fuck it im making this public i made this in 30 min

god im sad and pissed off and i feel like such a waste of space for not doing the open for https://soundcloud.com/okstarkie even though i tried for 8 hours straight

lyrics:
[prechorus]
 god im pissed off
tryna make it right
i cant really ever help it 
i cant get her off my mind (who lol what am i talking about )
its the hardest at the night time
eyeing up the razorblade
i got these thoughts up in my mind
that i cannot get away

[hook]
i put 20 on my soul
screaming out im getting old
i swear to god they do not like me
they just liking what i've shown

why the fuck im always wasting all my time
i got places i should go
i got methods i should try

but im stuck up in my ways
so ill vent inside this throwaway
i just wanna cry
but i cannot find the time
(cough)
cannot find the time
swear to god im never right
i just wanna go to sleep
swear to god i just wanna die

[verse]
i cant even keep the will enough that i can scream
baby i just wanna overdose and i just wanna sleep
tell me why im always so upset and why i feel these things
i just want to sit inside my room and cry at my tv
(yeahhh)
lately ive been feeling like im r4msey 
cus anxiety's my only friend 
i popped another ady
now im reeling off the chems

wishing it would end
lying on my bed
i feel horrible for ghosting hunter (and my friends)

[bridge]
yeah
im a worthless piece of shit
i pop another ady i dont ever wanna sleep
cus when i sleep i see the faces of the people that i hurt inside my dreams 
fuck
my
life
(crash!)

[prechorus]
 god im pissed off
tryna make it right
i cant really ever help it 
i cant get her off my mind (who lol what am i talking about )
its the hardest at the night time
eyeing up the razorblade
i got these thoughts up in my mind
that i cannot get away

[hook]
i put 20 on my soul
screaming out im getting old
i swear to god they do not like me
they just liking what i've shown

why the fuck im always wasting all my time
i got places i should go
i got methods i should try

but im stuck up in my ways
so ill vent inside this throwaway
i just wanna cry
but i cannot find the time
(cough)
cannot find the time
swear to god im never right
i just wanna go to sleep
swear to god i just wanna die

[bridge but outro]
lately ive been feeling like im r4msey 
cus anxiety's my only friend 
i popped another ady
now im reeling off the chems

wishing it would end
lying on my bed
i feel horrible for ghosting hunter (and my friends)

vent (ninewaters)

lovesick (siem spark)

p. @bleachcraft @yashio20k
crush crush crush

lyrics :
crushing up rocks on the phone with a credit card
spend the night at the pub now we getting barred
you and i at the club and i wanna leave
we're all acting like something that we don't wanna be
i'm gonna go, you're gonna miss me
down too low, could someone come and fix me
down too low, could someone come and kiss me
fell too slow, i've fallen fuckin six feet

slam a whiskey then i'm hitting 60 in a 30
i might crash but your words could never hurt me
call me crass, got me feeling really dirty
i said your words could never hurt me
but i like playing pretend
if it's anybody else yk i'm hard to offend
i guess you have effects on me that no one does
how did you get into my heart? no one knows
if we get into a fight you can break my nose
you can make me wanna die, you could break my bones
you could try and make me cry but i'm laughing to the bank
i'm taking out a loan
i'll spend it all on crank
jk! i am not a meth head! i am just a sesh head
alcohol bring me down and my mind send me death threats
give me a minute
let me roll into my deathbed

lovecrank

lovecrank 🧊 [p. bleachcraft . yashio]

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Oh, just give me a kiss before you go
Uh oh, I just need me a second to hold
You tighter till the days are brighter
Mental illness eats me alive, while I'm trapped and I'm stuck inside

My brain
Depression end this pain
But lil shawty makes me happy, so happy
I don't know why i was sad at the start
Take a trip and we'll fly up to mars
I hate when we're apart
I hate that you're so far
Love letters in the mail from my heart

Red moonlight, staring at the stars
Now I'll fall apart in your arms
Cause I knew that something was so wrong
Who would think the
Doctors wrong, or everyone's wrong
Who would think that you were all alone
But you aren't alone
Every time that I think I feel fake

My brain
Depression end this pain
But lil shawty makes me happy, so happy
I don't know why i was sad at the start
Take a trip and we'll fly up to mars
I hate when we're apart
I hate that you're so far
Love letters in the mail from my heart

gash on my heart [p. bleachcraft]

yuki (@0yukixx)