To the people that hurt me and hate me, I get where you're coming from so, I guess that's okay. "Hater's cause they ain't us" - Dave Skylark AHHA

Lyrics:
I ain’t live a thug life, I’m just a simple asian kid,
I undermined ma mind and mined a million thoughts to bits,
Keep my depression in hidden, cause I was silly too,
I felt the richest when I had a million thoughts of you,
High School was stupid, I was bullied but I needed that,
I did some stupid shit, was heartless but that was the fact,
I had a couple friends I barely saved,
they do protect me but I’m heading down to dig my grave,

I’m enslaved, strangled by the pain,
no morphine or panadol would compensate the shit I gained,
here we go again, twirling in this spiral,
I’m a sick little boy with his illness going viral,
I’m not a smart kid, I barely get the better grades,
I’m passing class but I ain’t learning things without the aid,
Ain’t scared of dying, but my future, yeah well I’m afraid,
I’m clawing at my fingers but I’m diggin’ up my grave,

Mummy Mummy did I really change?
or am I going on about myself and acting strange,
Call helplines Franco? Yeah that never works,
there’s not a second of the day where I’m not feeling hurt,
hear ye, ya hear me? Listen to my voice,
I’m never sad for stupid reasons,
I’m just sad without a choice,
Agree to disagree about me now,
you’ll never judge me cause you’ll never know how long or how,
much I had to get through just to keep my heart,
from disintegrating into paper then just tear apart.
Fair a tear a listen to the way I’m talking bout my pain,
listen to the sadness, listen to the strain,
listen to me try to recollect and smile again,
I’m blowing out the dust but then go back to diggin’ graves
back to diggin’ graves, back to diggin’ graves,
Ain’t got a shovel here but I’m diggin’ graves

Let’s gamble here, I’ll grab a pair of dice,
I’m snakin’ round the circuit with my clerk of lies,
Father help me I am paralyzed,
I’m only trying to live this life to reach the paradise,
I swear I’ve tried to see the better days,
the memories of you would never fade away,
would you lay beside me if they put me down today?
Or would you watch me sink into the ground, while I’m diggin’ graves..

Which one?

2:25
I’m a broken little sadist with a sadder twist,
I ain’t wartorn, never forlorn just a pacifist,
I’ve been tossed up , thrown out, like a pack a shit,
always thinking back to how I barely got to this,
where I’m going, why I’m living, what I’m learning for,
I can’t be happy, I ain’t living, I deserve no more,
I’m only happy when I think about me diggin’ graves,
I try to keep myself afloat but then what’s left to save.






Diggin' Graves

So listen why you tryna block me,
I just wanna help you more,
Lost my set of keys,
So please do let me back right through the door,
I will do my best for you, I give you love and my support,
I will never fail until you do not need me anymore,


Simple tracks, little facts, I know you in and out,
Favourite kind of food and music,
Take you out to In N Out,
Listen I do love you,
Hey I need you, let me scream and shout,
I just need you happy even for me, are we working out?


I know that you tryin’ your best girl,
I know I ain’t trying to test you,
I’m proud of you, keep up the best girl,
I know that I will not forget you,
I know that you tryin’ your best girl,
I know I ain’t trying to test you,
I’m proud of you, keep up the best girl,
I know that I will not forget you,


Listen, I know that you ain’t happy,
I fully understand what you mean ‘bout feeling crappy,
No slapstick or humour right now, so we ain’t slappy,
But you have every right when you’re angry to fully slap me,


It’s time to start clean, sweep up on this slate,
Clear up our main dates, and fixate on this freight,
The weight of our own fates,
We’ll get there, at this rate,
I wanna let you know, all you’ve done I appreciate,


I know that in the future, we may not be,
In fact we maybe even concrete,
But hey try understand while on this beat,
Carry you through long streets,
And sweep you up by your feet,
Each day by each week,
Baby I feel weak,
Tears fall down my cheek,
look away, just don’t peek,
You were there when I was low,
At great lengths and high feats,
You were dreams to me whenever I could never get sleep,


I know that you tryin’ your best girl,
I know that I ain’t trying to test you,
I’m proud of you, keep up the best girl,
I know that I will not forget you,
I know that you tryin’ your best girl,
I know I ain’t trying to test you,
I’m proud of you, keep up the best girl,
I know that I will not forget you,


I understand that you did your best, 
I’ll never let go of the memories,
I understand that you’re hurt though,
I only hope you could remember me,
The truth really hurts all the time,
Am I allowed to ask you if you’re really fine,
Or did you have fun in the little time,
Right in the moment where I’d call you mine,
But I will grow, though I’d leave you,
This doesn’t mean I don’t need you,
Some sleepless nights I must sleep through,
But I must go cause I need to..

Lost In Translation

We go wax in, then wax out,
Max amp and then aux out,
Input in my beats, can I get meal off of these streets,
Can I get a scandal up on TMZ,
Murder shit up with BMZ,
Bitches, Money, Zion,
That ain’t the real meaning but it means to me that,
That I need uh, that I need uh,
That I need to try,
Y’all wanna try diversify,
Add me onto your team,
I’mma finna Peter Pan up your dreams,
I’mma be a Chris Rock on that mic stand,
Cap’n Cook up in Neverland,
Cause we high as fuck that we never land,
I’m like Kendrick with no runny nose,
Drake up with no pussy flow,
Santa up with them mistletoes,
Peach, Menage a trois, Mario,
Luigi gon’ bleach thee,
And clean up with them squeegees,
And then Daisy on Disney,
And that knee, crossover gon’ balls deep,
Fuck I’m ballin’ like Wall Street,
Grindin’ up your main squeeze,
Then I get her on my wall, floor, street,
Horse shit on that horse meat,
Horse head on my bed,
Got my oranges on my dreads,
I’mma spread blood on my burgundy,
I’m in anger man, just scout me like you an anchorman,
I’m Ferrel up in this bitch, “You know I don’t speak Spanish”,
Fab? Does he look like a bitch? Make him backstroke with them fish,
And then freestyle with these senile, legendaries of BMZ,

These legendaries of BMZ,

I’ma go Super Saiy- like DBZ,

1:50
I rather prefer if you figgas heard my music like cows in a slaughterhouse,
my flow is consistent and fast so y’all need to listen up, hear what I’m all about,
I go doof in room, like a Mazda on zoom,
Like a mouth tryna rattle a minigun, infinite doom,
Sip on that Holy Grail, snuck in a goon,
I’m from Earth, I ain’t sailing on moon,
Fuck y’all free martians, don’t use autotune,
Hiroshima, cause I’m bombin’ like boom,
Ain’t a loony, but I’m childish and toon,
I’d be the last one to get plastered,
When up pissin’ up with Prince Bastard,
Slit you up by the throat,
Flip them birdies over them moats,


I go hard like I’m Mozart,
Warheart like I’m Joan of Arc,
Awkward like an aardvark,
Free-dumbs like Braveheart,
Jeez, us? Need an amen,
Hell’s cookin’ need an apron,
Y’all do want me to stay man,
I’ll dumb it down like I’m rain man,
Just bring me onto your team,
I fluctuate with them greens,
I kamikaze on three,
With my blades directed on spleens,
Y’all are dinos, Should’ve went to specs,
Look at me now, I’m the youngest and fresh,
You need me in here, y’all closer to death,
I’m too uber on flows, I do not need no breath,

Scout

If I could I freeze time, I could feel pace,
Freeze pride, I can fill space,
Spaced out like a boom beat in a boom bap,
On some new trace,
Trace lines, I’m on cocaine,
Russ Pete, I be jokin’,
Nirvana I be floatin’ like,
MH on a broke wing,
Floatin’ more like crashing,
Sad humour, I be jokin’,
Sad life am on cocaine,
Restart, leaving no trace,
Boop beep badaboombap,
Repetition in my own space, 
Lose pace? I’mma freeze time,
Maybe rewind all the loose change,

But still the titans they collapsin’ on me,
Crush me like I am nobody, so I stay nobody,
My music is to fill the gaps where people no creative,
Y’all clearly faded when you criticise y’all damn abrasive,

0:53
Merciless metaphors, murder is main event,
Weapons of Mass Destruction, how many dollars spent,
Monsters in charge of countries, why do we charge the hungry,
Primitive intellect, reverting back to fucking monkeys,
Ah hoo hee a who gon’ be there when world’s collapsin’,
Phone me a telegram, people are cable strangling,
Hitch me another hiker, hitch me oh God I’m stranded,
Woke up a human being, next day a manic martian,
‘Manity’s fighting for me, Hatred damn I adore thee,
Mama you lookin’ at me? I’m changin’ my own nappies,
I’ve grown to be hella strong, too right so I’m never wrong,
They left me I’m all alone finna means Imma write more songs, 
Finna means I’mma lyrically, find things that are killing me,
Write down what it means to be, a shitty rapper in the industry,
Fuck am I supposed to be?

But still the titans they collapsin’ on me,
Crush me like I am nobody, so I stay nobody,
My music is to fill the gaps where people no creative,
Y’all clearly faded when you criticise y’all damn abrasive,

1:56
Lord I am capable, mental but still stable,
Work till my fingers bleed to put shit on my own table,
Grind when there is no friction,
Winning is my addiction,
Death is the final game I play, I fuck with premonitions,
I see the future, hate the present and resent my past,
At 19 years of age I’m barely phased and on my ass,
I’m on the page are you the same or are your eyes all glass,
Barely focused on me so what in the fuck you looking at?
You’re picking at me damn y’all figgas hella so elusive,
I get I understand that I’ve become so damn abusive,
Am not a man I am a child in progress slowing growing,
How does a child become a man even without him knowing?
Ain’t getting dome but I do know that my own life is blowing,
Climax has slowly gone, and now my path is now corroding,
I’m OCD, you feeling me? My bars are so explosive,
My train of thought is motor speed feel like an automotive, 
No time to clean my flow, I have a greater ulter-motive,
I wanna be part of this game and change it just like Jay did,
I wanna be mental insane just like ‘Ye and Dre did,
I want that fluid flow and lyric blow like Em and Nas,
Don’t wanna end up rapping B.O.B with Bruno Mars,
Childish Gambino and Lauryn Hill are my astronauts,
Cause them holy bars ascended Mars,

Impossible impasse, prudence slowly out of focus,
Cautious bow and arrow, shooting stars I hope my God don’t notice,
Was born to excavate the modern day I did not know this,
Unsheath my blades in glory, I bloom the iron lotus,
Hocus pocus and poof I’ve gone back into showbiz,
Blown up records that are out of reach, them  haven’t broke yet,
Nah I ain’t broken, my pocket’s haven’t broke yet,
My eyes are still shut tight but I am rising and I’m woken,
Break past the doors that are not open,
The hero in the final seconds, saviour in the moments y’all are hopin’,
I’ve no Hadoken, no final form kaioken, no fusion with a beast within, no earrings so no Gotenks,
I’m still a pipsqueak, in fact I’m two, the bond of barely breathing and the lack of many varied views,
My people grown so volatile like virgins in a group, and spoon fed gin and tonic,
Solitude is in the loop.
The hoes are brewing, thots are blooming in a coup,
Yet many women fighting, shit, my mum’s a miracle,
Mirror mirror yeah my mother’s fuckin’ cool,
My dad’s a legend, he is reverent and my fam’s a bless-up crew,
Got homies left and right, they guide me through the action,
Dean, got me, Ryan, got me, Ray, Got me Samson,
Delilah’s eye has got me looking through hourglasses,
They kissin’ my own booty so I’m raising both my assets,
They ticking’ while I’m flying higher,
Innovative writer, spark the promethean fire,
They ask me are you fucking serious?
Tryna fly so high until you burn down like you I-carus?
Like Zen you’re so delirious
Why you tryna harness knowledge highetened in the heavens like you was prometheus?
Why you tryna harness knowledge highetened in the heavens like you was prometheus?

K.Dot please appreciate the words I live and breathe,
Oh Lauryn Hill and Nas I pray you notice what I grieve,
A world of music ‘scended like the autumn and the leaves,
A world where peace is over conflict, money trees,
Are burning by the dozen, cause thet many know that money bleeds

3:21AM

Promethean Fire

Maybe I’ll be better, 
fuck this weather,
Fuck me too,
Fuck everything right?

Am I fine? No I fucking ain’t,
I know I shouldn’t lie,
Why the fuck am I supposed to fake when all I feel is hurt inside,
Where darkness grows and it resides,
It drains me like a parasite, like what the fuck is paradise,
This life is lived and then we die,
And why is it in times like this I fucking cry,
To sleep in painless bliss like a bitter final lullaby,
Why am I so tired when I barely work like fucking why?
I’m split in points of anguish like I’m cut up by this great divide,

I’m so sorry if I told you that I’m fine,
I write this song with tears down eyes, a glass of red, of sparkling and white wine,
Like all I do is sit and whine,
No better way to spend my time,
Is cryin’ over shit I’ve done and people long gone that have died,

And yes i did, yes i tried,
I try to grow my life but I don’t feel like it’s been unified,
I feel down and and out of life,
But do not fret I ain’t the type to commit sui-lie to you, no more I’ll tell the truth,
I’m fargone death, it’s limbo and it’s honest me talking to you,
My mind’s abused,
I don’t wanna leave, I just cannot do,
These days, like they’re so tiring,
Why I feel like I’m expiring?
I’m just dying,
Psych, I’m still alive,
Barely fighting,
But man I’m just tired,

It fucking hurts, why can’t life just pause,
Sometimes I cry without no reason and if there ain’t no proper cause,
I am prey right now I’m caught in sadness, hate and anger’s jaws,
Me, I fucking hate but life is something that we’ll never solve,
But do not fret, I have my friends,
I ain’t here to spread my hurt or to foreshadow death,
I’m just here to say I am sad and that I’m also out of breath,
I’m here to live my life, and live it right with no regrets,

yeah

Been a hot minute in this society,
Self-isolation make me a prodigy,
Dance on my grave like a corroboree,
Supernatural lyricist, spiritual reciprocity,
Malignant indifferent I am an oddity,
Been passed around like I was property,
Left behind so I’m thinkin’ the fuck is wrong with me,
Y’all didn’t even gimme a moment to intro properly,
Nothing like quarantine finna stopping me, 
I be hoarding some lean cause of ‘necessity’,
If you do not feed off of my philosophy,
I’m Socrates by thought, so you’re better taking takin’ morphology,
I be fucking up this instrumental, I’m the greater good I’m an essential,
Murder the demons inside my brain, cause the greater stain that’s made,
Is the damage paid to my mental,


And I’m… just a school teacher, my wisdom is my bible,
And my heart to work’s the preacher,
Just another asian that just wants to rise in something,
Bitch I am a teacher that had started out from nothing,
I pay homage to the people, the young minds of the future,
Protect them from the evil, precision with my wisdom,
Through the eye of a needle, Build their minds like churches,
On the rise of a steeple.
We don’t need another lost child, we should get lost in the beauty of the world,
Cause the world’s wild, I guess you’d call that my drive,
Last thing I want is the worries of a child, dropped on their mind, piled,
The world I know is very brittle, exposed to abuse from it all since I was little,
Play this when I’m dead so you internalise how simple,
It is for society to neglect you at the fistful,

My mind is a temple,
This chamber is my mental,
How ironically, poor and incidental,
If I died cause I tried tending to the temple

Play This When I'm Dead

Guess you do not vibe,
Fully aware that I ain’t from the tribe,
Nobody knows where the strong survives,
But the clique that do click, comes when the fruit is ripe,
I do not use the knife, I use the pen to my pad,
I have my booth in sight,
I’m like a bald eagle, bored, evil,
Broke, Nero hopes he don’t,
Go out the way that he died,
Cause that be suicide,
I either live or I die, what would you decide?
Mama what is wrong with my mental,
Why can I not tend it like a temple,
Is the way I am so incidental,
Am I not worthy of the feeling sentimental?
Do I act in the way thats detrimental,
I’m centred, I’m central,
But why am I not gentle?

I know that you ain’t ready,
Fuck would it matter if you do not accept me,
I’m growing in silence, that’s the one that’s  most deadly,
The weight of my future, should be the only one heavy,

1 knock, 2 knock, 3 knock, 4,
I don’t give a fuck about your thoughts no more,
I know for a fact what I am fight for,  
Like the chaser in his van, in the eye of a storm,
Rise and perform,
Fight not conform, 
Change not reform,
Life’s not a war,
I am the storm,
I am the core,
I’m gonna rise like my kin did before,

I’m the king of my pack, I remain but the same,
If you change every track, I’m main, I’m omega,
I will reign in what you lack, I’m insane,
In this game, I will lead then I act.

This world is deranged, will you change it?
This world is deranged, will you change it?
This world is deranged, will you change it?
And if this world stays deranged, I don't even give a fuck if we don't change it

Single

Bag of Cliques

I’m fuckin’ stupid, I don’t need introductions,
Smashing my head like I’ve lost all of my functions,
Jumpin’ jittery through all of these junctions,
Banging my head against these walls like it’s percussion,
Don’t know if I’m fine, or am fucked,
If y’all were wonderin’
Felt like my mentals been hit by a truck,
More like a dozen,
 Like my psyche’s been sucked, 
Inside this space, or a vaccum,
That keeps suckin’ it up,
Just like my mental,
Why the fuck am I so temperemantel,
A nomadic monk stuck in place, buried by his own temple,
Shaped by the mantle, of his memory,
A rental car, drives by his remains,
As he fades into the shadows,
I’m trying to pick up my life, wonderin’ how’d that go,
My thoughts are just rotating like crazy,
Call them an axle,
I fail at treating y’all nice,
Call me an asshole,
Apparently, I’m worth nothin’ special,
Oh is that so,

And just we close our day to an unfulfilled horizon,
I’m embedded in a reality  that sucks like a malfunctioning dyson,
Bend like iron, and you ‘mike’ get tough like Tyson,
But giants fall on the cusp of becoming diamonds,
But I keep my pride, as my rock like I’m a lion,
That all them hyena’s in this flock, keep on despising,
Let me fight you through my silence,
I’m trying to becoming a human being that’s enlightened,
I’m simply fucked up  as human that’s always heightened,
I’m too tired to be with them sheep like I’m disguisin’
I want to rule the world like an the ocean and I’m Poseidon,
You’ll bow to me, ‘tomatically, wherever I’m residing,
Predict your fall this coming fall, like I was workin’ Mayan,
But my thoughts require some form of arbital guidance,

Wasting cash flow in search of life’s greater cause,
Yet we choke the world in some smoke whilst we go drive our cars,
If I go and solve world peace, I don’t expect applause,
Cause this just a temporal cease, before the world is lost,
Backstabbin’ each other so easily despite the cost,
Only hang around just for trends, like it’s a bottle toss,
Can’t support my team in this life, like I was Biofrost,
This world is volatile, like when Django had casted Jamie Fox,
And I’m asking myself like what the fuck,
Is this tension in the world,
It’s much hotter than fifty molotovs,
But that don’t matter cause in this world,
It’s only money talks,
Less people live for the future,
Elderlies only talkin’ walks,
Decapitate me, place me on this pike,
We’re fucking up the world,
New gen’s are being told to take a hike,
Societies like trapeze performers, afraid of heights,
A starborn-singer that’s ambiguously afraid of mics,
So what’s there left to like of me,
I’m a freakshow on the d-low, that’s been murdered by anxiety,
And forget about the piety,
I was raised by the chains of a rule-governed society,
So I just do me, I hope you do you,
I’ve been bandersnatched for too long, there’s barely options to choose,
It’s either I always lose or there’s some form of abuse,
Not here to toot my own horn,
But I’ve been mirked by the blues,

Zen The Gardener

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