Special Ways

Flowers in motion
the motions more moving me around and I don't know what to do right now
Everybody be looking around
but I'm sitting here with my eyes pointed towards the ground. 
Everyone tries to tell me something different
but they cant tell me nothing that I ain't heard before, 
and I know that I, I need to do better
 but I cant do better when I'm stuck in yesterday's door
 I know I tried
 but the motions moving me around 
fucking me up inside I know
 I'm fuckin twisted around
 I'm going backwards down a one way street ands now..
Falling apart, 
Every time I try to do it different you know I fail yeah
 and I cant do any better 
I just keep getting more upset and looking at myself I hate it the most.
She don't know how to fucking talk to me no more
 you know its pissing me off and that is what it is for, 
She's got agendas and she's doing it now 
making her move some way or some how.
 Monsters in motion the motions are moving they're sliding around 
calm as an ocean you know these emotions are going around and I ,
 I don't know what to do when you are fucking around talking all that mad  shit to me no more 
I can not take anymore you need to shut your fucking mouth and get the fuck out the door
And the motions the motions are moving they're moving to me
 the people in motion they're moving the most and they don't know where to be
You didn't want to take the time to listen 
now I'm, screaming that shit right down your face  
I don't know what else to do except to try to force  you to listen to what I say
and the motions, the motion the motions are moving they're moving around 
calm as an ocean you know these emotions are going around and I ,
 I don't know what to do when you are fucking around talking all that mad  shit to me no more 
I can not take anymore you need to shut your fucking mouth and get the fuck out the door
And the motions the motions are moving they're moving to me
 the people in motion they're moving the most and they don't know where to be
You didn't want to take the time to listen 
now I'm fucking screaming that shit right in your face  
I don't know what else to do except try to force  you to listen to what I say

Yesterday's Door

something has occurred

But this has occurred to me
I don't know if you've been watching but something seems different
The oceans and the people and the actions of the birds in the sky
I don't know if you have noticed but something has occurred to me
Something has occurred to me
So if you watch the ocean and you look up to the sky and then the seas are overcoming the land
 and the people are not the same ones that I remember yesterday
 something new is happening
I don't know if you have noticed but something has occurred to me
the wind is blowing left to right and that is something new to me
and the spider's walking backwards and  the birds are going under the sea
everyone is looking like they're all living so happily
 but that's just something that doesn't happen
 no it never really happens, not for me 
I don't know if you have noticed but it seems that something has occurred to me
because my neighbor stopped being an ass hole
 and my boss is giving me a raise
and my self-destructive tendencies seem to all have gone away
I don't know if you have noticed but something has occurred to me

Something Has Occurred to me

PALISTIWEEN

If you go walking in the forest at night
Look up to the sky and see what you find
keep your feet on the ground keep yourself down
with your head above you, you're looking around
There's a turtle in the sky 
Birds on the ground
Trees are swaying all around
No body can tell you what you should do 
You should just go be you

Turtle in The Sky

ben hur

Better Off

You're the kind of girl that would give me your ice cream.

The Kind of Girl

Popcorn

Remix of my original song "yesterday's door". All lyrics by Zach Alarid. 
No AI lyrics used. Vocals and beat created in Suno. 

Yesterday's Door (Groove Remix)

Flowers in motion
the motions are moving me around,
 and I don't know what to do right now.
Everybody be looking around,
but I'm sitting here with my eyes pointed towards the ground.
Everyone tries to tell me something different,
but they cant tell me nothing that I ain't heard before.
and I know that I, I need to do better,
but I cant do better when I'm stuck in yesterday's door.
I know I tried,
but the motions moving me around
fucking me up inside, I know.
I'm fuckin twisted around,
I'm going backwards down a one way street and now..
Falling apart.
Every time I try to do it different you know I fail yeah.
and I cant do any better,
I just keep getting more upset, and looking at myself, I hate it the most.
She don't know how the fuck to talk to me no more,
you know its pissing me off and that is what it is for.
She's got agendas and she's doing it now,
making her move some way or some how.
Monsters in motion, the motions are moving, they're sliding around.
Calm as an ocean, you know these emotions are going around, and I ,
I don't know what to do when you are fucking around talking all that mad shit to me, no more.
I can not take anymore, you need to shut your fucking mouth and get the fuck out the door.
And the motions, the motions are moving, they're moving to me.
The people in motion, they're moving the most and they don't know where to be.
You didn't want to take the time to listen,
now I'm screaming that shit right down your face.
I don't know what else to do except to try to force you to listen to what I say.
And the motions, the motion the motions are moving, they're moving around.
Calm as an ocean, you know these emotions are going around, and I..
I don't know what to do when you are fucking around talking all that mad shit to me no more.
I just can't take anymore, you need to shut your fucking mouth and get the fuck out the door.
And the motions, the motions are moving, they're moving to me.
The people in motion, they're moving the most and they don't know where to be.
You didn't want to take the time to listen,
now I'm fucking screaming that shit right in your face.
I don't know what else to do, except try to force you to listen to what I say.emo-ra

Yesterday's Door - Zach Alarid (Extended Version)

Patterns (smooth Cover)

A slow, progressive dream-pop track with haunting indie and shoegaze influences, Layers of reverberant guitar washes, heavy bass, and swirling ambient pads create a meditative, melancholic haze, Mellow drums pulse under plaintive, emotional vocals.

[Verse 1]
Vision yourself lying dead on the ground
and all the blood in the wind stains the lives all around
on your way up you  saw a glorious shine 
on your way down you felt the humanous grime
When you hit ground you were lost in a way
A breath of fresh air reintroduces the day
You arise with a new elevation
Calm and alert  more aware to sensation 

[Pre-chorus]
Before you realize what you can't understand
in the moment of question it slips from your hand

[Chorus]
You'll never understand it so you'll never know you lost it
your last days you'll recognize and realize why you were sad
You'll always live so empty
  wondering what it is you're missing
 never seeing that its something that you had

[Bridge]
We all live blind
We all live blind
We all live blind
We all live blind
We all live blind
We all live blind
We all live blind
We all live blind

[Chorus]
You'll never understand it so you'll never know you lost it
your last days you'll recognize and realize why you were sad
You'll always live so empty  
wondering what it is you're missing 
never seeing that its something that you had

Visions

[Verse 1]
Do you remember,
That summer day?
It was a lovely day,
and we were in a place,
Where we soothed,
our souls with creativity.
Making music and art.
Sometimes we took  LSD, MDMA or shrooms.
[Pre-Chorus]
And you said, "can I ask you a question?
I said, yes you can ask me.
You asked "Can you imagine our break up song"?
[Verse2]
I said No! 
I never thought about it, 
I never thought about it at all.
I think you manifested, our demise. 
I think that you manifested..
[Chorus]
This song is not a break up song,
This song is to make us Happy!
[Pre-Chorus]
You said you had a question.
I said just fucking ask me.
I think you manifested our demise.
[Chorus]
This song is not a break up song
I wrote this song to make us happy  
That's what I'm  manifesting.
[Bridge]
Even if we aren't together I want us to be happy.
[Pre-Chorus]
But if you have a question.
I tell you please don't ask me
You can keep your fucking questions
because I'm manifesting for us to be so happy.
[Chorus]
This song is not a break up song,
But the one that sets us free
Because I am manifesting
Yeah I think we should be happy
[Bridge]
 Even if we aren't together I want us to be so happy.
[Summary]
Do you remember (ooohwooh)
You  asked a question (aaahaaah)
I said just just ask me (ooohwooh)
You were manifesting (aaahaahh)
[Chorus]
This song is not a break up song
 this song is to make us both happy
That's what we all should be
that's what I manifested



Not a breakup song

Verse 1]
As the moon drags across the pollution,
The creatures strive to continue.
The earth follows its usual patterns it seems.
Who can describe this feeling?

[Chorus]
Living in so much pain,
What are we to do?
Problems do they gain,
Just what should I do?
Life is just a game, 
It's not real to me, 
is it real to you?
Living in so much pain, 
What are we to do?

[Verse 2]
I'm sunk into myself so deep.
Why should I open my eyes, again?
Just to awaken...
My heart sits in my throat,
 my tongue is squeezing,
Between my teeth.
My nostrils flare to receive,
Another breath for my empty lungs to fill upon.

[Chorus]
Living in so much pain,
What are we to do?
Problems do they gain,
Just what should I do?
Life is just a game, 
It's not real to me, 
is it real to you?
Living in so much pain, 
What are we to do?


[Verse 3]
My heart pumps pushing me out of dreams,
That I know I should keep.
A black emptiness rolls through my mind, so simply.
Crashing through my brains,
Smashing through my veins,
Just like a freight train.

[Chorus]
Living in so much pain,
What are we to do?
Problems do they gain,
Just what should I do?
Life is just a game, 
It's not real to me, 
is it real to you?
Living in so much pain, 
What are we to do?


Freight Pain

This hip hop track starts with warped, chopped vocal samples and syrupy pitched-down synths, creating a dense, smoky vibe, Heavy 808 bass, glitchy hi-hats, and deep kicks support minimalist, hazy verse melodies, while saturated reverb and huge drops drive the cloud rap and mumble rap textures

[VERSE 1]
Through the mind across my soul.
The hill I climb, it takes its toll.
My shoes worn down.
My mouth is dry.
Long as it takes, by day or night.
I've come so far but I've hardly moved.
Shaking the hands of those I've proved,
wrong but my worth is only mine.
And I'll figure it out, in all my time.
It was me who was wrong,
not all them, right.
Pushed along to find the end.
But the end was right in front of me.
I didn't have to try you see.

[CHORUS] 
Because all is just a waste of time
Use your love and make it all right.
We push so hard for nothing at all.
Climb so high and they'll watch us fall.

[VERSE 2]
I feel I've got my way around
push until the default down.
My levels of our energy.
Are not where they're supposed to be.
I can't keep on pushing, I've lied to myself.
Tricking me that there's something else.
Something better in this world they say.
But I just think it needs to go away.

[CHORUS]
Because all of us could take some time.
To think about the things we like.
And if you pay attention soon you'll find.
All your efforts a waste of time.

[BRIDGE]
And no, no I don't .
No I can't.
See this any more.

[VERSE 3]
Little kids running off to school.
Learning that there's something that's so damn cool
To get the real good grades,
Then get a real good job.
Make their parents proud,
But what's it all for?
You're goanna die. 
You're gonna die, 
And when you're there,
you'll be broke,
just like the rest of us all.
So why you gonna push yourself a little bit harder,
when a little bit harder gets you no more?
It's the way you see.
It dawned on me.
I am sitting here, I cannot believe.
All the things I've said and done.
Is this the mind of an open door?
I don't think I can push no more.
Found the time and the time was more,
than I ever wanted to put forth.
All of this shit does'nt matter no more.
So I have found the end of my line.
When I'm gone you can all sit back and rewind.
reminisce about the things we did.
How we wasted all our time and said,
that we was gonna do something great,
but don't you understand that its just too late.

[CHORUS]
It all just doesn't matter no more.
You won't find what you're looking for.
spend your life worrying about something
that you will never find, time is just wasting.
You always try to find a smile,
but it looks like its gonna take a while.
success is just an empty lie.
Don't  waste your precious time to try.
You know you cannot live here no more.
Start with a plan that's going strong.
you have to work so hard just to get along.

[CHORUS]
Because all of us could take some time.
Use your love and make it all right.
And if you pay attention you will find.
Happiness is a state of mind.



All is Lonely

A fusion of chopped and screwed gangster rap, hip hop, mumble rap, and cloud rap, Starts slow with warped vocal samples and pitched-down synths, Heavy 808 bass underpins glitchy hats, deep kicks, and reverb-drenched effects, Huge drops punctuate verses, blending hazy layers and minimalist melody.

Can't you see
 them all smiling,
 piling up to exit the door now.
Running over each other, 
one another they don't give a fuck how.
Can you see, them sweating,
 caring for nothing but themselves, 
They keep on moving, leave you there to die alone.

And we try to do it right, 
but we know that its sunk deep inside
and we all just want to do what's best for us.
And nobody will help you when you've fallen down and you can't move so get your fucking asses up right now.
The time is passing can't you hear it ticking, running out of it, you're looking over there, but right in front of you is where you need to go but you're gonna stay right there watching all your friends get trampled by the ones that really want it.
 The ones who really want it.
You let them fall
 you watched them die
 and now you're on your way to die as well. You can't 
save yourself 
if you can't save someone else,
 no you can't stop running away. 
Every day. As pathetic as it is.

Cant You See

A moody fusion: 808s and chopped, screwed beats drive the low end, while trip-hop atmospheres swirl under gothic piano and ornate Victorian violin lines, Huge drops amplify tension, Rap verses flow in a haunting, autotuned Jamaican accent, layered atop lush hip-hop textures.

[Verse 1]
Sitting underneath the trees.
My skin goosebumps from the cold day breeze.
The problems I've been facing are much too heavy.
the circumstances and consequences have broke the levy.

[Verse 2]
Put me down to bring you up.
hope you're feeing better, what the fuck,
am I doing with my self?

[Pre-chorus]
My life is a wreck but no one else,
can fix this for me.
 I'm in hell.
and in this misery ,
I will dwell.
I cant take much more of this pain.
i wont speak out no I'll refrain.

[Chorus]
We all live in misery
We all live in misery
we all live in misery 
We all live in Misery

[Bridge]
Ask your self just this one question.
before you die will you accept the lesson?
as you pass through the wisdoms on the table .
Or will you pass under that label?
That you adhered to all through your life.
or have you realized all the time that you tried,
to be better,
 it was for nothing.
wasted your time,
 focused on the wrong thing,
You will receive another chance,
in this realm you'll stay to dance.
Until the truth is what you find,
you'll remain a prisoner of your mind

[Pre-chorus]
My life is a wreck but no one else,
can fix this for me.
 I'm in hell.
and in this misery ,
I will dwell.
I cant take much more of this pain.
i wont speak out no I'll refrain.

[Chorus]
We all live in Misery
We all live in Misery
We all live in Misery
We all live in Misery

Live in Misery

A surreal blend of psychedelic hip hop, triphop, and psychedelic hip hop starts with g;oomy synth pulses and a deep, lo-fi bass groove, Loose, downtempo drums cut through with crisp hi-hats, Echoing piano chords and ambient pads envelop slurred dark male vocals, ethereal  bollywood middle eastern type female harmonies, chill rap verses, and subtle, mournful violins, creating a haunting yet dreamy sonic palette

Verse 1]
As the moon drags across the pollution,
The creatures strive to continue.
The earth follows its usual patterns it seems.
Who can describe this feeling?

[Chorus]
Living in so much pain,
What are we to do?
Problems do they gain,
Just what should I do?
Life is a deadly game, 
It's not real to me, 
is it real to you?
Living in so much pain, 
What are we to do?

[Verse 2]
I'm sunk into myself so deep.
Why should I open my eyes, again?
Just to awaken...
My heart sits in my throat,
 my tongue is squeezing,
Between my teeth.
My nostrils flare to receive,
Another breath for my empty lungs to fill upon.

[Chorus]
Living in so much pain,
What are we to do?
Problems do they gain,
Just what should I do?
Life is a deadly game, 
It's not real to me, 
is it real to you?
Living in so much pain, 
What are we to do?


[Verse 3]
My heart pumps pushing me out of dreams,
That I know I should keep.
A black emptiness rolls through my mind, so simply.
Crashing through my brains,
Smashing through my veins,
Just like a freight train.

[Chorus]
Living in so much pain,
What are we to do?
Problems do they gain,
Just what should I do?
Life is a deadly game, 
It's not real to me, 
is it real to you?
Living in so much pain, 
What are we to do?

What Are We To Do

A spacious ambient intro features bass drone and a simple looping guitar, Thick 808s and soft hi-hats set a slow, laid-back hip hop groove, Autotuned mumble-rap vocals glide atop, while the chorus unveils deep drops, merging sad-rap, cloud-rap, and triphop textures for a dreamy, psychedelic feel.

[Verse 1]
I can see the way I'm affecting you.
I can see the way that you're looking right through,
 me.
I know what you want,
 you're a step away.

[Pre-Chorus]
Maybe it's something that I said,
maybe it's something I might say.
I don't really think that you are up for this.
Looking at me like I am a piece of shit.

[Chorus]
Obnoxious I may be, but I don't hide no lies.
I'm looking at you, you're looking through my eyes.
Oh-no.
it's a pitiful fucking feeling.
It's a Feeling that is not appealing.


I can see the way I'm dragging you down.  
I can see the way that you look through dead eyes.  
Lost.  
I know what you want,  
but you're fading away.  
Every word seems hollow,  
each thought an empty cry.  

[Bridge]
I'm drowning alone in this abyss,  
while you see me as nothingness.  
Detestable I may be, my truth offers no solace.  
I'm staring into the void, just vacant skies.  

[Pre-Chorus]
oh-no
no-no-no 
oh-no,
oh god no

[Chorus]
Oh-no.  
it's a suffocating nightmare.  
It's a despair that pulls you under, without care.
Obnoxious I may be, but I don't hide no lies.
I'm looking at you, you're looking through my eyes.
Oh-no.
it's a pitiful fucking feeling.
It's a Feeling that is not appealing.

Hide no Lies

The song opens with spacious ambient layers, a sustained bass drone, and minimalist, looping guitar, Thick 808s and crisp hi-hats dive in for a laid-back hip hop pulse as autotuned, airy vocals glide overhead, Psychedelic synth swells, heavy drops, lush reverb, hazy pads, and layered rap rhythms saturate the chorus, merging elements of sad-rap, cloud-rap, and triphop for a dreamy, hypnotic effect, Warm pads and brief acapella sections add depth, maintining a relaxed rhythmic flow and epic, atmospheric dimension.

There's a hollow in my heart that screams in silence,  
a reflection of a life tormented by violence.  
In this cycle of despair, hope is bound to fall,  
the echoes of our fate whisper as we crawl.

oh lord
oh nooo noooo
help me lord
oh ohhhh
I can't  take this  broken heart no more
oh please lord
I can't  take this  broken heart no more
no I cant

I watch as I drag you into endless night,  
through eyes that mirror the looming shadows' blight.  
Lost in this void,  
where darkness conspires,  
we're slipping down into the abyss of desires.  
Every word a spectral refrain,  
each thought, an echo of celestial pain.

As the dawn fades and dreams decay,  
we're left in a world that's lost its way.  
The chill of loneliness our only embrace,  
in this endless loop, we find our place. 

no no no
oh lord
oh nooo noooo
help me lord
oh nooooono
I can't  take this  broken heart no more


Heartbreak

Find My Way

Hard-hitting 138 bpm hip hop fused with grime elements, built on punchy 808s, rapid hi-hat triplets, and sharp clicking snares, Verses spotlight rolling bass and melodic, auto-tuned mumble rap, while choruses erupt with sparse synth washes and cut-up vocal chops, anchored by a catchy bass line.

Written by Zachary Alarid, remixed by Xenfool using Suno. All lyrics are written by Zachary Alarid

[Verse 1]
I crawled inside my ego.
To meet a little man inside.
I shook his hand and he sat me down,
He took my mind out for a ride.
He showed me things in people.
Things I'd never seen before.
A lack in understanding.
Has left us always wanting more.
He told me that my face was beautiful.
And said my mind worked in special ways,
That no one could control.
He helped me see the things he liked in me.
And kept me blind from all the ways,
 I didn't want to be.

[Chorus]
I asked him what will happen when I die,,
I wonder now if he is me.
Then who am I?

[Bridge]
Oh nooo no no
lord no,
Cant you see my eyes?
who I saw was not who I am
I never realized

[Verse 2]
He showed me all the ways that I could hide.
Different ways of showing people that I was still alive.
He said without his help I'd fall apart.
In a world so big and a place like,
 this I wouldn't know where to start.
But as he spoke I felt a little chill.
And all the things that moved around me,
 suddenly stood still.
He told me that my face was beautiful.
And said my mind worked in special ways,
 that no one could control.

[Outro]
I asked him what will happen when I die,,
I wonder now if he is me.
Then who am I?

The psychedelic hip hop and triphop track opens with gloomy synth pulses, lo-fi deep bass, and loose downtempo drums with crisp hi-hats, Echoing piano and airy pads set an atmospheric base, Slurred dark male vocals mesh with ethereal Bollywood/Middle Eastern female harmonies and chill rap verses, Mournful violins weave throughout, Epic drops introduce immense sub-bass for sweeping, cinematic impact


[Verse 1]
I've been thinking about you
Day and night, I know
I don't know if you've been thinking about me
Am I some kind of a fucking joke to you?
I see you understand the reasons why
You fucked up this time
'Cause I'm gonna be coming after you
To get every fucking last dime.

[Chorus]
If you didn't think that you could pay the debt
You should have never borrowed that shit, no one.
I'm losing my mind, losing my sleep.
You used to be my friend, but now I'm gonna beat your fucking face in , bro-oh-oho.

[Verse 2]
I've been thinking all damn night about those times when
I've been waiting just for a little fucking payment or something,
But you ain't giving me nothing,  I fucking,

[Pre-chorus]
I ask you every week what you got for me,
You fucking brush it off like, I got nothing for the fucking geek no,
You're gonna fucking find out now,
You're gonna find out now,
Stupid motherfucker


[Bridge]
Motherfucker, motherfucker
Motherfucker, motherfucker
Motherfucker, motherfucker
Motherfucker

[Verse 3]
I've been thinking about you
Day and night, and now,
I don't know if you've been thinking about me
Am I some kind of a fucking joke to you?
I see you understand the reasons why,
You fucked up this time.
'Cause I'm gonna be coming after you,
To get every fucking last dime.

[chorus]
If you didn't think that you could pay the debt
You should have never borrowed that shit, no one
Losing my mind, losing my sleep
You used to be my friend, but now I'm gonna beat your fucking face in, bro-oh-oho.

[Verse 4]
I've been thinking all damn night about those times when
I've been waiting just for a little fucking payment or something
But you ain't giving me nothing.


[Pre-chorus]
I fucking ask you every week what you got for me
You fucking brush it off like,  I got nothing for the fucking geek,  now, 
Boy, You're gonna fucking find out now,
You're gonna find out now,
Stupid motherfucker.

[Bridge]
Motherfucker, motherfucker
Motherfucker, motherfucker
Motherfucker, motherfucker
Motherfucker

Debtology


A moody blend of cloudy synth pads and crackling triphop atmospheres unfolds over a rolling trap beat, Fast, autotuned mumble rap cuts through deep 808s and droning bass in verses, Epic drops punctuate with sudden silence, roaring back with beat surges, Old school hip hop touches emerge, including raspy and soft male vocal alternations, and an acoustic guitar layer adds raw warmth throughout

Vision yourself, lying dead on the ground
and all the blood in the wind, stains the lives all around
on your way up, you  saw a glorious shine 
on your way down, you felt the humanous grime
When you hit ground ,you were lost in a way
A breath of fresh air reintroduces the day
You arise with a new elevation
Calm and alert,  more aware to sensation 

Before you realize what you can't understand
in the moment of question it slips from your hand

You'll never understand it so you'll never know you lost it
your last days you'll recognize and realize why you were sad
You'll always live so empty
  wondering what it is you're missing
 never seeing that its something that you had

[Bridge]
We all live blind
[etheric wails in the distance]
(we all live blind)
We all live blind
[etheric wails in the distance]
(we all live blind)
oh no no 
oh no nooooo naaah
oh lord no
oh no nooooo naaah
[etheric wails in the distance]
(we all live blind)
We all live blind
[etheric wails in the distance]
(we all live blind)
oh lord I don't know what to do,
anymore
oh I need you,
I need you
oh lord no no
I need you, noooooo naaaaahhh

Before you realize what you can't understand
in the moment of question it slips from your hand

You'll never understand it so you'll never know you lost it
your last days you'll recognize and realize why you were sad
You'll always live so empty  
wondering what it is you're missing 
never seeing that its something that you had.

We all live blind
We all live blind

(we wander blind,
through shadows confined,
lost echoes haunt our mind,
We wander blind)

We all live blind
We all live blind





Blinded

Layer swirling synths and hazy soundscapes over a laid-back, deep bass groove, merging psychadellic hip hop and triphop, Ambient textures and airy pads create a dreamy bed, punctuated by crisp hi-hats and loose, downtempo drums, Vocals float with slurred, hypnotic delivery

[verse 1]
 My mind's a disillusion.
I'm confusing, my self-pitty.
For something else, I can't confess.
But I hope someone hears me..

[chorus]
Can't you hear me.
Can't you see me.
Wont you help me.
I'm all by myself.

[bridge]
no, nah, oh, no, nah,
And you won't even know when I'm lost.
You won't even know that I'm gone.
No, oh No, no nah, you don't 
caaaaaarrrrreeee to find out
no oh no nah

[verse 2]
My life is so abusing
Drugs I'm using, to end the hurting
I feel it every day
but I wont say that this will help me

[Chorus]
can't you help me
Can't you save me
 won't you kill me
 before I hurt myself

I'm all by myself

By Myself

hip hop, trap, psychedelic

Flowers in motion
the motions are moving me around,
 and I don't know what to do right now.
Everybody be looking around,
but I'm sitting here with my eyes pointed towards the ground.
Everyone tries to tell me something different,
but they cant tell me nothing that I ain't heard before.
and I know that I, I need to do better,
but I cant do better when I'm stuck in yesterday's door.
I know I tried,
but the motions moving me around
fucking me up inside, I know.
I'm fuckin twisted around,
I'm going backwards down a one way street and now..
Falling apart.
Every time I try to do it different you know I fail yeah.
and I cant do any better,
I just keep getting more upset, and looking at myself, I hate it the most.
She don't know how the fuck to talk to me no more,
you know its pissing me off and that is what it is for.
She's got agendas and she's doing it now,
making her move some way or some how.
Monsters in motion, the motions are moving, they're sliding around.
Calm as an ocean, you know these emotions are going around, and I ,
I don't know what to do when you are fucking around talking all that mad shit to me, no more.
I can not take anymore, you need to shut your fucking mouth and get the fuck out the door.
And the motions, the motions are moving, they're moving to me.
The people in motion, they're moving the most and they don't know where to be.
You didn't want to take the time to listen,
now I'm screaming that shit right down your face.
I don't know what else to do except to try to force you to listen to what I say.
And the motions, the motion the motions are moving, they're moving around.
Calm as an ocean, you know these emotions are going around, and I..
I don't know what to do when you are fucking around talking all that mad shit to me no more.
I just can't take anymore, you need to shut your fucking mouth and get the fuck out the door.
And the motions, the motions are moving, they're moving to me.
The people in motion, they're moving the most and they don't know where to be.
You didn't want to take the time to listen,
now I'm fucking screaming that shit right in your face.
I don't know what else to do, except try to force you to listen to what I say.

Flowers in motion

Opening with intricate doo-wop vocal harmonies over upright bass walks, brushed drums, velvet piano chords, and reverb-soaked guitar, 1950s nostalgia fuses with hip hop textures, Bilingual delivery, with English verses in a pronounced Latino accent, adds zest, The bridge erupts with chain gang claps, booming 808s, and hard-hitting hip hop beats, as saxophone riffs weave seamlessly through both retro and modern sections

"It was muy frijo when I was in la pinta
Trading socks for ramens
 eeeeee ala fuckin verrgas
now I'm here with mi heffita"

[Verse 1]
Pero, Ju still gots dat hoodie on an shit
Socks up to jour knees,
 like a lil cholo,
 ala-vergas
Shivering up in my gordito
When you could melt wit me
Why ju be fighting every yawn
Acting like ju all fine,  an shit
ala vey
When there’s a blanket onda mattress
Built for ju and I

[Chorus]
Lay in dis warm soft bed lil
Nona
Lose all them ropas you don’t need
Come let jour skin breathe ,the vicks I put, lil
Nona
Slide over here, mi ruca
Right up on me, like all close an shit
Warm soft bed, ala-vergas
Nona
Let that cold ass air hit the floor
ju and me all tangled,  mmmm
Nona
Taal me what ju be wearing that for

[Verse 2]
Heater humming all loud in the hall
Still jour fingers freeze
Come trade that faded wife beater
For my hands all up on jour titties
ala verrgas
mi hyna
mi corrozon
Curtins closed like fuck, all dark n shit
The night could wait
We gots all kinds of time to waste
Let the covers learn jour shape
Let my chest be your place

[Chorus]
ala verrgas
mi hyna
mi corrozon
lil fuckin Nona,
ala verrgas
mi hyna
mi corrozon

[Bridge]
Turn off the pinche light
Leave the glow from the street
I’ll trace a line from jour neck to jour feet
Every last stitch
Baby
Let it fall all slow
I want to feel what the blankets don’t even know, ala-verrgas,
lil Nona,
my fine ass Rucca

[Chorus]
ala verrgas
mi hyna
mi corrozon
lil fuckin Nona,
ala verrgas
mi hyna
mi corrozon
lil Nona

Warm Soft Bed, Nona

Glassy dream pop synth pads flow under swirling, effects-heavy guitars and delicate electronic percussion, Verses build gradually, layers stacking with airy textures, Massive, layered drops unleash deep bass, explosive drums, and lush wall-of-sound guitars, offering true ear candy

[Verse 1]
I know we tried
I watched it as it died
It left me standing there
Nowhere to run, nowhere to hide
You know I'm scared
And unprepared
Visions seen in my mind
Come back and haunt me if you dare
The people stare
As they walk by
And it doesn't bother me
Anymore I wonder why
We see the truth
It chipped my tooth
You say I'm missing something
I say I'm missing you

seen the truth

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Zach Alarid

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