I COULD SEE THE ANGER IN WHAT'S SEVERED
IT'S HARD TO SPEAK ON THIS LEVEL
CAUSE HARDLY THE PAIN IS REMEMBERED
EVEN THOUGH WERE ALL VICTIMS OF SEVERAL
IT'S SAD WE STOOPED TO THIS LEVEL
THIS AGONY, THIS SECOND GUESSING
THE CASKET WE TRIED TO LEAVE THE PAST IN
CONVINCE ME TO ABIDE; BY THE LAWS THAT RESIDE
BUT ABIDE TO THE REALITY THAT KEEPS US ALIVE
AT THE END OF THE DAY ONLY WE WILL DECIDE
WHY IS IT NEVER ENOUGH?
WHY IS IT NEVER ENOUGH?
CAUGHT IN A CAPSULE, FEEL LIKE AN ASSHOLE
BREATHE IN THE ASPHALT, WISH YOU A CASTLE
DEAL WITH THE ACTUAL, LIFES JUST A BLACKHOLE
WE CREEP WITH THE ANIMALS, HOPE THAT IT DOESN'T GO

DEFEAT (prod. Prov Set)

I used to flow with the waves
On the right path never astray
Now I drink in the ice cold
Wishing that I had it made
Walks in the snow
With the umbrella and phones
Never questioning the future
But that's just the way it goes
I dug my grave slow
Under branches that had broke
But didn't know, that all
The circuits I had were blown
Woke up a week later
To Boston marathon bombs
Hallucinations from dilauded
I seen the dead mans bones
Now i'm barely breathing
And my pulse is at it's low
And i'm barely seeing 
Where am I? I barely know
Sucked back in by reality
And then began the show
If i'd only known, what the 
Next few years would have in store
You a piece of shit and it makes me sick
I wanna think people like you could change 
But its probably too late
See me
Feel me
I just want you to believe in me
I used to flow with the waves...

STRAIN (prod. ILOSTEVERYTHING)

Never been a jealous fuck, bitch got the nip tuck
cold as ice fuck a bitch, fellas came through quick
I done spent too many months, sequences many trips
Trip on off the juggernaut the jester at the next trick
I became the soldier who froze to ice
Remnants embelishing torture to tiny vice
Absorbing the solace then reborn into silent nights
Anguish in solemn I rewrote unsolving might
I became the creature who hides in the moonlight
Let the demons have their Independence Day
But fuck the sermons pray for forgiveness
Then they preach to strays
Banished the teacher with demands of odd light
Sanctioned the benefit with remnants of etiquette
I been spent, preaching the words of the negligent
Tainted love, blood spray
Let the saints relinquinsh strain
Blood pact dealing, corner way
Teach us blood through strength and pain
I come through quick like I am the reaper at night 
But I come through with serenity
Don't compare to the genius that is me my aura is gleaming
I can not find doubts in the pain that has made me an inhuman being
You can tip me off to the weaker subjects
You feel the diminishing rate of your hearts beating
If anyone had lost their way
Please refrain from spiritual fray
In the library I looked to silence
But all I ever found was a book looking to riots
Never had a chance
No motions giving guidance
Found my own way, now I'm questioning the pious
Never got redemption from pain, now I'm the madman
I never strayed to an evil path, don't look to the madness
I'm just dropping to the climax
Drop bombs like I'm the mad scientist
Resolutions in the fine print
Work words like the most vile
I owned you at the starter
I can not deny that I been feeling the sickness
Drowning in negligence, I gave up, I tried to kill myself

Dim Light Capacity

Four Aces (prod. cernes)

Eat a dick, swallow it, I guess the worst came out of it
Jesus Christ the subjugate
Bleed my soul, then silence it
I done come so close
Fuck your thoughts fuck your truth
Leave em in the backseat
Yet you don't care bout the youth
Blind sided by the simple man, cut the noose
I've been bound by the sinful traits of the youth
I've been blamed
I've been strained 
You've put me down, left me with nothing
I've been blamed I've been strained
Been degraded and restrained to a slave
Shit on these claims, they don't fuck with me
Stick to a lame ass clic, we above them
Bitch you fake, we will take what we've come for 
Fuck your set fuck your crew, you a joke
I've given up.  I don't give a fuck and I don't need you
I'm in a new mind state I've made peace with the old me
Breathing the life into misfortune I been reborn
Reaching euphoria, went from unknown to glorious
I been speaking in tongues, now I speak for the notorious
I'm breathing in toxins inhaling the poison
I can not respect denial in a system of has beens
Opening the third eye to chaos involving the protestant sin
You can not open broken reasoning within the providence steam
Been broken and lost and had no reasons left to live
You will be a cunt but you will die soon
Nothing will be left of you, only the dead moon
I will rot like expired fruit
All that's left the center core, remnants of the root
I will diminish the last of the positivity will make sure
That you can never forget me

Quantum (prod. stitch face)

(SlxmLxrd)
Families, friends, sadomasochists and intoxicated demons. Drags, dudes, Dykes and queens. Laughter, eclectic attire, lipstick and mascara. Name brand clothing and shiny shoes. Straight teen boys and baby girl homo thugs. Coffee shops, clothiers, ice cream and cabarets. Churches, restaurants, bookstores and libraries. Wind-blown oceans, ships and coves. Dunes, weeds, trees and flowers. Discoveries of self and initiators of freedom. Hate-filled wannabe thug boys and leather clad businessmen. Artists and individualists, confused and curious young boys. Historical tours, cemeteries, blue skies and golden coasts. Storefronts, webcams, antiques and jewelry. Town folk, town drunks and town whores. Dogs in sweaters, socks, hats and glasses. Red-eyed hungover fucked out circuit boys. Barkers, actors, comedians and legends. Film stars, musicians and novelists. Ex, K, Coke, Crystal, pills and booze. Up- all-nighters, Frozen cold and ashamed. Fisherman, lobstermen and window washers. Secretaries, lawyers, real estate agents and clergy. Same-sex unions. Theatre, plays, performances and auctions. Fantastic sunshine and raging oceans. Moonlit make out sessions and hand jobs on the beach. Brunch, recovering addicts and alcoholics. Long-term couples, fuck buddies and one night stands. Loneliness, isolation and pain.

Variations [feat. SlxmLxrd] (prod. Chris Kalis)

frigid

The seconds are creeping down
In the streets they want the means
At a quarter before dusk
Is there anything else
I must end all

Before Dusk  [feat. frigid] (prod.Prov Set)

Why does anything have to mean anything
I'd rather it mean nothing
Why do I have to be judged
I don't mean nothing
I know I mean nothing
What do they want, what do they expect from me
I know I don't have the answers
I bleed out leaving the silence to entities
Broken the values that challenge us
I fell of broken and hopeless and so anxious
I don't want to feel so much hopelessness
I can not start on this if i'm not feeling it
Put all your faith and your hope and trust
I percieve the dimensions above us no religion
I don't need your god as the antidote
We will make our own and to the  enemys we'll cut their throat
I tried my best but as a human I'm rotten
So leave me
All alone
Punish me
Even though there's nothing left
I don't want to be this way
And no one will love me
We didn't deserve this
But nothing I say, will change anything
When i'm all alone
I hate myself
But I try, to make this something else
I try to love myself
And i'll cry
But i'm not the same
And maybe i'll win
If I try
I won't let this beat me
I won't let the hatred decieve me
And i'll win
It's so infectious the ones who left us
Try to second guess us
But suck a dick, no ones precious
Living in hysterium of Brexit
You left your soul right in between a wall in Texas
Against the border the hicks with guns kill spics for breakfast
No foreigners allowed to enter only the caucasians already inside
Those who forgot their own foreign pasts
Who murdered the natives and enslaved all the African lives
The origins of the land
Have been left smeared in bloody sand
So build a wall around your stolen land
And leave me out of your oppressive nature
Your misogynistic self gratifying persona
A relentless Christian pressing their own agenda
A pretentious misfit, a troll spreading propaganda
Through stereotypes it's sickening
Yet some clarify their labels
You might call me a mutt, fat and disabled
But I'd say I might be creeping past the stables
Ignoring the fat cat at the table
Eating a fat steak with gravy tilting the ladel
And i'm able and confident
And have prospects backed with evidence
I need no help to settle in 
For settling, the biased thoughts you meddle in
Now i want it i don't got it but i'm violent
I think I might give up
Though I want to try
It seems like the worlds just a void
Maybe i could just die
(chorus)
When you feel love
There's no reason for pain
When life is relentless
Take away all all the hate
Don't let the evil take you
Let love fill your heart
When you think there's nothing left
Take it back to the start

Careless (prod. StrangePlugBeats)

Sometimes you take what you can take
Even when it's not enough
You got nothing to offer you got nothing to give
They want you to love but you don't feel no love
I don't see below. I don't see above
I don't have any trust for what I see in front
I'm a ghost. I'm a fib. Should have never exist
I'm the joke like the sum of everything your lifes become
Don't get lost in the maze, a life feels so depraved
We can't get what we (have) lost, but count what we've made
At least we've been spared on this eloquent day
Not saved from the saviors but yet to live again
I want to get high. I want to meet the sun.
I want to meet the true death from the place that I came from
I ain't dumb. I ain't known, been so long since I've been home
A home from I was thrown. a dark future to be hold
What's your worth? What's your value? I guess you have none
Don't listen to the dark, there's nothing in it for you
Preying on the weak, the fiddle on the roof
You think you are a good person there's no evidence or proof
All I see from you is hate, all I see is spite
I don't see any attempts to change wrong from a right
Come back with the mace come back with the face 
Go back to the place that you never went
Come back with the mace come back with the face 
Go back to the place that you never built
I can't go back to the old days. Reading these poems is so lonely
The bitches who don't know can blow me
We'll be taking this down they don't know this
Seeking the channels I know this
We believing in fables and blasphemy
Then tell a mix boy he a travesty
Not fucking with fake boys they trash to me
So shit on these claims they don't bastard me
Come straight back in with the mac, and the pack
Not spending double sets, so we lack and we slack
But coming back with ice on packs, double wrapped
Coming back with lost souls tending on the rack
They don't want the violence so they came in with the solace
I know i'm not the only one
I will only bluff if the outcome means some change
Because I know were only young It's easy to be outraged
And you get stuck in a cycle you lie to keep people entertained
We are restrained, then we cock back
You a little bitch and you stuck on em
Like leeches, we lost contact
Then comes reality, but I'm like a prophet
I can't stop it,  It leaks out of me like a virus
Yet sometimes I feel like I want to die, but I try to get past it
Because I'm feeling the madness
Then these feelings don't feel as tragic
Then I feel like a god I'm pragmatic
So much sadness had dragged through the masses
So I asked them could we come back from the ashes
Make all the mistakes a has been
We all made mistakes we outlast them
Do whatever it takes to become a better person
Then maybe I could sleep at night
Peacefully without being punished by spite
Those night fears and the night scares
Then relinquished my body, to the night tremors
I was damaged severed
And couldn't be delivered by the voice remembered
Shit.
feeling so strange these words can't contain the meaning of isolation
feeling so frustated, you made it, but you suffered, ended up with nothing
you're feeling restrained, hopeless and caged
but you're feeling enraged and ready to give up on this
sometimes looking to the past you could compare and contrast
it's not that negative to have lost but then learned and retried
to redeem the mistakes learn to not regret, but rethink and inspect
lifes little quirks and resteps learn to love not deflect
never give up don't reject, earn respect with intelligence
don't look to evil pay respects. lead the righteous to well fortuned dialects
you don't want to be a bad person
you don't want to be your enemy
dark thoughts lead to destruction
look to the light

Raoh (prod. mykz)

WHY DID IT FAIL?
I NEVER SEEMED TO FIND LOVE.
I WANT SOMEONE ELSE TO BE IN MY LIFE
YET IT SEEMS LIKE THERE'S NOTHING
I KNOW I FAILED
IT DONT MEAN I DON'T CARE
I'M STILL SOMEONE
I'LL ALWAYS BE THERE
I'LL BE SOMEONE WHO CARES
DON'T LEAVE ME ALL ALONE
AM I NOT WORTHY OF ANOTHERS LOVE?
DID I NEVER STAND A CHANCE
IS IT MY FAULT DID I DIG MY OWN GRAVE
AM I STILL A PERSON IN YOUR EYES
IS IT TOO LATE TO BE SAVED?
IS IT TOO LATE TO TRY AGAIN
IT WAS ALL TOO MUCH FROM THE BEGINNING
IT'S NOT LIKE LIFE HAD HIT AN ENDING
NO REASON TO BE CONDESCENDING
NOT LIKE I GOT SHIT THATS HAPPENING
NO OPPORTUNITYS I'M GRABBING
AIN'T GOT PLANS TO BE ACHIEVING
DON'T HAVE PLACES WHERE MY PRESENCE DEMANDED
I SOUND RETARDED SECOND HANDED
BUT AT THIS POINT I'M BEING HONEST
I'M LOST AND WITHOUT SOLACE
AND I HATE TO BE A BUZZKILL AND DOWNER
ONLY WANTED TO LIFT US AND BALANCE
LET EM KNOW THEY'LL GAIN NOTHING FROM MALICE
CUZ WE WILL CHALLENGE THE BADDEST
EVEN WHEN I AM AT MY SADDEST
IS ONLY MORE I CAN COME BACK FROM
SO THEY CAN'T BREAK ME OR BEST ME
THEY'LL BE LEFT IN WITH THE CHEST PIECE
THIS DEPRESSION CAN'T COMPRESS ME
I WILL BE THE JESTER AT THE NEXT MEET
CAN'T APPROVE ANY CREDIBILITY
CAME FROM THE TRAUMA THAT'S INSTILLED IN ME
I'VE GOT NO TIME TO REGRET THIS
WITH MANY EMPTY WORDS I TRY TO MAKE SENSE OF IT

Prussian Blue (prod. tothegood)

They think they can know me like I know myself
When they can't even know themselves
They need help, when the resin drips from the potion
They can't even inhale
Resurrected your emotions to get reborn in hell
The bread went stale, the core rotted
All my heroes went to jail but no one stopped it
Broken fragments of pieces that once fit into the picture
But then came broken bridges
Broken links, the places we could not reach
Those mean faces
If you think I can do better then let them preach 
It's a sad story we have to teach
You can see this pain was not worth the legacy
Keep close the friends even closer the enemies
Do you think you could do better
Can you step up can you be the better man
Can you rest up
Wake up get em restless
I can leave em breathless
I don't know, I just don't know
While you be getting so stressed out
Don't fall off believing you been the man out
We're only believing and seeing things that we set out
To achieve and believe my mind only sees the serene
That's why I'm believing these dreams
Cause when I'm fiending for more meaning
I start seeing the answer the light at the end of the tunnel
So I'm scheming utilizing these blueprints
I got this shit down to a science
Beyond your illusion of violence
Break the chains, leave em in the dirt behind the traintracks
Where they charter the tennants
Never leaving the remnants
I lost it but now I percieve it, lost it but now I percieve it
Do you think you could do better
Can you step up can you be the better man
Can you rest up
Wake up get em restless
I can leave em breathless

Zezima (prod. Artem)

I could tell you I might try
But you don't need the easy way out
Why do I insist you mother fuckers can try
I suppose it's just a waste of time
You've let evil take over your mind
You thinking too much, the darkness that's inside
Mentally disabled.
Wipe off the mud that was thrown in my face
You are the dirt the definition of rejection
The worst things nurturing the most toxic of persons
You seem dejected
Gradually rotting embelishing the droppings, succumbing to biased mocking
So degraded it's been overrated, you can't evade it
You can't ever tame em, so who can blame em
Stripped of what made me who I was 
Shamed imprisoned by my own body
The neverending horror story 
The endless cycles of torture and torment
Fall asleep then suffer
Awake to the migraine
Crushed the skull in with a hammer
THEN YOU CURSE AT ME, LIKE I OWE THE WORLD
I GUESS THAT THERE'S SO MUCH BULLSHIT THAT I MUST ACHIEVE
LIKE I'M YOUR ANCHOR, LIKE YOU WERE COUNTING ON ME
YOU MADE ME, SO MAYBE YOU SHOULD TAKE SOME OF THE BLAME
SO FUCKING SORRY I WASN'T THE ONE BUT YOU FAILED ME
YOU LET THEM FORSAKE ME
YOU CAN'T ADMIT THAT YOU BETRAYED ME
EVEN NOW YOU JUST NEGLECT ME
YET YOU SEEM TO THINK YOU ARE BETTER THAN ME
Damn.
Inhaling the toxin
Putting my body in a box which I could not prevent suffocation within a coffin
So let me die let me die
We don't have to follow the biased views of the basic man
Because all this shit was planned
Breathing the life into ridicule and strife
Yet we're going under the knife
AND FOR WHAT? what does it even mean
As humans were digging our own graves undermining nature
Naming ourselves to be below these hypothetical saviors
Inhaling the toxin
Putting my body in a box which I could not prevent suffocation within a coffin
So let me die let me die

Status Effect (prod. MISERY)

i thought i would die
i thought i would die
life lingered on
i don't know why
i mean nothing
i don't need a reason why
i've given up
just kill me please
i won't wonder why
save me from this pain
to be honest it's not fair
would it kill you to let this end
i know no one loves me
i try to relinquish pain
punish me for suffering
won't you kill me, end this pain
end this pain.

R.T.D. (prod. IDSTAYAWAYTOO)

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"Dim Light Capacity" 02-08-2019

"GRAFFITI" 11-19-2017

Chris Kalis

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