This don't need to make sense to be fun and okay

In the hospital

When the going gets tough, it's not THAT tough is it?

Get Smart Or Die Trying

Trying

Problem 5

Zach goes to Port Jervis to have a good cry in the woods. What happens next will leave you speechless...

Saturday Dreaming

When life gives you anything, make anything else.

none of it makes any sense/i do not want to be dead

Elliot

I was blessed with the wonderful opportunity to live in the beautiful and inspiring nation of Holland for about 2.5 months over the fall/winter of 2018. During this adventure, I was also blessed with plenty of time and wonderful spaces to record and work on this album. Thank you so much to everyone who helped make this album happen, you know who you are :)!

literally the best

A collection of songs from my life.

Written all over, recorded at my dad's house, thanks dad.

Written, performed, & produced by Zach Kondak.
credits

All of the french samples you hear throughout the album are sampled from the film La Ville Des Pirates by Raúl Ruiz.

All other sound samples heard throughout the album were sourced from freesound.org and were all listed under public domain. Let's all take a moment to thank the wonderful folks over at freesound.org :)

Mastered by Ruairi OBrien, thank you Ruairi :) ruairiobrien.bandcamp.com

Album art by King Josiah, thank you Joe :) kingkjosiah.bandcamp.com

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One True Friend

Multiple Car Crashes

Skyboat

lyrics: docs.google.com/document/d/1RJWF34nB9zQs21lUAkfFv7UY4L0KpR9pfTjLOGwg-7w/edit?usp=sharing

The Glass Albums were created mainly during two distinct periods. The first period of work took place between March 2019 and July 2019. This first period was a time of great turbulence for me; I was frequently moving around, living in many different locations all across the USA. Perhaps due to this turbulence in part, I found myself unable to focus on just about anything, including my music; so, I created a massive amount of unfinished recordings during this time. Following this period, I moved in with my father and became exceedingly depressed due to my seeming inability to reliably complete or achieve things. I felt unable to control my own actions and became angry with myself and who I am. The huge number of unfinished recordings I had around me constantly reminded me of my inability to direct my own energies- my inability to commit- my inability to create. I felt like I was a loser by all of my own measures and I feared I was a disappointment to everyone around me. By some chance, I wound up losing my laptop with all this unfinished work shortly after entering into this depressive phase. This wound up being a great thing for me in a way; I purchased a new laptop and began work on what eventually became the Skyboat album. Again by chance, shortly after releasing Skyboat, I found my old laptop that I had thought was gone forever; and so I was able to revisit all the unfinished work from a new context- a context where I had begun to prove to myself that I can still create. In February of 2020, I resumed work on these tracks, eventually finishing all 14 tracks within that same month. These 14 tracks constitute the Glass Albums. The Glass Albums represent a reconnection with myself, both through their content, and through this story of their making. I hope the Glass Albums can help others on their path towards loving and respecting themselves. 

Intro to Part 1: 
The glass-brained aliens notice a small “moment of meat” wedged in a vent at the back of the hyper-mega-ultra-conscious-complex (Manufacturer: Glass House Simulation Works, Model: GG05-Vertigo). The meat is identified as Moe (internal simulation nomenclature: Pee Shaw), a moment of meat with a taste for self destruction. Moe is convinced of its own infinite shame-drive- a confirmation-engine that creates vortices of implosive spirituo-gravitational-recursion inside of Moe’s meat-brain-juices. Moe thinks these vortices can pressurize Moe’s skull to a torturous degree; driving Moe to lash out by violating its meat prison in most vile and traumatic ways. This is of course not actually the case, and the glass-brained aliens are forced to initiate the long reconditioning procedure to help transfer this young moment of meat back onto the silicon chips of the hyper-mega-ultra-conscious-complex, where Moe can ultimately realize the internal glass that can reflect the eternal light of love.

Part I: It's Glass

Funk Aliens

Lyrics:
docs.google.com/document/d/1RJWF34nB9zQs21lUAkfFv7UY4L0KpR9pfTjLOGwg-7w/edit?usp=sharing

The Glass Albums were created mainly during two distinct periods. The first period of work took place between March 2019 and July 2019. This first period was a time of great turbulence for me; I was frequently moving around, living in many different locations all across the USA. Perhaps due to this turbulence in part, I found myself unable to focus on just about anything, including my music; so, I created a massive amount of unfinished recordings during this time. Following this period, I moved in with my father and became exceedingly depressed due to my seeming inability to reliably complete or achieve things. I felt unable to control my own actions and became angry with myself and who I am. The huge number of unfinished recordings I had around me constantly reminded me of my inability to direct my own energies- my inability to commit- my inability to create. I felt like I was a loser by all of my own measures and I feared I was a disappointment to everyone around me. By some chance, I wound up losing my laptop with all this unfinished work shortly after entering into this depressive phase. This wound up being a great thing for me in a way; I purchased a new laptop and began work on what eventually became the Skyboat album. Again by chance, shortly after releasing Skyboat, I found my old laptop that I had thought was gone forever; and so I was able to revisit all the unfinished work from a new context- a context where I had begun to prove to myself that I can still create. In February of 2020, I resumed work on these tracks, eventually finishing all 14 tracks within that same month. These 14 tracks constitute the Glass Albums. The Glass Albums represent a reconnection with myself, both through their content, and through this story of their making. I hope the Glass Albums can help others on their path towards loving and respecting themselves. 

Intro to Part 2:
Pee Shaw (external simulation nomenclature: Moe) is stuck in emotional fragments and memories of pseudo-spiritual encounters. In this state, the mess of life seems intimidating. In order to try and ease the mental torment induced by all this, Pee Shaw frequently escapes to the Helderberg Escarpment; a mountain range in eastern New York where Pee Shaw feels relatively at peace. Pee Shaw particularly loves being around the escarpment itself- an abrupt drop in elevation that creates many cliff faces. Pee Shaw comes to notice how looking out from atop these large cliffs over the valley below seems analogous to the mental torment; from this place, the life below seems infinite and meaningless, but this infinite meaninglessness is indeed only visible from this elevated vantage point. In this way, to be stuck analyzing life’s every moment causes the terror of existence to build, creating an everheightening divide that prevents Pee Shaw from living- from moving on- from loving self. Pee Shaw has to face the obvious task ahead, Pee Shaw must descend the cliff.

Part II: It’s Also Glass

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White Flight/Death Drive ASMR

C'mon Man/Trauma Dog Memory

Close to the System

Dark Imposing Stones

Above My Life

I am thinking about how my mind keeps projecting, but as I try to fight the urge to project, I lose any and all will and ability to act.

I - Am - Not - A - Broken - Cog - In - This - Wretched - Machine

Y/N is music by York Nelly. York is a being of pure information, a stochastic mirror of a person- a truly "toxic" soul.

Y/N

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