i wanna slam my head against the wall

Video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KolZJ7TPfFY
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prod me
song with @1glaive : _)
lyrics:
---what was the last thing you said?
i took like over a year to get you out my head
and now i can’t sleep 
thinking bout everything and all the things we did
and i don’t think i miss you
i don’t miss the shit that we been through
but now i’m stuck with this
try not to reminisce 
or i think i’ll start to miss you

i don’t know how to explain it
a year of racking my brain and i hated it 
it’s like i’m holding onto something that you never did
it’s like i’ll never have something just like we did
it’s like i’ll never hold hands with someone again
it’s like i’ll never introduce them to my friends
i guess it’s the end 

just fucking look at you 
you moved on so fast like did you want me in the first place 
i wish you the best but only mean that in the worse way 
took you only a month to act like everything
was ok
you fell right in love with him like i was just a half-way
now i’m all on my own need someone to talk to
my friends all abandoned me cause they’d rather choose you 
this shit is so draining need to do something brand new
i get tossed up and used then thrown away like some old shoes
like fucking look at you 
i think that you’re right i’m not the person that i used to be
i can’t even hide that fact that this was all because of me
i made my mistakes i let my head get straight to jealousy 
all cause i thought i'd be the only one u  ever see
but you have to remind me 
you have to remind me
cause i know you said something
something with meaning
it was as i was leaving i could’ve been dreaming
you have to remind me remind me of one thing

what was the last thing you said?
i swear i didn’t mean to leave you on read
but now it’s morning
everyone’s sleeping 
and i can’t decide if i should get out of bed
like i don’t wanna miss you 
i don’t miss the shit that we been through 
but now i’m stuck with this 
try not to reminisce or i think i’ll start to miss you
it seems like everyday i look at the pictures
a couple years of my life in a camera roll 
i’m thinking maybe i really miss it
reliving memories as i start to scroll
it feels like lately i’ve been stuck and i can’t reach my goals 
and i can’t get myself out ive been stuck in a hole
i’m really starting to believe it’s the end

GLAIVE:
dude that this point it doesn’t even matter like fuck

every time they talk about us they say we went hollywood but 
if there ever was a spot to take i think they probably would cause 
every single zoloft that i take don’t do me any good but 
black hair black nails she thinks she’s misunderstood but
she don’t know me like she think she does
and i’ll be lying if said i gave a single fuck
and then you push me down and then you pick me up i’m like
one fight away from getting tired and giving up

just fucking look at you 
you moved on so fast like did you want me in the first place 
i wish you the best but only mean that in the worse way 
took you only a month to act like everything
was ok
you fell right in love with him like i was just a half-way
now i’m all on my own need someone to talk to
my friends all abandoned me cause they’d rather choose you 
this shit is so draining need to do something brand new
but after all that was said i don’t regret that i knew you

what was the last thing u said w/ glaive

happy ever after

heather

video here https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Tb8xCct8NZI
one song 2 end an amazing year with twinnem 
@midwxst
@billsburyjoeboi
mixed by slappy
lyrics
[pre-hook]
im not the same kid that i once was
when you met me
its a lot of offers on the plate right now
and its tempting
i can act like i never saw the texts that 
you sent me
or we could skip to the part when
you're in my room undressing

[hook]
baby just tell me what you wanna do 
we could slide back to the pad 
you can stop playing mad 
and your friend and you come thru
i was never mad in the first place
and im better than your ex on my worst day
ima be in LA on thursday
i said, baby just tell me what you wanna do
i aint never been for none of that he said she said shit
man just come thru
now theres way too much in my cup
and i cant stand up
but i couldnt give one less fuck

[verse: midwst]
a lot of things in front of me this shit's getting tempting
you saw where i was at and now you're seeking redemption
cause all of a sudden you fuck with me, up in my mentions
all this shit don't add up no it don't even make sense
you cut me deep, you left me there to sit and wait
blocked your number, blocked your texts
don't care what you are sending me
hoping that im stuck up in your head and in your memories
so that you can not forget my pain and all my misery

[hook]

come thru

come thru w/ midwxst (billsburyjoeboi)

icarus

video here: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Rnai7UsAlKY
@1hallow
@janeremover
[lyrics]
when you left last summer 
you told me things would always be this way
and when you left last summer 
you told me the love would never go away
and like a fool i just believed you
i could never see the future 
but its see through now
i cant deny i fucking need you
but something tells me you looked better in the rear view

so can you tell me wheres the loves at?
fuck that, i dont even wanna feel anymore 
and she like why you never call back 
i been busy tryna find my way up back from the floor 
i been busy tryna keep my ass up out of the morgue
used to love you, used to trust you but i cant anymore
the feeling now's not the same as before
but ill always love you, you're my dearest, la fleur

a letter titled "where i've been"
came in today
it says you moved on and you're happy
and you hope i do the same

is that what you tell yourself
when no ones left around?
im making a choice, im ending it here
the flower will die, but i can't interfere

so can you tell me wheres the loves at?
fuck that, i dont even wanna feel anymore 
and she like why you never call back 
i been busy tryna find my way up back from the floor 
i been busy tryna keep my ass up out of the morgue
used to love you, used to trust you but i cant anymore
the feeling now's not the same as before
but ill always love you, you're my dearest, la fleur

la fleur (hallow + jane remover)

minnesota is a place that exists

dominican fike

mastered by yaki

(will rhead ydkm evan sasha cybertrash)

hang tight w/ vaeo

prod by 
@fortuneswan
@thefthproject
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i don have much to say 
im vv nervous
big thank to every1 for da support <3
lyrics:
yeah u look so pretty in dat dress 
but i'd look better 
gave u everything i ever had
even my sweater 
mood is always shitty 
like north carolina weather
u say dat u better than my ex
but have you met her?

so

there's this girl named astrid
never knows what's happening
she does whatever all her friends 
wanna do that's without asking
i really don't wanna grow up to be alone
in a mansion
n her friends don't really like her
omg i can't imagine

there's this girl named astrid
never knows what's happening
she does whatever all her friends 
wanna do that's without asking
i really don't wanna grow up to be alone
in a mansion
n her friends don't really like her
omg i can't imagine

tell me "do u reminisce about me or the past"
i was stuck inside my head
should b stuck inside my bag
n u saying all this shit abt
call me this n that
n everything that works for me 
never seems to last

oh
my 
goodness gracious
i've never been good at 
all the cheap flirtations
i feel like a puppet 
controlled animations
i've never been good at
holding conversations

there's this girl named astrid
never knows what's happening
she does whatever all her friends 
wanna do that's without asking
i really don't wanna grow up to be alone
in a mansion
n her friends don't really like her
omg i can't imagine

cypress grove

astrid

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wow i have been so behind and my lifes been falling apart
i love you all thank you so much for the constant support this truly keeps me going and gives me a reason to wake up everyday. its sum different but i hope u all like it.