i wanna slam my head against the wall

all dogs go to heaven

back n forth

video here https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Tb8xCct8NZI
one song 2 end an amazing year with twinnem 
@midwxst
@billsburyjoeboi
mixed by slappy
lyrics
[pre-hook]
im not the same kid that i once was
when you met me
its a lot of offers on the plate right now
and its tempting
i can act like i never saw the texts that 
you sent me
or we could skip to the part when
you're in my room undressing

[hook]
baby just tell me what you wanna do 
we could slide back to the pad 
you can stop playing mad 
and your friend and you come thru
i was never mad in the first place
and im better than your ex on my worst day
ima be in LA on thursday
i said, baby just tell me what you wanna do
i aint never been for none of that he said she said shit
man just come thru
now theres way too much in my cup
and i cant stand up
but i couldnt give one less fuck

[verse: midwst]
a lot of things in front of me this shit's getting tempting
you saw where i was at and now you're seeking redemption
cause all of a sudden you fuck with me, up in my mentions
all this shit don't add up no it don't even make sense
you cut me deep, you left me there to sit and wait
blocked your number, blocked your texts
don't care what you are sending me
hoping that im stuck up in your head and in your memories
so that you can not forget my pain and all my misery

[hook]

come thru

come thru w/ midwxst (billsburyjoeboi)

sad4whattt

sad4whattt (From "Euphoria" An HBO Original Series)

https://li.sten.to/lotus
ig: ripavah

welcome to my life
lyrics:
Lotus, I've been getting better let me show ya
Smash an empty bottle to the dome
I've been feeling like I've grown up
Better than ever cause I'm about to blow up

I've been in my feelings lately but I hate that shit
My situation yeah its dire but I played that shit
I've been feeling like I'm crazy on a tightrope
Reminiscing things that I'll achieve my rivals cant though

I'll say fuck her, sell out shows so she knows she's wrong
Make a million off a sound so I made this song
Yeah I know my fans are coming yeah its been so long
Manifest about the future cause I stayed so strong

Lotus, you know it
I've been on a tangent for a year but I ain't ever fucking show it
I just know my fame is close but I think I've been on the wrong path
Happiness and Adderall, the two things we should all have

You ain't shit yeah you a bitch
I'ma make a jump right to the top then i'ma clinch
Shitty ass artists sign to labels then they're gifted
Imagine what would happen if my music got the same thing

Fuck the poppin sound, and fuck to who's around
I'ma make a wave of other artists with my sound
I wont fix my problems if I don't aim for the ceiling
blacked out drunk, that's a shitty fucking feeling

Fuck you to the past, I'm glad it didn't last
I'ma speed to number one or I'll just fucking crash
I'm glad I'm fucking back just for a while I've had a barrier
Sprouted like a lotus I'll just shout out to my haters

Lotus is strong, lotus is fire
Lotus is weak, lotus is crying
I've been drowning lately listen here's a happy ending
Feeling like a boss, and I'm looking like a real king

Red eyes, feel low
So high, so low
Might cry, oh no
Lotus, blossom

I ain't succeed in a minute
Love this life forever bitch you know I'm not quitting
Avah feels on fire bitch you know that I am winning
Take over my life I wasn't happy where I'm headed, oh shit

I've been in my feelings lately but I hate that shit
My situation yeah its dire but I played that shit
I've been feeling like I'm crazy on a tightrope
Reminiscing things that I'll achieve my rivals cant though

I'll say fuck her, sell out shows so she knows she's wrong
Make a million off a sound so I made this song
Yeah I know my fans are coming yeah its been so long
Manifest about the future cause I stayed so strong

avah

lotus

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lotus (dercept x ayoley)

things with wings

primadonna

prod slicky

@oldcollin

luv u niz

https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/oldcollin/instigate
https://open.spotify.com/track/75TBDR2qvO0UOR8TNCa3ej?si=c0801757b7d74861/

picture taken by @luckiwitch on instagram

instigate (p slicky)

no pienso cambiar mi vida

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LEenwFT8JJs&feature=youtu.be
here is da vid
notes:// ୧(⇀‸↼‶)૭
i was actually not even angry i was just upset lol
i have no clue what to make the cover art
so i made it my fav orangutan
thx for 10k on spotify n almost 4k on here love love :)

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pissed

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