
and when i look at your face
you really make me smile-

 like ahh da da ur stuck in my head 
and im just so scared you're in someone else bed
its like "i'll treat you better than him" thats what you said
and i just really miss us but you leave all my text on read 

like, i gotta figure myself out 
and im tryna be what you need
inside my walls i have doubt
im really not what i seem
to me you look like a dream
you're just part of his scheme
and when our emotions collide they really get extreme 

like ahhh your eyes they make me hesitate
like ahhh when i talk to you we resonate
i dont know why you think you’re in a better place
i‘ve been waiting for him to make a huge mistake
and when i think of him it makes me really sick
yeah what do you see in him, he’s such a dick
and I just really hate the way that you kiss him
he’s covered in heart shaped kisses made with your lipstick

yeah i wish it was me yeah i wish it was me 
ahhh
i really wish it was me 
ahhhh
i really wish it was me 
ahhhhh
wish it was me

and when i think of him it makes me really sick
and when i think of him it makes me really sick
ahhh your eyes they make me hesitate
ahhh and your voice it makes me levitate
And i wrote love letters inside of my fuckin note book
i even tore the pages out and i still overlook, 
all the things that you said and what we could’ve been
so now i’ll take all of my notes and throw them in the bin

when i think of him it makes me really sick
when i think of him it makes me really sick 

i love yall <3

when i think of him it makes me sick (p. young cobain)

self - produced

Lyrics:
I left on my own and paid the price
The price
It's crazy you dragged me to depths
When I was fine
I was fine

I come to think about it constantly
But won't look it in the face
Cause the thought of it just haunted me
But I'd do it anyway
Own devices led to vices
How do I explain
You're dividing 
I'm done fighting cause it's everyday
So don't ask me how I'm doing
When it's your fault I'm ruined
Stuck in the mirror all my life
So don't make this all about you
You're on 8
I'm on cloud 2
Thank God I got out of there alive
So good luck with that
Cause I'm never coming back

I found you on last October
I doubt you would turn it over
Went off on my own
Deafened by your broken tone
As the tape is closing
And the taste grows dim
Cause you're off one
And your faith is going
And you hate knowing 
That you fucked up
And that's not new
That's my setting
Don't want to fail
To feel

I come to think about it constantly
But won't look it in the face
Cause the thought of it just haunted me
But I'd do it anyway
Own devices led to vices
How the fuck do I explain that
That you're dividing 
I'm done fighting cause it's everyday
So don't ask me how I'm doing
When it's your fault I'm ruined
Stuck in the mirror all my life
So don't make this all about you
You're on 8
I'm on cloud 2
Thank God I got out of there alive
So good luck with that
Cause I'm never coming back

cloud 2

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Surveillance Ft visions (prod. rans0m)

track 3/3 :)
produced by mix
enjoy <3

lyrics:

ohh i'm sorry, ohh I'm sorry

i cant look at you right now
i might fuck up your life too
i cant look at you right now
i might fuck up your life too
my mind is cycling through emotions
would it be better just to lay in bed?

and ohhh im ruinin everything around me 
ohh will you stay with me?
these mistakes, will push you away 
ohh im sorry

im sorry, im sorry i dropped you im sorry
i dont deserve you and im sorry, im sorry im sorry im sorry
man i doubt me, im doubting myself every single day
making mistakes so i push you away, push you away p-push you away
but im trying, im trying to fix but it just wont stay
trust me i fuckin hate being this way, being this way b-being this way

to everyone im sorry, i dont want you to think about me 
anymore, anymore, anymore
to everyone im trying i dont you have to see me leave 
again, might just leave again, this time forever

im sorry do you want me dead?
im sorry i have to go now
ohh im sorry, ohh im sorry


no one needs me anymore, why?
why? no why? no

the things that i say are not for a fight
i hope you know that i really tried
i always feel like im repeating myself
in what i say and inside this hell
mood swings are controlling my life
not an excuse i just need advice
and i really hope that ill be okay
out with the old and im starting today

im starting today, im starting today
im starting today, im starting today
im starting today, im starting today
im starting today, im starting today

of course i know i can change
know i can change,man i know i can change
im stuck inside this cage, man i stuck inside 
deep down im just afraid, man i am just afraid
yea i will take the blame man, i will take the blame
i did this to myself, so i will take the blame
its time for me to change, man its time for me to change
its time for me to change, or i will stay the same

so now ill think about it less
cause its stuck up in my head
all the things that have been said
all the times i should been dead

i don't wanna stay the same
should i wanna stay the same?
oh such a shame
won't go back from where i came


 ohh im sorry, ohh im sorry

thank you <3

i'm sorry

track 4 off "betting with blood "
this song means a lot to me
built from scratch by me

closure inches closer

prod. @7sabrr7

featuring @my-journal-197226436

lyrics:
I don't wanna fade away
I don't wanna fade away
Baby I'ma live forever only thru a 808
Pour one for the homies baby I just poured a 8 away
I'm on the surround sound bitch I feel like baby tate
leakin thru the sleeves I been cutting with a baby blade
Bitch I'm really T'd had to unblock all the plugs
I'm just savin some for me that's why I got all these slugs
I been servin all the feins now they scratchin for the bugs

I'ma take her to pound town call me kevin gates
Tryna see the world one time before I pass away
Sent me straight to hell but I'm knockin on heaven's gates
No I'm not doin well see the money I could make
I'ma die on my own
Where was I 
I don't know
When's the time
It'll show
You're mine that's for sure

I'ma die up in some hermes
Got this bad lil bitch lookin' for her mans
I'ma crash this whip up where the curb ends
I'm finna fall out boy no uma thurman
I spent a band at the mall
Wait
I spent a band at the first store in the mall
I'm up with sabrr and selkouni you know we finna ball
Recording sippin thru the night so now this drink getting tall

Lil bro was sippin drink and poppin pills
We do it all yeah we have a ball
Her ex communicated
Always differenciated
I'll kill em all yeah
I'll never fall
Know I'm right outside my prime
But I don't wanna go and end my life
I think I might try this time
Watch me fade away into the night

I don't wanna fade away
I don't wanna fade away
Baby I'ma live forever only thru a 808
Pour one for the homies baby I just poured a 8 away
I'm on the surround sound bitch I feel like baby tate
leakin thru the sleeves I been cutting with a baby blade
Bitch I'm really T'd had to unblock all the plugs
I'm just savin some for me that's why I got all these slugs
I been servin all the feins now they scratchin for the bugs

RACKS @ THE MALL w/ selkouni

Lyrics:
2x
I might be delusional
but you make this feel different
looking in your eye I could tell you're not that innocent
Pray to my god i swear life is so magnificent
yeah you caught my eye
I swear I was moving diligent

let me see your place
let me kiss your face
you can have your ways
please dont ever change
where the fuck the time go
you can have my time though
dont know where your mind at
you can have my heart though
imma treat your special
imma hold you gently
I just wanna be your everything
yes I mean it on god
I might text you goodnight
if you need me I'm here
and ill always be here

2x
I might be delusional
but you make this feel different
looking in your eye I could tell you're not that innocent
Pray to my god i swear life is so magnificent
yeah you caught my eye
I swear I was moving diligent

Delusional (prod. Clvr)

prod closet

featuring @omgemags

lyrics:

oh my god
oh my god
oh my god
oh my god
oh my god
red bottom shoes for my bitch on the green like it’s christmas
Said it’s impossible I got that bitch on my phone so I guess now I’m goin on a mission
Yeah
She let me hit I know she got a man but I bet she still think back and miss it
Yeah
She like the blues on my bills so now they on my shoes and I’m walkin around like I’m crippin 
Huh
Yea wassup
I want that bitch cus she thick in the butt
She wanna come over put dick in her guts
Stole all the codeine my stick in the mud
I’m wild n’ out with my Cannon i gotta Carey
Seen ur lil bitch put bread in my commissary
I’m gon run lil bro down like it’s tom and jerry
Had to sample Mariah cus all that I wanted was u
Wanted her legs open while I’m drivin in back of the coupe
Wanna get bread goin while I’m back at home givin her goo
Wanted some head while I’m goin parkin and driving to school

@omgemags
Fuck polo
Rock hermes 
Oh that’s some wockhardt?
Not a taste
Rollin a 3.5 to the face
I’m leaving no prints
Not a trace
Like bitch just hop in the Rex
I don’t wanna talk yea u know the rest
Bad bitch on me ballin ima stretch
Walk in and sit court side with the best

I’m sitting courtside
She gon text me XO like it’s tour life
We gon pop the champagne singin more life
Lil bro fell off can’t come back no fortnite
I can’t fit all the racks in my skinnies
Benz truck it’s a diesel no Vinny 
When she pop it her outie a innie 
She gon shake it on the pole
Jump for me Geronimo 
Bring your friends girl call the hoes
Hope them boys want all the smoke
What you want
She want some diamonds to walk out and flaunt
I want her naked on me with a blunt
I want her wrapped around me like king tur
I want a Christian bitch talk like a slut
I want a waitress to serve me some cunt
Then kick to the curb like a goalie i punt
Bitch leave me alone while I sip on my mud
I don’t wanna talk
Don’t text don’t call 
I don’t want u lil bitch I just want wok
That’s all I want for Christmas just a pint
She just want cock
That bitch don’t want to listen swear to god
She just won’t stop
Uh
She just won’t stop

Merry Christmas and shit shoutout young mariah

all i want w/ emags

Lyrics:

($UEL whistling)

At this point I really can't look back
Really tryna find out where the love at
Some of these days got me so sad, but I ain't gon' cry 'bout it ('bout it)
No I ain't gon' cry 'bout it ('bout it)
Really tryna keep my pride, ain't gon' die without it
I ain't tryna prove right all the haters doubtin'
So I ain't gonna cry about it
Oh, woah(No I, no I)
So I ain't gonna cry about it 
Oh, oh (No I, no I)
So I ain't gonna cry about it 
Oh, oh(No I, no I)
So I ain't gonna cry about it
Oh (No, no I)
So I ain't gonna cry about it


You know I don't hang with no bums
So why do you act like I'm dumb?
You're always just sitting alone and talking to girls on your phone
Like what do you even want from me?
I'm just tryna find love I don't wanna bleed
So just leave me alone and please get off my phone
Like what do you look at me for?
I've been cashing out with a hunnid or more times I've fallen down or I've crashed on the floor
I can't do it anymore! 
I don't know what I can do
I don't know if I can go 
I don't know if I can go (idk)

At this point I really can't look back
Really tryna find out where the love at
Some of these days got me so sad, but I ain't gon' cry 'bout it ('bout it)
No I ain't gon' cry 'bout it ('bout it)
Really tryna keep my pride, ain't gon' die without it
I ain't tryna prove right all the haters doubtin'
So I ain't gonna cry about it
Oh, woah(No I, no I)
So I ain't gonna cry about it 
Oh, oh (No I, no I)
So I ain't gonna cry about it 
Oh, oh(No I, no I)
So I ain't gonna cry about it
Oh (No, no I)
So I ain't gonna cry about it

What you hating on?
My heart's telling me that I'm wrong
My arm's looking for you so long
Will you trap for me? Oh, oh
Pull up when you're not home
Want you to pull up into my life
And I know you won't notice, but my vision's messin' up my focus
I don't get it baby
One point won't you listen baby?
My heart is amputated, when you talk to your friends I hate it
But I don't get it baby 
One point won't you listen baby?
My heart is amputated, when you talk to your friends I hate it
I won't cry about...

At this point I really can't look back
Really tryna find out where the love at
Some of these days got me so sad, but I ain't gon' cry 'bout it ('bout it)
No I ain't gon' cry 'bout it ('bout it)
Really tryna keep my pride, ain't gon' die without it
I ain't tryna prove right all the haters doubtin'
So I ain't gonna cry about it
Oh, woah(No I, no I)
So I ain't gonna cry about it 
Oh, oh (No I, no I)
So I ain't gonna cry about it 
Oh, oh(No I, no I)
So I ain't gonna cry about it
Oh (No, no I)
So I ain't gonna cry about it

cry about it (ft. scruff)

cry about it (ft. scruff) [p. sai]

produced by mix 
this one means a lot to me
https://open.spotify.com/track/0jR8O452oApzcsn1ehsj5v?si=efd9e5f072894773
https://music.apple.com/us/album/stones-single/1740737359
hope you enjoy :>

lyrics:
I always tried my best, but you still left
you say I just need rest, but I'm a mess
and I hate the words you say, it hurts my chest
I'll let you beat me to death
and I know I try to fake, but idk what's next
is this really the end?

tell me why did it end this way?
cause you promised, you promised me you'd stay
I'm lost for words, is there something I can say?
no idk if I'll ever see the day where I will be okay

spent all my time caring for you
and I said sorry when you were wrong too
I wanted love, you wanted it too
always to you, always for you
spent all my time talking to you
did you even see how much I loved you?
even still now, I'll care for you
it's always to you, always for you

ohhhhhhhh
ohh ohh ohh ohh
ahhhhhhhh

tell me why did it end this way?
cause you promised, you promised me you'd stay
I'm lost for words, is there something I can say?
no idk if I'll ever see the day where I will be okay

(no I don't know)
(no I don't know)
(no I don't know)
(no I don't know)
x2

NOW THE SCARS WILL NEVER FADE
I CAN'T WISH FOR BRIGHTER DAYS
END ME PLEASE, I'M NOTHING WITHOUT HER
WILL YOU HEAR IF I SHOUT LOUDER?
KILL ME PLEASE MY HEARTS BEEN SHATTERED
INTO PIECES IT'S ALL BEEN SCATTERED
TO YOU DID I EVER FUCKING MATTER?

BREAKING ALL MY BONES
SHE RIPS INTO MY SKULL
TO WHOM I LOVED SO DEAR
I WISH YOU WERE HERE
HER TEETH START AT MY JAW
NOW ALL HOPE'S BEEN LOST

I trusted you I loved you
I trusted you I loved you
but you hurt me too
you hurt me too

I trusted you I loved you
but now I gotta go without you
cause I wasn't enough for you

thank you <3

Delusional (prod. Clvr)

Yung Blasian

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