and i'm terrified

this is the first single from my new record.
pictured is my best friend who recently passed, his name is boudreaux but we usually called him bubba. i want you to know who he was because he deserves more than i could ever have given him.

mastered by @alexanderpanos

It's killing me this time.
The only thing ive ever known
Is how I can crack like a stone
And I want that to change
It's hard to accomplish - I lose track of time
I was killing this indigenous feeling
I never knew how to react

Atarax,
Copy that
Close enough
I catch a laugh
Call me a slab
Poured to crack
The pack
Hydrogen atoms
Will stack on my back
Untill I snap

You were an acrobat
I was a stumbler
Tumbling caught
In the turbulent air

I could not ask him
Because I have already
Burned up the grace
That was given to me

I was a copycat
You were a soldier
I know what you meant-
I could hardly see

GO! GO! GO!

You were an acrobat
I was a stumbler
Tumbling caught
In the turbulent air

I could not ask him
Because I have already
Burned up the grace
That was given to me

You were an acrobat
I was a stumbler
Tumbling caught
In the turbulent air

I could not ask him
Because I have already
Burned up the grace
That was given to me

I was a copycat
You were a soldier
I know what you meant-
I could hardly see

bubba

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stumbler

pictured is boudreaux (bubba) embraced by my brother.

mastered by @alexanderpanos
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don't attach to something you can't control
i'm starting to bold up (that's the way you roll)
i'm starting to bold up

nobody buys you nothing, you're on your own
i'm starting to show up
i'm starting to show up

cover,
you and i can cover anything easily

other,
i am fulcrum for the death of a decency

you know what?
i am honestly the same you are to me

i'm cauterizing nothing, i'm bleeding out
i just want to throw up
i just want to throw up

i don't wanna tell you i need the help
i want to deny it
i want to deny - see!

i'm crumbling by pieces!
i'm sad but i don't mean it!

(you coulda said it i know you wanna)

be the breath i wanna breathe
i stumble i reprieve

(you coulda said it i know you wanna)

cover,
you and i can cover anything easily

other,
i am fulcrum for the death of a decency

you know what?
i am honestly the same you are to me

(silhouetting who i used to be)

cover,
you and i can cover anything easily

other,
i am fulcrum for the death of a decency

you know what?
i am honestly the same you are to me

mend

music video: https://youtu.be/CyFUlA_qQ3Q?si=oefwFinVOnfvXPDV
mastered by @alexanderpanos

I think part of me died too
yeah I sink when I swim

and part of me wants to
drown in this world without you

but I can't find the rhyme
the reason's what's getting me

and I can't find the line
I'm lost and it's dark out

and i'm scared that i'm not scared
and i'm scared that the nicotine's helping
and i'm scared you might see it too

well, do you?

I think part of me likes to
walk the thin ice

I wish I was still with you
now i'm tearing at the straws

but I can't find the rhyme
the reason's what's getting me

and I can't find the line
I'm lost and it's dark out

and i'm scared that i'm not scared
and i'm scared that the nicotine's helping
and i'm scared you might see it too

and i'm scared that i'm not scared (your combination i've never seen)
and i'm scared that the nicotine's helping (your combination i've never seen)
and i'm scared you might see it too (your combination i've never seen)

well, do you?

not scared

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You’re alive
Looking up and down halls you’ll surely be calling your home
Give it time
You feel trapped in these walls, but quite soon now they’ll feel like your own
It’s okay to be scared, the world’s coming at you so hard
There’s a place for you here, just be true, and follow your heart

Playing cards
Of the acts and behaviors acceptable for me to do
Hold my guard
They’ll think highly of me and I’ll be well achieved when I’m through
Every day of my life I’ve been clutching this ache in my gut
Glory pacing the eyes of the people I know and I love

I wanna be just like everyone
I wanna break in these shoes
I wanna be fearless
I wanna be good as new
These strange hands on your body, that tear it apart
And you’re bringing it on with these pings in your heart
And you’ll shove your throat down and stay silent 
But you looked in the mirror and you sighed again

You don’t wanna grow up
You don’t wanna feel like this at all
You just wanna curl up
In an indestructible ball
When I’m older, I’ll see
I’ll become what I’m meant to be
When I can’t stand the change
I’ll hold on to my faith

And every time that I speak
Someone else comes out
So I’m letting him talk
And I’m shutting my mouth
And I’m looking so proud
As I get through my lines
And the stage lights are beaming
And the collar’s too tight
There’s no pill you can’t swallow
Or a pain you can’t stomach
You keep tasting that malice
You keep saying you love it
But then there comes a point
Where you can’t hold it anymore
You start spilling your guts
All over the floor

Don’t wanna be seen by anyone
I wish they’d all look away
It’s not okay to be like this
I still feel it all the same
I just wish I was beautiful (I just wish I was beautiful)
I’d do so much to be beautiful (They don’t want me to be beautiful)
Just please let me be beautiful (God why can’t I be beautiful?)
I just wish I was beautiful

They keep telling me to play my part
They keep saying it’s all for a reason
If this really is just the way things are
Why the hell is nobody screaming?

No dam could stop this river
No gag could muffle the shrieks
The path they carved him into for so long
You did everything
You feel the mask as it’s slipping
The seal is breaking apart
It’s peeling off until you cannot hide
From the beat of your heart

When the rain comes pouring
I’ll celebrate it’s elegance
When I’m older, which I’ll be
I’ll be thanking myself for this
Show me your horrors, and I will survive
I was a corpse, now I am alive

You did everything

the right version

produced by 48 and chiba @xfchiba

one day ill be the one that you think of when you get homesick
another missed call on my phone so i dont go away
is it just a heartache or do you really think about all the shit that they say
guess another story ends again for your sake

put your light on me
im starting to feel home
i wont try till you pass on
maybe i dont
have a shoulder to lean on
sometimes i want you arround
make me feel like im safe for a while
once in a while
i would never tell you why
i could never be the one to you
if im feeling proud
if i feel alright uh
the bones breaking outside
maybe i dont wanna cry
but you dont get to see me now
tonight feel the reality of my side
how are we supposed to fight on
said you'd pick up at three but if i
carry on till the lights gone
and im ready to catch on my life

bone2

https://www.instagram.com/ohmannymanny/#
OUT ON 04/30/2025 12 AM
lyrics:
staying with you
the way you make
feel is so special
baby would you 
wanna feel my love
nobody else
nobody else
but you
out the window

my feet on
the dashboard
obsessed with your
love girl
obsessed with your
love girl
obsessed with your
love girl
I want your
love
obsessed with your
love girl
obsessed with your
love girl
obsessed with your
love girl
I want your
love

Look what you
do to me girl
do you
all that we want
is freedom
Look what you
do to me girl
out the window

my feet on
the dashboard
obsessed with your
love girl
obsessed with your
love girl
obsessed with your
love girl
I want your
love
obsessed with your
love girl
obsessed with your
love girl
obsessed with your
love girl
I want your
love

I want your
love
I want your
love
I want your
love
I want your
love
x2

obsessedwithyourlove

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@whyawe
6 hours practice
teach me how lyrics

escape

single2 (now w flute)
self-titled coming soon

summit

New 2-Track EP by me and my bro liam out now on all platforms, just in time for the holidays!!!

bone2

yanky

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