In the first verse I sing about my disappointment for this year because I couldn't be with the girl I love even though I waited so patiently for her. And even when I was with her, she acted like I don't mean a thing to her anymore. I want to forget about her and move on but no matter how much I drink i'll never forget about her.

The second verse is about my mother. I've always hated my mother because no matter what I do I can never please her and it feels like everything I do is a mistake to her. But even so, I always wanted to prove myself to her that I will make her proud. But whenever I try to do something good, life always has to screw up all at once even if it wasn't my fault and I've failed my mom again. I'm really doing better on my own without her, but in her eyes, I'm a failure who can't do shit. I really want her to just drop down and die but, I'm her son so of course I hate myself for thinking that. It's hard to want that. At the very least I don't want us to be a part of each other's lives anymore. I don't want her to expect anything of me because it's these expectations that I can't reach that make me feel like I'm failing.

No matter what I do to relax and make me feel comfortable, and even help me forget... I can never get these two out of my mind even if I wanted to...

Lyrics:
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Well I thought this year would take a turn for us
But it feels like I've been wasting my time
Waiting for you
My every first drink is on you
I have to lay back now
Wishing wanting to forget

You're on my mind
I can't get you out
Are you thinking of me
cuz you act like you don't even care

Well I thought this year that I could prove myself
But life just screws up everytime I try
I'm doing better without you
Every second drink is on you
I can't hold back now
It's hard to wish for you to disappear

You're on my mind
Please just get out
Stop thinking of me
cuz you'll be hurting both you and me

This pain on my chest
This ache on my head
I'll clench my fists and break my promises
I want you to know
I don't want to know
I want to forget

Time stands still
As I put away the lighter
I'll remember
And never forget

Zen Naari