Ghostholding

I found myself the only girl in town
The only one who's willing to take you in
There's ash in the air, raining money everywhere
You take my keys and we go for a spin

I tell my boyfriend "Nothing in the world can make me feel okay"
Everytime I drink I have too much too fast
Tonight I booked a hotel room a hundred miles away from everything
Out of fear I might've sent him to the past

Tonight I almost told another lie
'Cause all I wanna do is get fucked up
Waiting for the angels to come down
They take my hand and drag me to the club

I tell my boyfriend "Nothing in the world can make me feel alive"
Everytime I drink I have too much too fast
Last night I had a dream he left me half asleep and drunk behind the wheel
On the way back home, I miss a turn and crash

Tonight I almost told another lie
'Cause all I wanna do is get fucked up
Waiting for the angels to come down
They take my hand and drag me to the club

The wings that let me fly don't seem to work
The things that bring me joy drive me to tears
The things that made my world can't be reversed
The day I'm out of work and out of peers

Tonight I almost told another lie
'Cause all I wanna do is get fucked up
Waiting for the angels to come down
They take my hand and drag me to the club

I tell my boyfriend "Nothing in the world can bring me back to life"
I'd do anything to feel it for the first time
And I feel like the angels pulled a joke on me
They laugh and turn their backs
They leave the club and set the place on fire
I couldn't make it out there fast enough
The girls, they tell me I'm all out of love

Sister

Ghosts follow us around
Dressing up as each other
Turn me, bloodsucker
But I’m not so sure now

Float back to their graves
We drink, then we drive
Promise I’ll pay you back
We fall asleep in front

Halloween

I'm speeding down I-15
And talking on the phone
I love my rich friends
Who take me everywhere

I smell like his cologne
And how he treats his home
Hollywood dreaming

I never thought I'd be famous
But I feel like I'm a star
We repeat each other
And finish what we start

And I get what I want
Next week I'll get so scared
Feel like a runway dreamer
Runaway dreaming

I'm speeding down I-15
And talking on the phone
I love my rich friends
Who take me everywhere

I smell like his cologne
And how he treats his home
Hollywood dreaming

I been thinking of calling
I might wait 'til the cycle repeats
I'm living a love song
And I'm living a bad dream

And I get what I want
Next week I'll get so scared
Feel like a runway dreamer
Runaway dreaming

I just wanna make music with you
I just wanna make music with you

I'm speeding down I-15
And talking on the phone
I can't say I'm not in love
Or the place I used to call home

I never thought I'd be famous
But I feel like I'm a star
We repeat each other
And we finish what we start

I smell like his cologne
And how he treats his home
Hollywood dreaming

Famous girl

Do you feel small when you hold me?
I think my money's counterfeit
And I could buy you anything
If I had any time to spend

And everybody's seen my body
They all have my number and know my name
And everybody's touched and said they loved me

You don't do it like any of my friends
We act like the walls were paper-thin
Hold your ghosts, say it in my ear
How close?

And it can't get better than right now
Kissin' the bottle when angel sounds
And I'm not an addict 'til I come down
Kiss me to sleep before I drown

And verybody's seen my body
They all have my number and know my name
And everybody's touched and said they loved me

But I don't do it like someone who's alone
I feel crazy for loving you so
Hold your ghosts, say it in my ear
How close?

Sick / relapse

Mystery words I hear in my sleep
Nobody knows, I wouldn’t tell if you told me
I don’t know my name, you say that’s concerning
Nobody knows, I wouldn’t tell if you told me

If I’m a psychopath, then who are you for knowing that?
It’s long, the cold’ll get you
I’ll lease the clothes I have
I’m falling backwards in and out of my dream
I won’t tell a soul, but they always say your name to me
Even when you can, don’t be mad at me

Manmade lights in the sky, and I’m in the pictures
Smoke in the air, cigarette sisters
Said something ‘bout a girl but you don’t say you miss her
She’s missing half the band but we still go to see her

And I lied, and said I liked it like that
Only ‘cause I got in for free
So, you tell me you’re not stupid
Then why the hell did you stay with me?
You were right, I’m the type to rewrite history
I won't tell a soul, but they always say your name to me
Even when you can, don’t be mad at me

Blink and you'll miss it
Dream-like precision

Do you like the way I edge, or is it just a way of wasting time?
Fuel the fire, I wanna spend my money on something I like
I think I lost my mind
Nobody knows, I wouldn’t tell if you told me

We don't exist

He thinks with his dick, you think with your heart
He tells you that you’re gonna be a star
It’s bitter, pass the fever on
The boys, they say the magic’s all gone

He’s loaded at the bar and herds the boys like sheep
(You're gonna be the next big thing)
He goes to war, don’t let him near someone like me

I face the wind, it sounds like God
There’s something that just feels so wrong
No skin to wear, no face to put on
The girls, they say the magic’s all gone

He’s loaded at the bar and herds the boys like sheep
(You're gonna be the next big thing)
He goes to war, don’t let him near someone like me

I detach the ground beneath
And the gravel’s on my teeth
And my God can’t give the help
Could you pass the fever to somebody else?

We used to run this city in a span of weeks
Those boys, they spiked my drink
Our secret’s safe with me

He’s loaded at the bar and herds the boys like sheep
(You're gonna be the next big thing)
He goes to war, don’t let him near someone like me

He thinks with his dick, you think with your heart
He tells you that you’re gonna be a star
It’s bitter, pass the fever on

Dead forever

Why would I ever dream of the world if there’s no love on the other side?
And isn’t that embarrassing?
It’s how I feel about everything
And no such thing as time, I wish there was a line to cross to know I’m right
Baby, you would’ve told me by now
So do you believe me?

When you wake up, nothing’s ever wrong
I’m your baby, until I’m not
I put the gun down, it’s getting hot
And I try to learn your favorite song

The one thing I get to keep to myself
I’d share it with you but you don’t wanna read my mind
My dreams look nothing like me
And I’d pay so much money just to be her for the night
I shed tears, everything I do is for a boy

Please, God, save me, I just wanna party
Baby, do you feel the changing?
Or do you feel me partly?
If it’s anything, then love me
Even if it’s softly, my life is a wet dream
I’m screaming, got my hands above me
You make me feel so lucky, if only that meant something

When you wake up, nothing’s ever wrong
I’m your baby, until I’m not
I put the gun down, it’s getting hot
And I try to learn your favorite song

The one thing I get to keep to myself
I’d share it with you but you don’t wanna read my mind
My dreams look nothing like me
And I’d pay so much money just to be her for the night
I shed tears, everything I do is for a boy

Please, God, save me, I just wanna party
Baby, do you feel the changing?
Or do you feel me partly?
If it’s anything, then love me
Even if it’s softly, my life is a wet dream
Are you coming to the party?

Something has to change

It pays to hold me
And it blows you up with perfect aim
Kill 'em all for me, baby
Kill 'em all in my name

And no one knows me
Unless they make me explain
Still they don't get that story
The loaded gun'll get you

And still, they don't know my name
Unless they're fucking insane

And I haven't used my credit card
Or cash in who knows how long
I can't leave trace of where we've been
I can't leave trace of where we are

And when I give away my chemicals
Do you still see me in the branded art?
I don't wanna be famous anymore
If I end up with a broken heart

Baby, just say my name
I promise you're not insane

And I hate every emo song
But I still let you talk
I stop reading the newspaper
And dye my hair

And I'll tell people what went wrong
If I ever get that far
And I can't help but break my heart
When you're not there

Recoil

He sweats through all of his clothes
He forces himself to sleep
And only thinks of me
It seems like nobody knows
About this new kind of free
Where I am the only girl

When I make the tides change
And tell you I want you
Come crashing

When I make your life change
And rid of the past
Boy I'm the future
You told me so

You don't know her
You don't know her
You don't know her
You don't know her

Waves crashing onto me
Waves crashing onto me
He's crashing onto me
He crashes like a thousand waves

Waves crashing onto me
Waves crashing onto me
It's crashing like a thousand waves
My love is like a thousand waves

Waves crashing onto me
Do you think I'm afraid?
Do you think I'm afraid?
It's like a thousand waves

Spider

You hold me like a lover
You tell me that I'm yours and you're mine
I scaled the city with your shapes on my neck, and your breath in my ear
A guest in my mind

We laughed off when I told you
The night before, in the taxi, I cried
Fucking strangers making fun of me

And you know they're hard to hide
If I'm the one, get me high
And I stay high

Loving you is just another excuse to lose my mind, and I paid the price
Cleveland, I cry profusely in a hotel room
And it's been paid for two, but it's all mine
Day drinking downtown
I'll still see you tonight

You know why
I can't stay mad at you for my life
Every feeling feels like the first time or the last time
And then you run away
It's the first and the last time

Baby, I waited by the phone
Said you'd be home in an hour or so
Then the sun left my apartment
Then the sun left my face

Tell me I'm not the only one
I wait for my friends to pull me aside
Even when your soul leaves your body
You're still sleeping next to mine

I can't keep loving you on borrowed time
And I stay high

Loving you is just another excuse to lose my mind, and I paid the price
Cleveland, I cry profusely in a hotel room
And it's been paid for two, but it's all mine
Day drinking downtown
I'll still see you tonight

You know why
I can't stay mad at you for my life
Every feeling feels like the first time or the last time
And then you run away
It's the first and the last time

Guesthouse

I don’t want something to happen to you
Still, I wanna give you my all
I can’t help but put my hands onto you
Treat you like a superstar

I got a feeling you’re gonna go
I got a feeling you’re gonna go
I got a feeling you’re gonna go

I've been feeling some pain for fun now
Didn’t even wanna let it show
I’ve been hiding all the details
Just hate it, feeling alone

World tells me you don’t know much
I’ll teach you how to play my guitar
We hum the song, don’t know how it goes
I get the feeling you don’t wanna go

I was all over the country
Didn’t even wanna go back home
I just wanted to see you
Just hate it, being alone
Just hate it, being alone
I got a feeling you’re gonna go
I got a feeling you’re gonna go
I got a feeling you’re gonna go

I don’t want something to happen to you
Teach me how to play my guitar
I can’t help but take my hands off of you
Treat me like a superstar

I was all over the country
Didn’t even wanna go back home
I just wanted to see you
Just hated being alone
Just hated being alone
Just hated being alone
Just hated being alone
Just hate it, being alone

Play my guitar

I saw God in your arms, I took him to sleep
And it's not much faith that I have, so I play it for keeps
Jesus don't like bitches
I was floating down stream, baby believe in me
Baby believe in me

Did you see God when you say you felt lucky lately?
And it's not much faith that you have 'cause it's suffocating
Fuck about praying, I just wanna see you naked
Watch you undress me
I believe everything, do you believe in me?

Don't think twice 'bout the sides you don't get to see
And it's not much faith that I have
But you're dancing with me
When I play that song, know you'll go to sing along
Have your mind on repeat
Baby believe in me
Baby believe in me

I saw God in your arms, I took him to sleep
And it's not much faith that I have, so I play it for keeps
Jesus don't like bitches
I was floating down stream, baby believe in me
Baby believe in me

Good things come easy, blessings come hard
I don't get lucky twice but I've come so far
Does Jesus miss me? I've been moving so smart
Baby believe in me

Don't think twice 'bout the sides you don't get to see
And it's not much faith that I have
But you're dancing with me
When I play that song, know you'll go to sing along
Have your mind on repeat
Baby believe in me
Baby believe in me

Believe

I've been wrong
It's not mine to tell
Pills in my system
And you open up your hands
I can’t complain

If you like what I've done with the place
You can tell me all the things
Won't make you lesser of a man
You can't complain

So where are we buying now?
‘Cause nothing in this life’s that free
No harm, no foul, no sleep
Everything’s right where it’s supposed to be

Days blend when you’re next to me
Days blend when you’re next to me

You’re right about the way I move
I’ve been scanning all across the world for you
Some things don’t dry the same way
And the world against you turns a shade of blue

So where are we buying now?
‘Cause nothing in this life’s that free
No harm, no foul, no sleep
Everything’s right where it’s supposed to be

Days blend when you’re next to me
Days blend when you’re next to me

Lights turned off
I’ve been keeping busy
Fresh new sheets, I’m a portrait in his bed
He can’t complain
Baby, you've got so much sweet to say

You’re right about the way I move
I’ve been scanning all across the world for you
Some things don’t dry the same way
And the world against me turns a shade of blue

Ghostholding

venturing