soft shizz

i'm on the top of the mountain puffin on clouds..

Lifestyle..

movies like juno

Help me tell me I'm okay
Remember when I'd ask you to stay
We'll keep doing this together
Live everyday forever
You see me on the stretcher 
You'll make sure I get better
Telephone when your not home
Keeps telling me to sing along
What'd you say
You wanna go
Sit down and think about the snow
We'll keep doing this together
Live everyday forever
You see me on the stretcher 
You'll make sure I get better
Play along
It won't take long
Stay for some
For so much fun

remember december

@redhxrse

these stones in me they build
replace the breaths that i take now my lungs are filled
i see but i don't see
separation of senses everything is surreal
was playing games of catch up
now I'm horrifyingly ahead
it was alright to be alive
but-
(don't you fucking finish that line)

ooh
it's a jolly good day to see the reindeers go by
ooh
it's so much more I’d like to see you try

these stones in me they're sharp
nerves are struck, every thought is coated with mental tar
whole worlds keeping me down
lazybones got lazier, what’s up with the frown
you know me us men of few words
never popped up first but out the seams i burst
it’s better with me on a 1 to 1
hate multitasking shit ain't no fun
paid my dues but it fall on deaf ears
tear ducts are dry ain't cried for ten years
always wonder how i even get here
cos the real fear of failures never not near

ooh
it’s a jolly good day to see the reindeers go by
ooh
it's so much more I’d like to see you try

reindeers

the art of arranging flowers ^_^

https://soundcloud.com/scrufff https://soundcloud.com/mental https://soundcloud.com/reefuh

yay

scruff + mental + reef - ikebana 🌺(sai)

OUT NOW: https://songwhip.com/yazida/dazzled2023
music video: https://youtu.be/CFrhG09VVSs?si=0PvezEvhUBVmeHAQ

@ashsocozy @prodkbl <3 (art by @/junztv on ig & twt)
track n°4 
#meant2b
***
lyrics:
apologies you don’t get to see me cry 
we said goodbye 
no, I said goodbye

I don’t regret the things I said 
you get what you get 
it’s no time to forget 
how you'd
pretend that 
you know what 
i’m saying 
it made sense 
you felt tense 
you go 
fill in my place 
fill in the space I know 
ur insecure 
i’m making sure you know <3
but if you don’t
just listen to my song 

just listen to my song 
you’ll know you did me wrong 
i live the consequences of your actions 
i pity my reflection

[ash] 

and you never lied when you told me
things i could never go change 
stuck in this cycle so hopeless
say I never notice that you
fall apart
2 faces 
dont know 
whats escape
when its over like 
even when its not yours to save
even when you take all the blame
theres no me and you

how you'd
pretend that 
you know what 
i’m saying 
it made sense 
you felt tense 
you go 
fill in my place 
fill in the space I know 
ur insecure 
i’m making sure you know <3
but if you don’t
just listen to my song 

cuz I know it’s hard 
you stay inside 
you’ll realize 
(nah)
idealized 
your paradise 
it’s no surprise*2
***
ily kirin sorry I didn't keep the outro pookie

dazzled + ASHSOCOZY (KBL)

YOKU POSTED HIS LYRICS OMG 😱 


 Im running out of patience tell me what you want 

And I don’t wanna face it I just wanna give it up again 

Late night, and the stars are shining bright 

Don’t know why you’re riding with me

I know that you’ll regret it 

My message left on read and I’m just tryna figure it out

Big brown eyes tell me lies, I won’t care a thousand times 

Up too late I’m just wastin all my time now

I slept past 8 I don’t think I’m fine now

Does she really like me guess it’s time to find out

You don’t wanna fight me pussy boy you’ll find out

I don’t exist anyway

I guess I’ll wait another day

And it’s all I’ve done for you

Everything that I do yeah it’s all for you

I can’t make up my mind I’m just sitting on the fence like all the time

i slept past 8pm *p. nomu +++ amv on youtube, spotify and apple music

tryna get tips on love im fluent

https://soundcloud.com/scrufff :D

prod me and https://soundcloud.com/dramatrial

scruff - vanilla 🌿(sai ~ drama trial)

prod @saiwai

@zephyrcove

lyrics
I must be dreaming
Cause you're the one I'm needing
No, I dont wanna wake up
Don't know what to believe in
Don't know what to believe in

Tell me whats your favorite song
Tell me where did i go wrong
I just wanna know about
Whatchu been thinkin bout
We gon be alright
We can spend all night
Talkin about this and that
I know were more than that

And I can do better
And I know that you feel the same
Wouldn't hurt you like, never
Wanna be with you forever
I know I made mistakes
Don't know how much i can take

Cause I've been fucking up
In every single way
I won't ever stop 
Because I'll never have enough of you
I'll give you what I got
But you might say it's not enough for two

To tell you the truth
I don't know what to do
Nothing's new
Asking me if it's true
All the things I said to you

Don't wanna let you down
I'm done messin around
Don't wanna make you frown
So why
Is it difficult?
It's so typical
That I don't know what to say 
To you

I must be dreaming
Cause you're the one I'm needing
No, I dont wanna wake up
Don't know what to believe in
Don't know what to believe in

Tell me whats your favorite song
Tell me where did i go wrong
I just wanna know about
Whatchu been thinkin bout
We gon be alright
We can spend all night
Talkin about this and that
I know were more than that

spotify

dreamin (sai)

my cover of brakence's introvert
(just my favourite parts)
never gonna be perfect on my second page but i was bored today

i put some lower formant on the vocals so it kinda sounds like brakence is there too sometimes

introvert

(prod. deafly, mixed by me, mastered by fangs)

Yeah, bigger man
Yeah, I’m the bigger man

I called you one last time to give you one last chance
And you just flipped your phone without a second glance
I feel ashamed I ever let you hold my hand
(Yeah, bigger man)
But you kept begging me to be the bigger man
Yeah, I’m the bigger man
(Bigger man)
(Yeah, yeah)
I’m the bigger man
Yeah, I’m the bigger man

I really don’t need you right now
But I hope that you stick this out
Just enough to notice me
Just enough to make you think
You were no one without me
Although you said all those things
You convinced me it was true
I am no one without you
Maybe I am

Yeah, bigger man
Yeah, I’m the bigger man

I called you one last time to give you one last chance
And you just flipped your phone without a second glance
I feel ashamed I ever let you hold my hand
(Yeah, bigger man)
But you kept begging me to be the bigger man
Yeah, I’m the bigger man
(Bigger man)
(Yeah, yeah)
I’m the bigger man
Yeah, I’m the bigger man

Bigger Man

visuals  --->  https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fdOyKV8Swb4

very inspired by Imaginary, @iwasthatrobochick

fun fun fun

05. Aiming at Apollo / Green Balloons

Prod. Bond., Isaac Nate, Matan Birnbaum
Special thanks to Prahlaad Das
Dedicated to Will Purdie

Lyrics:
Your picture was damaged but, 
worth a thousand words.
The colors you painted 
all ran into the dirt.
Now I'm staring at the sun, 
and I reach for my gun,
I'm aiming at Apollo.
(Bond)
And although you told me,
I just couldn't believe it.
Heart dropping slowly,
what is this feeling?
My speech up and left me.
Forgot to be friendly.
Resent me,
But that's way too easy cuz'

I can shoot the sun right out the sky.
I thought you were gone the rest of my life.
I know I fall right into my mind,
but I can't decide if you're really gone.

It's a table for two.
If that's really true,
then I can't help but feel stupid.
And talking 'bout it's useless.
So much for improvement.
I'm burning all my blueprints.
To tell you the truth it's,
a long road home and I'm too far away.
I don't know where I'll go,
but I know I can't stay.
And this feeling of dread
has a death grip on my psyche.
If you weren't (cluttered)
would you still be here despite me? Oh, no

Then the air turns cold.
Now I'm staring at my phone,
alone.
I know it's my fault.
I know it's my fault,
'cuz I,

I can shoot the sun right out the sky.
I thought you were gone the rest of my life.
I know I fall right into my mind,
but I can't decide if you're really gone.

(go) x12

Now I'm staring at a sky full of green balloons.
I wasn't even there like I wasn't for you.
And everybody said you'd be in a better place soon,
Well, I hope that's true, 'cuz you believed them too.
Staring at a sky full of green balloons.
I've felt it all before but this one felt so new.
And though we grew distant,
As I reminisce,
I never knew how much of myself I'd,
lose.
Lose.
Lose.
Lose.

Aiming at Apollo / Green Balloons

[prod. deafly]

I texted myself today
because I was bored
and I haven’t felt this way
since the day before
your emptiness swelled the pain
that I couldn’t afford
you said that your ex was depraved
and now, I’m the one asking for more

I know that you’re leaving me
as soon as you find someone else
so I’ll just enjoy our time together
cause I can’t stand myself

I know I’ll see you again
and I will have to pretend
I’ll keep it together 'cause
my friends are friends with your friends

I texted myself today
because I was bored
and I haven’t felt this way
since the day before
your emptiness swelled the pain
that I couldn’t afford
I used to be so depraved
and now I am even more

depraved

REUPLOAD

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ty siemspark & maxflynn

lyrics soon...

partygirl (siemspark maxflynn)

prod @saiwai

https://open.spotify.com/track/6kQiBRzpYZ1q0YqZjrIpwG?si=688ce319ed154eb9

ITS A YONK TONK SONK CLASSIC

@zephyrcove

@1toge
@yokulol

healing w/ yoku +sai

https://soundcloud.com/ggmothra

Therapy available now:

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(Therapy)

Talk It Out (feat. gg mothra)

https://open.spotify.com/album/4GBLlw8IaDoKbVbjh4vgGt?si=iKOb42amQiSlK5J7uOrYrA

lastnight(siemspark)

its all in your head, raw 
produced by @typhoondll

lyrics:

I tried to play your games
I stumbled down, and rumbled out
the insides of my fane

competing wit ya always leads to everlasting shame

I ask you, how can we communicate?

we dont speak same language: dialect,
it dont matter you understand
all my emotions and ideas.
stumbled, in my head, in silence

flexin some kimbundu
linguagem, that I dont speak, came straight up from my mamas mama
thoughts mixed up like stew,
minor problem, jumbling, tumbling through cerebrum we playing mikado
ridin in a coupe, ya goal prolly
aint that brief relief sweet u needa new hobby

pissed off, clear objects so I dont think about em
pistols, crystals coins of the same side bruh

straight to ya tibia, stank face when this play, swaying the femur ya
open the Biblia, maybe you’ll say: "not so saint my interior"
music my muse she a diva, her moves protrude to the point of anemia
laughing at the oh-so-serious, 

tremendously 

a firm believer that my dreaming doesn’t 
end in deceit, hands on the seat
the remedy
with no question what grounds my compass are these melodies
unquestionably, create or die, how I am, was, and have to be
putting my dent on earth heavy bending space with the gravity

the pen or the bottle?
depends on how hollow
and mood in the moment
the highs and the bottoms
it dont matter how low
I get I dont swallow
the booze, stay not boosting me
tough act to follow

gimme more im a fool ah
sobriety my new party trick
measure liters on the ruler
liver never gon retire 
see me downing but im neutral
this aint finna be the death of me
awake even after moon come
insomnia got me fried up

we dont speak same language i can
recognize that im nobody
if I talk and we end parting ways
then what does that mean for you and 

I 

can’t be detained or deterred, like my people were 
We gotta be heard, lead the herd, I can be the first
Finally I can see through, got the means to shine light on my people
said my tracks hard, they told me run it back like alopecia
takin the crown, whats negus to you? 
to me it means king,
I was ready to rule still baby in belly,
delivering truth, biting bullet bulletproof in the womb
I beg your pardon, big problem is that I was parted to atoms,
Probably saw my matter on the floor to piece my heart together

sticky sticky
they kept blickies on me
in case i was runnin
liberty non existent in my world
they made me a dummy 
if I pull up to the function stuntin 
peeps wont tell me nothing
rather look at me like a freak
than talking makin odd assumptions
lookin at what you did must feel so good so nice
so keep it comin 
funnily i dont give a damn bruh, watch your temper

if you see us goin loco tokin on that kusher herb
rainbox six smoke dont ask us whats in the canister 

we dont speak same language: dialect,
it dont matter you understand
all my emotions and ideas.
stumbled, in my head, in silence.

soft shizz

jerry