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only if i did things right demo

computer shy (xo_willow + nxp cover)

used to wanna live
but i wana die
i wna criey
i wma cry
i wma cry so bad
iw na dye si bad

now i wna die
x2
makes me wonder
whyyyyyyyyoooooo

used to wna die so bad
wna cry so bad
used to wna take my life so bad
now i wna die
x2

oooooooo

*solo*

somestimes i jst breakdown and close my eyes
sometimes i jst kaydown and fucking cry
sometimes i canr mamaange the brain my mind

somtimes i jst wna
fuckin die
x3


sometimes i just wna fuckin die

please don’t drag it on
why can’t you see my jeans drag
can’t you see my hairs black
you look sad alone
Come be sad with me
sharing razors when we bleed out

you make me feel like nothing
i swear that means something

every time you feel loved 
i will destroy you with my spite 

with your fingerless gloves
baggy jeans 19 enough

Sharing Razors

isolation_consumes_me

https://soundcloud.com/1heelflip

staying up all night in my room 
i don’t get out much because i don’t want to
everyone fucking sucks except you 
i don’t wanna live unless you want me to 
but do you care about me like i care about you?
i’d let you watch me bleed if you asked me to 
all i could ever want is to talk to you
but i’m in the techclub hoping i see you soon 

cause i think that you’re so fucking cool 
i don’t know what i’ll do when we go back to school 

you’re all that i want and you’re all that i need
when i’m wide awake or when i’m going to sleep 
guess i’m just destined to hurt and see shit through  
i’m in the tech club thinking of you 
destined to hurt
destined to bleed 
destined to break is my destiny 
i’m breaking down and falling at the seam
whether i’m wide awake or when i’m going to sleep 
i feel i’m too far gone to see my hopes and dreams 
i wanna fucking scream 

cause i think that you’re so fucking cool 
i don’t know what i’ll do when we go back to school 
and i’m really hurt 
you’re hurting me
yeah you’re in my head 
yeah you’re hurting me

bleeding out in front of you (ft. heelflip)

waiting on this life to pass me by
without you here id rather die
im not having fun
but im not mad
i just fucked up all i could ever have

so ill write songs about how drinkings
the only thing that’ll stop me from thinking
how I need you, I need you bad
then i wouldnt be so fucking sad

i know im a loser, but could you still love me?
i know im an asshole i hope that you’ll still like me
i know im a faggot but please dont leave me baby
i know im a loser, but could you still love me 

i cant sleep
i cant eat
i lay awake with you next to me
got nothing to say 
nothing i wanna do 
nothing left for me to impress you

everyones the same
everythings a blur
i try to break out but i just get fucking hurt
i dont wanna live
i dont wanna work
just wanna be with you under the dirt

loser

TechClub Comp Vol. 2 
4/20/24

Can't escape my mind
I just can't feel alright
People really kill my night
It's like this all the time
Fear is seeping 
Sweat is dripping 
My heart is beating 
Cannot be myself 
I've been weeping
Need to sleep in, why
can't i have no fun

Can't have no fun
I haven't seen the sun
And my fear has won
I really fucked myself 
Just wanted to go out with you
I know you can't understand my view 
But I swear I'll go next time with you
But for now i think I'll stay low

I really wanna b w u
I really shouldn't make a noose
But these thoughts stick like glue
I fucking hated school
And i wish i could go back
Or have a heart attack
I need these thoughts to shut down
I fucking wish i knew how

Can't escape my mind
I just can't feel alright
People really kill my night
It's like this all the time
Fear is seeping 
Sweat is dripping 
My heart is beating 
Cannot be myself 
I've been weeping
Need to sleep in, why
can't i have no fun

I really wanna b w u
I really shouldn't make a noose
But these thoughts stick like glue
I fucking hated school
And i wish i could go back
Or have a heart attack
I need these thoughts to shut down
I fucking wish i knew how

Why can't i feel alright 
Just get me out of sight
I'm so scared all the time
I fucking want to die

FEAR RIDDEN

[Verse]
I really loved her
She was really cool
I made her songs
And wrote her notes too

She doesn't love me
Anymore
After I poured my 
Love on the floor

[Chorus]
Wish she knew that I loved her
I'd go back to spoil her
Love's too hard, I tried and cried
Now I feel so dead inside

[Verse]
Was it cause I'm stupid?
Or why as it cause I'm dumb?
Why do I always feel
Like I done something wrong?

Unstable for her love
I don't know what I've done
To make her go away from me
Tried so hard she'll never see

[Chorus]
Wish she knew that I loved her
I'd go back to spoil her
Love's too hard, I tried and cried
Now I feel so dead inside

Unstable For Her Love

load my gun
I'm killing (("people"))
17 bullets 
in my mag
I have my sig p365
their pathetic lives I'll deprive

walking through the halls 
I shot my parents through their skulls
2 down 
and more to go
all this woe that I'll bestow
they thought the medicine would help
but It makes me want to shoot myself
ever since I had been expelled 
I'd planned on taking you all out
you can try to crawl away
just know I wont let you survive
your blood leads you into your grave
you have no choice but to comply

load my gun
I'm killing (("people"))
17 bullets 
in my mag
I have my sig p365
their pathetic lives I'll deprive

fuck you all 
now you see 
what its like
being me
the silence slowly killing me
the violence that I must achieve

you all ignore me
you pretend that I don't exist
I'll die with glory 
I'll kill all of you hedonists
maybe if you're lucky 
you'll be a shell of your former self
but you will not be forgetting
and someday you'll see me in hell

walking through the halls 
I shot my parents through their skulls
2 down 
and more to go
all this woe that I'll bestow
they thought the medicine would help
but It makes me want to shoot myself
ever since I had been expelled 
I'd planned on taking you all out

load my gun
I'm killing (("people"))
17 bullets 
in my mag
I have my sig p365
their pathetic lives I'll deprive

I'm too tired to keep going on
there's just one last thing that I want

I need one more kill
for my life to be fulfilled
put the metal to the roof of my mouth
I'll see some of you around

ohwhooooaahhhhoooo

Thursday at Thurston

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computer shy (xo_willow + nxp cover)

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