i’ve been trying to write you
a series of poems
but nothings changing
ill bottle my problems
till i can’t contain them
they’ll stay right inside of my own head
and i just wanna know what it means
to be myself again
i’ve lost interest in the things that would help me just forget

and i don’t like the way i talk
i hate whats said
id rather just shut up
and eat this lead
i cant deal with dread
i cant deal with stress
i lie every single night awake in bed
my mind is sinking into sorrow
i cant see tommorow
yesterday was hollow
eyes are feeling shallow
i cant give a reason
why i should be breathing
wish for different seasons
so i can feel decent

some nights I lie in bed
trying to make sense 
of what i intend to be
my mom says get a job
but i cant hang on
to a life that isn't for me

but you and i
see eye to eye
as they keep movin forward
we get along
sing the same song
someday we'll make it out there

spotify

poems for myself w/ stephanie cortez (caspr & saint tommorow)

original song
https://soundcloud.com/nothomex/not-home-welcome-ft-heylog

heylog - welcome

LYRICS:

You've been on my mind
And I been losing time
Last thing you told me was goodbye, goodbye, goodbye

All my friends are junkies and I'm scared of growing older
It's like every time we talk you end up crying on my shoulder
Could you tell me why we do this? I don't know what the use is
I guess I'll stay in my room, because I'm tired of feeling useless
So braindead, can't eat, can't sleep
I been out my mind, locked in all week
Just hear me out, I'm on my knees
But you don't like to listen to me

You've been on my mind
And I been losing time
Last thing you told me was goodbye, goodbye, goodbye
Goodbye, goodbye, goodbye
Goodbye, goodbye, goodbye
Goodbye, goodbye, goodbye
Goodbye, goodbye, goodbye

You've been a waste of my time and I don't want this fight
What good is love when you can't see things from someone's side?
Let me just show you tonight, before we say goodbye
Let's go give into our pride, we can't go back inside
What's it gonna take for you to go get the message?
Save me all the evidence, and heartbreak along with it

You've been on my mind
And I been losing time
Last thing you told me was goodbye, goodbye, goodbye
Goodbye, goodbye, goodbye
Goodbye, goodbye, goodbye
Goodbye, goodbye, goodbye
Goodbye, goodbye, goodbye

GOODBYE w/ Sinxi

Instagram: @ninewaterss

Lyrics:

Big brain, yeah she gave me big brain
She looking for a handout, she know I got big fame
Bay boy said he wanna get is jittleang
I'm sorry I don't understand you
I don't talk to lames
I don't talk to lames, I speak guapanese
Even when I'm mean to women they get on their knees
New side chick, I think that she's Japanese
I don't speak no Japanese, but she still gon gobble deez

Nuts, I won't make a fuss
If she wanna move on me when we be on the bus
I'm finna bust, I'm bouta cum yah
I take her back to mine and get her on the camera
I can't get it up, I'm sipping too much beer
Typically I don't engage with women, they think that I'm queer
He look like a bitch, tell that bitch c'mere
C'mere
Hit your mother from the rear
The rear

guapanese

guapanese ft. yuki (prod. warpath)

Strength In Numbers

Prayer (prod. Svet)

my interpretation, check out the original !!

https://soundcloud.com/greenwood2000/keep-in-touch?si=f0674382d78545419575e78dd18101a2&utm_source=clipboard&utm_medium=text&utm_campaign=social_sharing

lyrics:

just pull me away
just somewhere to stay
i know where you've been before
just soften to me
if they find out
i know a place
what could i even say?

breathe through the worst parts, i'm told that it's not fair
i've been so focused on something that's not there
voice down my essence, it's clearer than you said
knew that you'd find me and put it all to rest
said so much but you still don't know me
outside on the road i slowly, get back to the place so coldy
don't ask, don't speak what you know please
just been turning away

when you're turning the page
i know what it takes
you said that you're better
i'm feeling the same
it's all dead
the morning hasn't come yet

when you're cursing your name
and the steps that you take
a year tryna move on
i'm standing in place
it's all dead
the morning hasn't come yet

just pull me away
just somewhere to stay
i know where you've been before
just soften to me
if they find out
i know a place
what could i even say?

Greenwood - Keep In Touch (Yokai Dreams Flip)

music video: https://youtu.be/nat_aQrXoXI?si=c5hxj_zKSHG9X_qz
100,000 miles on the dash, I’m down bad  
I was talking to the ceiling and I think it talked back   
I was looking for the answers in some mushroom caps 
I was trying rationalize it, got an itch to scratch 
I got more questions than answers, I know my ego does damage
I had a dream she was dancing and she was giving me glances 
now they talking a lot, but I don’t do the banter
I got a weight on my chest and I don’t want anymore panic 

I said "fuck this, fuck that,
Imma get my bands up"
swimming to the money, in the deep end, I can’t stand up 
they gone tell you lies that they can’t back up, it’s a standard 
I can’t do the bullshit with you baby, I can’t pander

and he feels something missing, he go and pop a prescription
he getting faced in the kitchen and he can’t make a decision 
yea that boy is so chopped, and he don’t got a vision 
he a day late, a buck short, and he ain’t never gone listen 

she did 3 damn bottles of jack back to back 
it ain’t worth your time, she gone do you like that 
she still look good, yea that’s just a fact 
I was at Joshua tree 
God was talking to me 
and yeah talking is cheap 
I just wanna be on 
I just wanna get up 
and I don’t wanna fall
fall down
it’s all gone hit the fan 

we met in a different place 
and it’s no time for a saving grace 
I’m stacking cash like a dinner plate 
she holds me down cause I do it great 
do it great
I don’t know what there’s left to say 
I’ll pay you back one day 
pay you back one day

music video

100,000 miles (prod. sheepy x staywoozy) [MV in desc]

[clip of harvey dent in batman]

lyrics

[maesk]
no spark
i just saw myself in those arms
haven't seen a fallen angel but it feels close
no clothes
she told me how it goes
she told me about the loving baby i cannot commit

all day, i've been thinking about it deeply
i can't stay, i've been holding back the tears 
can u do the same
look i don't have a phrase but its ok
just another forest that we face

it rains softly
dont hate me
our words can never travel safely
it's hard to navigate when the systems always breaking
i lost faith 'till one day u remade me

reborn
but the only difference is the tolerance
maybe i didn't play my cards right
but its too late to think about my past life
its just about tonight

[avxid]
carry me out
he cant compare to me now
he cant compare at all
my lungs are across the hall
theyre torn
from my body
but at least i know she want me
still i hurt
still it hurts u know


why the room i rot in feel so cold
all the time
it just leave me frozen
bb can u check the time
cuz i cant move my arms
and my hands sit in a jar
on ur countertop
my lord weve gone too far

not fair
its not fair
i would let u kill me if it meant ud love me more
not fair
not fair
i just let my blood drip quick on these marble floors

look me in my face while ur killing me
i could leave u here all alone and ud still feed off me
bb
i wont let u shame me
i wont let u hate me
see u in ur dreams
cuz i know that ur gonna miss me

words without armour

words without armour ft avxid (hollowpurple)

prod made by quiet

you got one more chance to hold my hand
and then im gone for good
baby I don't care about your plans
as much as I should
and i know
youve got someone on your mind
can i replace him just for the night
i wanna love you and hold you tight
but someone's in my way

oh nah
your new man, he's just a roadblock
i wanna love you and hold you down
i wanna show you what its all about
(but someone's in my way)

I see stop signs, I keep on going baby
i see redlights and I just hit the gas, the gas
flew thru a redlight, baby I ran it for you
pulled over two times, I got two tickets for you, I did it for you

I
I just wanna know why
You left me for another one
You said I was the only one
why'd you make me wait so long
you know my heart is gone
I had to pray to god
for what i've done
I 
i dont wanna make my mind
I just wanna play both sides again
baby i just wanna take my time again
(I want you for life)

I see stop signs, I keep on going baby
i see redlights and I just hit the gas, the gas
flew thru a redlight, baby I ran it for you
pulled over two times, I got two tickets for you, I did it for you

redlights, i wont stop for no one
(redlights, i wont stop for no one)
i dont know where i am right now
(i dont know where i am right now)

flew thru a redlight, baby I ran it for you
pulled over two times, I got two tickets for you, I did it for you

redlight (@brryston)

track 11
release
drums by @ejcarrmusic
mastered by david kowalski

lyrics:
stay
its what i couldn’t do
pray
they’ll get a hold of you
i’ll release all i’ve done
see the ways that i’ve won
on a summer night
if it decays with the sun
do we see winter months
by the candlelight?

i want to scream out my lungs
but won’t they hear what i’ve done
they could reprieve me
but you see, i just can’t justify
im baring teeth like a dog
so i can see what i’ve lost
if you were me, neither of us
would dare put up a fight

i know its all gonna change, don’t wait for the rain
i’ve had these feelings the same, but don’t remember the place
it took a year just to fade, don’t ask me again
‘cause when you say what you said
i’m ten all over again
when you say what you said
i’m ten all over again

redlight (@brryston)

bryst