Prod me and @dramatrial :))

Lyrics:

I can’t escape this feeling inside me, I’m gonna fold I wanna give it up

I don’t feel real at all and I just wanna cry, I feel this emptiness inside of me

Building up inside of me, I don’t know why they follow me

What’s the point of these feelings if All im doing concealing

No one knows how I feel ab it

I make songs and they feel like nothing

Can’t make songs that just feel like something 

I think I’m better off, better off alone 

Thought no one understood me, maybe I’m just too confusing 

I wanna tell all my friends that I’m just not doing great 

But lll feel like I’m a burden so I just keep it away 

It’s been awhile since I’ve had thoughts like this

I wanna fuck up my wrist, but I think that they’ll look at me differently 

What’s the point if I keep on trying

I don’t think I wanna move on

Idk why I’m tryin, it’s hells door that I’m knockin on

(huge, but cute, bass drop hehe)

probably done for p. drama trial + yoku

brakence / trabint - password (extended)

OUT ON ALL PLATFORMS
produced by me & AC Eaton

lyrics:
Always feel like there's somebody watching
All these eyes and attention
Seeing the fiends yeah they're crawling
Think I might just let 'em live

3:45 and I think I'm off a bean
Trips to New York, me and Ash outside the street
5 missed calls and like 3 texts
Said you needed more space, man it depends

Claiming that I work too hard, but I barely started
You were half the reason on why both of us departed
Saying that "I need you" but you never put your part in

But how you loving with no heart?
Saying you're the smartest
Saw you coming back when I just got a song that charted
Paparazzi taking pictures of me at the market

But I can't deal with all the fakeness
You just saw me as a payment
All the time that you just wasted

You just see me now I'm famous
Couple songs inside your playlist
Now it sucks to see I made it

Never thought that you would fake it
All the things you got me facing
Can you stop with all the chasing?

Claiming that I work too hard, but I barely started
You were half the reason on why both of us departed
Saying that "I need you" but you never put your part in

But how you loving with no heart?
Saying you're the smartest
Saw you coming back when I just got a song that charted
Paparazzi taking pictures of me at the market

Was it really all my fault
For giving you a chance?
I know you're happy
But it isn't me that's your new man

You say you miss it, so why you're trying to run?
I don't get it
It's safe to say I've had enough

I've had enough
I've had enough
I've had enough
I've had enough

I've had enough
I've had enough
I've had enough
I've had enough

But I can't deal with all the, fakeness
And you just saw me as a, payment

You're saying that I work too hard
Well honey you barely just work at all
That's why we couldn't work it off

memory lain

fakeness

Soundlcloud fucked up the audio quality im sorry 

Prod. elxnce x cymric

Lyrics:

(Intro)
I’m all alone but I’m cool with that ,
But I feel at peace so it’s not that bad ,
And it’s hard to let go cause I’m new do that,
And I’m still healing from the wounds when you stabbed my back,

(Chorus)
I’ve been losing Trust and losing friends,
In a vicious cycle never seems to have an end,
And I promise I won’t cave me in,
Won’t go back to how i was and never will again,
And I’m trying to change and I’m seeing progress,
It gets real lonely if I’m being honest,
Never seems to turn out how I would’ve wanted,
Memories keep rushing back feels like I’m haunted,

(Verse #1)
Fuck all the fake love and I’m tired of being quiet I had to say something about it yeah,
And that’s some fake shit only fucking with me cause you think you’ll get something out it yeah,
Barely hurts anymore,
Cause I’m used to it,
I barely feel anymore,
But I won’t quit,

(Bridge)
My hearts been getting colder,
Hurts less while getting older,
And now I know what I need,
I see with clarity ,

(Intro again)
I’m all alone but I’m cool with that ,
But I feel at peace so it’s not that bad ,
And it’s hard to let go cause I’m new do that,
And I’m still healing from the wounds when you stabbed my back,

(Verse #2)
I’ve learned from my mistakes,
I feel like I’m awake,
Now that Ive found a way,
I know that I won’t break,
And I don’t need you,
All the lies you were telling they were see-through,
And why are you leach me?
Kind of funny that you think that you need me,

(Chorus)
 I’ve been losing Trust and losing friends,
In a vicious cycle never seems to have an end,
And I promise I won’t cave me in,
Won’t go back to how i was and never will again,
And I’m trying to change and I’m seeing progress,
It gets real lonely if I’m being honest,
Never seems to turn out how I would’ve wanted,
Memories keep rushing back feels like I’m haunted,

trust issues 2 (elxnce x cymric)

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Surveillance Ft visions (prod. rans0m)

produced by zoltar

lyrics:

there’s nothing more important than yourself
your tongue is slick and saying something else
i can’t say that i even wish you well
i hope the stones you left unturned are hell

i fed your appetite
i ran out of time
i can’t wait for this
headache to rewind
strung out on your bed
you’ve got nothing left
i bore witness to
things you never said

i’m never safe
but you wanna relate
trust me, you don’t want this
itch inside your brain
you think that i’m a fuck up
but i can’t retaliate
we both know you’re right so
why do you wanna stay?

i really hate
the way you try to berate
everyone who tries to get inside your brain
guarding yourself off will only punish ones who stay

forget all the rest
i’ll go back to sleep when i’m dead
you wanted me open and honest 
but now i’m stuck lying with every breath
i’m sick of this world that i’m in
indulging in cardinal sin
waiting for another window 
so i can insert myself in

but let it be known
i’m doing this under duress
i vacated all of the premises
you can be certain that it’s in your head
you said i’m not going nowhere
do you even realize i’m there?
i’m ready for whatever comes next
my blue eyes are catching your stare

i got that envy and it’s building tall
search for a pill just to kill the withdrawal
make up your mind, please, once and for all
i hope that i don’t come off too banal

there’s nothing more important than yourself
your tongue is slick and saying something else
i can’t say that i even wish you well
i hope the stones you left unturned are hell

banal

prod neverforever

filled with broken promises n shit that i regret
hold me close im dyin soon i hope u dont 4get
tell me its ok cuz bae i bet u kno the best
problems will arise wen i js wana fuckin rest

xanax for my temper , my heaart u cut , dismembered
forgot to feel , remember . ts it wont get better
i cry n rip my sweater , i wrote this as a letter
ima fuckin loser,. but beggars cant be choosers

beggin tht my life will end, sry if u were my friend
death is alr spent
tell me im fucked up ik that
death is 2close for me to turn back

im writin all the same songs , u kno i wont b here long
i figured u would love me if i became something
i h8 ppl they h8 me
no1 feels the same thing
lyin is wat made me
u cant pretend u saved me ..

tearing at my sweater [neverforever]

prod made by quiet

you got one more chance to hold my hand
and then im gone for good
baby I don't care about your plans
as much as I should
and i know
youve got someone on your mind
can i replace him just for the night
i wanna love you and hold you tight
but someone's in my way

oh nah
your new man, he's just a roadblock
i wanna love you and hold you down
i wanna show you what its all about
(but someone's in my way)

I see stop signs, I keep on going baby
i see redlights and I just hit the gas, the gas
flew thru a redlight, baby I ran it for you
pulled over two times, I got two tickets for you, I did it for you

I
I just wanna know why
You left me for another one
You said I was the only one
why'd you make me wait so long
you know my heart is gone
I had to pray to god
for what i've done
I 
i dont wanna make my mind
I just wanna play both sides again
baby i just wanna take my time again
(I want you for life)

I see stop signs, I keep on going baby
i see redlights and I just hit the gas, the gas
flew thru a redlight, baby I ran it for you
pulled over two times, I got two tickets for you, I did it for you

redlights, i wont stop for no one
(redlights, i wont stop for no one)
i dont know where i am right now
(i dont know where i am right now)

flew thru a redlight, baby I ran it for you
pulled over two times, I got two tickets for you, I did it for you

redlight (@brryston)

[mh]

i am trying to be the best i could be for you 
but it seems no matter what i say 
i ruin everything 
oh i don't mean to hurt you 
and i'm sorry that i do 
i promise i'm trying to be better 
better for me and better for us
i just want you to trust me again 
and i promise
i'm putting in the effort you always wanted to see
you know this isn't really me 
i know it's a lot to ask you to stay 
cuz i simply don't deserve it 
and i know you're hurting babe 
but i'm hurting too 
and i don't know why i'm putting us through 
all of this pain </3 
and i'm tired of it 
i promise i'll fix it 
i don't wanna be the girl who got away 
i want you to stay 
cuz i love you babe 
can you please stay?

stay

break

dodododododododododo

oh, i couldn't find u
in the open sea
oh, i could've tried to
but u wouldn't let me in ur arms

and now i'm stuck between the thoughts of you and i
i smoke my cigarette, i smoke it thinking of u, of u

of u
of u 
of u

i see myself in u
except u wouldn't die for me
i'll take the pain away
i'll be ur drug, ur morphine

oh baby, what happened?
i share my thoughts
but i feel neglected
when i talk too much
so if i pull back then
and i don't use tongue
will that make u threatened?
if i did something wrong

but baby don't u leave like they did
i won't ever forgive u
and u keep on reminiscing of the things that we would do
don't u leave like they did (i won't)
don't u leave like they did (i won't)

oh, i couldn't find u
in the open sea
oh, i could've tried to
but u wouldn't let me in ur arms

i see myself in u
except u wouldn't die for me
i'll take the pain away
i'll be ur drug, ur morphine

redlight (@brryston)

bryst