Firststepp ^

*READ*
THIS TRACK WAS HEAVELY INSPIRED BY (capzlock -has to be)
 
this track might also get deleted maybe idk

leave me alone (ayeitsnate) *read desc*

Some new some old
https://traktrain.com/ddertbag

9/22

certified josua type beat

with https://soundcloud.com/noyaclarissa https://soundcloud.com/phxlxppp & https://soundcloud.com/xora09

eng x idn x jpn

(me)
ill admit it im a little jealous of u
when i see u two together, u look so good
i rlly wanna be w you but i dont want to
ruin your story that's being written

and i confessed b4 tht i wnt u
i told u b4 that i wnt u
(i want you!)
yeah i want you
(i want youu)
sometimes i feel like i hate myself cuz im full of myself
oh my god..
but i wnt you
(i want you!)
yeah i want you
(i want youu)

(noya)
malam itu
(that night)
ku melihat dia sedang asik bersamamu
(i saw him spending time with you)
satu sisi aku sedih saat aku tahu
(i was sad when i saw that moment)
kamu tak tertarik denganku
(and the fact that youre not into me)
tapi kau tahu? ku bahagia saat melihat senyumanmu
(but u know what? im happy when i see you smile)

ku tak peduli walau aku harus
(i dont care even if i have to sacrifice myself)
berkorban demi dirimu, sayangku
(just for you)
namun ingatlah saja bahwa aku,
(but please dont forget that i)
mau kamu :)
(still want you)

(philip)
here we go again, 
i thought we were more than friends,
guess it's time for me to let you go, 
go away with him,

i find it hard to believe you don't,
want to make amends,
you think that you're not so good for me,
but you're good for him,

i said,
baby, i be losing my mind,
going mental,
you're taking, everything i once thought,
was essential,
breaking, everything we had,
was incidental,
you're making, my heart fall apart,
from the middle,

(xora)
さよならさえ言えなかった
Couldn’t even say good bye
さよならさえ言えなかった
Couldn’t even say good bye
君の事、大好きだよ
Really loved you
これかも幸せでいてね
Hope u have a great life

今までの時間ありがとう
Thank you for the time that u gave me
君の事が忘れないよ
Cant forget about u
ほんの少しだけ,君に愛されたかったよ
I wanted to be loved by u just a little

cheers2u w/ noya phxlxp & xora

@domerrz
@ilysean

lyrics:
@1akura
I get my bag and I spend it on u
say wht u want n I got it in 2
anything u need or want yea I swear that I got it cuz u know I do this for u
so just tell me what u need
for u I would bleed
i can't imagine u without me
I look at u my heart beats out my chest
yea, outta my chest
I'll try so hard just to give u the best
working so hard no I won't ever rest
cuz girl it was u that was missing in my life
those words we exchanged lookin back at that night

I wouldn't give u up for nothin 
u r my reason to live
u rlly taught me what love is
I'm so obsessed ova u
I'm rlly putting my all in
I'm so obsessed ova u
look in ur swear that I'm fallin 

I fall
when I'm not there u call
wanna give u my all
girl I love when we talk
love when we talk

*rain and bird ambience*

(I fall
when I'm not there u call
wanna give u my all
girl I love when we talk
love when we talk)

@domerrz
yea i fall
I gave u my all
pls dont break my heart
hope we dont fall apart 
ur all that i got ur all that I want my one n only
love
put u all above the rest of them they dont mean nothing else

I dont wanna cry no more
and everytime i look into her eyes
I cant decide if she fills my head with lies
I cant decide if its all just a disguise

@1akura
I get my bag and I spend it on u
say wht u want n I got it in 2
anything u need or want yea I swear that I got it cuz u know I do this for u
so just tell me what u need
for u I would bleed
i can't imagine u without me
I look at u my heart beats out my chest
yea, outta my chest
I'll try so hard just to give u the best
working so hard no I won't ever rest
cuz girl it was u that was missing in my life
those words we exchanged lookin back at that night

##all4u🌸 <3






##all4u🌸 +dom! (ilysean!)

rivoices - broken promise (feat. baeldorf)
BL1THE - all the way
BL1THE - take me somewhere (feat. desolent)
BL1THE - in my heart
BL1THE - truth is that im drowning
BL1THE - this too shall pass
odneme - ID
BL1THE - find you
BL1THE - exist 
desolent - haunted (feat. BL1THE)
BL1THE - rush (feat. ASTER1A)

Pantheon 2022 Set

@ilymay
@coldspades
@venusiann
@k4nji1004

may:
your the one i wna be with 
your the one i wna see 
i get lost in ur eyes 
when ur next to me 
and we
yeah we can be a thing 
i think its meant to be 
js tell me one thing 
js tell me am i the one u want
ur love is like a drug and i cant get enough 
보고 싶어
ill answer all ur calls 
u kno ill get it all 
for you for you for you

coldspades:
i dont know what you want, i dont know what you need
but you got what i want, and you got what i need
i locked away my heart, but you brought me the key
don’t need no one else, its just you and me

so take my hand and we’ll fly away
i think about you almost every day
you look so good i don’t know what to say
i’ll be alright just promise me that you’ll stay

venus:
could you promise me, that you'll never leave my side
would you, would you promise me, that you'll never tell a lie
i just wanna talk to you
and spend some time with you
you got me, crazy, hope you don't, hate me
i smoked too damn much, everything is hazy
(still got my eyes on you)
yeah, it's all up to you (it's all up to you, yeah, yeah)

promises

may, coldspades, & venusiann - promises (k4nji)

i'll be with you until your light burns out

https://open.spotify.com/album/0Za7Yg435fkJwUQwyvc9H5?si=iLyR0tE0SNWU145q7WugPA

@noyaclarissa https://open.spotify.com/artist/1lMzaA8LkKlY5UmD9tg4nf?si=aaCC5jEoSZOHbdXUxTdTNA
@kyxtsnxwy https://open.spotify.com/artist/3H5y1zvc5EGPKfNFy8umHY?si=-cHAv3BzQRW1Ywc2GDF2PA
@kyoakyo

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@remiliaxd : 

(it was wasted)
(all of the times that we had, it was wasted)
(and i don't want to fall down on the pavement)
(is this my payment?)
(for the times that we had, everchanging)

but i can't face it
everything is changing
idk who's left in the world
who's remaining?
i let the pain reign
hear your voice, it's so faint
cause when the sun shines
indicate it's way too late

yeah i do nothing well
all the signs point my fate to the wishing well
it's like you cast a spell
constant fear running down, i'm not doing well

where did you go now?
yeah, take it slow now
lost in the dark
yeah you're there and you shine so bright
i wish that you'd stay for life

oh, but just to get this far
idk what's left
calling out upon the darkness and you're so far (in your heart)
and you're so far, but you're so far

@noyaclarissa :

everytime u say u hate me
u never said a word to me
everytime i tryna talk to u, u always ghost me

yeah, yeah u never wanna talk to me
and everynight i always wonder why u hate me?

uh ... i cant ...
i cant ...
living alone in this world

im stress ...
im stress ...
how cruel u are, u even wanna haunt me like that :(

@kyxtsnxwy :

(baby, im blind)
(you’re so far away, i’ll see you in another life)
(hold tight, please don’t ever let go)
(hold tight, fly away together)

please stay, please don’t runaway, stay and hold me
i’ll fade, i hope it’s not today, i can’t see
you’re far away, i don’t think you’ll come back
so far away, anxiety, heart attack

heart attack, getting used to stab wounds hurting up my back
knowing that you’re gone, felt my heart shattered into glass

sana bumalik ka agad mahal ko
ibigay mo ang pagmamahal ko sayo

@remiliaxd :

where did you go now?
yeah, take it slow now
lost in the dark
yeah you're there and you shine so bright
i wish that you'd stay for life

oh, but just to get this far
idk what's left
calling out upon the darkness (in your heart)
and you're so far, but you're so far

so talk to me
i'll talk to you
just talk to me
we'll make it through our lives
our lives

far away +noya clarissa, kishi (kyoa)

all decayed @222quiet prod @ouniiixd n @pw4prez 

@zixdown

i know i fucked up
n it’s my fault
i’ve been giving up,
on waiting for ur call
wake up jst to talk to u
n tell u good morning
but i can’t get a txt bck
i’m not important

girl yk it hurts 🤕
left me on the street
i wish tht u knew,
the pain u caused to me,,
ive been so dam lost 😞
ivbeen so confused /:
remember all our talks..,
can’t function the same ,,
without you

go on n push me aside
tell me u hate me
tell me u want me
u drive me crazy 😵‍💫
iv been off 2much drugs
it makes me lazy
i said "im fine now"
i’m just pretending

take these drugs
i take way more drugs
i’m losing ya
i can’t feel ur touch
“how do u feel?”
no i can’t feel nthn, /x
i kno it’s dumb <.<
but i’m going numb’

bridge

@222quiet

when you say that u want me
i cant breathe
i cant breathe
dont say you're not enough
cause i cant leave
i cant leave
like wet leaves i decay,
if i cant have you around me all day
tell me you're gonna stay,
im going numb overthinking all day

going numb, with my gang going dumb
why'd u say you're not enough,
when you're everything i want ya
i can never front i never take it back,
everything i am yea you made me that

and i wanna know yea where you are yea in your heart
and everything i do is to keep us from apart
i dont wanna give up wanna go back to the start
i just wanna be right next to you under the stars

spotify

numb w/ 222quiet [prod. ouni + sochi]

ft @heyvilse
prod @tores x @ripwarheart
LYRICS:
[shoruda]
i’m good by myself swear to god i don’t need u
ik ur tryna help but these prblms don’t take 2
and if i die i’ll go to hell for the shit i did 2 u
i promised that i wouldn’t leave u
i lied again the sequel, didn’t even mean to
i promised i would help you
if we meet again i’ll leave u
i don’t deserve a part 2
i hope one day love will surely find you

[vilse]
it started raining when you left
and you only make it worse but i can't get you out my head
so i guess
movin on from you is for the best
they say it's easy but i can't seem to forget

i can't heal my scars
i can't heal my heart
i don't wanna move on, hate when we're apart
how'd i go from happiness with you to seeing dark?
i guess it's my fault and i should've known it from the start

yeah, i've been copin by indulging
please don't ask me 'bout the drugs that i indulge in
i'd be lying if i said it wasn't helping with the problems
i know that it's bad but don't know how else i could solve 'em

...
i know that it's bad but don't know how else i could solve 'em
please don't ask me 'bout the drugs that i indulge in
i'd be lying if i said it wasn't helping with the problems

[hook]

[shoruda]
what was i supposed to do
i tried my best to comfort you
i tried my best to pull it thru
i lied again that’s nothing new
tried to hide myself from you
ik that’s a selfish move
i don’t wanna settle for you
yeah i don’t blame u if u hate me
there’s so much that i haven’t seen
i packed up quick and had to leave
i’m sorry bout ur family, he was rly close 2 me
and he left a message i didn’t see
should have been beside of him
should’ve but i carry on
don’t u hate me more, we can settle the score
baby my heart is sore, don’t think i can take no more
promise that i’ll be ignored
you’re the one that got away and that will always be adored

lie 2 w/ vilse (tores x warheart)

something different with @counterxo :) prod @prodarisu 
tysm as always for listening it means a lot fr

(me)
fall, im so cold
you dont care at all
left me on my own
oh its so hard
its killing my heart

why dont you just please stop using me like a pawn
you know im not your prop
every time i try to drop everything and move on
something always comes up

i need something comforting
a break from this
the suffering
you take, i give
im left hurting
mistake, forgive
forget, relive again

the cycle repeats it wont end
one day we're foe and one we're friend
you pretend it feels so real
we move on but i dont heal

(counter)
got some things to say to get it out the way
feelings in the diary to keep them out my brain
stuck inside my room i might start to go insane
i lost everything i knew except your name
and i don’t wanna turn back around
don’t wanna save a heart when you’d rather let me drown
i used to feel secure, i’m not feeling that way now
i tried to lift us up, but you dug back down
i’ve thought that the answer was inside myself
i know it’s hard but girl i wish you well
wish i thought of this before i fell

(me)
i need something comforting
a break from this
the suffering
you take, i give
im left hurting
mistake, forgive
forget, relive again

the cycle repeats it wont end
one day we're foe and one we're friend
you pretend it feels so real
we move on but i dont heal

something comforting

something comforting w/ counter (arisu)

p. @nightigerxo

on streaming, all plats. 

never thought i'd see you like that
the energy.. 
it makes me wanna turn back 
i saw your colours showing through
and i don't really think i like the hue

you turn me different shades, 
got me red and blue
i know you're feeling it too
our palette's separated
and i don't wanna pretend
don't really think we're complimentary 
and i'm just hoping that you can see
and understand how i'm feeling 'bout you and i 
and how i see your true colours

turned to watercolour just like that
and everything about us dissipates 
dial back our clock, negotiate
i never thought your brush would seal our fate

never thought i'd see you like that
the energy.. 
it makes me wanna turn back 
i saw your colours showing through
and i don't really think i like the hue

you turn me different shades, 
got me red and blue
i know you're feeling it too
our palette's separated
and i don't wanna pretend

you turn me different shades, 
got me red and blue
i know you're feeling it too
our palette's separated
and i don't wanna pretend
don't really think we're complimentary 
and i'm just hoping that you can see
and understand how i'm feeling 'bout you and i 
and how i see your true colours..

true colours (nightiger)

prod me :p 
also if u fw the song FOLLOW ME

self destructive 
it’s the only way I know 
“see it thru” what do I get? 
cold to the touch, don’t get close 
what do I do, 
in the silence, where u haunt me 
feels like I’m dying, ur just watching 
rot in the quiet, by my lonely
and u can’t deny it, nobody knows me like u do

@neohnq
cover me in flowers and cairns
put my mind at ease
i dont wanna see the day
where my mask is shattered
and i cant do better
and i gotta show myself
i wont get no help
what can i give to you
count up until my fingers blue
walk in the shop i self destruct
from all this shit i blew
go check the receipts
and dont get back to me
happily ill wait for you
u can get mad at me... i always do

cover me
with what u please
what u want
i cant go on like this
but i still write ur name in diamond
ya its such a shame
that it blew up in my face

self destructive 
it’s the only way I know 
“see it thru” what do I get? 
cold to the touch, don’t get close 
what do I do, 
in the silence, where u haunt me 
feels like I’m dying, ur just watching 
rot in the quiet, by my lonely
and u can’t deny it, nobody knows me like u do

to the touch (hartfxlt)

prod. ‪‪@gehx_x‬ + ‪‪@indrasarrow_prod, s/o mae and woonerf! luv u guys <3 artwork pyanyasha

verse in order:

@1sunsuu
yeah u told me ure the one
how u even lie 2 me, yeah u lost my trust
we were enemies to lover yeah u broke into my heart
and I can't even stand it when u fill me up with lust
and I give u yet another chance
and u blew it all away what u thinking in your head
I can't tell how much I miss ur touch
and I guess that it's all my fault that I get myself attached
and I, I don't know
how you tell me I should live it all
and I, I'll fall
deep into the spirals that'll never end
I can't believe when u told me I should leave it
u make no sense when u ask me what's the meaning
u try so hard why u trying to deceive me?
why u getting so mad when this shit it's not working?
and I give u yet another chance
and u blew it all away what u thinking in your head
I can't tell how much I miss ur touch
and I guess that it's all my fault that I get myself attached

@xvixio

@woonerf

fault

##fault ♡･ﾟ:*｡.:*･ﾟ w/ mae, woonerf ﾟ･*:.｡*:ﾟ･♡

depressed rich kids

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@remedysnuts
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