i cant be alone
when no one calls my phone 
i just just wish i could end this shit and no one ever know 
maybe im a mess
stuck all in my head
like i said i know it ends and ive got nothing left 
i want you to know
i cant ever show 
the passion that i hold for you at all
you broke into my life
and stole my heart tonight 
i fucked up every time id even try 
you took a piece of me
still stuck in my dreams
tried to make it seem like im alright 
you think that i forgot 
i wish that i could stop 
the thing you said im not fucked up my mind 
i cant be alone
when no one calls my phone 
i just just wish  end this shit an no one ever know 
maybe im a mess
stuck all in my head
like i said i know it ends and ive got nothing left

i’ve got nothing left (prod. Sisar)

Check out my Brother Saint Gurr!!

https://on.soundcloud.com/oNwqV1pgoq88Hh8S8

Lyrics 

[VERSE I: Christian Gurr]
why do i even exist 
honestly people make me pissed 
suicidal still never slit my wrist 
i got the priesthood but im not john baptist 
suicide the drugs only help assist 
you probably get the jist
sometimes i rap with wisp 
light up the candle will o wisp 
burned down the house now im pissed 
ex lovers burned with 
pray they all burn to crisp
promise you'll never be missed 

[VERSE II: Jayden Gurr]
think that it's time that i picked up a pen
never been here before but i feel like i have 
thoughts keep on looping im stuck on repeat 
trynna survive im just trynna be me
here comes the hard part don't know what that means

[VERSE III: Christian Gurr]
confined in the priest 
saint gurr soon to be ceased 
when will my money increase 
when will i feel release 
too much to as for some peave 
backflow leaky probably forgot the grease 
crashed my car out of my 20k lease 
all of my tools 300 hundred a piece
shoes are supposed to crease 
i'll quit my job join the police 

light up the candle will o wisp 
burned down the house now im pissed 
ex lovers burned with 
pray they all burn to crisp
promise you'll never be missed

Will-O-Wisp (Saint Gurr, Feat Unzealed)

take me to the papap.m4a

12.2.2024/welcome.home

zay - if i had (prod. lj + zieas)

via crucis

destination: lost

Bought Sold And Sedated

Magic Moment / Settler's Bend

Magic Moment

Beat - https://youtu.be/2f9C5gV3a90?si=voieVcM2l3hdHhJM

I SHOULD REALLY START WEARING MY HARDHAT TO WORK

Prod. https://soundcloud.com/batbxy
Mixed/Mastered: https://soundcloud.com/alecdariius
pic by: https://soundcloud.com/crashed-notes
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Lyrics:
Self hatred, self annihilation, self destructive tendencies, I burn it while I'm cooking, keep me from myself again, the eyes you wanna look in, is it worth the effort, is it love, or jus some pussy, I don't care about me, that's been lately but I push me, the cliff of old habits I decided from the sky not to look in, 
Everything's karmatic, it's an eye for a liver, lovers raising doves for the funeral to flutter, new butterfly got my mind in the gutter, baby I'ma get her to show you I ain't selfish, maybe that was selfish, old manipulation hate the tactics I was built with, but truly I'm authentic ima own it no regretting, it was only for inspection, 

Insecure insanity don't put me back in cages, she worried that I'm manic jus because I'm really speaking, Ima keep it to myself if you don't trust the way I wander, Ima maze runner, wage waster, art maker, late stunner, lake swimmer, last summer, take something, take something, got a lot to give to ya, 
something was in retrograde or something I was tearing up, 
Honestly its hard to say I hate you I ain't giving up, 
Maybe I'll be worth it when your options aren't a hundred plus, 
Maybe I'll be worth it when you purposeless and giving up,
You should leave now, I'm bout to cast Im getting pissed off, I was taught the magick by the old Gods, peep the hounds baby sent my dogs unexpected when I pop up, I'm Poppin out my body it was love bitch but it's dead wrong, it's killing me, it's cyclical, cycles I decipher, so it's back to that Rosetta Stone, old programs, that manifested like a megaphone, I'm waiting for the riots Ima tyrant, with intention please stop acting like your guided, you don't trust God like I trust him, your rebellious, you gotta lotta love and I'll be honest heres the credit, you've been there in my lowest, showed love when I was lonely,  had my heart up had my soul really glowing, 
I here to burn the bridges jus to see if your convicted, 
The bars hurt baby it's been cold inside this prison,

Unconstructive Construct - Omega Rift | Prod. BATBXY |

07. Nujabes - The Sign (feat. Pase Rock)

experimentalist producer- beats, raps, lo-fi, vaporwave, slush, screamo, folk, and house
Here is every song since 2016: the good, the bad, the ugly.
118,412 (views) / 1483 (tracks) = 79.84625758597438 per views songs on average.

12.2.2024/welcome.home

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