happy 3rd birthday decks & 19th to me B)
new summer ending pop punk with @ejcarrmusic & @evancarus
prod. polar & iof :)
hope u enjoyyy <333

lyrics:
(evan carus)
home again
feels like i’m right back where i started
i’ve walked down this road before, but it’s like my path is still uncharted

ways parted, bridges burned
heart guarded, lesson learned
worst nightmares, reaffirmed
past the point of no return

(decks)
im scared and reliant
im forced into place
their acts are defiant,
why have we all been replaced

(evan carus & decks)
grains of sand slipping away
we walk in darkness, lose the path
hand in hand we’re lead astray
time falls from our hourglass

i’ve been losing everyone
fell asleep and summer’s gone now
im lost and time is slipping away

(evan carr)
can we take a second to slow it down
before we burn this to the ground
these grains of sands are falling out and it’s over
this happens every time it’s just such a fatal flaw
can’t focus on one thing when i can feel it coming up
same thing new year
i’m stuck in fear
there’s nothing here

(evan carus & decks)
grains of sand slipping away
we walk in darkness, lose the path
hand in hand we’re lead astray
time falls from our hourglass

i’ve been losing everyone
fell asleep and summer’s gone now
im lost and time is slipping away

(all)
just tell me when you go (tell me when you go)
or promise me you’ll stay (promise me you’ll stay)
i’ve been losing everyone
(just tell me when you go)
fell asleep and summer’s gone but
(or promise me you’ll…)
no matter what i promise to stayyy

(evan carus & decks)
grains of sand slipping away
we walk in darkness, lose the path
hand in hand we’re lead astray
time falls from our hourglass

i’ve been losing everyone
fell asleep and summer’s gone now
im lost and time is slipping away

hourglass (feat. evan carr & evan carus) [polar x iof]

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Millionaire

Millionaire (feat. kennedyxoxo)

produced by heylog

lyrics:
can't u ever be nice
you don't have to think twice
in the moment each time that i run away
in the end it's your fault
really gave you my all
u don't have to be a problem toward me anyway

there's much more to life than going out
spend saturday night dead on the ground
𝘱𝘢𝘴𝘴𝘦𝘥 𝘰𝘶𝘵
I HIGHLY DOUBT YOUR FATHER'S EVEN PROUD
JUST ANOTHER WHORE FOLLOWING THE CROWD
broken glass, the bottles enticing
she told me her sign is a pisces
𝘸𝘩𝘢𝘵?
do i look like someone who even cares
𝘯𝘰 𝘨𝘰𝘥
you and i would never pair
already off on the wrong path
ur such an idiot, hope you know that
i used to find you cute but now ur trash
you can change but na you can't change ur past
text me, on your end it's open
but you don't know it
you don't know i ghosted
for once, take accountability
always excuses, please
you are disgust to me
there’s much more to life than blacking out
spend almost every weekend on the ground
i smell the alcohol stench in ur mouth
there ain’t a single to be proud of

can't u ever be nice
you don't have to think twice
in the moment each time that i run away
in the end it's your fault
really gave you my all
u don't have to be a problem toward me anyway
𝘳𝘶𝘯 𝘢𝘸𝘢𝘺
𝘨𝘦𝘵 𝘢𝘸𝘢𝘺 𝘧𝘳𝘰𝘮 𝘮𝘦
𝘥𝘪𝘴𝘨𝘶𝘴𝘵 𝘵𝘰 𝘮𝘦

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trash

You should kill me, kill me, kill me
Not the real me, real me, real me
I don’t see him
Breathing, breathing
You don’t need him, need him, need him oh
And I always think about you when im sitting in the dark
Swear I feel your breath putting pressure on my arm
But what the fuck do I know
Im sat here waiting for some truth to be told

Better, know you could be wetter
Pussy so bad he pulled a weapon
My love I don’t know what you’re selling
Too bad im bought in descension

Oh god I don’t know what to get
Two minds im not losing again
What the fuck you think you’re doing in bed
I look away and now you’re fucking again

bought in descension 

This must be the end of everything that I know
Her nails are cutting marks into the back of my throat
No matter how much I clean it won’t go
Fuck you never call me your bro

You don’t give a fuck, you don’t give a fuck
I thought you had a question
Am I not good enough?
Given up now, given up
I let my guard down
Ive had enough

youre moving backwards 
give me some time, 
gimme me some space to relax love
You don’t want that
Feeling pressure around my neck love
im going fast
Imma turn my car right 
just to call it a crash
I can see you going down 
but you didnt ask
You don’t wanna try 
bitch you never have
Ruining a life that you never had
let him knock you up just to get me back
Fucking tapped

Descension

Prod. Kado

I thought you knew me 
I thought that you knew I was fucked up 
I told you over and over 
All you would give me was tough love 
When I was going through my worst 
When I thought the only way out was a hearse 
Everyone thinks that I’m so down to earth 
But I know the power I hold in my words 
They’re always so negative 
I don’t want to be negative 
I  want you to know that you’re relevant 
That you matter and you’ll get ahead of it
That you can get past the impediment 
That you’re made of more than just sediment 
I know it’s rough with your parents 
But You got a chance of repairing it
I thought you knew me 
You acted like you could see through me 
I couldn’t believe you would actually choose me 
I didn’t feel right for a month 
You asked me to put up a front 
Like why are you keeping this secret 
Who are you hiding me from 
I’ll do whatever you want 
I know it’s never enough 
I was up wishing for death again
Mom gets upset when I bring that shit up
This isn’t fair to me 
It’s fucking embarrassing
Ask where you were and you lied 
I couldn’t do this to you if I tried 

I don’t want to be negative

I thought you knew Me 
You honestly felt so familiar 
Like we’d met each other before 
In a dream that I couldn’t remember 
What am I fighting this for 
What am I really afraid of 
I’ll never give up on myself 
Some of us didn’t forget where we came from 
I thought you knew me 
I’m not a fan of Commitment 
You say it’s you or the music 
Gotta take care of my business  
And my feelings are valid 
Even if you’re not about it 
I finally know what I’m worth 
Try to talk down on me I won’t allow it 
I don’t want to be negative 
I want to tell you that you’re not defined by your past 
People will notice you giving your max
Soon you’ll feel better the pressure will pass
You’re up to the task I promise 
I know that you’re giving the effort 
You’re going above and beyond
Stressing about it till it makes you Chest hurt 
Everyone’s searching for peace 
We cope with unhealthy release 
I hope I’m helping you see that
All that you need is yourself and belief 
But My life is imperative 
And I have to to take care of it 
asked who you were and you lied 
I couldn’t do this to you if I tried 

I don’t want to be negative

Negative

pillow pit

reflection feat. lovesickxo prod. leoalxs & t3rps

I don’t think I’ll be able to thug this one out :/

When I think of you
I can't help but stare
at the moon
cause I like to think
that 
you're 
staring at it too
cause 
then
maybe we aren't 
so
apart
my god what's wrong with me ?
It's the bpd
getting me
But
I'm
so
severely under medicated
oh please
just
make
it 
stop
Cause I'm so damn scared now
I'll blow my fucking brains out
But would you even care now ?
or would you stop and stare
But I'm the one to blame now
I'm the one to blame
Tell you that I want you
You tell me I'm insane
Maybe It's the way
It's wrapped inside my brain
It never makes sense now
I know I was a let down
But did you forget me?
cause
I can't ever replace you
All the things you said
was
it true
Tell me was it true
Tell me was it true
Tell me was it true
Tell me was it true
Tell me was it true…

reflection feat. lovesickxo prod. leoalxs & t3rps

hawkie @1hawkiee

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