i wanna die
cuz u don't kno that i love u

i wanna die
cuz i cant show that i love u

ˢ¹ᶜᵏ ᶠᵘᶜᵏ (prod zxphxr)

crystalcoven.bandcamp.com/album/premonition

∞

it's only a matter
of disgust and distaste

it's only a matter of ∞time∞
b4 it comes to hit me right in the face
it's only a matter of ∞time∞
before it starts to feel like
im just a wayyyayyyaste in a 
wayyyayyyayyyayyyastelaaa aa aa aa aa aa aa aa anddddd
in a wasteland 🥺
babe
oh babe?
oh babe? oh babe?
oh
BAYYYAYYAYYAYYABE
i cant do it anymohohohohohoh or
idk whats the score
i just kno
that im losin
i got
a short
fu oo u oo u oo u oo u oo u oo use n imbouta blo ohhhhhhhhh
wide ope eh eh eh en
bouta blo ohhhhhhhh
like smohohohohohohoh🚭
oh oh OH OH
oh oh oke annnnnnnnd......

mh mh mh mh mh

the liiiiiiiiiights....

wayyyayyyyayyyayyyayyayyAYAYAYYYYY!

too.....

brigh ighhhh igh ightttt

way too brigh ighhhht
its in my
FUCKIN EYEEYESSSSMAKE IT STOP
MAKE IT QUIT
MAKE IT
iihhhihhhihhhihihihhhihiht
STOP
I
WONT SUBMIT!

im running away from this
runnin away-ay-ay-ay
ay-
ay-
ay-
ayyyy
ayyyyyimrunninawayfrom this

gotta get awayayyyy
from you
gotta get away from my memories it's true
i cant handle it
maybe im weak
or maybe im
blueer than manyyy?

but im runningihih ihhh ihihing
oh yea ;)
i ca-ant
tayyyyayay ayyyyyake it no
i cant take it
no i cant
take it anymooo o o o o ore

👎🏻i cant take this shit 🙅🏼‍♀️
🙉i wont submit⛔️
get it a
wayyyy
awayyyyy 
wayyyayyayyehayyyyy

get it awayyy from meeeee-ee-ee
oh yea please get this away.....
ill do any.....
thiiiiiiiiiiiiiing

[[to get away]]
from this feelihhhhing
i dont wanna look this in the eye
it's my demise for sure....
this is my demise

oh lord
oh lord
oh looooooooord
god damn
god da-a-a-a-a-a-amn,
jesus christ....

mh.
mmh... mmmh..
NO!

☨CRYSTΔL☨ ☨C‎ØVEN☨ x $alth - ∞vision∞( flip / freestyle )

yea-uh-heah-eah-eah-eah, yuh

i can feel the cold air blowin
and the leaves are bouta turn
and all i can do inside
is just burn and burn and burn

got me thinking back to last fall
driving round geeked out on blow

driving down to NYC
when we fighted (yea FIGHTED, fight me)
and it snowed

for the 1st time
i died inside  
wen i slammed the door on u

i never said goodbye
but i cried all the way down to

new jersey
where i watched my grandpa
dying on the couch

sipped hydrocodone w him
n i still feel that shit now

n i crave it
n i crave it
high for days off my first gram

now i pound that bag in half an hour
n i still cant feel shit
damn, god damn

u fuck me up
it never stops
gets worse and worse
til im in a hearse

just ship me off
i miss your touch
my soul is lost
when im not in your bed
 i toss & turn
i never learn
n even if i did
he’d still be in the urn

i cant get u back
since u been gone, shits wack
n im wastin time
n the weeks keep
stacking up

just wanna back shit up
i wanna go back in time
cant remember the last time
i felt remotely fine

feel like im buried alive
cant dig myself out
and now im giving up
bouta stop giving a fuck

if i live or not

cuz this aint living
i been giving
pieces of myself away
everyday

autumn (prod helium)

messy room
only light shinin’ pale out her laptop screen
dim n blue 
not unlike her mood queen of apathy

deathly gloom
permeates her headspace
can’t remember the last time
she made her bed, ain’t had a
reason to draw her next breath
might as well stay empty
  
rather stay feelin this way
cuz feelings are way too heavy

but the bed is cold
and the silence unrelenting
baby’s on her own 
scrolling thru a digital deadspace

whoever’s on the other side
might as well be nihilistic shitposting ai
trapped inside their own little hell
just like the one inside me

never felt so damn alone
i think the shadow in the corner just said hello
maybe theres friendship in this world after all
at the end of everything

but far more likely
it’s prolly just the amphetamines

leaving my system
got me wishin i myself had the luxury
cuz wen i hit the road it hits back
n shit tends to get ugly…

the subway line cuts deep
get off in the northeast
the city’s throbbing heart of darkness
kensington & allegheny

climbing down off the platform
to level with the city’s streets

‘grimy’ aint do it justice,
this ‘hood’s a fuckin grizzly beast
business on the block is poppin’
the cops stay rollin’ but mostly just stay watchin’
while the 808s vibrate the ground beneath my feet

nobody here can judge you
cuz everybody you see
is in a space somewhere
between half and completely fallen asleep

the pavement makes my face’s acquaintance so ungraciously

d00mer g0rl

ima do it all by myself
ima do it all by myself
ima get bent by myself
ima get bands by myself

im not real unless im off the good shit
& i cant feel unless i recently took shit
sleepin in my car cuz there aint no place for me
if u fuck w me u can get a taste of me
baby if u dont u can be my enemy
but u know better than to fucking cross me tho

by myself

(zxphxr)
lookin at you is like feelin the cold barrel of a nine pressed up against my head
even though i told u that i was fine, i wanna die instead
see me rollin up in versace with the gucci bag, you want me in ur bed
but all that i got on my fuckin mind is that i want that shit to be full of lead

(vanete)
she wanna fuck on the chanel mattress at 3am
i told her go to bed
you like the way my voice puts you into a fuckin trance
im in ur head
craving attention in only the worst kind of way
yea i know
asphyxiation on your mind and my hands
wrapped around your throat

asphyxiation w/ vanete

(zxphxr)

long days
fuck me up dont know what to do
i want gold
and diamonds and a new set of shoes
but your gaze
keeps pullin me i dont wanna lose
i want love
but killed it for the freedom to choose
illusions
the money and the glamor aint real
but the pain is

i cried wolf
now im gettin eatin alive
said 'fuck you'
but all i want is too be inside
it's my fault
all i do is push you away
i tried hard
to get my way
to take time
but my heart says i gotta stay
so kill me
or at least fuck me anyway

(emo fruits)
inside
don't go out no more
i don't even know if u call me yours
bite your lip
and watch u bite back
diamonds and shoes
yeah my bitch she like that
i can tell in ur eyes
that i'm runnin out of time
cocaine on ur mind
and i got a lot of white
i'm a bad boy
and she like that shit
god damn i'm like my bitch
push me away
push me away
i don't get close
cuz the feelings never stay
push me away
push me away
i don't get close
cuz the feelings never stay

long days w/ emo fruits (prod areusure)

(what?)
drugs
drugs
drugs
drugs
i can't feel no fuckin love so i just take some drugs, ay
drugs
drugs
drugs
drugs (what?)
i can't feel no fuckin love so i just take some drugs, ay

i can't feel u
i've got money
it's too late
don't bother honey

i'm fucked up no reservations
i fucked with ur expectations
all u want are my relations
i been seeking nothing but elation

i miss feeling
i been stealing
from my future

no love (prod areusure)

designer on me
watch time go by
i used to believe
but now i dont see the light

watchin u cry is like watchin the whole world die
i dont see why i shouldnt OD and fly
feel me get cold
see my dark lifeless eyes
i wont get old
but i want you one last time

one last time (prod areusure)

brightside

Wren:
Aye aye,

I been waiting n waiting for fucking help, u see, I'm trying to begin fucking feeling, well fucking everything, bitch I'm a fuckin entity, don't try to fuckin check on me, accompany my enemies, you doing it regretfully.

I'm slowly fucking falling yet I say that I'm swell, but I just cannot fucking wait till I descend into hell, and there's no other answer so I'll just pretend to be well, I'm fuckin tired, only wanted peace, and just to get well . uh.

That's the way this shit goes, Maybe I'll drive drive over the side into the gravel below, but I secured another bag like 20 minutes ago, I'm chasing highs so I can try my best to never feel low, uh, uh

and I can't seem to let go, think I'm invisible to everybody I fuckin know, my thoughts are rapid and sporadic till they fucking plateau x2

zxphxr:
the drugs are fuckin flowing got my troubles erased
and i know that coming down'll be a kick in the face
but all im thinkin bout is how im gon be winnin the race
against the fakers and the haters and the bitches i hate

i think im gonna take a double cup straight to the face
cuz i dont give a fuck bitch i know my life is a waste
put hydrocodone in my coke n do some coke off her waist
i know if i pour up too much ur bitch is gonna be wasted

but like i said i dont give a fuck, gimme a taste
of walkin on the edge of life n death
n see if i dont fall off that shit
cuz u know im off that shit

im talkin medicine bitch, the purple drink in my cup
it's making everything look shinier and pretty and stuff
and even though i know it's gonna kill me someday,
ima be pourin up until they put me away, bitch

psa i dont hydro-condone drug use

hydrocodone w/ wren (prod zxphxr)

doom (prod nonperson)

put me in the trash
in the trash
in the trash
in the trash
like broken glass
i aint worth shit
it aint worth it

u know im dying fast
dying fast
dying fast
dying fast
so make it last
cuz im hurtin
this aint fuckin workin

8 balls
in bathroom stalls
been high all day
since fuckin fall
i had it all
till i want and lost it
i don't mind tho cuz im off it

so give me alcohol
adderal
ill take it all
ill take it all
until i fall
till my fuckin life's gone
i swear my fuckin life wrong, yea

emo fruits:
she only want me for the night
for the night
sayin you don't love me now
i think you might
i think i got you figured out
and it's alright
this might be my last pill if i close my eyes

i be getting numb enough
slow breaking down
you don't get love enough
u don't know how
saw u in the club tonight
im in the back
off a couple drugs tonight
im seein black, yea

put me in the trash w/ emo fruits (prod zxphxr)

album cover by @svetleak

lyrics (zxphxr)
i remember when i held u for the last time
u told me that i had to be strong
but i can't help but keep on wonderin if i'm next
if im gonna be 6 feet under before long

im sick like u
im dying too
give me ur love
lets call the plug
don't go so soon
come to the moon
with me we'll see
what we can be
without a care
now pull my hair
ill bite ur lip
and then we'll slip
inside a dream
we'll never leave
now make me bleed

(sleepisformortals)
u hold me back
won't play ur game

wrist not intact
it's all the same

i'm soooo done with them all
i'm so done with them all
why sooooo dumb u a fool
i'm so done with it all

run it back. don't need anymore interaction have a heart attack. drugs been fuckin up all my bladder fuckin all of that.
everybody wanna die but aint nobody die

im a zombie i look a zombie when i walk in
don't look at me don't look i don't wanna talk bitch

(zxphxr)
and now i have to watch u die again
i don't know how much more i could take before im gone

all gone
all gone

funeral march w/ sleepisformortals (prod zxphxr)

(lil summoner n zxphxr)
sacrifice ur bitch
trappin in the dark realm
i just popped a blue bean
like i’m gargamel
in the alley w the sulfur smell
i know it well
pyrex glass grimoire 
witch gang in the citadel

(lil summoner)
Im chasing tail like a dog deep in that bitch like a groundhog 
Pull up in that ghost in the fog 
Dragula dig through the ditch 
Im getting stoned like a witch
I tied ur mans to cement And i burned the bridge just to see if he swims 
hop in the whip switchin up lanes nintendo switch 
Ou cauldron boppin catatonic off the juice 
A bitch grim spittin dirges in the booth 
Lock in that jaw huh im finna snap a bich in two 
Im a motherfuckin wolf ho u finna catch a tooth *bork*

(lil summoner n zxphxr)
sacrifice ur bitch
trappin in the dark realm
i just popped a blue bean
like i’m gargamel
in the alley w the sulfur smell
i know it well
pyrex glass grimoire 
witch gang in the citadel

(zxphxr)
i never thot that i would fall into this fockin hell
but now im clawin at the walls n fuckin slidin deeper
the person that i used to be is just a fuckin shell
and now my skin is burnin up n i feel like a creature

screaming for ur fuckin momma
better get outa here kid
i don’t think this life is for u
shits gonna murder u quick
want some smoke?
you’ll hit the floor before my black and milds lit
u better watch ur fuckin ho
she said she fuck w my fit
trappin in the dark realm
sacrificin ur bitch
chalking up the pentagrams
reppin the gang of the witch
(witch gang ho!)
this aint no horror flick
i hope ur ass be w the shits
if u think that u can fuck w
zxphxr n summoner bitch

dark realm w lil summoner (prod dead2everyone)

i fell in love once
that shit was beautiful
now i dont fuck with love
i fuck w pharmaceuticals

u can use me
im so abusable
get money for it
cuz it's better than a cubicle

and i be juggin
it's inexcusable
but u cant make me stop
cuz bitch im so immovable

been thru some rough shit
shit was a crucible
i got a crucifix tattooed under my cuticle

seen way too many
fuckin funerals
it got me sippin cough syrup
and more than just a spoonful

i gotta look out for my gang
that shit is crucial
i gotta look out for my gang
that shit is fuckin crucial

and i be gettin numb in the moonlight
w aeryn lil summoner and rknight
idk if im ever gonna feel right
lookin down at the city from a high rise

i gotta keep on goin so i get high
and hustle anyway i can every night

im off a adderal
i just did 3 lines
im so fucked up i can only open my left eye

my arm around you as we stare up at the night sky
keep me awake cuz if i pass out then i might die

i dont wanna die
but i wanna fly
i just wanna feel some damn relief
i wanna cry

moonlight prod banshee

thought i could take it all
watch me fall watch me fall watch me fall 
watch me fall 
thought i could take it all
thought i could take it all, yea yea yea
now ur watchin me fall

lights out before i hit the ground
dont call the fuckin authorities
all these people surroundin me
askin what the fucks up w me
and i cant keep my guts in me

(thought i could take it all)

passed out out in front of a restaurant
fuckin cops wont stop questionin me

said they smell alcohol on me
aint had nothin to drink today
like 'the fuck did she take today'
didnt think that i ate today
didnt think i would faint today

the emts wont give me no water
i put 2 and 2 together
cleanin my shoes on the stretcher
tellin the docs i feel better
cuz im just tryna get out of the fuckin hospital
i didnt wanna miss ur set

they didnt even give me an iv
bumpin future on my way to nyc
was there for less than a hour before nypd
were standin over my unconscious body bitchin at me

someone swiped my fuckin phone when i passed out
how to do i get back to the club when i get out
somehow i link back w my crew without flippin out
and now i got some motherfucker on me runnin his mouth

bout how he wants to fly me out to the city
cuz i be so fuckin pretty
and now he buyin me dennys
talkin bout sharin his clout w me
while im poppin some ecstasy
like nothin fuckin happened to me
turns out new york city fuckin decided to bless me

now it's time to drive home
now i feel so alone
and before i fuckin know
a whole fuckin week goes by and i still feel sick
didnt learn from this

watch me fall
thought i could take it all
yea

new york prod areusure

my soul is shrouded eyes are cloudy thinking bout just what ive become
all this shame built up inside left me with nowhere to run
dont know how long i can resist the urge to go find a gun
the mess between my temples begs the question 'what have i done?'
get blackout drunk to force myself to write bars
cuz i been inside the hole for too long in my car
tryna hit licks
but lately aint hit shit
cuz i got additions

dont get caught up in a dream youll never make it out
tryna stay on top my money too fucked up to count
in the morning brain is bleeding heart is beating out
of my chest, do my best, but i cant stay

im so uncomfortable my brain is foggin up
im so ungrounded i might float up in a cloud off this loud
keep so much drugs on me theyll lock me up for years
keep so much drugs in me so i can keep in all my tears
and every time i fall asleep i wake up in a million years
i be dyin in my dreams so i can wake up without fear
wen u see me u be gettin frozen by my lear
double vision seein demons on the road just tryna steer

every time im feelin good i fuck that shit right up
feelin better for a second then i feel fucked up
in the morning brain is bleeding heart is beating out
of my chest, do my best, but i cant stay

long enough to pull myself out of the dirt
drive my car into the snow
drive my brain into the snow
drive me crazy drive me insane got nowhere to fuckin go
drive me crazy drive me insane please just drive me the fuck home

dont get caught up in a dream youll never make it out
tryna stay on top my money too fucked up to count
in the morning brain is bleeding heart is beating out
of my chest, do my best, but i cant stay

zxphxr

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