Modern Times (NEET Cover)

INCELLULAR MESSIAH (NOKILAM re-upload)

soundcloud shit

tfw no gf

can't go on this way
my mind is fucked up
i don't got a really good brain
can ya fix my head?
im so dead
im so gone
im so fucked up i'm not strong

baby look me in my eyes
tell me you're okay
i've been thinking 'bout you every night
thinking everyday
i've been thinking baby, maybe i
can't go on this way
i think that i will commit suicide
.12 gauge in my brain

take me out, baby take me out
take me out tonight
put the bullet right between my eyes
commit suicide
wanna die
wanna fucking die
wanna fucking die
wanna die
wanna fucking cry
wanna fucking cry

baby look me in my eyes
tell me you're okay
i've been thinking 'bout you every night
thinking everyday
i've been thinking baby, maybe i
can't go on this way
i think that i will commit suicide
.12 gauge in my brain

take me out, baby take me out
take me out tonight
put the bullet right between my eyes
commit suicide
wanna die
wanna fucking die
wanna fucking die
wanna cry
wanna fucking die
wanna fucking fry
wanna die
wanna fucking die
wanna fucking die
wanna die
wanna fucking die
commit suicide
wanna die
wanna fucking die
take this sorry life
wanna die
wanna fucking die
never thinking twice
wanna die
wanna fucking die
wanna die
wanna dieee
wanna die

.12 GAUGE IN MY BRAIN

original song finally 

lyrics

could be bpd
thats why im so mean
could be adhd 
i cant do anything
why bother with doctors
im self diagnosing
they already told me up on my phone screen
oh im autistic
let me sperg about my special interest
im going nonverbal
im ticking im stimming
all of my symptoms
they just seem to fit in
schizophrenia
self diagnosis
you cant blame me when im in psychosis
if i did something bad it wasnt me
it was my alter i have did
meet my system 
its hard to keep up
please believe me 
even with the slip ups
and a buzzfeed test
told me that im bipolar
you cant call me retarded
yeah its really immoral
and im neurodivergent
you are neurotypical
we want you to feel like we are divisible
if theres not something wrong with you
then theres something wrong with you
the quizzes and videos
they are all calling you

self diagnosis

#techclub

i'm such a fucked up loser, i am a self-abuser / i rly wna die, i rly wna die / someone take me out, i am begging / someone remove me, or i'll have to remove myself / take me out, take me out, tonight / remove me, make me out of sight / or i don't want to be alive / i'm such a piece of shit, i swear i'm not worth it / i rly wna die, i rly wna cry / someone take me out, i am asking / someone remove me, asking nicely / take me out, take me out, tonight / remove me, make me out of sight / cause i don't want / cause i don't want / cause i don't want / to be alive /

don't want to be alive

#techclub

it's irreverent
there's too much, inside my head
oooo 
there's nothing left x3 
oooo 
been subtotaled, been subtracted 
everybody looking for life's magic 
it's irreverent 
it ain't there 
keep looking and you're gonna pull out your hair 
there's nothing left x3 
oooo 
there's nothing left x3 
oooo 
there's nothing left, inside my head 
my mind caved in, all crushed out 
there's nothing left, inside my head 
my brains on the wall, blown out 
there's nothing left, inside my mind 
carve my shit down to the rind 
there's nothing left inside my head
i'd be better off, better off dead 
it's irreverent 
there's too much, inside my head 
there's nothing left x3 
oooo 
there's nothing left 
oooo 
well here it goes, life just runs into a pole 
and i'm just so fucked up 
man i don't got any hope 
and everything is ruined, i don't even have a voice 
see my life just isn't perfect, man  
i don't have a choice 
oooo oooo 

there's nothing left

check out my music video for i dont care at all (somewhere) on yt: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DOXRGDBfjUM&ab_channel=adew

3 more videos and spotify album with my soundcloud tracks in progress

Shut My Mouth

i'm running running to run away from you
i don't know don't know what i got to do
to get it, get it, get it through to you
that i'm running, running to run away from you
----------------------------------------------------
I'm calling-
To tell you-
That I just-
don't love you-
the way that-
i used to
i know that you still do
----------------------------------------------------
Believe me 
when i say 
that things really
did change

I woke up and saw you
and you were acting
so strange
-----------------------------------------------------
Now that i have gone away
you can have all the space
that you prayed for
that i paid for
is this i get blamed for?

now that it's all gone
is that you really want
i just want to carry on 
and I want you to move on
-----------------------------------------------------
i'm running running to run away from you
i don't know don't know what i got to do
to get it, get it, get it through to you
that i'm running, running to run away from you
-----------------------------------------------------
i'm calling-
To tell you-
That I just-
don't love you-
the way that-
i used to
i know that you still do
Believe me 
when i say 
that things really did change
I woke up and saw you
you were acting so strange
-----------------------------------------------------
i'm running running to run away from you
i don't know don't know what i got to do
to get it, get it, get it through to you
that i'm running, running to run away from you
-----------------------------------------------------

Running Away

entering increasingly extreme 
subcultures
wanna be accepted but im just
a stupid vulture

pray that youll forgive me for my sins 
comply with anyone who takes me in
and you wonder how my views are formed
but don’t help at all you dont try to warn 
me of how i left my world behind 
to get closer to my human side

entering increasingly extreme
subcultures
wanna be accepted but im just
a fucking poser

didnt choose to fall this far at all
just wanted a place i could call home
maybe this song is too on the nose
cant let the irls know cant be exposed 
my worst fear is being left behind 
is this my out
you decide

extremist

I've been hurt by the ones I've loved
With wounds that will never heal
I wonder as I watch the stars above
If it's a sin to feel
If love is really real

I see the darkness creeping in
And I let it take me in
Familiar just like a friend
It's a routine, it's a sin
It's a pain that never ends

I want you to share the pain with me
I want you to feel my misery
I want you to watch me bleed
Share the pain
Share the pain with me

I usually don't understand
The plight of the common man
They muck about like dogs in a trance
With snake eyes and left hands
More like a beast than a man

And I won't ever understand
The evils of a woman
They fuck around like pigs in heat
Like rabid dogs hungry for meat
Like dogs that need to be beat

I want you to share the pain with me
I want you to feel my misery
I want you to watch me bleed
Share the pain
Share the pain with me
I want you to share the pain with me
I want you to feel my misery
I want you to watch me bleed
Stab through my palms and laugh
Stab right into my back

I want you to share the pain with me
I want you to share the pain with me
I want you to share the pain with me
I want you to share the pain with me

I want you to share the pain with me
I want you to share the pain with me
I want you to share the pain with me
I want you to share the pain with me

don't want to be alive

︎heelflip