Remastered as fuck.
FT. 
@fuckamatayan (@kamatayaan on instagram)
@cloroxcide (@cloroxcide on instagram)
@aczf (@tothepower on instagram)
@astrmani (@astrmani on instagram)

SECOND NIGHT (W/ KAMATAYAN, CLOROXCIDE, ACZF & ASTRMANI) [PROD. RIKK]

Trauma Sells in the Trauma Cell.
[NOT GLORIFYING MURDER]
feat. @ACZF 
prod. @bagheadt18

lyrics:
Who knocking at my door nigga?
Talkin bout we friends? Hell na
I don't know niggas
I don't know niggas
I don't know niggas
I don't know niggas
I don't know niggas

Nigga
Be as gifted as you want they don't acknowledge black presence
A Nigga in the office won't shorten my sentence
Accolades I want involve murder just to get it
No officer this a self made band
Walk inside the bank, security checkin me for straps
Scared to touch my money cuz they think I'm selling crack
Got they camera crews where the broken homes at
I am not an artist to the crackas I just rap
Lookin at me like the auction block got more of that
Selling out ya race the only way to get a bag

I Kill niggas
I kill niggas
I kill niggas
Kill niggas
I kill niggas
I kill niggas
Kill niggas
I kill niggas
I kill niggas
Kill niggas

Yeah that money rolling in
Trauma pays who give a fuck about a sin
We don't pay yo n****r ass to uplift black men
Ain't no heroes can't no nigga sell you hope boy
Making too much sense?
They send you to the pope boy
Ain't no religion banging not reppin no cults boy
All them activists is pussies, wanna know why?
Cuz they know they'd get killed tryna change the status quo
Give a fuck about the message just as long as money grows
Patrisse Cullors let her own cousin die
Using BLM dollars for fuckin party supplies

I Kill niggas
I kill niggas
I kill niggas
Kill niggas
I kill niggas
I kill niggas
Kill niggas
I kill niggas
I kill niggas
Kill niggas

Some people love they virtues and they need that competition
It's like all of the agreements you have never even listened
Why u trauma dumping tryna go nd fuck up my vision
What you speaking of the highest ups love u to go nd live it
Just to young to even focus
Seeing that you brought attention to a Six track magnum opus
The potential brings it up, on how it is to be all open
Noone fuck wit u till fucking wit u is everybody's notion
Everybody love it when you just be selling bout your cell
Look at all my favorite albums all the ones that needed help
Whether critics or the users they connected to the self
Crazy all the best albums are the ones about they health

TRAUMAFORDOLLAS - Single

TRAUMAFORDOLLAS

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TRAUMAFORDOLLAS (PROD. @BAGHEADT18)

Earl Sweatshirt 2010 Remix [Reprod. TicTacZakk]
lyrics:
Got the trophy but I still feel I ain’t winning
Niggas got a lot of jokes but I ain’t grinning
Bet that, let me make one
When you the punchline of the joke guess it ain’t fun
Ain’t no way out the cave had to make one
You tryna profit off my pain tryna make funds 
I’m a sad rich nigga you the same bum
I ain’t keepin proper time but I’m hoping that my day come
You did a lot of fucking talking you ain’t say none 
Did a lot of pocket watching did it fill yours?
I’m stressing bout the art you stressing bout the billboards
Glorifying the type of shit that niggas get killed for
That’s the way life goes my friend blasting luv is rage 2 on the way home
Coming from the west coast a lot of things I learned
Got big shoes to feel if you get known 
Think you can run it solo wait until you get old
Niggas lost a bit of spirit and became ghost
The messenger can’t give no message if he closed off
How I’m cooking everyday but I’m so raw? 
This my story so not another Nigga gon tell it
Got hit with the breeze, winds changed and I felt it
Can’t ignore the phone when it’s destiny calling
Learned to fly and I stopped free falling
Can’t split with the brush I’m a true artist
Can’t split with the brush I’m a-

Back then we was cool wit how we living 
22 was the year  i start tripping 
23' stomach downing my perscriptions 
finna reach 21   still kicking
misunderstandings cause distance 
if a nigga sat you down would yo listen ?
Fuck the ice bitch my green gon glisten 
the color really what i live not kiddin
ecpectations set high now my eyes low 
niggas steady tryna reap but they cant sew 
aint no winning on the game if ya hands slow 
aint no beefing in the streets if you cant blow
 niggas rapping for a check 
i rap to check my damn soul 
know all my lyrics full of gold 
so i aint stressing if it sold 
my shit for pressing past the post 
and you just tryna move the goal 
he produce alot a shit sound like he a asshole 
why he slamming on the pedal just to get the gas gone 
you should let me see your charecter fuck your cash flow 
i wanna see the green again pcilly take me back home

2016

I'M MOVIN MANIC, I HAD TO DROP THIS RIGHT NOW! PROD. @YANVIKTOR. lyrics soon.

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ULTIMATELY PROUD!

[Dedicated to all aspiring artists. O-Men] House of S. Old but gold

MUTANTS [PROD. YANVIKTOR]

I was born on the same day as Whitney Houston. LEV SOON.

Word To Whitney (Reincarnated Remix)

[Dedicated to my future love] prod. aftced
lyrics:
When I saw you for the very first time in two years, fear overtook my happiness 
Can you look me in the eye tell me how bad it is
Can your eyes even detect how much things changed
I thought I’d be better by now but heal slow
I don’t wanna upset her cause hurt is all I know
She wanna update and my mind draws a blank
All I know is that I feel alone
They tried to tell me the world was so colorful, knowing I was colorblind
It’s only left & right, it’s only black & white ignore the rainbow in the center view
I’m not as angry when I’m next to you
I put the gun down usually prepared to shoot
Im so used to niggas gettin snatched and never comin back

I’ve sinned a lot in your absence
Not at peace with it all
I can’t remember what happened
But I was the worst involved 
What if I can’t evolve?
How can I keep you safe if I’m the harm?

I guess I can’t really 
But losing you again? 
That would fucking kill me

Said to much
I bled too much 
I run cold
In my head too much
I fend too much 
Can’t unload 
Need a hug, need some love, someone?
Too many opinions on me, I don’t need one
When I look at you I really wanna shed tears 
Cause I don’t believe it’s real
Finally I see that you’re right here but I can’t speak my feels 
So many people in your place, they all failed me
So many niggas in my way, like they tail me
Thought it was fam first but they all lied
Thought it was fam first but they all lied 

I’ve sinned a lot in your absence
Not at peace with it all
I can’t remember what happened
But I was the worst involved 
What if I can’t evolve?
How can I keep you safe if I’m the harm?

STARGIRL!

2024 GRAIL. @yungicystar + @aftcedkhity + @8strings + @velstar

IN CONTROL [aftced, 8STRINGS & VELOURIUM]

alien man rmx [twovrt]

stiggy rmx [twovrt]

[Dedicated to healing] prod @8strings
lyrics:
Seen too many niggas break down in front of me
Too many knives in my back just to see me bleed
I was covered by the ashes, all the flames I could breathe
Why I’m speaking in the past tense? I’m reliving memories

I’m reliving too much
Am I really giving too much
Need some blessings given too us
Best I quit the sinning or I’m stuck

I got unhealthy feelings, yeah I know
I rather die than be up In your phone
I got unhealthy feelings, yeah I know
I rather die than be up In your phone

Why is it you’re in my head, I’m never in yours
What you mean I’m in debt? I always give more
Was it all just a lie tell me now cause you don’t wanna see me find the truth
All this time you’ve been in disguised, I don’t think it’s worthwhile to look at you
I keep taking my mask off around niggas who never break character 
Who else they gon put tasks on? I know there’s no love for the carrier 
Seen too many niggas break down in front of me
Too many knives in my back just to see me bleed
I was covered by the ashes, all the flames I could breathe
Why I’m speaking in the past tense? I’m reliving memories

I’m reliving too much
Am I really giving too much
Need some blessings given too us
Best I quit the sinning or I’m stuck

I think I’m getting better and then I hear you talk
Wanna forget I met her, then she invades my thoughts
I think I need to reset
I think to rese-et-et-et
Thank god I ain’t choose to be dead
All the crab ass shit I need less
How are we a team, I’m the only one balling?
You just warm the seat but you think you’re shot calling
Not easy to deceive cause I don’t be around
And when I make a move, I don’t make a sound

Seen too many niggas break down in front of me
Too many knives in my back just to see me bleed
I was covered by the ashes, all the flames I could breathe
Why I’m speaking in the past tense? I’m reliving memories

I’m reliving too much
Am I really giving too much
Need some blessings given too us
Best I quit the sinning or I’m stuck

infinite flames

[dedicated to whoever my future lover may be]
Alonuvia
Alonuvia
Alonuvia
Alonuvia

Truly I love you do that’s just hard to express
And I cannot lock in with you cause I won’t be shit if I’m dead
You’re way too good for me, I know
We’re very similar, I know
There’s nobody else in my phone
But what happens to me? I don’t know
So that means we can’t get attached
I’m sure somebody else is your match
You looked at me and I’m sorry for that 
You looked at me and I’m sorry for that 

Alonuvia
Alonuvia
Alonuvia
Alonuvia

I don’t wanna let you down but it’s way too likely
And there’s so many reasons not to like me
How could a blessing like yourself come to find me

All you wanna do is bring up the past 
Like you only wanna hold me back 
How can I grow from this?
You act like my prime was when I was a kid
I’m in a time where I’m reminded of my sins
I’m going to hell, so I’m lucky that I live 
The more I give

Truly I love you do that’s just hard to express
And I cannot lock in with you cause I won’t be shit if I’m dead
You’re way too good for me, I know
We’re very similar, I know
There’s nobody else in my phone
But what happens to me? I don’t know

ALONUVIA [VELOURIUM]

*lyrics* [PROD. CODY]
In between “I’m a god” and hate everything I’m doing
I’m supposed to build an empire but playing with the ruins
Notice that my hope gone and my empathy been truant
And I’ll always speak my truth knowing nobody else is fluent

If I decide to be father, I hope my kids don’t share my hurt
Cuz I’ve inherited my parents’ I know that makes me worse
And I could preach in every song and pray to god that it works
But even Jesus Christ himself couldn’t reach niggas with a verse
And I’ve been more than pissed off spent my teen years kickin dirt
When I try to clean the act & spread contamination
And end up cleaning the same spots without the stain vacant
Fighting heavyweight problems without the proper training
Could never see eye to eye if I wanted too
And can’t get comfort in a spot I always gotta move
Once you start dancing with the devil up your choreography 
Cuz he be stepping on your toes and fuck your rhythm no apologies 
Life’s a shitty party but you gotta own the dance floor
You gotta push the limits, see how long you can dance for
Once it’s over you can’t two-step around the conversation 
Was it worth it? Was there any purpose in my making?

Once it’s over you can’t two-step around the conversation 
Was it worth it? Was there any purpose in my making?
Was it worth it? Was there any purpose in my making?
Was it worth it? Was there any purpose in my making?

In between “I’m a god” and hate everything I’m doing
I’m supposed to build an empire but playing with the ruins
Notice that my hope gone and my empathy been truant
And I’ll always speak my truth knowing nobody else is fluent

How many hashtags you gon use to hide your bigotry
Use Jimmi Hendrix as your token that don’t sit with me
So many young brothers dying, you abusing antihistamines
We don’t ever learn no lessons we just stuck reliving history
God damn, you tryna live up to an image of a picture you ain’t take
That party life will be your dream until we organize your wake
I was at my grandfathers, right before eleventh grade
Tumor collapsed his lung now he missing birthdays 
I turned 16, 17 and legal I don’t wanna celebrate 
I’m just another nigga now, when lady death wanna date?
Can’t have no girlfriend for that reason only
Cuz ima be gone when they start to hold closely 
And blackballed by the niggas that I thought were homies
Niggas cliqued up and ain’t think to phone me
Ima say how I feel don’t dehumanize me 
I’m reluctant to do features for those that denied me
That fed my isolation and my independence 
And know it ain’t the truth if you ain’t heard I said it
If it ain’t about the music then I gotta dead it
I could be the influence, still they never give me credit 

In between “I’m a god” and hate everything I’m doing
I’m supposed to build an empire but playing with the ruins
Notice that my hope gone and my empathy been truant
And I’ll always speak my truth knowing nobody else is fluent

In between “I’m a god” and hate everything I’m doing
I’m supposed to build an empire but playing with the ruins
Notice that my hope gone and my empathy been truant
And I’ll always speak my truth knowing nobody else is fluent

Good lord, good lord, good lord, good lord please have mercy on me
Good lord, good lord, good lord, good lord please have mercy on me

I understand well it don’t matter til yours 
Niggas love a Robin Hood til they no longer with the poor
Niggas got up off of favors actin like a self made man
Noticing a lack of evidence for a lot of claims man
And I get it nigga, fuck the art you wanna make hands
But I don’t make your cooney tunes and I don’t shake hands
I’ll never fold for clout Nigga I am not a fan
Like doctor doom just want the world under my command 

In between “I’m a god” and hate everything I’m doing
I’m supposed to build an empire but playing with the ruins
Notice that my hope gone and my empathy been truant
And I’ll always speak my truth knowing nobody else is fluent

LEV SPOTIFY

Black Deadpool

*lyrics* [Prod. CPO3]
My words are like bullets and my mouth got a switch
There's no going back once I start to empty my clip
Once these shots are fired ain't no takebacks when you're gettin hit
Why I wear a vest knowing you only aim for heads?
When I go to scope shit out I'm caught in your crosshairs
And you won't stop firing til my characters dead
Striking when you reload cuz I'm knowing you don't fight fair
Yet I fire rubber bullets while you using hollow tips
Even if you shot a blank that shot wouldn't fuckin miss
Willing to use heavily artillery on your own kid
Dysfunctions all we know when with the fam that's how it goes
When the bloodline ceases ima make sure that the casket closed

Stopped questioning the names written on this gun
Stopped questioning where the drive to shoot comes
Standoffish barrels pointed at everyone
Standoffish barrels pointed at everyone

I'm living by the gun I don't gotta say it
Ain't no point in shooting I'm poppin til it'd vacant
Under enough pressure you don't gotta weigh in
Not like you hold yourself to anything I'm saying

Been saving bullets for niggas and then my gun jam
Whole body a tremor and earthquake in my hand
Fault lines will shift and then I'll crumble where I stand
Shook an understatement when you fire bullets careless where they land
You don't even need the gun you push the shell in with your hands
And look at me ashamed if I bring weapons to the fam
And when I feel the urge to fire back I just let you ride
Cause eventually you not gon be able to do the drive
No sense of direction yet you feel your fit to guide
Either Jesus take the wheel or I get the keys this time
Ain't even got a car but my pride in the ignition
Can't picture myself rolling cuz I know the wheels missing

Stopped questioning the names written on this gun
Stopped questioning where the drive to shoot comes
Standoffish barrels pointed at everyone
Standoffish barrels pointed at everyone

I'm living by the gun I don't gotta say it
Ain't no point in shooting I'm poppin til it'd vacant
Under enough pressure you don't gotta weigh in
Not like you hold yourself to anything I'm saying

Here I am currently practicing my aim
Preparing my targets yet niggas catching strays
Confused on who's the target everyone's the same
And now I'm bleeding out cuz my shots ricochet
Should I put the gun down cuz I'm abusin power?
Pride sayin die a killer don't wan live a coward
The gun staring at me then I got a clue
Maybe I should ask the gun if it wants to be used
It said put me to your ear I got something to tell you

Stopped questioning the names written on this gun
Stopped questioning where the drive to shoot comes
Standoffish barrels pointed at everyone
Standoffish barrels pointed at everyone

I'm living by the gun I don't gotta say it
Ain't no point in shooting I'm poppin til it'd vacant
Under enough pressure you don't gotta weigh in
Not like you hold yourself to anything I'm saying

Concealed Carry

*lyrics* [Prod. InfiniteCris]
Born with shackles, they studded so the crackers cackle
Born with shackles, build us up to be dismantled
Born with shackles, let us free to fight your battles
Born with shackles, smiling to my attackers

Born with shackles, they studded so the crackers cackle
Born with shackles, build us up to be dismantled
Born with shackles, let us free to fight your battles
Born with shackles, smiling to my attackers

Everyday got a new act to the minstrel show
And every day I'm not surprised to see how long it goes
Niggas laughing but it really shouldn't be a joke
Killing the young brothers' brain cells, here we go
Trying to keep the niggas stupid next to being broke
Wonder why I'm left hanging living by the rope
Everything is transactional
Tell me what you want so I can get back on sabbatical
Hands in your pocket nigga we can keep it casual
I think it's best if you don't say anything at all
Building empires acting like they never fall
When niggas cut you down, how could you stand tall

Born with shackles, they studded so the crackers cackle
Born with shackles, build us up to be dismantled
Born with shackles, let us free to fight your battles
Born with shackles, smiling to my attackers

Born with shackles, they studded so the crackers cackle
Born with shackles, build us up to be dismantled
Born with shackles, let us free to fight your battles
Born with shackles, smiling to my attackers

Let me make this music until my number called
Step in the right direction suddenly your legs gone
You get some land and niggas wanna start to burn your lawn
I guess it's best to be a kingpin then a pawn
Don't grin at life too long it'll knock your teeth out
Before you're 18, better choose to leave now
I don't feel free ain't no new release out
Do ya feel me? Hoping that a nigga can be seen now

Born with shackles, they studded so the crackers cackle
Born with shackles, build us up to be dismantled
Born with shackles, let us free to fight your battles
Born with shackles, smiling to my attackers

Born with shackles, they studded so the crackers cackle
Born with shackles, build us up to be dismantled
Born with shackles, let us free to fight your battles
Born with shackles, smiling to my attackers

Used to feel a way, friends never supported
I ain't have what they want so I'm unimportant
Can't be jealous of nobody when we all extorted
On this auction block with niggas some got studded shackled
Some niggas treat it like a trophy some are envious
Niggas carry all this pride, fighting the wrong battles
Talking gods biggest mistake, giving us sentience
Niggas die, you cry but you know it ain't relevant
It's not your kind, so why push for their betterment?
Not like you care enough to analyze my sentiments
Just have your fun, fucking up none
You can blame the music for your daughter or your son

Studded shackles looking like the crackers won
Studded shackles looking like the crackers won
Studded shackles looking like the crackers won
Studded shackles looking like the crackers won

Best crab in the bucket, what I'm 'pose to be?
Best crab in the bucket, what I'm 'pose to be?
Best crab in the bucket, what I'm 'pose to be?
Best crab in the bucket, what I'm 'pose to be?

Best crab in the bucket, what I'm 'pose to be?
Best crab in the bucket, what I'm 'pose to be?
Best crab in the bucket, what I'm 'pose to be?
Best crab in the bucket, what I'm 'pose to be?

Secord Born Slave

*lyrics* (prod. aftced)
I’m tired of this fucking cycle, a mental whirlpool
Drowning in my thoughts and these waters so cruel
I thought that I could float without the life raft 
Now I’m sittin at the bottom want my life back
It just got started, beginning of the end 
The hardest part is gettin up just to try again
I hate it all, how hard it is cause my skin
When they build a around the goal so you can’t win
Niggas tamper with the rules and the scoreboard 
Fuck it then not tryna play this bullshit anymore
Lot of niggas who don’t care about the game get controllers
Not gon be much of a future when I’m older

I’m not tryna hear no rebuttals
Sick & tired of everyday of treading through puddles
Cuz when the roof caves in who’s gon survive in the rubble
Playin Russian Roulette with my future gotta be humble

Pride made of stone, let the right waves hit it see it all erode 
When life being the pressure will your world implode
No this not a show of hands, a lot of you abandon morals & follow with commands
Said I’m sick of being seated, knees weak but I stand
They not tryna rise up without another nigga plan
And it’s only eat the rich til you get a couple bands

I’m not tryna hear no rebuttals
Sick & tired of everyday of treading through puddles
Cuz when the roof caves in who’s gon survive in the rubble
Playin Russian Roulette with my future gotta be humble

Everyday we rise & shine, ain’t no time for rest
Maybe I should clear the air before I take a breath
I don’t care what niggas say happiness come with a check
I don’t see no fuckin reason to be smiling in debt
Niggas only wanna clique up just to add to my problems
You mad about some petty shit won’t shake my hand why?
Let me tell you biggest regret that I have not sayin bye
If that’s really how you feel come equipped with a disguise 
And while you’re playing this charade don’t you look me in the eyes

I’m not tryna hear no rebuttals
Sick & tired of everyday of treading through puddles
Cuz when the roof caves in who’s gon survive in the rubble
Playin Russian Roulette with my future gotta be humble

I’m not tryna hear no rebuttals
Sick & tired of everyday of treading through puddles
Cuz when the roof caves in who’s gon survive in the rubble
Playin Russian Roulette with my future gotta be humble

Playin Russian Roulette with my future gotta be humble

Blue Bellied Lizard

*lyrics* (prod. aftced)
Cry us a river sail on a boat made of your backbone
Captain of the ship sleep with the fishes overthrown
Dreaming of swimming outside of murky water 
And I’m drowning yet somehow there’s air at the bottom
And this pressure on me to swim back up so why bother?
They know he ain’t give up signs of life present but can’t spot him
Biggest fear is seeing leftover bones that the sharks brought em
They don’t realize he’s being digested from the inside 
Slowly the sharks eatin up his thoughts but leave the memories that he no longer wants 
He used to swim with em, he’s blacklisted from the shiver now
Bet he’s feelin stupid for jumpin in that ocean, it’s even bigger now
Big fish should’ve stayed in school & learn to swim better 
How? Nobody in the right mind dare help a Nigger out

You been saying that we’re in the same boat
So everyone drowns if I’m sinking 
Then your words start to give me hope 
But your actions don’t disprove my thinking
And I lost my homie couldn’t cope
And all your suggestions are demeaning

Put myself in a cape, know I couldn’t save Ike
Grab at anything for closure to scared to grip a mic
Scared to spit a line, did I write lyrics or a script
Teen years were a decline then AJ died & stripped 
Me of any experience young niggas usually get
Spent 3/4 of high school grieving 
Bit into eris apple while I’m teething
The walls turn to a coffin he not breathing

No I cannot be protective need that armor for myself
No I cannot show affection they’ll walk out on me too
Yes I purposefully isolate so my friends are no help
They be running off anyway not like they’re of any use
I’m calling you my best friend but I realize you don’t respect what I do
You laughing and joking, I’m just SoundCloud nigga?
That’s all I am to you?
Tell a nigga how you really feel, keeping me up as a token is that my appeal?
Valuable for my emotional support but mine not real
No matter the path I feel blocked in
Fuck seeing a shrink I’m not big on talkin
Going stir crazy staring at the walls
Every road a dead end why drive at all?

What’s stopping me from crashing?
What’s stopping me from crashing?

You been saying that we’re in the same boat
So everyone drowns if I’m sinking 
Then your words start to give me hope 
But your actions don’t disprove my thinking
And I lost my homie couldn’t cope
And all your suggestions are demeaning

I lost my faith that people know what’s wrong & right
Stay in the dark if they don’t like who holds the light
Maybe the villains meant to win the heroes never died
Just trade places, keep the color to disguise
If Jesus couldn’t save niggas with a verse 
Then I can’t be discouraged when mine aren’t heard
Building off eachother with no foundation so I can’t be surprised when we crash & burn
The more I believe the more it hurts
Shouldn’t even dedicate this shit a verse
So much greed in the world, I don’t eat right
Living nightmare everyday I don’t sleep right
Ask how I’m doing, nigga what the fuck it seem like?
Seein premature death but I’ll be fine

Traumastar

*lyrics* [PROD. CPO3]
Hypochondriac, I think I’m feeling sickly 
Neglecting my health think the reaper out to get me
Life already grimey now I’m treading through the gutter
Anticipate new wounds don’t expect to be recovered 
Wanna talk healing, first you gotta get through it
Hard to get it clean when you bathe in the sewage 
Seen niggas drown in their sorrows and it make it hard to swim
And I try to tread the water I sink when I dive in 

Tryna ignore the phone I hear death calling  
Tryna ignore the phone I hear death calling  
Tryna ignore the phone I hear death calling  
Tryna ignore the phone I hear death calling  

I’ll probably die that’s what you do when you’re 17
I’m a walking miracle if speaking statistically 
I only find promise when I view things pessimistically 
Life’s a mystery and once you stop your screaming niggas listening
Places in need of work not hiring if I’m what they see
Raised priced on their products hope their kind will leave
Walkin ‘round the galleria heart drop when I see police
New day, new age, new Reagan administration 
Fentanyl the new crack, bodies stacked cross the nation 
My whole life will be dodging death like Alex browning 
No gate keepers young brothers products of their surroundings 
And then their lifestyle marketed to keep dollars counting
And niggas don’t wanna do shit about it, so astounding 
What’s my life worth? I say a couple mil?
Money to replace the days I’ll miss family meals
What’s my life worth? Shit, a couple commas?
Then place one for everyday I can’t hug my momma
Cause what I deem to be life and death is your daily shot of drama
They don’t care about my story they just exploiting my trauma 

Anything for the view right?

Tryna ignore the phone I hear death calling  
Tryna ignore the phone I hear death calling  
Tryna ignore the phone I hear death calling  
Tryna ignore the phone I hear death calling 

 I know I wouldn’t be here if my number was called. 
Cause I’ve been the one dialing death after all
The phone ringing, no answer, no greeting
Shits been gettin bad need to move up our meeting
I know the world don’t stop spinning, so there won’t be much grieving
And niggas can’t be surprised I’ve announced that I’m leaving 
My friends have been their own lives
they’ll have seen so many things before you cast them blind

Final Dial

*lyrics* [PROD. VELOURIUM] 
Where peoples status represented by they salary
I know that if I die broke not a nigga gone had for me
But that’s not the way it have to be
And black elites must’ve forgot they too were once expected causalities 
And to keep it real I feel I’m lucky to make nineteen
Thinkin bout some shit as of lately I know I’m never living down
It’s all good
Til karma need a payment and she circle back around
It’s all good
We gon need some more effort just to knock a nigga crown
It’s all good

Riverside state of mind 
Riverside state of mind 
Riverside state of mind 
Riverside state of mind 

Moral compass missing an arrow I’m lacking proper direction
I haven’t kept up proper health I purposefully spread infection
I push away on purpose cause I’ve gotten used to rejection
I’ve been eighteen for a week now and I force myself sleep now
There’s less voices in the room, but I don’t wanna speak now
There’s less to keep down, more people to keep out
I won’t get a happy ending, it’s too late to change the story 
I just spoke to Dante he gon save a circle for me
You can’t change your history but ripping pages you don’t like
People manufacture truths and the mirror see through lies
I was happy when I got news that my homie killer died
But her death and bring him back and I’m still traumatized

Riverside state of mind 
Riverside state of mind 
Riverside state of mind 
Riverside state of mind 

How could you form peace in this world and then you plot on your kin?
I ask for mercy father don’t rebuke me but the sin
I know there’s goodness in your heart but you’re so eager to win
You think my life would’ve been better if it never were lived?
My son, you missed the point of all those L’s you took cuz those were lessons
For everytime you took to me, I made sure that I left a message 
Heavens trumpets play and they define the key of life that day 
To open up new doors and find a better path for you to pave 
No cannot guide you if you choose to go astray 

Riverside state of mind 
Riverside state of mind 
Riverside state of mind 
Riverside state of mind 

Sore loser, poor winner yet I still compete
I took a couple dubs and yet I never felt complete 
Niggas who hate show love, do it secretly 
And even with that, I’m the one critic I can’t appease 
Wake up in the deep end, thank the lord that I can swim
Pouring acid in the pool, hoping that I dive in 
I been living with the serpents, I got scales on my skin
It’s like I do worse when I try not to sin  

Riverside state of mind 
Riverside state of mind 
Riverside state of mind 
Riverside state of mind 

And for the love of city and for the love my people
I hope that all of them hear me we gon get rid of these evils
We gon exterminate demons, the ones outside and internal
The ones that hide in our circle and taking innocent lives
Niggas mistaken for pride, gotta take care of yourself life
Look at who won the election, the damage done overnight
West coast was on fire, now I see it burning down 
And I just feel inspired gotta help the people out

Riverside state of mind 
Riverside state of mind 
Riverside state of mind 
Riverside state of mind 

Riverside state of mind 
Riverside state of mind 
Riverside state of mind

LEV SPOTIFY!

Riverside State of Mind

*lyrics* [Prod. CPO3]
What’s worse?
Feeling nothing or feeling lost?
What’s worse?
Paying the price or feeling the cost?
When on the move I’m hittin the same walls 

What’s worse?
Feeling nothing or feeling lost?
What’s worse?
Paying the price or feeling the cost?
When on the move I’m hittin the same walls 

You could take a smile from me, you could make a flower ugly
If its not what you wanna hear then my words mean nothing
I don’t know nothing positive, just take me out the populous
Can’t tell the world bout how I feel cuz it responds by talkin shit
Uncle Sam’s got a noose on me, wish that he would tighten it
I’m tired of waking up and acting like I’m liking it
I just want you to know that I’m a person too 
But you’re caught up in the rhythms so ignore all my blues

Everyday I learn my life is meaningless
Define us by the skin they really teasing us 
It doesn’t matter if the police kill me or I kill myself
Cuz ain’t nobody care bout how a black men felt 

I’m not good with people, I no longer have patience
But I want good for people, and can’t allow no complacence
This not for your approval this because I made a promise
When I turned 18, I swore to never be dishonest
Everything I do will be in Pernell’s name, Ike
I couldn’t save his maybe I’ll save other lives
Just tryna spare some pain and trauma from a kid like me
But I feel reaching that dream has become unlikely
The day I have somebody say that I’m their inspiration
Is the day I cry with bloody hands I meet my expectations 
Still won’t be enough for my karma fixation 

Everyday I learn my life is meaningless
Define us by the skin they really teasing us 
It doesn’t matter if the police kill me or I kill myself
Cuz ain’t nobody care bout how a black men felt 

You burnt down my peace and formed the ashes to a heart 
Aware I barely sleep so you took my bed apart
Cost me an arm and leg, more baggage in the cart
And everyday you say my name, I feel dehumanized
I’ve seen so many faces not a caring soul behind
Wanted real people behind me not some knives in my back
I let so many people rest to keep they dreams intact
Seems they got the last laugh I never got the joke
Now I know the punchline, I carried too much hope
Knocked out by reality, words stuck in my throat 
I’m not your friend or favorite artist just a nigga now
Since we look alike, I know another comes around
Once I was weak and craved all the validation
But nobody cares for niggas in this nation
I went insane tryna keep my faith I mattered 
But I’m a crab on another crabs platter

Erik Magnus

*lyrics* [PROD. CPO3]
Two sides to the coin, it never lands on its side
They gon make me pick like it benefit my life 
I’ll never see the shore to deep in the side 
I’ll never see the shore we can let the waves decide
Can’t be sad that I’m used knowing that I live to provide 
Some crack under the abuse, I wear the bruises with pride
Don’t be a messenger if it ain’t good news
Niggas love a perspective unless it ain’t a good view
Know it’s hard to walk a mile in some unfilled shoes
They don’t wanna face the music niggas only wanna dance
If it’s hard to keep your balance maybe you should fix the stance
If I’m the means to your ends let me know in advance
You ain’t even gotta act just take your needs and pass

Cuz I hate being needed 
I hate being needed 
Hate being needed
You could sell a dream, but I probably won’t believe it 

Cuz I hate being needed 
I hate being needed 
Hate being needed
You could sell a dream, but I-

How many times you try til you hit insanity?
How many times is you gon fight til you a casualty?
Balls in your court and you keep missing, your not practicing 
Hate being smart cuz the knowledge can be damaging
Crabs in a bucket, I get pulled in tryna lend a hand
I loose limbs tryna pay somebody karma bill
Wanted to give new life knowing that nobody can 
I’ll pay the tab and shake some hands knowing I’m broke still
Scary thought, what if the mountain is the molehill?
And if you stood on just your pride would you hold still?
It ain’t winter last December got me cold still
It’s my life but not a lot done by my own will
I got old then forgot how I home feel
Watching sitcoms, television where the love real
Looking for something unconditional is fictional
Type of shit that make a nigga turn spiritual 
 
Cuz I hate being needed 
I hate being needed 
Hate being needed
You could sell a dream, but I probably won’t believe it 

Cuz I hate being needed 
I hate being needed 
Hate being needed
You could sell a dream, but I-

Neck in a noose 
Don’t wanna hang but I do I was dancing around the convo til I forgot how to move

Hate Being Needed

*lyrics* [PROD. CPO3]
I’ve mistaken generosity as being a victim of robbery
I’m worthy of your love but not worthy of an apology 
If it hurts me just enough you’ll target any part of me
I’ll never see how far I’ve come cuz I’ll never stop running 
Don’t know how’s predator or prey so I’ll never stop hunting
I’ll never see other perspectives if we’re all blinded 
And I can’t lead nobody on if we’re all misguided 
And I’m aware there is no you & I, I’ve been reminded 
I’m the life of the party once I can’t be invited 
It takes two tango but I’m not dancing willingly
Could you humor me but showing me humility?
When the joke stops being funny and you try to tell it differently
The laughing turns to saddening, im no longer the punchline 
My faith has been misplaced and you haven’t shown me otherwise 
You wanna act heaven sent then dehumanize me
When I’ve shown you more humanity than you’ve ever seen

I picked the worst self harm you could ever know
Learning to love toxic people cuz it feel like home
This ain’t the bed I made, I lay in it comatose
Niggas strip you of your vision, you can’t see the hope 

I picked the worst self harm you could ever know
Learning to love toxic people cuz it feel like home
This ain’t the bed I made, I lay in it comatose
Niggas strip you of your vision, you can’t see the hope 

Told to use your words, you speak to leave bruises 
Rolling with the punches, growing up to be reclusive 
Used to hitting walls, biggest fear to be included 
Born with a detonator and I’m not afraid to use it
Born to bomb first, informed my love hurts 
Balance out the hate & humane what comes first 
Keep a distance I detach, get too close and I destroy
But my absence works best for my loved ones joy

I picked the worst self harm you could ever know
Learning to love toxic people cuz it feel like home
This ain’t the bed I made, I lay in it comatose
Niggas strip you of your vision, you can’t see the hope 

I picked the worst self harm you could ever know
Learning to love toxic people cuz it feel like home
This ain’t the bed I made, I lay in it comatose
Niggas strip you of your vision, you can’t see the hope 

I don’t care bout how they treat me
Don’t care bout how they beat me
A broken down body ain’t the pain of them leaving
Niggas potential thieving, tryna kill my spirit then act surprise when they grieving 
I hate to being the hand to be bitten when they teething 
I deserve it all, the chance to see love in this life
I deserve it all, to watch my back move past the knives
But even then I stall, these blades of mine don’t server toxic ties
They’ve started to rust, tryna move from what I know yet the chains don’t budge
It’s to a point where I’m around the toxin or toxic 
Switching back and forth between the devils son & godsend 
Let my music speak for me that’s where I’m too honest
I wasted my compassion on those unworthy
Now I lack empathy for those who haven’t hurt me
Another barrier for memories I block out 
Moving like a curse carrier, I’m on lock down

I picked the worst self harm you could ever know
Learning to love toxic people cuz it feel like home
This ain’t the bed I made, I lay in it comatose
Niggas strip you of your vision, you can’t see the hope 

I picked the worst self harm you could ever know
Learning to love toxic people cuz it feel like home
This ain’t the bed I made, I lay in it comatose
Niggas strip you of your vision, you can’t see the hope

Self-Harm

*lyrics* (prod. aftced)
Mental State in pieces and thoughts broken in sections
And piss poor reflections were all looking in broken mirrors
So many days of depression with a clouded judgement & intentions no clearer
I say ima walk out while I’m running into walls I don’t know a way out
No sense of direction not a single path mapped out
Facing fear like everyday Halloween don’t need masks now
All the jokes gettin real I don’t wanna laugh now
One pill, two pill the sandman turned to Benadryl
Allergic to connection breaking links like their dull steel
This relationship got casualties surprisingly not in a tomb
With enough pettiness & scandal to feed the shade room
So the bloodline ends with me with no curses to phase through

My heart so filled with hate I can’t give no piece to you
My heart so filled with hate I can’t give no piece to you

Eternal damnation til I realign with god
Eternal damnation til I realign with god
Deuteronomy blames my people for mankind’s faults

Those who peach of change get money and they turn fraud
Love it when you all buy in to internet facades
Everybody wanna be a hero til the glory gone
Everybody want they money and just be phenomenons 
Making money out of moments so change doesn’t last long
While only change the tempo and not the lyrics to the song?
Can’t convince me there’s a shift if I dance & sing along
With the routine missing progress and the rhythm mostly gone
I’ve been questioning so much and I’ve yet to get some answers 
I guess that’s why a lot of niggas go to see the pastor

My son, I know have your questions 
There are no simple answers know it follows with a lesson

How beautiful?
How beautiful is life?
How beautiful?

How beautiful is life?
How beautiful?

How beautiful is life?
How beautiful?

How beautiful is life?
How beautiful?

How beautiful is life?
How beautiful?

How beautiful is life?
How beautiful?

How beautiful is life?
How beautiful?

How beautiful is life?
I fuckin hate it

How Beautiful

Intro to "brandnamebipolar". See you then! (prod. aftced)
*lyrics*
No Find
No Find
No Find
No Find

I have a hard time
When it comes to loss
Everything I want 
Is gone 
And I sugarcoat my pain with these melodies
I know ain’t a thing sweet buts it’s helping me
 
No Find
No Find
No Find
No Find

I’m having a hard time wanting to live
I just sacrifice
So I can survive
But there’s no acknowledgment of what I give
It doesn’t matter what’s lost if it’s not yours
I used to keep you in my thoughts well not anymore

No Find
No Find
No Find
No Find

Everything I love
Gets snatched
First they break it then they wanna give it back
All the false hope that I had
I’m not dreaming big like I have
Think that I’ve inherited her pain

What did I expect?
Born to dysfunction that’s the example set
Can’t chop it up if you don’t get my dialect
Morally bankrupt people turn that shit to my debt
They don’t fuck with me but they want my likeness

No Find
No Find
No Find
No Find

Keep yourself grounded
Sometimes wanna fly away
Don’t wanna be around this
Sometimes I have being bray
I don’t have the empathy for you
Ain’t nobody comfort me when I lose
Sick of living in a country where I’m questioned
All because I’m darker in complexion
I deserve everything but your affection?
Can’t enjoy shit I’m always stressing

No Find
No Find
No Find
No Find

Meaning no more hope
No more peace
When I go
Will I be at peace?
Have I lost my soul?
Or can I be redeemed?
Tell me.

No Find
No Find
No Find
No Find

Fight for control so long you realize 
That there’s nothing 
Fight for control so long you realize 
That’s there’s nothing 

I woke up, stared at the window
Word to god, I’m bringing my sins home 
Should probably text somebody back tell em im leaving 
I’m out in broad day, I ain’t creeping 
What’s there to hide? You know what I’m thinking

No Find
No Find
No Find
No Find

No Find (Bonus)

remix of "boolymon" by okaymar. all credit to them
starmani is back. @astrmani

FRAUD! [BOOLYMON]

I don't feel this way as much anymore. But I'd like it to put this out for those who do feel this way. Remember healing is important and that negative feelings are normal. Don't let them win.
produced by @aftcedkhity 
lyrics:
Hmmm-Hmmm
Bet it’s so easy for you
Bet it’s so easy for you
Bet it’s so easy for you
Hmmm-Hmmm

I sit alone in my room dawg
I think it’s best that I move on
Why niggas changing the rules dawg?
Cause they know I’m in the lead 
I can admit that I’m too raw, I might end up in a tomb
I do not wish to do wrong but I gotta make a move
I’ll take you apart, I don’t care what was said
I wanted their heart and now I want ‘em dead 
Yes I’ll kill my homies if they infiltrate 
Don’t make sudden movements I do not feel safe

Need to take deep breaths
Maybe too much stress?
Need to take deep breaths
I’m inside my head
It’s alone in here
It’s alone in here
It’s alone in here 
It’s alone in here

Tryna climb out of the hole I’m in and I sink in deeper
I’m sure that the walls are closing in but I don’t seem hurt
Everybody loves a masquerade til it gets the point you can’t act your age
What do i get from being fake?
All I ever wanted was a “bray are you okay?”
Seems to me that I’m the only nigga you can’t praise 
Don’t you ever say that you love me the most 
You ain’t give me shit man I’m never approached 

Need to take deep breaths
Maybe too much stress?
Need to take deep breaths
I’m inside my head
It’s alone in here
It’s alone in here
It’s alone in here 
It’s alone in here

I said I would die for you and die without
So you deem my life meaningless without a doubt
Niggas hit me when they needing shit, what’s that about 
And if they cannot have me then they’ll replicate my energy
Niggas wan’ put tax on me but do not know ‘bout anything
In all fairness, I don’t have the answers either 
My vision so distorted, but it’s clearer 
Half the shit she said, I ain’t believe her
Niggas lie too much, I speak from experience 
I’m sure I did enough, not judging by appearances 
So ungrateful, is this what loyalty gets?
You tryna be playful? 
I will leave you in a ditch

Need to take deep breaths
Maybe too much stress?
Need to take deep breaths
I’m inside my head
It’s alone in here
It’s alone in here
It’s alone in here 
It’s alone in here

Easily Alone

You're not even real! It's all in my head! :)
lyrics:
Decided I’d take Juu’s advice 
Stepping outside in the morning it was kinda nice
Got a donut with the glaze, got me feeling right
In the dark for too long had to make a light
I’m not feeling asked my loved ones if the love real
Felt the blood of my blood, know the cuts real
Niggas prosecuting coming at me like a white jury
They ain’t tryna solve the case they just comin with the fury
Change ain’t never too late, im not old or dying
And at the end of the day im just glad im trying
I know its been a minute since you seen some love on my page
Know ive been reclusive, I dont wanna collaborate 
Been forgetting im the author, tell the story my way
And I ain’t finna lie niggas made a couple mistakes
But there’s some blessings in that, got negatives out the way 
I rather niggas cry with me then then cry at my wake 

I got some venom in my veins
I know I made you feel a way
I got some venom in my veins
I know I made you feel a way
Too close to the edge to play it safe 

We tryna make the fire light again
Minor damage to the wings but we gon fly again
The tire flat, we gon change it we gon ride again
Take a page out Christ book, we gon rise again
We was stunted we gon reach some new heights again
Wasn’t speaking guess I gotta grab the mic again
When I say it, you gon say it we gon try (again)
I’m trying to get it back be someone they admire 
I’m not tryna run it back I’m too inspired
I’m back to rappin tryna chase all my desires

Niggas telling all the business glad no case coming
I shouldn’t treat it like a chore just to make something 
I can’t sleep at night too focused on the negatives
Tryna get back to my roots a nigga sensitive
Tryna think more as a person than a pessimist
And when I’m better I want no one who was negligent 
This doggie got his day coming that’s a definite
If you not tryna hear me out my nigga you not relevant 

Good Company // Nirvana [CPO3]

broke as a joke

#RiversideRunner #RR

@yungicystar @astrmani @cloroxcide no guts no glory
lyrics:
Bitch I deserve to ball
I survived it all
They telling me look what you were
I’m telling them what I’ve become
I know it’s easy to hurt
But what’s best for me is getting up
I’m not that kid anymore
Who in the fuck do you think that you’re pressing like I could’ve did anymore?
If you keep expecting ignoring my presence then I’m not gon give anymore
You make a narrative run with it then, that’s your story to tell
I seen your shortcomings but I ain’t mock you when you fell

No guts, no glory
No guts, no glory
No guts, no glory
No guts, no glory

Hearts in the right place, my head isn’t
Know I tried to save face but I didn’t 
Know I made some mistakes and I got distant
Know I tried to run away but my problems have spread 
I thought I’d have nothing to lose if they want me dead 
In fear hurt my friends now I heal and repent 

No guts, no glory
No guts, no glory
No guts, no glory
No guts, no glory

Ready to blow any second so please do not press any buttons I’m letting it off
Tired of thinking I’m not gonna make it, I’m done with this shit I’m not playing it off  
Niggas counted me out now and now all of a sudden they fucking with me 
Nigga fuck out my face 
Got a point I can prove, ima show I can do it 
I’m flying in space niggas running in place 
Okay, I’m out the way now
He pump fake, he built a fake round 
Not somebody niggas can take down
Tell em get down or lay down 
I can’t be you and I’m glad that I’m not 
After all I’ve been through I can’t feel that I’ve lost 
Ain’t got shit to prove cause I do what I want
Bitch it’s StarMani we built for the top

No guts, no glory
No guts, no glory
No guts, no glory
No guts, no glory

Niggas thought Mani & Bray wouldn’t come back
You can’t fuck with my brother so fuck that
I got weight that I can’t seem to cut back
Tried to get rid of you but you spun back 
 Everywhere you see, you can’t get rid of me
Blank shot nigga you ain’t killing me
In your head so I know you missing me 
It ain’t no stopping me, no dismissing me
Back then I was looking for the beef
Back then I was robbing in the streets
Back then I would only feel grief
Loss after loss in in disbelief 
Thought about prison, had nothing to lose 
I was ready to kill, I knew that was for certain 
Now I’m past all the shit that was holding me back 
Now I’m ready to blow I let go of my burdens 

No guts, no glory
No guts, no glory
No guts, no glory
No guts, no glory

It isn’t generosity if the end goal gettin power over me 
It isn’t hospitality if you only take me in to fuel your needs
I’m knowing there’s demons you fighting my nigga but I cannot be your relief  
I’m knowing there’s demons you fighting my nigga but I cannot be your relief

yungicystar

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