get out of my mind i dont wanna feel the distance

15forevr - Control

tbh i was just ranting over a beat to let my feelings out, pretty amateur

im so confused i dunno wut 2 do now u say u lov me but u alwayz seem to let me down
we both know its not how it was before n it hurts so much cuz now all u do is ignore
why is it so hard for me to just control my feelings say ull love me forever but u always end up leaving
i just wanna go back but maybe its too late but u dont even care why do i try in the first place
i wanna leave but im so scared of change i wanna let go but im so afraid

i rly just wish all these thoughts would stop 
and i know its not all ur fault but it rly hurts me a lot
i just wanted comfort but all u do is use me use me~
why is everything like this? why is it so toxic?
get out of my mind i dont wanna feel the distance...

i dunno what to do i just wanna stop crying 
maybe i should say goodbye i always feel like im dying 
n i know u dont love me n ik u dont care 
what the fuck did i do? why is everything so unfair?

im sorry its like this im sorry i cant fix it
im sorry i ruined everything im sorry i was toxic
im sorry i loved u too much im sorry i still love u
im sorry i drove you away im sorry that i stayed
im sorry i even loved you in the first place

i should just say goodbye 
but it hurts so much inside
i dont know what to do 
im lost without you..

the devil has the best tuna

much love <3 not quite okay yet i still get dark thoughts about the past.. but u make me feel amazing when u hold me i luv  u!! i rly mean it i dont know where i would be right now if  u didnt call back that day but i hope u know i appreciate u more than anything thank u so much for being here for me during the hardships i know i can be a bit much sometimes but we can get thru it together!! iloveyou!^.^

i luv u

--lyrics--
bleed out all the sin
lips of death sing lullabies
enchanting
she's calling

misery
i love you
self loathing
consuming
agony
please don't hurt me

by the tree there's a bird
she eats the worm
feed off of pain
life so worthless
like an idiot
you make me feel stupid
oh oh oh oh oh

misery
i love you
self loathing
consuming
agony
please don't hurt me
filled with rot
make me something i'm not
the sun shines apon me
and it burns
i begged for your help
and you turned

i live in a continuous state of self loathing and insecurity

lock me in the lab
splice all of my genes
turn me into the creature 
I see on hammer screens


theres disturbing comfort 
in gruesome fantasies 
call me peter Cushing
will you be my Christopher lee 

Doctor won't you please strap me down 
and commence shock therapy
fry me in the electric chair
and make a corpse of me 


the tolling
of the bells
at midnight 
near the bus stop
reminds me
of my old place 
in the short north
our eyes were bloodshot

Shock Therapy

I'LL BE AROIUND

Download for free:
https://fuimadane.bandcamp.com/album/mine-h-vdinge-part-to

"Mine Høvdinge Part to" is a deeply personal and powerful collection of 44 acoustic tracks from Fuimadane. This album gathers the themes I consider the most heartfelt and meaningful from my musical journey so far. Each piece has been reimagined in a folk-inspired acoustic style, featuring rich strings and warm guitar textures. It's a tribute to the melodies that have carried me through both light and shadow – a musical offering to those I see as chieftains of spirit, memory, and emotion. Thank you for listening, and for being part of this journey.
credits
releases July 8, 2025

"For my two children, Bjørn & Røskva – the light in my darkest days, and the reason my melodies still carry meaning."

Kessir made the cover <3

the devil has the best tuna

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