always mad (so fucked up) (in the back of the class)

Another wasted day in paradise
I don't know how to live my life
They tell me to be patient
But all my chances seem so vacant
Don't know if these words mean anything
God damn I sound like I'm still fourteen
I guess it's time for me to give it all up

What a fucking waste of time this is
I got no style I got no rizz 
I can’t believe I thought that I 
Could be worth something before I died
At best I’m just derivative 
Cause I never took initiative 
It’s time to throw it all into the shredder
Cause it doesn’t get better.

Day in day out it’s all the same
Wish I didn’t have to sound so lame
But I know there’s nothing more than this
Never ending constant swing and miss
What’s so wrong in knowing when to quit 
Giving up and not giving a shit
I think it’s time for this to come to an end

It Doesn't Get Better

bonus acoustic mv!: http://gg.gg/expressitall
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remastered version of 'express it all for you' off of my soon to be released EP of the same name, which will be releasing within this upcoming 2024. featuring three tracks.
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i can see you got a lot on your mind
but you're still in my brain
18 years was long enough
to be going on this way
when i taped my windows shut
i knew i'd gone insane
but i let things get so bad
it all made so much sense to me
you made things so bad too
should i express it all for you?

19 years passed by quick
there's alot inside my brain
this might've been long enough
it hurts to go on this way
when i taped my windows shut
could you tell i was insane?
you let things get so bad
that makes so much sense to me
cuz you made it so easy to
express it all for you


20 years have passed in a flash
do you even remember
the little boy i used to be
mom do you remember me?
when i taped my windows shut
it wasn't much to me
things hurt so bad all the time
and that makes so much sense to me
it's gonna be so easy to
express it all for you


express it all for you (mv)

ur in my space
please go away
i'll chase u down
with a gun in my hand

it's not the first time 
you've pushed my line
lucky for you it's not much time
'til we die

'til we die
'til we die
'til we die
'til we die
'til we die
'til we die
'til we die
'til we die

i'd be lying if i said
"i wanna be alive rn"
i wanna die
i said i'd be lying if i said
"i wanna be alive rn"
i wanna die

'til we die

TechClub Comp Vol. 3
8/24/24

These boring ass nights 
Makes my chest feel tight
I'm wasting my prime
and I'm so far behind 
I remember those nights only filled w dread
Now i cut myself just to bleed on my bed 

It's hard to say
It all plays the same
Can't remember 
Turning out this way
I don't want your help
I'll just save myself 
Stuck in my chair
Burning time to play
A fluoride mind
Misguide by incels online 

So bored out my mind, it's like i don't have a life
Shitty ass games and a half baked mind
Can't even lie, I'm not having fun at all
Playing shitty songs and suicide in Fall 

I hate to say that I'm not doing alright 
These stupid emotions only waste my time
My head has a help wanted sign 
Fixing my life and i still wanna die
I'm not gonna try I'm just gonna cry 

My life's set back
My heart's turned black
Life never begun
I'm fukin done 
I started too late
I can't escape this fate 

Just take me back
My minds all wack
I'm filled w spite
Just get me right

SOFT LOCKED

Why am i not enough (fbf cover) (old version)

slowly deteriorating 
im gonna end it all
bed rot and slit my veins
i hope i see a change
slowly deteriorating 
im at my downfall
blow off  my sickly brain
i hope i do someday  

one day, ill do someday
 
somedays i always feel the same 
im Not Ok ill never change
and all this rage  it drives me insane 
ill run away and never show my face
ill fade away while im stuck 

slowly deteriorating 
im gonna end it all
bed rot and slit my veins
i hope i see a change
slowly deteriorating 
im at my downfall
blow off  my sickly brain
i hope i do someday  

slowly deteriorating 
i fucked my life up
ill never see the day
where i make a change
slowly deteriorating 
i fucked up everything 
blow off my fucking face
im gonna make a change  


slowly deteriorating

entering increasingly extreme 
subcultures
wanna be accepted but im just
a stupid vulture

pray that youll forgive me for my sins 
comply with anyone who takes me in
and you wonder how my views are formed
but don’t help at all you dont try to warn 
me of how i left my world behind 
to get closer to my human side

entering increasingly extreme
subcultures
wanna be accepted but im just
a fucking poser

didnt choose to fall this far at all
just wanted a place i could call home
maybe this song is too on the nose
cant let the irls know cant be exposed 
my worst fear is being left behind 
is this my out
you decide

express it all for you (mv)

︎heelflip