ft. @150lated
prod. @lilbishuey

lyrics:
1080p dreams:
flowers tatted on her neck
double d's, she got plastic on her chest
she's a baddie from quebec
pitoune just like valerie cossette
she likes clothes and alcohol 
and hates cold, she wants to leave montreal
audition for a casting call in L.A.
but she cannot act at all
sometimes she'll talk and then you'll ask her what that meant
it can be hard to tell with her thick french accent, yeah

150lated:
she so hot through the phone screen
tu es moche, what does that mean?
she a baddie from the north though
go down like a cheat code
look good in a dark dress
online she a bad bitch
first place in a pageant 
resubbed, all my money you can have it

1080p dreams:
she just stepped out a corvette
she's wearing a chic corset 
she looks like valerie cossette 
maybe it's valerie cossette

Stream on Spotify

valerie cossette ft. 150lated (prod. DJBISHU)

prod. @peteproduction_cz
engineered @IOFmusic

lyrics:
I feel sorry for myself now
so sorry
cause no one wants to listen to my sad sob story
I wrote tons of different drafts
but no one respects my craft
does it just sound like every other sad sob story
I thought I'd at least gain points for the honesty
and vulnerability
but I feel sorry for myself now
so sorry
cause no one wants to listen to my sad sob story
I was promptly made aware that nobody really cares
I guess it sounds like every other sad sob story
that no one is trying to hear
I apologize to all you guys
I'm so sorry
you must be tired of hearing about my sad sob story
I know I don't need coddling but I still hate all this tough love shit
isn't there a middle ground between sympathy and judgment?
I was just trying to be honest
but I feel sorry for myself now
so sorry
cause no one wants to listen to my sad sob story
guess it got repetitive cause it was always the same shit
I know it sounds like every other sad sob story
that no one is trying to hear
nobody wants to listen to my sad sob story
no one wants to listen to my sad sob story
nobody's trying to listen
nobody wants to listen
nobody gives a fuck about my sad sob story
now I'm starting to question if this whole thing's for me
cause I'm kind of tired of listening to my own sob story
I should burn it all in rage
and then turn to a new page
to leave behind the ashes of my old sob story
that no one was trying to hear
no one was trying to listen to my sad sob story
no one was trying to listen to my sad sob story

sob story (prod. pete production)

prod. JonBoy
mix/master @prodbybrody

lyrics:
I waited so long 
But you never showed up 
This is so stupid 
When will I ever grow up
Bad decisions 
Based on desperation 
Lack of vision 
Staying in stagnation 
Feeling down as fuck 
And I'm always lost 
Wish I was a true believer 
Staring out at the empty parking lot of this rundown movie theater 
Just sitting here 
The seagulls fled
Left me on read  
I fall apart
Just toss my heart by these stomped out darts and shopping carts 
I'm feeling dead 
The things you said 
Keep on playing on repeat 
In unison with my heartbeat
All my worst regrets ring in my ear real loud
It's not easy to ignore that 
I'm the only one who is here right now 
There must be a reason for that 
There must be a reason for that 
Feeling down as fuck 
And I'm always lost 
Wish I was a true believer 
Staring out at the empty parking lot of this rundown movie theater 
All my worst regrets ring in my ear real loud (the things you said play in my head, it's on repeat until I'm dead)
It's not easy to ignore that (I fall apart, just toss my heart by these stomped out darts and shopping carts)
I'm the only one who is here right now (I'm feeling dead, the things you said)
There must be a reason for that (keep on playing on repeat, keep on playing on repeat)
Staring out at the empty parking lot

empty parking lot (prod. JonBoy)

prod. @splashgvng
mix/mastered @prodbybrody

lyrics:
Lately I don't know where I fit in
Lately I just don't know where I fit in
I never identified with the preps
The trend of conformity is something I don't get
The jocks play hockey 
I don't cause that's just not me
Brad's a goon
He left me bruised after he fought me 
Lately I don't know where I fit in 
Maybe I'll just dye my hair black and hang out with the skids 
They listen to weird music 
And they're skinny as a toothpick 
They could never beat me up
Just mock me cause I'm not as odd as them 
I wonder what it's like to be a nerd
I'm terrible at math and science
And just okay with words 
The thugs still scare me 
Like that one dude named Barry
He sucker punched me for no reason while he was high as fuck on cocaine 
It caused me pain
Preps and jocks and nerds and thugs and skids 
I guess I'll never know exactly where I fit in
Thugs and nerds and jocks and preps and skids
But at the end of the day, they're all just kids 
Lately I don't know where I fit in 
Maybe I'll just paint my nails black and hang out with the skids 
A bunch of misfits 
On drugs that are illicit 
Maybe I'll just hang out with the skids 
Lately I don't know where I fit in (preps and jocks and nerds and thugs and skids)
Maybe I'll just wear dark clothes and hang out with the skids (I guess I'll never know exactly where I fit in)
A group of rejects (thugs and nerds and jocks and preps and skids)
Devoid of any respect 
Maybe I just belong with the skids
Lately I don't know where I fit in
Lately I just don't know where I fit in

the skids (prod. splashgvng)

prod. @barremadethebeat
mix/master @prodbybrody

lyrics:
got people walking all over me like a balance beam
and I've been taking all these L's like I'm a bad sports team
I feel the pressure building
coming apart at the seams 
and I'm close to giving up 
I'll be found at the lowest ranking
face down on the ground like I'm going planking
and just when I think all my cares are dead
my ego starts to rear its ugly head
got people walking all over me like a balance beam
and I've been taking all these L's like I'm a bad sports team
I feel the pressure building
coming apart at the seams 
and I'm close to giving up 
I feel like prey in the midst of vipers
or a sieve surrounded by snipers
and I've been taking L's since I was born (I've been taking L's since I was born)
while they sit back and watch eating popcorn
got people walking all over me like a balance beam
and I've been taking all these L's like I'm a bad sports team
I feel the pressure building
coming apart at the seams 
and I'm close to giving up 
now I've got the feeling that you're mad at me
why does everything have to be such a travesty?
it's been driving me to the brink of insanity 
no more hope, I've given up
no more hope, I've given up
no more hope, I've given up

taking L's (prod. Barré)

no samples
guitars by 1080p dreams
prod. @prodbyglacier

LYRICS:

laying in my bed, once again
trying to convince myself
that all those times we shared didn't mean that much to me
like every pointless afternoon in your room
watching your dvd collection
i always failed to mention that your favorite movies are dumb
and i hate them
but i still love you
even though you left me feeling lonely, empty and confused
what the fuck was that about?
now i'm trying to find a lesson
but i'm stuck with all these questions 
at a dead end
and i'm stressing
it's depressing cause i feel like i lost my best friend
do you know that feeling too?
and no, i'm not naive
i know you have your reasons
and i'll try my best to see them
and not be bitter and resentful
but i couldn't help think of our potential
couldn't you see it too?
i guess not
now everything we were is just an overused melody
everything we were is just me singing loud out of key
everything we were is just an overused melody
in this shitty song that i created when i was sad and all alone
(sorry about last summer when i broke your heart into a thousand pieces, just wait until wintertime to see if you'll be okay)

i'm sorry about last summer(prod. by glacier)

prod. @charlieshuffler

LYRICS: 

before you speak upon my situation
what if I told you that my limitations 
are larger than you think 
and I can't push past them
no matter how hard I try
when the burdens that I'm forced to carry
got me dreaming about sleeping in the mortuary 
I feel the weight of my own personal ceiling
crumbling down to bury me
cause the structure of my mind is immutable like the color of my eyes
I'm running out of time and there's nothing you can do about it
cause the structure of my mind is set in concrete like the color of my eyes
I'm running out of time and there's nothing that you can do
I know it's hard to see
my brain tissue isn't exposed for all to see
but if it was I would hide it
like I hide everything else
I hide my feelings too 
but this is getting way too hard to keep from you
could you tell by the way I always moan like I'm depressed?
or is it the rope around my neck?
cause the structure of my mind is unchangeable like the color of my eyes
I'm a fuck up by design and there's nothing I can do about it
the medication is a joke
it just makes me want to choke myself with my own two bare hands
until I suffocate and die
wipe your tears, wipe your tears
I didn't mean to make you cry
I'm just trying to explain why I'm like this
the color of my eyes
and I would change that too 
I know it's cliche but I always wished that they were blue
or green
maybe I'll go and buy some colored contacts
woooahhhhhhhh

color of my eyes (prod. charlie shuffler)

prod. @tothegood

LYRICS:

...and I've been feeling worse as each day passes by
Got lost in my head, couldn't stop questioning why
Trying to fill the holes of this existence
How did this story start? Where does it end?

God slammed the door on me again
I banged on it and begged "please let me in"
The universe is such a fucked up place
It slammed its door right in my face
x2

and I've been feeling numb as the weeks pass by me
I'm thinking that this hole's too deep to dig out of
Will anybody help me square this circle?
Fuck my life, I even ditched the dress rehearsal

I'm trying to find the meaning for why my heart is beating
Still searching for the reason as to why I'm even breathing

God slammed the door on me again
I banged on it and begged "please let me in"
The universe is such a fucked up place
It slammed its door right in my face
x2

and I've been feeling worse as each day passes by
Got lost in my head, couldn't stop questioning why
Trying to fill the holes of this existence
Am I the only one here who thinks that none of this makes sense?

Help me understand my purpose
and everything that led me to be here
I lie awake and wonder if any of this matters...

I DM'd God and got left on seen (prod. tothegood)

no samples
prod. 1080p dreams

Lyrics:
sometimes I think back to the days
when everything fell into place
and life's hardships seemed like mass exaggerations
before anxiety had placed its stranglehold on me
before the panic attacks and derealization
I remember when I first felt close to a good friend
we'd stay up all night and walk around for hours
the thought that it would end never crossed my mind back then
I didn't know I'd watch my best friends turn to strangers
I just wanted things to be simple
like the lyrics to this song
I thought that things would be simple
but clearly I was wrong
things aren't so simple for a first world kid like me
clinging to his non-viable dreams
maybe one day I will see the light
and realize the end is worth the fight
but now I must go, I'm signing out
a potential 50 more years of this mess
most the time I wish that I was dead
I want to travel further back in time
live the rest of my life on rewind
but things aren't that simple
things aren't that simple
I remember when I finally got past level 10
staying up and playing 64 for hours
simple like the lyrics to this song
I thought that things would be simple
I'm always fucking wrong
but I'll still keep fighting everyday 
even if my mind says I should give up
I'll still jump through all the hurdles in the way
even when my body starts to give out
and I'll push all of my harmful thoughts away
even though they're telling me to give in
still I wish I could relive all of the days
when I thought that things would be simple
but they're not

simple. (feat. jimmy from mishandled)

prod. @4evrgone

lyrics:

I always forget that I am still alive
funny, could've swore that I had died
I got so tired of existing 
that I decided life was not worth living
but I am still a thing
much to my chagrin
I thought my friends and family missed me 
cause I've been dead since 2016
living my life like a ghost
the kind of life I like the most, yeah
seeing all the people in the street
but they see right past me
I left this earth like an astronaut 
filled with cyanide like an apricot
now I'm late like an afterthought
and they all miss me
I know it's super shitty
for anyone who tried to die and failed
for everyone whose life went off the rails
please don't remind me that I am still alive
funny, could've swore that I had died
I got so tired of existing 
that I decided life was not worth living
but I'm still here
for god knows how many more years
people said that I went missing
I've been dead since 2015
I called it quits and fled the scene 
with tons of anger and hostility, yeah
but from time to time
I check on all the ones I left behind
it's kind of funny seeing how it goes
like, the ones who hurt me seem to grieve the most
now I lowkey feel like an asshole
just know it's all love at the end of the day
I always thought I'd die alone, I never laughed you should've known x3
you should've known
you mean to tell me that I am still alive?
I fucking could've swore that I had died
I got so tired of existing
that I decided life was not worth living
now I'm no longer here
I permanently disappeared
check my obituary listing
I've been a stiff since I was 16
woahhhh x4

still alive (prod. 4evr)

prod. @sorrow_bringer

lyrics:

I face denunciation as they frown on me
for all the times I lost my reason and took a dive straight off the deep end
now everything around is falling down on me
I grapple with this sinking feeling as the cracks grow in the ceiling
I feel the waves of melancholy drowning me
while artists spread their shitty spam to all their non-existent fans
I hear the voices grieving for their shallow dreams
and I feel empty
witness the last dying breaths of monogamy
as lovers trade their wedding bands for hollow aimless one night stands
I guess their expectations trumped reality
and I think I'll stay inside today
I watch the gradual decay of my family tree
with branches falling to the ground, no sense of meaning to be found
I guess that being just wasn't cut out for me
and I'll continue to hide away
I revel in this dark Ottawa winter
I've realized that there's beauty in the cold
just leave me here to freeze to death alone now
then bury me beneath the icy snow
I've sung my swansong for all of humanity
I never understood this place and now I think we should part ways
I've finally come face to face with insanity 
and I think I lost my mind today

I think I lost my mind today (prod. sorrow bringer)

flossing acoustic (6 dogs cover)

no samples
prod. 1080p dreams

lyrics:
my will to live has gone missing
don't know where it could have went
my will to find it is also absent 
don't know where that is either
if you happen to see it please tell me
nah just kidding I don't actually care
don't contact me
or anybody I know
just keep your distance
my happiness has gone away 
(off into the wide blue yonder)
or was it there in the first place? 
(was it all just an illusion?)
my mind has reached its dullest state 
(I'm an idiot today)
or was I always this fucking stupid??
(and I was one yesterday)
I've got these demons inside me
skeletons in my closet
don't wanna talk about any of that shit
so just fucking drop it
when will I finally find a way 
to say the things I wanna say?
when will I finally see the day
when all my problems go away?
maybe nine pills is excessive
why not just take seven?
or even just five?
so sick of hearing these mindful thoughts 
that try to keep me alive
I've got these kpins inside me
adderall in my pocket
don't wanna hear about any of your shit
I've got these demons inside me
skeletons in closets
voices in my head
they're telling me that 
everything that I have come to know is null
and I'm better off dead
off into the wide blue yonder
I'm trying to escape my thoughts
this isn't working
I took too much ambien today
now I'm fading away x2
I went down a long slide to go play in this ball pit
where instead of balls, there's empty pill bottles
and now I'm left here drowning

kpins and needles

video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_OaDzIt_QP8

prod. 1080p dreams

lyrics:

slit my wrists and smash my phone
don't want anyone to text me 
let me suffer on my own
I'll board up the doors of my home
turn the basement to a boneyard
like the Paris catacombs

I keep on staying hidden like a stowaway
I think my life was probably the most useless thing I've thrown away
once aspired to make music that left people blown away
now I'm dropping all these mediocre tracks that no one plays
and everybody's throwing shade
wondering if anyone will miss me when I go away
my demise came through with no delay
you live like there's no tomorrow, I'll die like there's no today

slit my wrists and smash my phone
don't want anyone to text me 
let me suffer on my own
I'll board up the doors of my home
turn the basement to a boneyard
like the Paris catacombs

embarrassed by the self-destructive shit that I've indulged in
when I say I'm cutting, it's not coming after bulking
posted up in my room where you'll find me sulking 
home alone making trap shit like a young Macaulay Culkin
it's been forever since I lost my way
somebody tell all these British people that I'm not okay 
every single good thing that I ever had got tossed away
they said one day things would be better, I guess it's not today

all these haunting thoughts that slither through my mind
leave me feeling broken and send shivers down my spine
and if I think back, I can remember a time
when I felt semi-hopeful but now I'm left for dead with no more lifelines

slit my wrists and smash my phone
don't want anyone to call me
let me suffer all alone
I'll board up the doors of my home
turn the basement to a boneyard
like the Paris catacombs

smash my phone (visuals in description)

ft. @hiitshmwav

no samples
prod. 1080p dreams

hm.wav:

just wasting my time in the back of the line 
I still have my skinny jeans from west 49

1080p dreams:

let's all meet at the mall
for no reason at all
it's just a day in the boonies
we'll chill in your cul-de-sac
with tim hortons iced caps
that we paid for with toonies
we still get fucked with by the thugs 
trying to look tough with their mean mugs
if you're looking to start drama, that ain't wise
I graduated from degrassi high
now I'm bumping sum 41 from 2001
cause I'm a punk rock kid
and I'm decked out like avril lavigne in 2003
I'm on my punk rock shit
yeah!

hm.wav:

ripped thrasher hoodie, i know i'm a loser
nicotine in my blood stream cause i'm a user

1080p dreams:

I just got new skateboard trucks
even though I suck
I can't keep myself from bailing
let's mimic jackass instead
filming pranks with our friends
going bush diving off railings
we still get shut down by adults
trying to bring our fun to a halt
too bad we know just where you live
check your porch, we left a flaming bag of shit as a gift

hm.wav:

kicked out every other night
i'm sleeping under skate ramps
earbuds blasting state champs
you could not comprehend this
20 years without a direction
not lacking knowledge but interest
on topics i would rather gouge my eyes out
than conform to the petty bullshit

1080p dreams:

now I'm bumping sum 41 from 2001
cause I'm a punk rock kid
and I'm decked out like avril lavigne in 2003
I'm on my punk rock shit
I'm bumping sum 41 from 2001
cause I'm a punk rock kid
and I'm decked out like avril lavigne in 2003
I'm on my punk rock shit
canadian punk rock kid
yeah!

on my punk rock shit ft. hm.wav

prod. @dethc

lyrics:

I'm not lifted cause I never smoke that loud
yet I've always had my head up in the clouds
I start picturing my body in the dirt
when I think of everybody that I hurt
but I slowly started to feel a bit better
when I stopped caring about how I'll be remembered
my existence is so inexusable
that you could talk shit about me at my funeral
I wouldn't mind
mention my propensity to lie
tell them that I never even tried
say how I was rarely ever there
convey the fact I barely even cared
empathy's not something I attained
my heart is just as tiny as my brain
mankind and I have always been detatched
my eulogy should belong in the trash
and I don't care
remember all those times I made you laugh?
sometimes I wish that I could take them back
if 98% of me is negative
might as well just make the leap to one hundred
I'm sorry that I couldn't make you proud
I got sidetracked cause my head's up in the clouds
but I imagine that it will be beautiful
when you tear me apart at my own funeral
at my funeral

@myfuneral (prod. dethcab)

ft. @kingtheta

prod. @kelykabbage and 1080p dreams

lyrics:

1080p dreams:

My comfort zone gets smaller everyday 
My comfort zone gets smaller

missing breaths
rapid heartbeat in my chest
now my body's dripping sweat
feeling like I missed a step 
walking down a flight of stairs
fight or flight
my mind is scared 
cause it doesn't know how I will land 
so dismayed
cause it just won't go away
feeling like I've gotten trapped 
knowing that there's no escape
fear is pumping through my veins
and my body's so afraid
plagued by things I'll never understand

that feeling of sudden impending doom won't find me in my room
a sanctuary place to hide away

I'm sorry I don't really wanna stay
Guess I'll be on my way
My comfort zone gets smaller everyday 
x2

My comfort zone gets smaller everyday
My comfort zone gets smaller

king theta:

You can tell
By how I carry myself
That I'm not doing too well
Inside my skull I'm in hell
Wishing that I didn't care
Tripping over every stare
Quitting, I don't wanna share
Not at ease anywhere
This is the reason for every single addiction
I keep believing delusional mental fiction
I would be sleeping, but can't without a prescription
Call me king is a contradiction

1080p dreams:

that feeling of sudden impending doom just found me in my room
I'm bracing cause I know there's hell to pay

I'm sorry I don't really wanna stay
Guess I'll be on my way
My comfort zone gets smaller everyday 
x2

It gets smaller
My comfort zone gets smaller everyday 
My comfort zone gets smaller
my anxiety gets stronger everyday 
and my comfort zone gets smaller

would you believe me when I say that I'm tortured?
I'm inside of hell
magma rain keeps on pouring down
my demons got me pegged in a corner
If life was a movie, I would say that it's horror now

comfort zone ft. king theta (prod. k3lykabbage & 1080p dreams)

prod. @iamoceanus

lyrics:

I wish that I could live in my dreams for a day
because it's better than a fully conscious awake state
and ever since you left, everything has gone south 
like the Canada geese in the winter
my shard wounds have replaced what once were splinters
I've got this fake Rolex watch to hide these scars on my wrist
and an Rx script for these oxy's in this caesar cocktail drink that I've mixed
and you don't have to remind me that I'll never be a baller
got no chain, just a noose around my neck
only aiming the ruger at my head
I wish that I could just run away, far away (far away x3)
because it's fucked up how much shit can go wrong in a day (it's fucked up that all this is happening)
everything has gone downhill fast 
like a pair of skis in the winter
collapsing quicker than you can say timber (everything has fallen down)
I still have your letters 
and from time to time, I'll read them
those were such heartfelt words you wrote me
I wish I actually believed them
and you don't have to remind me that I'll never be a lover
got no heart, just a hole inside my chest
only buying flowers for my deathbed
every breath is painful like precordial catch syndrome
minus 30 seconds I'll be soaring out that window
don't know where it'll take me, I'll just go which way the wind blows
step out of the room if you don't want to see me implode 
every breath is painful like precordial catch syndrome
minus 15 seconds I'll be soaring out that window
don't know where it'll take me, I'll just go which way the wind blows
I almost made the leap but then thought, who's gonna take care of my dogs?

144p life (prod. oceanus)

prod. @yungivyxo

lyrics:

I'm adrift in my head again
I'm adrift in my head
I've been battling with demons from a young age like I grew up playing doom
still sweeping all my problems under the rug in my room
praying every day that this will all be over soon
please be over soon
I hope my guardian angel hasn't given up on me
and she's just on break, vaping 
soon to return and grant luck to me
there's memories that I really wish wouldn't have stuck with me
but it seems like they'll forever be there just to fuck with me
I only have a few friends but that's enough for me
and it means the world to me that they enjoy my company
I had a girl that was in love with me
but then she disappeared and left me with the sound of rustling leaves
so now i'm writing lyrics about sadness 
fraught and all alone downing lyrica tablets 
I try and peer through the blackness while I veer into madness lying here on my mattress 
often times I wish I wasn't so weird and low status
all I wanted was to fit in with the peers in my classes 
but we don't always get what we want
now I guess I've gotta write my story with my least favorite font
on the wrong end of the bell curve
within my IQ bracket, there's an eclectic mix of thugs, druggies, and video game addicts
they told me learning just takes a little bit of practice
but still I couldn't hack it 
I should be kicking all my habits 
but I think I'd much rather be drinking from my chalice
I think I'll be fucked until I'm stiff and in a casket
stiff and in a casket, yeah
I hope one day I'll be fine but until then it's hard to get by
I hope one day I'll be fine but until then it's hard to get by

i hope one day i'll be fine (prod. yung ivy)

ft. @steadysuffer & @violeteyezmusic

prod. @mothfries

lyrics:

1080p dreams:

I still feel your blade from getting stabbed in the back
every day sets the stage for a panic attack
I wake up in the morning, don't know how to react
so my mind slowly builds to a panic attack
it just hit me one time
collapsing to the floor and it isn't even lunch time
I woke up this morning, didn't know how to react
my whole life's like a never-ending panic attack
like a never-ending panic attack
like a never-ending panic attack
no more serenity, I'll never end up getting it back

banging my head against the wall
I just don't wanna feel anything at all
I'm getting ready for the fall 
spiking my own drinks with the methyl alcohol
always burdened by my actions
can't stop dwelling on all my past awkward social interactions
convince myself they never happened
memories I try to just pretend that I imagined
this throbbing vein in my temple is making me tremble
it's painful and stressful
I'm up late trying to wrestle with voices
my shoulders have an angel and devil
he's so good at persuasion
but my angel's trying to save me from this hyperventilation 
she gave me a paper bag for respiration
he handed me a plastic one that I could suffocate in

steadysuffer:

ya you told me i was nothing like they said
you told me I was better off dead
now i gotta pull up to the function all red
pull the trigger now i'm dead
(ya ah)

she don't wanna talk no more
pedal to the metal & the suicide doors
got a coper on my ass so i kick it in sport
no breaks just gas cause life is short

i'm sippin lean all day
and my sprite bottle lookin like a goddamn grape
get the fuck up out my way 
don't tell me we're the same
i'm in another state with my shawty on facetime

ya I ain't been on a date in a long time
if I fuck up i'll accuse her
you must think i'm a loser 
if i can't keep a conversation 
i'm sorry

violeteyez:

Where are you? And I'm so sorry
I was too depressed to go to your grad party
And now I watch your new boyfriend 
pick you up on the back of his brand new Harley
Well, Barbie girl, do you miss me?
He's got a chopper and I got a 6 speed
So what is it this week? Who are you kissing?
Am I insane, or could this time be different?

And I know you'll cover it up like you do
You left your morals with your clothes: in my bedroom
And I promise that I didn't take all this-
lightly, though you tried to slip it by me
I just need some time, so sit tight, please
emotions give me anxiety

1080p dreams:

I still feel your blade from getting stabbed in the back
every day sets the stage for a panic attack
I wake up in the morning, don't know how to react
so my mind slowly builds to a panic attack
it just hit me two times
I'm in the ER and it's only half past noontime
I woke up this morning, didn't know how to react
my whole life's like a never-ending panic attack
like a never-ending panic attack
like a never-ending panic attack
no more serenity, I'll never end up getting it back

panic attack ft. steadysuffer & violeteyez (prod. mothfries)

prod. @cxldblxxd

lyrics:

never in my life did I think I'd cross paths with 
a girl as flawless as you
you're soaked in glamour
and I'm so enamored 
with everything that makes you 'you'
I know the feeling isn't mutual
it's rejection as usual 
I should just forget your name
but I think it's indisputable 
just how much you're fucking beautiful 
and I'm such a fucking lame
she's got a face like carly rae jepsen
I'd rate her a solid 11
she's an angel fallen from heaven
I'm just so enthralled by her presence
red hair like emma stone 
wishing she would call me on my telephone but
instead I'm left alone
it's so hard not to get lost in your blue eyes
it's happened to me a lot more than just a few times
your whole body glows like the moonlight
you knock me off my feet with your compassion
your creativity, your beauty and your fashion
it's more than I could ever have imagined 
I know the feeling isn't mutual
it's rejection as usual 
I should just forget your name
but I think it's indisputable 
just how much you're fucking beautiful 
and I'm such a fucking lame
I'm such a fucking lame
why am I such a lame?
on that dreary sad night
when I broke down and cried
you were there 
and I was blessed by your solicitude
words can't describe how much I value you
you're so angelic 
with dope aesthetic 
I'm so pathetic
broken and helpless
I was feeling a connection
now I'm knee deep in rejection
I was feeling a connection
now I'm knee deep in rejection
I'm knee deep in rejection

rejection as usual (prod. cxld blxxd)

prod. @user-44062211
ft. @angelicaxel97
mixed & mastered by @iofmusic

my final day ft. angelic axel (prod. roy major)

lyrics:

and whatever you're doing, I bet you're not thinking about me
in your mind I'm probably a distant memory
but getting you out of my head is tough for me to do
cause all these thoughts I have somehow keep coming back to you
and I had a dream last night that we went and broke the rules
and we met up after dark on the steps of my old high school
I looked you straight into the eyes and I told you how I feel
and it broke my heart to pieces when I found out this moment wasn't real
another disappointment
this is so bad for my health
I bet you have somebody else 
or maybe you're just happy by yourself
sorry if I'm being too loud 
but sometimes I wanna yell
things tend to get real lonely at the bottom of a well
I know this isn't your fault
you didn't mean to cast this spell
being so damn perfect isn't something you can help
now I'm wondering how many other guys you've done this to
tell me who they are so all of us can start a support group 
and it's on days like today when I hate my dumb negative brain
I should just be happy that I was touched by an angel 
instead of being so sad she flew away
maybe someday she'll reach out 
but I know that I shouldn't hold my breath
thinking about you like this will lead me to my death
you're the most beautiful girl I've ever met in my entire life
google search 'how do I forget the most beautiful girl I've ever met?'
how on earth do I forget the most beautiful girl I've ever met?

you're the most beautiful girl I've ever met

no samples
prod. 1080p dreams

lyrics:
and all I can do now is wait for my demise
cause every dream I once had has slowly gone astray
I know it's hard for you to look me in the eyes
so I'll just put my head down and slowly walk away
and I know the way I've been living isn't right
but I'm sick of hearing all this unsolicited advice
if I'm capable of change, I know I'll have to fight
but I think I'd much rather just disappear into the night
I've been heading down the wrong path for forever
or at least as long as I remember
at this rate I'll be gone by mid-november
only to be forgotten in december
the consequences of all my stupid actions
have caught up to me and they could end me any day
if I could go back, I'd let the same things happen
because I know I never stood a chance anyway
feeling so forlorn, I wish I could be erased
wandering around alone because I never found my place
society doesn't want me because I couldn't get the grades
but I'm not cool in the scene cause there's no tattoos on my face
I've been heading down the wrong path for forever
or at least as long as I remember
at this rate I'll be gone by mid-november
only to be forgotten in december
free will is only a deception
my fate was always misdirection
cancel all my interventions
I've been on the wrong path since my conception
and there's no way of getting off
there's no way of getting off 
I've been heading down the wrong path for forever
or at least as long as I remember
at this rate I'll be gone by mid-november
only to be forgotten
I've been heading down the wrong path for forever
or at least as long as I remember
at this rate I'll be gone by mid-november
only to be forgotten in december
I've been heading down the wrong path for forever (free will is only a deception)
or at least as long as I remember (my fate was always misdirection)
at this rate I'll be gone by mid-november (cancel all my interventions)
only to be forgotten in december (I've been on the wrong path since my conception)
and there's no way of getting off
there's no way of getting off 
now they're laughing at me like a funny movie
while life keeps fucking me hard like a slutty groupie
this city is forsaken and the sun is gloomy
I don't know what to make of all this ugly beauty
forever consumed by all my frustrations
no longer solitude, just isolation
I close my eyes to try and find a place that's far away from here

wrong path

no samples
prod. 1080p dreams

lyrics: 
permanently stone-faced
always moving at a slow pace
off-putting like a gross taste
straight malort with no chase
and you can tell by my demeanor
that I don't wanna be here
yet sometimes I just can't help
but dream of a different version of myself
where I would smile 
like lily allen
enthusiastic 
like jimmy fallon
with a guest on
a fit of laughter
probably fake
but it doesn't really matter
yet all the feelings of self-hatred won't end
I've put a bounty on my own head
left myself roasted
punched myself in the face until my nose bled
then trampled all over my rose bed
yet sometimes I just can't help
but dream of a different version of myself
where I would smile 
like lily allen
enthusiastic 
like jimmy fallon
with a guest on
a fit of laughter
probably fake
but it doesn't really matter
it doesn't really matter
cause I would smile 
like lily allen
enthusiastic 
like jimmy fallon
with a guest on
a fit of laughter
probably fake
but it doesn't really matter
it doesn't really matter
it doesn't really matter
cause everyone likes me but nobody knows why
and everyone cites me as being a dope guy
everyone likes me but nobody knows why
everyone likes me like jimmy fallon
like jimmy fallon

jimmy fallon

prod. hayden

lyrics:
I had a dream last night that it was just me and you
and we were listening to eurodance songs in your bedroom
and I was in the best mood
woke up disillusioned wondering where it all went to
all of the things that brought me joy before
don't make me feel the same way anymore
watched all my hopes and dreams go out the door
and felt serotonin fall through the floor
I had a dream that they brought back the exhibition 
and we were hanging out right by the aberdeen pavilion
entranced by all the bright lights and the loud sounds
and they were playing eurodance songs in the background
we kept going on the pharaoh ride 
always in the furthest back seat so we would get the most high
I barely noticed the time go by
and I hoped this moment won't die
I had a dream last night that it was just me and you
and we were listening to eurodance songs in your bedroom
all of the things that brought me joy before
don't make me feel the same way anymore
watched all my hopes and dreams go out the door
and felt serotonin fall through the floor
all of the monsters underneath my bed
have gotten deep inside my head
I'm trying but I'm barely hanging by a thread
so much weaker after the virus spread

eurodance songs (prod. hayden)

ft. @dylonbangss
prod. @gaxillic_beats
additional guitar solo by @dylonbangss

lyrics:

1080p dreams:
nowadays the world has become too toxic
I just wanna be in a punk rock mosh pit
all my friends with me
the band is fast and melodic
vocalist is singing catchy hooks like a pop hit
wearing dickie shorts with a chain wallet
it's '97
got a fresh pair of airwalk kicks
watching the guitarist jumping on stage 
playing power chords and octaves
and we in high spirits
chanting what we can remember of the lyrics
now we stage diving
yeah we fearless
creating the memories that we hold dearest
and for this moment in time
I think that things will be alright
no longer hoping that I die
just feeling stoked to be alive
nowadays the world has become too toxic
I just wanna be in a punk rock mosh pit
all my friends with me
the band is fast and melodic
vocalist is singing catchy hooks like a pop hit
wearing dickie shorts with a chain wallet
it's '97
got a fresh pair of airwalk kicks
watching the guitarist jumping on stage 
playing power chords and octaves

DYLON BANGSS:
I always wanna feel the stage fright
praying to god that it all goes right
but I'm somewhere in the crowd
create a circle for me now
you're standing still then you're a target
steel-toed boots on, I'm a marksman
tryna impress my darling
but she thinks I'm retarded

1080p dreams:
nowadays the world has become too toxic
I just wanna be in a punk rock mosh pit
the band is fast and melodic
vocalist is singing catchy hooks like a pop hit
nowadays the world has become too toxic
I just wanna be in a punk rock mosh pit
all my friends with me
the band is fast and melodic
vocalist is singing catchy hooks like a pop hit
wearing dickie shorts with a chain wallet
it's '97
got a fresh pair of airwalk kicks
watching the guitarist jumping on stage 
playing power chords and octaves
nowadays the world has become too toxic
I just wanna be in a punk rock mosh pit
all my friends with me
the band is fast and melodic
vocalist is singing catchy hooks like a pop hit
wearing dickie shorts with a chain wallet
it's '97
got a fresh pair of airwalk kicks
watching the guitarist jumping on stage 
playing power chords and octaves

punk rock mosh pit ft. DYLON BANGSS (prod. gaxillic)

prod. @blade_901

lyrics:
this pain won't go away with the seasons changing
the snow's melted and gone but I feel the same
I look around, you're not there
just a scenic painting
a backdrop where it's pouring freezing rain
by the creek where we sat and watched the sunset
skipping rocks on the water 
yours beat mine
I try to cling to hope
but I don't have much left
everything just fades in time
looking at these pictures of us on my old phone
we're split apart by the crack in the screen
now I'm crying at the park
I should go home
so that this sorrow stays unseen
memories of us inside a time capsule
should have stayed in the ground
but I dug them up
the locket from your necklace
the lid from my snapple
some old movie ticket stubs
and the saddest part is that we never got to see the sequel
and honestly I wish that this feeling was fatal
a sadness so strong that both my lungs collapsed
stopped my heart from beating
all organs unable to function
no more sand in the hourglass
now I'm lying here gasping for my last breath
I know that you probably don't care
I've used up all the oxygen that I had left
and now I'm finally out of air

got a little sad there eh bud (prod. blade901)

prod. @theklsx

lyrics:
I always wear a hat 
to hide my unkempt hair
I rarely get it cut
hate sitting in that chair
I haven't shaved in weeks
I don't care what I wear
I'm out of shape and weak
can barely walk up stairs
I've given up on life
I guess it's plain to see
I couldn't put up a fight
and there's no saving me
such a nervous wreck
drowning in the abyss
stubble on my neck
walking around with this
ethan klein aesthetic
probably prediabetic
I know I'm pathetic 
blame it on my genetics
my music fucking sucks
I don't care anymore
about trying to sound good
it's all been done before
creativity is dead
put the microphone down
be productive instead
of singing like a clown
I just did this to try
and garner some respect
boost my self-esteem
had the opposite effect
this shit is fucking wack
what do I do it for
each time I drop a track
I hate myself even more
now I don't even try
one word suicide note that says bye
I don't even try
one word suicide note
bye

ethan klein (prod. K L Sx)

prod. @prodbuzzd
engineered @kingtheta

lyrics:
yo this bops, fuck all of the haters
show popped off, now we getting to the paper
I'm so punk rock, I could have been the curator of the soundtrack for Tony Hawk's Pro Skater
now we getting turnt up like a raver that's in a club with a fog machine and lasers
I'm so punk rock, I should have been on the soundtrack for Tony Hawk's Pro Skater
you can find me at the skatepark 
grinding is my trademark 
on top of the rails
moving real fast like I'm Sonic & Tails
haters talking mad shit, we don't fuck with that shit
I be busting rad tricks like I'm Bucky Lasek
and my bitch is in the beamer
she rolls the windows down and it's Elissa Steamer
skate logo on my tee, that's the precedent 
yeah I'm repping DC like the President
and on my feet I got some white Vans like the vehicles driven by creepy white mans
I'm a Chad like Muska
started out underground then became bigger than Russia
gonna drop into the vert now
and if you ain't a bro, get up out my Birdhouse
we got "Shorty's" on deck
I just cashed a check
I'm in my "Element" - Element crew neck
been "Independent" "Circa" 2017
my whole "[K]rew" "Spitfire" 
now we getting to the green
yo this bops, fuck all of the haters
show popped off, now we getting to the paper
I'm so punk rock, I could have been the curator of the soundtrack for Tony Hawk's Pro Skater
now we getting turnt up like a raver that's in a club with a fog machine and lasers
I'm so punk rock, I should have been on the soundtrack for Tony Hawk's Pro Skater
I'm so punk rock like Tony Hawk
getting loads of guap like I'm Tony Hawk
I'm so punk rock like Tony Hawk
I'm getting guap like a pro skater
I'm so punk rock like Tony Hawk
getting loads of guap like I'm Tony Hawk
I'm so punk rock, I should have been on the soundtrack for Tony Hawk's Pro Skater

tony hawk's pro skater (prod. buzzd)

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