Depression Slaps Vol. 9

Favourites 2

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CREATOR OF HIGHEST SHI(R)T FFS

production: me & soma (@prodsoma)
mixing & mastering: me

instagram: instagram.com/avit69
youtube: youtube.com/c/avit69
streaming platforms: fanlink.to/AViT69

lyrics:

[intro]
feel alone n helpless
i paved this road w/ no end
tired of playing pretend
just wanna get out this mess

i’m not okay, i confess
these last few months, i’ve been stressed
i just have so much regrets
i just have so much regrets

[verse]
i’ve only had myself to get through all of this, it’s hell.
it’s lonely when the ones u used to know have said farewell
bleeding out, my eyes r open
can’t see, all my senses broken 
i wish that i wasn’t so hopeless
i wish that i wasn’t so hopeless

[chorus]
nobody even knows it, but i’m tired
i can feel killin all of my desire
doesn’t help when all my “friends” don’t even bother
not a thing that i can try to make me calmer
i’m drowning in emotions down beneath 
i’m grinding all my teeth
it’s getting hard to breathe, so...

tell me, was it a waste?
dug six feet down, no escape.
feels like i just got replaced
by someone better than me
if i left w/o a trace, no one would ponder
this path i’m going down, don’t even wanna 
staying silent cuz i don’t want any drama
heart is bleeding on the floor, guess that’s just karma 

[verse]
i tried my hardest just to be there for y’all
gave every person my all
but u still let me just fall 
u stare and laugh at me when i’m at my low 
don’t have to say it, ik
all that u do, yeah it shows
that i’m not welcome here
that u don’t even care
act like i’m unaware
a sight i cannot bear
i tried my best, i swear
heart on my sleeve, i wear [s/o rod wave]
just left me in despair
u never were a friend

[chorus]

apathetic (avit + soma)

@primmreaperr @1gash @1lucina
shoutout @prodgreentop for this crazy beat

fight back! w/ primm + gash + lucina (greentop)

C2D - Twin w/ Midwxst (Prod. Glumboy)

Twin w/ Midwxst (Prod. Glumboy)

@mutkidjosh
@okgoony
@prodelxnce
@kuraiiii
@viinssoo

cover art by @esby1

bounce back! w/ mutkidjosh & goony (elxnce kurai vinso)

@mental

see me, i might go see u out the door
bby tell me whats wrong n then tell me what this for
ahhh girl teach me how u do it
i swear u make me lose it
lights out watch your whole movement

yeah i know ur toxic i can deal with it
tell me are u feeling it
no no im not feeling it
yeah that boy a dog chase his tail in a circle
we not friends get out my circle
choppa turn that boy purple

no i'm not done
number nine jeans on me
wait,, hold on
i can sense something bads gonna happen
i got eyes on the back of my head
you aint ever gonna catch me lacking
and yo team be switchin n switchin its side
turn it to a fraction

what do u wanna do
it's never working out
last night i called you stupid
sorry i think out loud

i'm sorry girl i havent been the person i used to be
and honestly please just tell me what you see in me
i'll see what's in you too
just believe in me

feel your aura, girl i like it way TOO much
and i feel so warm when i feel ur touch
*and i feel so warm when i feel your t-*

and i will honestly do anything to make you smile
and i will honestly do anything just give me a while i-

out loud (mental)

Once again... all alone without a friend..




engineer - cool mike

cold feet (siem spark)

stand right here all alone
we in private, she obsessed with violence
died right there, in my home
keep it quiet like a suicide it's silent

and you hate me here, so let me go
and you played me girl, just let me know

don't got a whole lot to say, I guess I'm one with the pain now
dont leave my house without a blade, I guess we're one in the same now
dead presidents live in my safe now
suffocating me i just need to breakout

breakout. they think im insane now
pull up ak with a mask get a payout
got big bands in the safe now
got big bands in the paypal
damn hey
like damn straight
my team be chill in the safehouse 
all my brothers took the same route 
all my brothers getting paid now

stand right here all alone
we in private, she obsessed with violence
died right there, in my home
keep it quiet like a suicide it's silent

and you hate me here, so let me go
and you played me girl, just let me know

lmk (+thislandis)

I knew it (johnny friend)

I have no motivation
So I get nothing done
I hate the mornings so i 
Sleep in way past the sun    	 
I have like everything but
I still find nothing fun, 
I really like the smell of
The world when it burns

It keeps me warm
It keeps me warm
It keeps me warm

now its only a fraction   
Of times that we had
So i turn to distractions
Whenever im sad  
It turns into a cycle
I think im going psycho
Fraid of things that i might do
Might do

Lately i just hate everyone
I hope they all run away 
I hope they somehow just trip and fall
I hope they dig their own graves 

Im a mess
Im obsessed 
with distractions all day
And when i stop  
drown in thoughts
i just break down again
(2x)

Fuck that
Ima turn this shit around
Wrote that
In december i was down
Looking back that shit was kinda rough
But now im here its kinda funny got my money up

This year ,drop whatever I wana
All my songs are kinda sad but now im tryn be funner
Theres jus this
Big fear, 
I wont do any numbers
doesn't matter anyways im already goin down under 

I
I got a present 4 u
And im not sure if you’ll like it or not
But i assure u its straight from da heart
Ok u
U make write all these songs
But im j sad 1 percent  of the time
I jus dont make songs about 99

distractions

spotify

tangled with fate

awooooo light music club!!! awooooo!!!!!!!!!

@mental
@bugbu6
@beatsbykrave

[blx]
If I needed your help,
Would you come on my side?
I need your decision baby this is not a do or die
You ask me if I feel okay and honestly I feel alright
I walk past you out the door cus bby i don’t wanna fight

I don’t wanna fight with you right now 
I’m walking home
Had something to tell you on the tip of my tongue but it’s out my dome
If I were you and you were me you’d probably be alone
Maison Margiela's my toes 
I’m not a friend I’m a foe

[mental]
i feel like im trying way too hard
not to let you take away my heart
giving up feels like a dangerous part
to play it might make me break apart

it might make me fall down
i was floating like i wasnt even on ground
bad thoughts really need someone to break my walls down
mad lots i been getting pissed at all the small sounds
need ur love if i wanna calm down

foe ft. mental (lovbug x krave)

https://open.spotify.com/track/1g0wRUj9hPz2DtejdNf9fu?si=hdl8gCCIRGGOfBT7u3PkQQ&utm_source=copy-link prod @haveonlyonechance

/lyrics/
ok wheres my head?
stressed out think I lost it 
treat me like an option, leveled up so I talk it
watch this, designer kicks pushing new whips
I just wanna make you fucking proud i wish u knew this 

thoughts so loud 
its killing me  
lungs break down 
too hard to breath
legs give out 
I tell myself 
end this now 

uh-uh-I-I
can't quit, I won't miss 
why'd u lie for?
Speak up, you get hurt 
was it worth it?
Caught inside this prison no transmission 
as my body falls
live without a purpose know you've heard this 
so I play it off

You dont understand and that's aight its really not your fault 
Did this all myself make no mistake just give it no thought
bet down, I'm stressed out like you want me
found love, a new life, doesn't feel right 
something outta give I lift the clutch n then I hit the mall
Burdened by my thoughts I need escaping so I buy it all
Working on myself, I'm making music as a therapy 
Ain't no place for envy why this pussy fucking mad at me?

thoughts so loud 
its killing me  
lungs break down 
too hard to breath
legs give out 
I tell myself 
end this now 

can't quit, I won't miss 
why'd u lie for?
Speak up, you get hurt 
was it worth it?
Caught inside this prison no transmission 
as my body falls
live without a purpose know you've heard this 
so I play it off

pulled a blade my way
throw his body in a grave
You've been talking down on me ya while this emo getting paid 
betrayed, doomsday get the fuck out my way
always asking for a verse tired of these lames
these snakes comes through like what u gonna do
 i grab em by the neck and cut the head bro you're a fool 
old news, told u new whip fuck you 
but you can have it ur way
you can have it ur way

have it ur way (tenoji)

hellooo light music

@mental

[blxty]
i can't remember last night
blinded by the black light 
we jus took a sharp left 
like baby i don't feel right
i just wanna see you 
hop onto the next flight
everything is okay
tell me that it's alright

and now it's over
i was thinking i should try but i don't owe her
and now i'm older
shoulda recognized you make me feel colder
take the weight and the pressure
off my shoulders

[mental]
its been a minute since i felt like i was in love
cant confess its too hard for me to speak up
hate me more than any one u think of
i dont wanna be me why they wanna be us

dont think that i bleed enough
for my mistakes
every single promise that u made
u love to break
ya im hurt but ima act okay
lay on the pavement
look at me i glance away
dont wanna face it

i can feel the tears i try not to cry
wasted all my time why do i even try
said that i was fine but rly its a lie
hate it when we fight
wish it was alright

im not even started but i feel like being done
and maybe its my fault that i end up feeling dumb
u got caught up in ur pride wish this wasnt how it was
i got lost inside my mind i just cant stop feeling numb

alright ft. mental (mental)

This song is inpo by my best homie John! I love you man

fromU@sitneartree

remix on bloodhounds page coming soon ^.^

botted at 300 plays x)

omegle (prod. zoot + angelus)

P4rkr/osquinn - Drama W Luvbackpack (4am)reupload

ways + saturn + p4rkr + ericdoa - stuff remix (prod. zoot & angelus)

@wido123456789
@p4rkr
@hellsing1
art by @1vessel

have it ur way (tenoji)

bxnshee