art by: @gumishrk on insta
produced & mixed by: @01kon

me: 
talking behind me
wish you could face it
lost track of time
i cannot trace it
honestly i want to be what you want me to
chasing you down
came unannounced
hearts on my eyes
yea you poison me
pinching my tounge
yea you torture me
i might die by falling for you
its all my fault
what you want me to do

wounded me badly
now my knees are touching the ground
dont make a sound
i hear the voices
inside my head
cant make it stop
cant make it better
you gave me trauma
i cannot sleep
yea youre my problem
as you can see
like who am i talking to
(who am i talking to)
the girl i knew would never dismember me

rans0m:
and you can save that sh*t for later
i dont got time to wait around
all of the games you play
they f**k with my head
i cant surface i think i might drown
look for a path
need to find my way out
dont need your assistance
i dont need your help
where were you back then
i like me by myself
i like me by myself

stevyn:
yea
drinking a driving
surviving all of this sh*t
why the f**k you always stalking me
wanna taking a pic
so i go away

call my phone
and then you tell me you dont wanna play
you dont talk to me
youre like a pretty princess
in a white dress
and youre watching glee
living unrest
waiting for the night
that you wanna undress
why told me
that i didnt do my best

pichu: [idk but its hard]

thrml:
it was u all along i couldnt win if i wanted
my baby cant
do any wrong
dismember my body and haunt it
just go head and
do what you want to me
im done with the front
i knew that you werent the one for me
im done playing dumb
cause i heard u

me:
(chorus)

ily<3

dismember w/rans0m, stevyn, pichu, thrml (01kon)

OUT NOW: distrokid.com/hyperfollow/leytonxswazy/im-sorry-that-u-tried

produced by @swazyhq

lyrics:

the blossoms always sprung
locked in ur bedroom in the spring
hide so they won’t find us
cry while i take the bus home

i tried to write it all down
so i could get it all out
i tripped and dropped all of my pages
fly away as i fall down

get back up i don’t know how
the rain on my window sounds so loud
lately i’ve been sleeping to ignore it 
face down in the front yard while it’s pouring 

cause i can’t afford the time that i’m stealing
late night while i’m staring at the ceiling
is it real or just a feeling
can anybody hear me

i never took care of myself 
you saw and you would always try to help
no one tried quite like you did
but i’m not something you can fix

now i see the whole time i was sick
you always stayed right by my side but that’s not a way to live 
i don’t wanna make u cry cause it’s nothing that u did 
i’m just sorry that u tried i was living out a lie

i always hid it all under the surface
i should’ve called it off u don’t deserve this 
but how could i stop us from falling we were perfect 
we couldn’t help but give it all swear we were burning

i’m sorry swear i didn’t try to call u
my finger slipped while i was tryna change the volume 
i know i’m in the wrong, shoulda made it stop but i went too long
now i never wanna hear that shit again, i hate all my songs 

now im back got me thinking of the past what i did wrong
come in last all the chances that i had, call this shit off
got me sad, all the times i let you down got me pissed off
wrote it down, swear i’m gonna drown in the list of

i cant look back, swear i’m doing what i have to do
i lost my track, really thought that things would last with you
hiding when i go out, crying in the bathroom
you don’t ever slow down, life is flying pst you

im sorry that u tried (p. swazy*)

@55depths
@zephyrcove

glad that i ever knew you.

prod. me.
background vocals and extras by:
@1toge
@1kise
@kidpesto
@flaued

lyrics:
here i am again
(waiting for the sun to come up)
breathing this cold october air
(cause seeing you is more than enough)
we smile
(what a smile)
for a while
(you're too good to be,
i'm never going home)
dreaming of a better place
or seattle, i'll meet you someday
(it never came for me)

valerie
(wishing i'd said this sooner)
are you proud of me?
(proud of me, proud of me, proud of me)
valerie
(glad that i ever knew you)
are you proud of me?

here at home again
(what will i ever do without you?)
barely feeling
i've been numb to it all
(sit around, i'm waiting for your call)
through the meeting
i stare at the ceiling
and think about this manufactured serotonin dose in my brain
things are not the same, oh

valerie
(wishing i'd said this sooner)
are you proud of me?
(proud of me, proud of me, proud of me)
valerie
(glad that i ever knew you)
are you proud of me?

a mess, a wreck
it's clear to see
so tired of this scenery
we locked ourselves inside these walls
through thick and thin, i've seen it all
and now and then i think of you
a person that i thought i knew
i've held close what you've said to me
where are you now, oh valerie?

valerie
(valerie, valerie, valerie)
are you proud of me?
(tell me you're proud of me)
valerie
(wishing i'd said this sooner)
are you proud of me?
(valerie, valerie, valerie)

spotify

valerie

slug

peace

Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/track/1Ad0TnC4N6p0Ddot8uM2Ua?si=oCKhUcn7Ti24uO8i9d2XSQ

Mixed and mastered by Bolboi - https://linktr.ee/bolboi

Thank you to Tyshan for his amazing guitar solo :)
- https://instagram.com/tyshanlee

Lyrics:

Say what you want from me and move on
Tell me exactly what you want 
Make it make sense for me and don’t stop
It’s kinda hard to read your thoughts 

Say what you want from me and move on
Don’t take your time just speak from your heart
Let your mind repeat from the start 
It’s kinda hard to see in the dark

Say what you want from me and move
Say what you

Just say what you mean
I could find out what you’re crying for, if you conveyed to me
But every time we talk
There’s like a 10 foot wall, rubbing out all my chalk 
Like you don’t care at all, I just wish that you would

Say what you mean, you know I don’t got these options 
You’re the only person with the eyes that I got lost in 
Something about the atmosphere settles and I get drawn in
Everything would just come together if you had stopped and

Say what you mean
From time to time instead of lying 
Overthinking’s wrong to be relying in
I just wanna be the one you confided in 

Say what you want from me and move on
Tell me exactly what you want 
Make it make sense for me and don’t stop
It’s kinda hard to read your thoughts 

Say what you want from me and move on
Don’t take your time just speak from your heart
Let your mind repeat from the start 
It’s kinda hard to see in the dark
Say what you want from me and move

Know how you feel I’ve been the same as you 
So take my word

Tryna conceal all the pain
Will only make it worse

Just sitting still in the rain
Hoping that it all blurs

It never works
You gotta come to terms

Know how you feel I’ve been the same as you 
So take my word

Tryna conceal all the pain
Will only make it worse

Just sitting still in the rain
Hoping that it all blurs

It never works

Say what you want from me and move on
Tell me exactly what you want 
Make it make sense for me and don’t stop
It’s kinda hard to read your thoughts 

Say what you want from me and move on
Don’t take your time just speak from your heart
Let your mind repeat from the start 
It’s kinda hard to see in the dark

Say what you want from me
Tell me exactly
Make it make sense for me and don’t stop
It’s kinda hard to read

Say what you want from me
Don’t take your time just speak from your heart
Let your mind repeat 
It’s kinda hard to see in the dark

Say What You

betting with blood 




https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/sc0ttryan/heaven

10/15/2023

heaven prod evansasha

Every night before I go to sleep
Another tear drop leaves my eyes
All at the thought that you’re not mine
(You’re not mine)
So when I dream about you
I hold your hand
So I stay asleep for as long as I can
(For as long as I can)

Cause in my dreams you’re what I adore
Cause in the present you ignore
Everything we used to have
I miss the way you used to look in my eyes
But then it turned out that it was my demise
How the hell did you think you were right
I said I’d never give up so I’ll fight

I still believe in us and maybe it makes me crazy
But I’ve been wishing maybe you had a little more faith in us lately
Never deleting your pictures they sit untouched
Cause I still cherish every memory of us
I knew you would throw it away
But even then I still begged you to stay
I knew that you would run away
But I still begged you to stay

During the nights where I cried
You used to tell me its alright
Cause you’d always be by my side
But now I cry alone

I thought about ringing you up last night
When I thought about ending my life
When I looked to my right
Seven Pill bottles in my sight 
And I realized 
Maybe Im not alright
Cause at the end of last night
I wished I didn't wake up
Cause I said I’d had enough

A Collection Of Thoughts From Last Nights Breakdown (Prod.King Theta)

prod. me and joeboi

lyrics:

Bullet to my head and now I

And I know we fell apart

Tell me, Marci are you tripping? did that boy corrupt your vision?

Tell me, Marci are you tripping? did that boy corrupt your vision?
Take the blood right out my system, Leave my body fucking twisted
They tryna label that boy crazy, Like you wouldn't do that too
Tell me am I better off, why the fuck you duck my call?

Marci I'm that type of nigga
Marci I'm that type of nigga who don't really like nobody
All these bitches treat me different

Know my heart, you wanna win it but I'll never let you win
I'm busy in that motherfucker, tryna handle all my business

And I know we fell apart
Haven't seen you in a minute
Left a hole in my heart

Please talk to me, tell me what happened.
Please talk to me.
Please talk to me, Bunny.

Tell me, Bonnie. Are you slipping?
Did that girl give you some distance?
You acknowledge my existence.
Know my heart it can't resist it.

They tryna change my girl, you crazy.
Like the fuck I do to you?

Tell me am I better off, why the fuck you duck my call?

I know you turned a thousand and I'm only 23
It's just something 'bout the way you look at me I wanna scream.
Like I'd really let you murder me, Like all up to the third degree.
Like just as long as I can get a spot with you eternally. 

Tell me, Marci are you tripping? did that boy corrupt your vision?
Take the blood right out my system, Leave my body fucking twisted
They tryna label that boy crazy, Like you wouldn't do that too
Tell me am I better off, why the fuck you duck my call?

Marci I'm that type of nigga who don't fight with all these niggas
I don't really like nobody
All these bitches treat me different

Know my heart, you wanna win it but I'll never let you win
I'm busy in that motherfucker, tryna handle all my business

Tell me, Marci. Are you tripping? did that boy corrupt your vision?
Take the blood right out my system, Leave my body fucking twisted
They tryna label that boy crazy, Like you wouldn't do that too
Tell me am I better off, why the fuck you duck my call?

Marci I'm that type of nigga
Marci I'm that type of nigga
Tell me, Marci. Are you tripping?
Tell me, Marci. Are you tripping?

And I know we fell apart
And I know we fell apart

Please talk to me, Bunny.

STREAM

marci

self prod 
mastered by @anem0s
instrument mixing help from @gasmaskatl
@a1isynn pulled me out the vocal mixing gutter

track 2/2
april 5 https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/oldcollin/hr-3 

say something else why dontcha
said what's your problem?
cause if you got one, please dont try to say it to me
i can't say it doesnt bother me
but in all honesty i'm handing out apologies, i'm not even sorry
you say it's all my fault and that you wont back down
say something else why dontcha
but look who's talking like they know so much
as if it doesn't make a difference at all
but if we stayed in touch
we'd have run into a wall
so is that enough for you

to reconsider at all 
if it's just to tell you that I'm sorry I'm not
cause if I hadn't have lost then I
wouldn't find out how much I'm really worth
but I can't say I'm not tired of always feeling hurt
you could say a million words
but it still won't get to me
lacking the empathy you need to feel a little more important dontcha
but there's no need for me to panic cause
I feel it more clearly than you

(4cf)
so why I gotta find a way to get over just saying you're right
got you for closure growing older and freeing my mind
there's something heavy on your chest wanna put me in line
just cause i knew you watch your best i might give it the time
aw but it's alright baby you needed t hat
last shot when you was hurt you know it's a part of the fact
if i had just a little more time I might have something to speak for myself
and no I cant be no one else


https://twitter.com/oldcollin/status/1771246823102972362

reconsider (ft. 4cf)

produced by daywatch

lyrics:
tired of thinking up bars in my room that don't make sense
sometimes don't compute and i feel like i'm not cut out for this
sometimes
and i remember when they used to come up to me crazy, like
they had no respect for me but, i got ahead
in my own little way, in my own little space
in my head

and most don't even care about the consequence, i'm tryna guide
people like me to the light but only if they want to go
cus' when you fine with your situation, you gon' stay froze
don't matter how many loving people want you to be brave
i don't think you know how long it took too pull me out the grave
took me twelve long years just to figure out i'm hazed
took me four more years for my parents to relate
took me some more overthinking just to clear the slate

oh my god, i'm sick to core
y'know that it's bad when the hatred is decor
i think that i used it as protection
i'm older now and i don't seem to get the message

i guess i hate when everything gets on my nerves and i can't get out
of my head and i get real awkward and i can't get the words out my mouth
i really hate how i talk so i put an impression on my sound
my friends say it's all in my head so i guess that i'm just full of doubt

i guess i hate when everything gets on my nerves and i can't get out
of my head and i get real awkward-
sometimes i wish all four of my friends were packed in my skin
he wishes to be himself but, i wish i could be like him

oh, i think i'm done for the night
woah, feeling like i'm soft-locked
beat boys say it's beat block
but spitters say it's writers block
big boy in a corner
big boy in a corner

but i still try

could you sometimes think about us?
sometimes think about love?
cus' i need your company
would you do it for me?
i can't

sometimes think about us
i sometimes think about love and
it feels so dumb to me
i look in the mirror and fantasize about who i wanna be

dumb mic'd up wannabe
i wanna be seen
i wanna be me
i wanna find peace
imma let life do the finding

peace

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